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s t e p u p . s ta n d o u t. 3 5<br />

Tyler Tenebarge continued<br />

listen—listen to a voice within me. This<br />

past summer, I realized what I needed to<br />

listen to.<br />

It was midway through a conference<br />

for state officers. Late one night, my<br />

teammate, Zach, and I were preparing<br />

for the next day. First, we had a meeting<br />

with our coach.<br />

I rushed down the hallway toward our<br />

meeting room. On the way, I saw Devin,<br />

one of the state officers, sitting in a corner.<br />

I noticed he was silent with his head<br />

in his hands. No one else was around. I<br />

felt like I should try to comfort him.<br />

I had a seat beside Devin, and he<br />

began to cry. Because he couldn’t even<br />

muster up the voice to speak, he pulled<br />

out his cell phone and began texting<br />

what he wanted to say. He showed me<br />

his phone, and it said, “I don’t know what<br />

to do. I don’t want to go back to my<br />

job—I can’t…”<br />

Devin has a passion for horses, and he<br />

plans to become a veterinarian. He has to<br />

balance his time between working with<br />

horses at the rodeo, school and serving<br />

as a state officer. Those he works for<br />

though don’t understand how state office<br />

will undoubtedly benefit his future. The<br />

voices of those he works with are holding<br />

him back. They don’t always see eye-toeye,<br />

and they are really hard on Devin. He<br />

began to question what he was meant to<br />

become.<br />

Listen.<br />

Turn off the world.<br />

What do you hear?<br />

As he talked even more, I thought,<br />

‘He needs answers. He needs my advice.<br />

Wait—if it’s people that are making him<br />

question, does he really need to add my<br />

voice as well?’<br />

Just like Devin, we all have moments<br />

that make us question who we are meant<br />

to become. When we are most frustrated<br />

and challenged, we don’t need voices<br />

surrounding us. We need something<br />

only we can hear. Call it your gut feeling,<br />

maybe it’s your heart, call it your conscience,<br />

call it God; no matter what you<br />

call it, a voice within you speaks. Listen<br />

to it. Like Devin, in difficult times, we<br />

Listen to gain insight on what you<br />

are meant to become.<br />

must trust ourselves and listen.<br />

We search for insight on what we<br />

are meant to become. We listen to our<br />

parents, teachers, friends, television, the<br />

news, music, the “cool” kids at school<br />

and society as a whole. Voices surround<br />

us and make us question. We try to<br />

trust ourselves, yet we forget the most<br />

important voice of all. So, get away from<br />

it. Turn off the TV. Walk away from the<br />

crowd. Close your eyes to pray. When we<br />

get to where we can’t hear anything at<br />

all…<br />

…that’s when we hear the voice inside<br />

each of us.<br />

Listen. Turn off the world. What do<br />

you hear? Listen to gain insight on what<br />

you are meant to become.<br />

Devin and I finished up our<br />

conversation over an hour later. Zach<br />

and I had our meeting, and I headed to<br />

the bed. I thought, ‘Since third grade I<br />

have been trying to figure out what I’m<br />

meant to become. Devin is getting there<br />

because he listens to an inner voice.’<br />

There have been times where I have<br />

had that same voice speaking to me, like<br />

that day with Gary. Something happened<br />

that day. Something was trying to get my<br />

attention, and I ignored it. Every time I<br />

think back to that day, I know I was being<br />

told something. Ever since then I have<br />

been trying to figure out what it was.<br />

As I’ve learned to trust myself and<br />

listen, it’s helped me evaluate what was<br />

going on in that moment. And now I<br />

know I was being told very clearly what<br />

I am meant to become. I trust. I listen. I<br />

know.<br />

That day in third grade, I sat in my<br />

chair with utter confidence and conviction<br />

in who I would be. And today, I do<br />

the same. I have considered hundreds<br />

of careers. I opened myself up to be<br />

anything. I sought insight from so many.<br />

Now, I trust myself. Now, I listen. After<br />

I stood up in front of my friends that<br />

day as a third grader, I began to doubt.<br />

Today, I won’t.<br />

I am going to become a priest.<br />

Since third grade, I have known, but<br />

it has taken me this long to realize it…to<br />

admit it. I was asking and looking, thinking<br />

and praying. I just wanted insight<br />

so I could find out what I was meant to<br />

become. When I started to trust and<br />

listen, I didn’t need insight. What I was<br />

meant to become was in sight. It was<br />

right in front of me.<br />

What about you? What is in sight?<br />

Maybe you know. Maybe you’re searching.<br />

No matter where you are, trust<br />

yourself. Listen to the voice within you,<br />

and you’ll know. Trust and listen. Find<br />

who you are supposed to be. Friends, it<br />

is right here, in this moment. Who you<br />

are meant to become is in sight.

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