Apple Dipped in Honey: For a Sweet New Year! - Jews in Green
Apple Dipped in Honey: For a Sweet New Year! - Jews in Green
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NATIONALLiberator.IDanc<strong>in</strong>g With the TorahBy Jay Litv<strong>in</strong>I was first called for an aliyah tothe Torah at the age of thirty-six. I was<strong>in</strong> a Chabad house <strong>in</strong> Milwaukee,Wiscons<strong>in</strong> and a stranger to the groupof regulars fill<strong>in</strong>g the room, save forRabbi Yosef Samuels, who had <strong>in</strong>vitedme. It was a short walk from my seatto the read<strong>in</strong>g table. But <strong>in</strong> that briefperiod of time I became very anxiousabout what would be expected of me.I recalled the synagogue that Iattended <strong>in</strong>frequently as a boy, wherethe Ark stood <strong>in</strong> front of a large, sterileroom, and only the richest, most<strong>in</strong>fluential members were called torecite the bless<strong>in</strong>gs before the Torah.In my boyhood, Judaism was veryformal and distant, surrounded byceremony void to me of mean<strong>in</strong>g orsubstance. The Torah <strong>in</strong> thesynagogue of my youth was a th<strong>in</strong>gremoved, without relevance to my andto my family's daily life. Never before,<strong>in</strong> my 36 years of life, had I seen the<strong>in</strong>side of a Torah scroll.I was not expect<strong>in</strong>g to be called tothe Torah this Shabbat morn<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong>Milwaukee's Chabad House. Ihesitat<strong>in</strong>gly approached the group ofmen surround<strong>in</strong>g the read<strong>in</strong>g table. Icould see only their backs draped <strong>in</strong>white tallitot (prayer shawls). Iexpected grim, serious faces to bepeer<strong>in</strong>g out from beneath the whitecloth pulled up over theirforeheads. But when Iapproached the Torah, theyturned to greet me with warmsmiles. One of them, a personwith whom I had briefly spokenbefore the prayers began, gaveme a gentle nudge of greet<strong>in</strong>gwith his shoulder. The otherswere chatt<strong>in</strong>g while the readerfound the place to beg<strong>in</strong>. I wastold to touch the Torah with mytallit and and then br<strong>in</strong>g the cloth tomy lips and kiss the spot that hadtouched the parchment and letters. Istumbled through the Englishtransliteration of the bless<strong>in</strong>gs, andthen stood nervously while the Torahwas read. I recited the secondbless<strong>in</strong>g and was gently moved to theside of the read<strong>in</strong>g table while a mishebeirach was said <strong>in</strong> my honor. Theman I had met briefly put his armaround me while this was happen<strong>in</strong>gand joked with me a bit while we stoodwait<strong>in</strong>g for the next read<strong>in</strong>g to beg<strong>in</strong>.There was an atmosphere of<strong>in</strong>formality and <strong>in</strong>timacy with theTorah that astonished me."The Torah is no stranger," RabbiSamuels expla<strong>in</strong>ed. "We live with itevery day."In the follow<strong>in</strong>g months and years,I learned just how <strong>in</strong>timate the Torahcould become, both <strong>in</strong> the lives of theLubavitchers I came to know so well,and <strong>in</strong> my own life. I went throughseveral Jewish yearly cycles,experienc<strong>in</strong>g times of awe andveneration for the Torah, and times offamiliarity border<strong>in</strong>g on irreverence.To drunkenly hug and dance with theholy scrolls on Simchat Torah! Whocould have ever imag<strong>in</strong>ed!But just as I was to become<strong>in</strong>timate with the Torah, so it was tobecome <strong>in</strong>timate with me. As I beganto study, I discovered the Torah'srelevance <strong>in</strong> every area of my life. Asits deeper mean<strong>in</strong>gs were laid open tome through the study of Chassidicteach<strong>in</strong>g, I found that I could turn tothe Torah for guidance <strong>in</strong> everycircumstance. Regardless of mymood or frame of m<strong>in</strong>d, I couldapproach the Torah and f<strong>in</strong>d it wait<strong>in</strong>gfor me. Even <strong>in</strong> times of anger orrebellion, the Torah showedforgiveness and guidance. In times ofsadness and depression, I would f<strong>in</strong>dhope and encouragement. In times ofjoy and celebration, I would f<strong>in</strong>d wordsof thanksgiv<strong>in</strong>g and praise for the Onewho provides all goodness. There wasnot an aspect of my life that the Torahdid not enter. Slowly it penetrated my<strong>in</strong>ner life, my career, my relationshipwith my children and parents, mymarriageWhen first <strong>in</strong>troduced to theTorah, I felt I was com<strong>in</strong>g to know adistant relative of whom I was awarebut had never before met; with thepass<strong>in</strong>g of years I began to feel thatmy learn<strong>in</strong>g and observance revealedthat the Torah had always existedwith<strong>in</strong> me. The Torah became deeplyembedded <strong>in</strong>to my life, part of theweave and warp of my be<strong>in</strong>g.Now, when I rushed forward <strong>in</strong> thesynagogue to kiss the Torah, it waswith much affection and familiarity.When on Simchat Torah I danced withthe holy scrolls, my <strong>in</strong>hibitions andemotions loosened from l'chaims, Iwould close my eyes and hug theTorah close, sp<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> circles,enjoy<strong>in</strong>g a physical <strong>in</strong>timacy with thesoft velvet cloth and the sacredwrit<strong>in</strong>gs it covered.Without los<strong>in</strong>g its place as myrevered teacher and guide, the Torahhad become my familiar companion.Today, I cont<strong>in</strong>ue to marvel that themost holy of G-d's creations allowsitself to be embraced by me.18VOL. XII NO. 1ELUL 5767-TISHREI 5768 / FALL 200718