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- Page 19 and 20: It all felt very rushed. Besides th
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girls wanted to get caught on tape.
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I selected elegant Louis Vuitton le
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short-lived stepping-stone that wou
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“So, you can just quit packing up
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“Come in here, Puffin,” I said
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already been at the mansion for mor
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here smoking meth and it has this l
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Vicky. One of the girls said Vicky
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were vanishing before her very eyes
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Vicky off this time. “Fuck!” on
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CHAPTER 6 “I can’t explain myse
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say I found some things I would hav
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eturned to shoot an episode of Viva
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efore, often word for word. I think
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dream come true! “Do you think I
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Cyber Girl shoot. With a huge knot
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Mean Girls came in to present him w
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CHAPTER 7 Alice felt so desperate t
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that skinny could ever think she wa
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according to her story, they did. I
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“Oh, the ‘Sah-keh to Me’!”
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control game. I could never accuse
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made our way to the door. She must
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understood that if we chose to cont
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Playboy world. I was torn on whethe
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WHILE I KNEW THAT people were curio
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early days of Hef’s seven girlfri
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types were earning roughly $40,000
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not. HEF: Listen, I know how import
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I was hyperaware of the public perc
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Vegas where they were readying the
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Just then, Hef appeared next to me.
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upcoming season and I’d once agai
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the four of us sat quietly in the v
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shortly after, Playboy licensing ha
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thought it would be a great way to
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OUR FIFTH CYCLE WOULD end up being
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scoffed at the initial idea (to him
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printed on them. “I’ve never be
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starting to panic inside. Was this
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Shit, I thought. After hustling to
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who was packing up to travel the wo
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achelorette looking for her last hu
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comes to us, so I really can’t be
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“Okay,” I giggled, knowing the
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something you’d like to talk to m
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He assured me I could take my time
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emerge in the press about my relati
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By 2008, everyone had a smartphone
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eating at the finest restaurants an
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I kept in touch with the show’s p
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Criss’s explosive temper was beco
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has everything—or at least could
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excuse about Barbara being “over
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lowout that I didn’t even worry a
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know that I got in safe. “I DON
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didn’t want to be with Criss, but
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learn your routine, while every oth
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September, and November”), I was
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CHAPTER 14 “What do you know abou
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Was that a sneer on her face or is
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AS PART OF MY contract with Peepsho
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Monaco’s nightly performances. Sh
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industry bigwigs who were all there
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“Every season we get a Vegas pilo
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Occasionally, when I was on my comp
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Anxious to begin this Playboy-free
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girl seemed to resent having anythi
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CHAPTER 16 “I do hope it’s my d
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“DON’T YOU MISS THE maaaaaaansi
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during the day, I had held on to be
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the first time as incredibly pornog
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may as well have your voice in ther
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successful post-mansion life for my
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“I’m pretty competitive . . .
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something was off—and a trip to t
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on camera, it was also a great way
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PHOTO SECTION “AND WHAT IS THE US
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In Bunny costume. (Erik Kabik) With
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From left to right, Bridget, Playma
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Filming my favorite episode of The
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Modeling some of Marilyn Monroe’s
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Filming my birthday with (left to r
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My family. (Denise Truscello)
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR Holly Madison spen
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