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experience with a tanning bed. I was terrified of going to my audition bright red, so I asked for <strong>the</strong><br />
lowest possible voltage. It wasn’t a drastic difference, but it did <strong>the</strong> job.<br />
As I pulled into <strong>the</strong> address I had been given, I spotted <strong>the</strong> tour bus immediately. It was so large<br />
that it stood out like a sore thumb in <strong>the</strong> hotel parking lot it was stationed in. When I arrived, I was<br />
ushered inside <strong>the</strong> hotel lobby with <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r “potential playmates” to fill out some paperwork before<br />
stepping onto <strong>the</strong> bus for <strong>the</strong> audition. Over my new metallic bikini, I wore a barely above-<strong>the</strong>-knee<br />
black “miniskirt” and a white button-down blouse in hopes of capturing that “girl next door” image<br />
photographers were apparently looking for. And, to be honest, it was also <strong>the</strong> sexiest outfit I owned.<br />
To tell <strong>the</strong> truth, I was a bundle of nerves; I had never modeled before, so <strong>the</strong> idea that I’d be<br />
posing practically nude was terrifying. But I figured that since editors were hoping to discover new<br />
talent, <strong>the</strong>y were expecting girls to be relatively inexperienced. On <strong>the</strong> bus, I envisioned a few stylists<br />
helping candidates with hair and makeup touch-ups and a distinguished photographer guiding <strong>the</strong><br />
amateur models into <strong>the</strong> most flattering poses. Don’t get me wrong, I knew it wasn’t a full-blown<br />
shoot, but I expected at least a little help. It was Playboy, after all.<br />
After a few minutes of waiting, I was escorted to <strong>the</strong> gigantic 45-foot-long tour bus with two<br />
o<strong>the</strong>r girls. We were made to wait in <strong>the</strong> ultra-lux “living room” area, which was wrapped in lea<strong>the</strong>r<br />
with a seven-foot movie screen in <strong>the</strong> back. I remember thinking that it was nicer than any home I’d<br />
ever been in. Framed portraits of Playboy’s most iconic covers hung on <strong>the</strong> walls that reached up to a<br />
mirrored glass ceiling. A man with a clipboard walked into <strong>the</strong> room and greeted us. He gave us a<br />
brief history of <strong>the</strong> magazine and <strong>the</strong>n asked that we go around <strong>the</strong> room and introduce ourselves and<br />
say why we were <strong>the</strong>re.<br />
One girl looked like a Pamela Anderson–inspired stripper with white poufy hair, a clingy<br />
silvery dress, and clear-plastic platform heels (and appeared to have brought her pimp with her). For<br />
a moment, I remember wondering if she was actually a female impersonator. There weren’t too many<br />
women like her running around Portland at <strong>the</strong> time and I was so distracted by her appearance that,<br />
for <strong>the</strong> life of me, I can’t recall a single thing she said.<br />
The o<strong>the</strong>r girl was pretty, but not too remarkable, and I’d guess about 10 years older than me.<br />
“I came to try out because I’ve always wanted to be a Playmate,” she gushed. The man with <strong>the</strong><br />
clipboard smiled and nodded, pretending not to have heard this response more than 20,000 times<br />
already. “And me and my best friend have a bet on who would become one first. I want to be Miss<br />
April.”<br />
Then it was my turn.<br />
“I’ve always dreamed of moving to Los Angeles and becoming an actress,” I explained, <strong>the</strong><br />
o<strong>the</strong>r two candidates glaring at me. “I love Marilyn Monroe and she was <strong>the</strong> first Playmate, so that’s<br />
why I want to be in Playboy.”<br />
For some reason, each of us believed we were total shoe-ins. I mean, I really thought I had a<br />
shot. Knowing what I know now, though, none of us ever stood a chance.<br />
After <strong>the</strong> meet-and-greet, each girl was called one by one into <strong>the</strong> onboard “photo studio.” When<br />
my name was called, I stood up and pressed <strong>the</strong> creases out of my skirt before making my way into <strong>the</strong><br />
room.