NEXUS ISSUE 09 2014
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nexus magazine<br />
PHOTOGRAPH: ANDRE KONG<br />
EDITORIAL<br />
RACHAEL ELLIOTT<br />
—<br />
Winter is coming (or some other vague GOT reference). I<br />
have a love-hate relationship with winter, which tends heavily<br />
towards the hate. I hate getting up and driving home in<br />
the dark. I hate getting inside the doors at uni and having to peel myself<br />
down to a singlet, then lug my jackets and jerseys around with me all day<br />
because the heaters have turned all central lecture theatres into saunas. I<br />
hate getting rained on all the time. But most of all, I hate wearing shoes. So<br />
for me, it’s fitting that the Identity issue turns up as the weather gets cold.<br />
One night during my second year of university as I staggered along Hood<br />
Street, a girl I had never seen before came running up to me. She was taller<br />
than me (which anyone who has met me knows isn’t difficult) but other<br />
than that I don’t remember much about her. She rolled up, put her finger<br />
in my face and yelled “I know you, you’re that girl from uni with the long<br />
hair who never wears shoes!”<br />
As she headed away into the night I was confronted by the fact that<br />
people actually think they ‘know’ me because they recognise random<br />
aspects of my appearance. For many people, my whole personality has<br />
been reduced to body parts- the sum of who I am is “girl with long hair<br />
and bare feet”. I had to wonder why this girl, who I’d never seen before<br />
in my life, had recognised me out of over 12,000 students who attend<br />
the University of Waikato? And I realised- that ‘girl with the long hair and<br />
no shoes’ is part of my identity, and for many people, the only part of my<br />
identity they’ll ever interact with. It is the version of myself that people<br />
recognise. People don’t see me as anything other than a barefoot hippie.<br />
I mean, I get it, I am a bit of a barefoot hippie. It’s not the sum total<br />
of my personality, but I’d rather they thought that any number of other<br />
snap judgements people make about strangers (by the way, Douche Girl<br />
on Thursday, I DID hear you say to your friend “Look at her, so ugly” as I<br />
walked past, which I presume was your intention. Do us all a favour, go lick<br />
your own armpit and die in a fire). So I embrace my barefoot hippie status.<br />
But do you know how hard it is to be a barefoot hippie during winter?<br />
I love walking barefoot, always have done, it’s part of who I am. I think<br />
it’s a lost pleasure of our generation- to just stand on the earth and feel it<br />
between our toes. I’m also way too poor to buy shoes that actually fit my<br />
freakishly small feet. So I take it as a personal insult that winter is coming<br />
with its frosts and its chills and its other assorted bullshit to fuck with my<br />
sense of self. And worse- how will people recognise me if I wear shoes?<br />
I will last it out, keeping my feet naked for as long as I can and rest<br />
assured- even if I cave and put on a pair of boots, I will still be me, the<br />
proud barefoot hippie with long hair. She is not lost! She is just hiding in<br />
plain sight- in shoes.<br />
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