SPIRITUAL - Xtreme Music
SPIRITUAL - Xtreme Music
SPIRITUAL - Xtreme Music
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keep. It’s between my heart, my soul, and the piano I play. Because<br />
I find the piano to be more of a place, rather than an inanimate<br />
object, my sitting on the bench and playing the piano fills me with<br />
the hope, understanding, fulfillment, love, and answers that others<br />
might find in churches, synagogues, mosques, or chapels. While<br />
others meditate, chant, breathe and practice yoga, I play music.<br />
There is no other time when I am more at peace. My time on the<br />
bench is when I commune with all that is greater than myself. It’s<br />
the only place I feel completely understood, free, and whole. And<br />
so I suppose you could say that the act of playing the piano is my<br />
own special spiritual practice.<br />
Of course no one can sustain high levels of spiritual<br />
connectedness all the time, and many of my hours at the piano are<br />
perfunctory and practical. However, the act of composing music is<br />
always a spiritual matter; it involves delving deep into my soul, my<br />
center, and expressing its essence in that moment. There have been<br />
times when I have felt for certain that the music I have composed<br />
had come from someplace else, that I was simply repeating or<br />
reflecting a divine idea from outside of myself. “A Song For Jennie”<br />
began this way.<br />
I was alone in my apartment stirring a big batch of soup. I was<br />
recovering from a case of walking pneumonia and feeling vulnerable,<br />
weak, small. It was dark afternoon and I began to daydream as I<br />
was stirring the soup. Thoughts of my grandmother came to mind.<br />
I was thinking that I should call her, that she was all alone in her<br />
Brooklyn apartment. Having been widowed fifty years before, she<br />
had never remarried and was always alone. Here I was feeling sorry<br />
for myself for being by myself for just a little while; I was in between<br />
roommates. The apartment was too quiet.<br />
My thoughts turned to my grandmother as a young woman,<br />
crossing the Atlantic and making her way to America. She had told<br />
tales of her crossing many times, and each time I learned something<br />
new about her voyage. During my daydream there was a musical<br />
soundtrack, and it consisted of twenty-one oddly placed notes in a<br />
strange rhythm, all in the middle section of the piano. Even after