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68 God’s Blue Book
November 10, 1993 Funeral at St. Lawrence
I Come First, Child
Before Mass
R.I was at church to play the organ at a family funeral. It was a
new organ for me and I had not yet practiced two songs. He told
me to come to Him and forget the music. I was ashamed that I
wanted to put the music before Him. He said, “When I call, you
come.”
Come to Me! Stop it, I tell you. Don’t run amok. I want to be
alone with you and you are to come and be with Me. I love you with
such intensity. Sit awhile with Me and let Me fill your soul. In this
silence your heart is at unrest. You are busy in silence. What a sad
heart! I am here and you are busy. I want you to put Me first, to put
aside your music. This is your time with Me. “Well,” you say, “Who
cares? The Lord calls me now. For You, Lord, I would drop everything
and come and run.” That is the love I bid you to share with
Me! My calling you, your responding without the slightest hesitation.
Do you know now what I want? I want your love committed to
Me first, last and always. When I call you, come, not in a little while,
but right away and bid My call! I can make the heavens fall from the
sky if I choose. Would you make Him Who has all the power wait
on you when He calls? I am calling you now to life with Me. I fill
your troubled soul and you see things from My perspective and not
your own. I have all the power. What do you have to worry for? I
can make it work or not work. I must be first. You must harken to
My call and surrender everything to Me. Surrender this work to Me
and let Me do it. Do you trust, child, or do you think you are in control?
I want your time now. You are telling Me that I am first. Do not
hold on to anything when I call. I come and you must come when I
beckon you. You have brought Me much joy because you came. I
love you so. I want so much to have time alone in front of the tabernacle
with you. You crave this time now but you tell yourself you
must be focused on something else.
I come first, child—first, last and always. Drop your cares and
run to Me when I call thee. Oh little one, make My heart happy with
you. Surrender totally to Me. Trust and let Me play the Mass. You
needn’t fret and fume. I am God and I dwell in you. You move about
but I operate you when you surrender. I want this surrender. Let go
of the last songs and see if I do them. Be with Me now, little one, in
My house, the house of your youth. Many memories are here for
you. Feel your past and come to Me and share your heart.
I love you. Oh, I love you. We are alone here. Come in
Communion with Me. Let all go and be with Me!