LLP-108 The Underground Model by Jean Sifton ... - OpenDrive
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life, and wondered sadly if she would ever meet anyone like him again.<br />
Looking briefly into Jennifer's frustrated eyes, Patricia could see that the girl felt she had been betrayed<br />
yet again.<br />
It's not really my fault, Patricia wanted desperately to tell her. Honestly, I couldn't help myself. I got so<br />
excited thinking about my love for Mark, that I let myself get lost in your love through the sheer misery of<br />
being alone.<br />
Patricia let her head fall back onto the pillow in weary resignation, the words of her thoughts left unsaid.<br />
A moment or two later she felt Jennifer ease her body out of contact with hers and lay silently <strong>by</strong> her<br />
side on the bed.<br />
Jennifer made a few more half-hearted attempts to arouse Patricia to her former hot passion, but with<br />
little success. Patricia found it almost impossible to respond to the other girl's pleading attempts now that<br />
she had been sobered with the thoughts of her own guilt. Self-recriminations persisted in tormenting her,<br />
echoing through her brain until Jennifer finally started to get up and dress herself.<br />
Patricia was inwardly relieved that the girl made no further attempts to force herself upon her, and<br />
listened to the sounds the girl made as she got into her clothes. Jennifer would be friendly enough to her<br />
later when her emotions had cooled off, for she was far too sophisticated and cynical to take such a<br />
disappointment seriously for more than a few minutes ... or was she?<br />
But that wasn't the point. It wasn't the point at all. Instead of getting through to the girl as she wanted to,<br />
Patricia had merely widened the gulf ... not only between her and Jennifer, but between Jennifer and<br />
anyone else who might try to get close to her.<br />
Patricia lay motionless as Jennifer finished dressing, unable and not wanting to move. Her legs were still<br />
spread wide, as Jennifer had left them, and her loins wet and raw from her long merciless fingers. Oh<br />
God, she had failed Jennifer when she had most needed the love and understanding that she had<br />
promised to give to her!<br />
She moved, pulling her limbs together experimentally to see if she could still control them. <strong>The</strong> pain and<br />
ache of her collapsed muscles shivered through her body, causing her legs to tremble spasmodically as<br />
she clasped them tightly closed, now, once more feeling deep embarrassment of her own nudity.<br />
But Jennifer barely glanced at her as she slipped the loose sweater over her head and quickly left the<br />
room. When the door clicked softly shut behind Jennifer, leaving Patricia now truly alone to her own<br />
thoughts, she let out a deep tormented moan, clenching her fists in frustration until the knuckles stood out<br />
white and tense.<br />
She could see her pitiful reflection in the dressing mirror across the room, showing the bruises and welts<br />
that now marked her smoothly tanned skin. Still sobbing softly, she reached up and hesitantly touched<br />
her breasts, feeling the dull throb from the marks surrounding her tender nipples, aching all the way<br />
through her chest as if to punish her for her rude failure with Jennifer.<br />
Patricia lay propped against the pillow, and stared back at her forlorn body in the mirror, suddenly<br />
understanding with all of her being the loneliness of incomplete love.<br />
"Oh God, I'm sorry Jennifer," she whispered to herself, "I'm so sorry ... and I pity you. Dear God, don't<br />
ever let me end up like her!"<br />
<strong>The</strong>n she buried her face in the deep, soft pillow and tried to loose herself in the blessed peacefulness of