An Authentic Life v 1.2 - Universalist Radha-Krishnaism

out, so we should march to the sea and chant for the
incarnation of the Maitreya Buddha who promised to
liberate all people. However, most of the people there
had a "Well, now the party's over, let's go home" attitude.
I saw that LSD wasn't the way to spiritual
liberation--coming down one more time. I lay in the
woods just to the east of the soccer field in San Francisco’s
Golden Gate Park, crying and being comforted
by my lover, Carolyn. As I came down, I realized after
almost two years of taking LSD religiously that it
would not bring me the desired eternal liberation I
sought. I felt utterly devastated.
I hated coming down. LSD and the Human Be-in
weren't just a fun drug experience for me. They were
a means to spiritual liberation--release from the sufferings
of this material existence. The goal was to
merge with the white light and not return. Void out--
lose all sense of individuality and egotism. Become
one with the divine. I went to the Human Be-in with
high expectations of attaining this goal, but they were
crushed.
I believed in God and reincarnation. That was the
main thing keeping Carolyn and I from taking a very
large dose of acid and jumping off the Golden Gate
Bridge together and leaving this material existence.
We didn't think it was that easy to escape. It was like
cheating on a test or copping out of what we were
here to do.
While sex, drugs, and rock’n’roll were great, they
just weren't enough. Our spirits longed for more. We
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