is there a place for heavenly mother in mormon theology?
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S U N S T O N E<br />
2004 Eugene England Memorial Personal Essay Contest, Third Place W<strong>in</strong>ner<br />
CRESTS<br />
By L<strong>is</strong>a Torcasso Down<strong>in</strong>g<br />
AS ELENA’S DILAPIDATED COUPE RATTLED UP ANother<br />
<strong>in</strong>cl<strong>in</strong>e <strong>in</strong> the Texas hill country, she leaned <strong>for</strong>ward<br />
to “help” the car along. She began to feel annoyed<br />
at the beat of maracas across the radio. She was<br />
late—aga<strong>in</strong>. The daycare center began assess<strong>in</strong>g f<strong>in</strong>es <strong>in</strong> five<br />
m<strong>in</strong>utes, f<strong>in</strong>es she couldn’t possibly pay with her husband laid<br />
off. With the w<strong>in</strong>dow down and the steamy summer air<br />
rush<strong>in</strong>g past, Elena prayed to the Virg<strong>in</strong> to help her make it on<br />
time.<br />
A first-generation Mexican immigrant, Elena was liv<strong>in</strong>g the<br />
American dream with all its ups and downs. She and her husband,<br />
Vicente, were proud to have a mortgage with an<br />
American bank, to own two old automobiles, and to diaper<br />
little Edmund with d<strong>is</strong>posables purchased at the H.E.B. Every<br />
night, she picked little Edmund up from day care, buckled<br />
him <strong>in</strong>to a safety-seat, and drove him home where she gave<br />
him a cup of whole milk and rice and beans and had him l<strong>is</strong>ten<br />
to American T.V. shows so h<strong>is</strong> Engl<strong>is</strong>h would come right. On<br />
Sundays, she and Vicente sat with him <strong>in</strong> the Quiet Room<br />
watch<strong>in</strong>g Mass, then strolled him to the park where he would<br />
squeal on the slide. Elena could not compla<strong>in</strong>. And she tried<br />
not to worry. She trusted God with her life.<br />
And today, such trust was necessary, <strong>for</strong> on the other side of<br />
that <strong>in</strong>cl<strong>in</strong>e rose both a heavily burdened semi-truck and an<br />
impatient sixteen-year-old <strong>in</strong> h<strong>is</strong> “new” used hot rod. The<br />
teenager’s dec<strong>is</strong>ion to pass the truck mov<strong>in</strong>g uphill was likely<br />
made at the same time Elena turned off the radio. She saw the<br />
cab of the semi-truck r<strong>is</strong><strong>in</strong>g over the crest then heard the<br />
blar<strong>in</strong>g of its horn. Suddenly, the teenager’s car appeared, and,<br />
<strong>in</strong> the split second be<strong>for</strong>e it struck her head-on, she reg<strong>is</strong>tered<br />
the revulsion and terror on the boy’s face.<br />
LISA TORCASSO DOWNING <strong>is</strong> a homemaker and<br />
writer. She lives <strong>in</strong> Heath, Texas, with her husband Bret<br />
and their three children. Her daughter Rachel <strong>is</strong> now<br />
twelve years old and perfectly happy. She swims, plays<br />
soccer, tenn<strong>is</strong>, and golf, and can’t figure out what all the fuss <strong>is</strong><br />
about. L<strong>is</strong>a welcomes comments at: down<strong>in</strong>gl<strong>is</strong>@wmconnect.com<br />
I OFTEN THOUGHT OF Elena dur<strong>in</strong>g those months I lay<br />
<strong>in</strong> bed with my yet unborn daughter. I remembered the way<br />
Elena had loved to hold her boy, how she had never let the belief<br />
that he was God’s gift wander far from her m<strong>in</strong>d. As a firstgeneration<br />
Mormon, I, like her, was liv<strong>in</strong>g a dream, with all its<br />
highs and lows. I fostered the same love <strong>in</strong> my soul <strong>for</strong> my<br />
children as she did <strong>for</strong> hers, so it didn’t surpr<strong>is</strong>e me that<br />
thoughts of Elena frequently pierced my m<strong>in</strong>d as I lay <strong>there</strong><br />
day after day, protect<strong>in</strong>g my unborn child from my own body.<br />
Like Elena, I couldn’t see it com<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
ELENA DID NOT die. Though her steer<strong>in</strong>g wheel rammed<br />
aga<strong>in</strong>st her chest; though steel from the front of her car sliced<br />
backwards, crush<strong>in</strong>g her legs, Elena miraculously rema<strong>in</strong>ed<br />
conscious. The truck driver appeared quickly. “I’ll get you<br />
out,” he said, h<strong>is</strong> hands yank<strong>in</strong>g fruitlessly at the mangled<br />
steel. She watched as the teenage driver wobbled toward her;<br />
saw the horror on h<strong>is</strong> face as he looked through the debr<strong>is</strong> at<br />
her; and heard him cry out, “Oh, God, no!”<br />
She wanted to reassure the boy, tell him she was all right,<br />
not to worry, it doesn’t hurt. Instead she groaned and fretted<br />
over who would pick up Edmund, wondered at the unnatural<br />
tw<strong>is</strong>t of her left arm. She rolled her head left and noticed a th<strong>in</strong><br />
flap of sk<strong>in</strong> was all that connected her arm to her shoulder.<br />
There’s little blood, she thought. That’s a good sign. They would<br />
be mad at the daycare center.<br />
Suddenly, people, everywhere, such an embarrass<strong>in</strong>g fuss.<br />
She thought of the traffic she was stopp<strong>in</strong>g. Sirens, lights, paramedics.<br />
. . .<br />
“Elena?” shouted the medic. She gazed at him. She knew<br />
him from Our Lady. She had to tell him to get Vicente to pick<br />
up Edmund.<br />
“Don’t move,” he said, “We’ll take care of you.” He dropped<br />
h<strong>is</strong> blood pressure cuff, realiz<strong>in</strong>g he could only reach her severed<br />
arm. “How old <strong>is</strong> Edmund now?” H<strong>is</strong> eyes scanned her<br />
body and the wreck, <strong>in</strong>term<strong>in</strong>gled. “I bet he’s talk<strong>in</strong>g up a<br />
storm.” He wiped her <strong>for</strong>ehead and cont<strong>in</strong>ued speak<strong>in</strong>g to her<br />
as though they were <strong>in</strong> the foyer after Mass. “Stay with me,<br />
Elena. So, you seen that new movie . . .?” Her gaze blurred.<br />
“Maybe you and Vicente and me and Andrea can go together.”<br />
Tell Vicente and Edmund I love them.<br />
IT WAS OUR bedtime ritual. Though it was far from romantic,<br />
it was lov<strong>in</strong>g the way my husband would slip the cuff<br />
on my arm. I’d wait, feel the thump, thump, thump of my<br />
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