Women of Light Magazine: Issue 02

It was seven years into our marriage when my
had our second child. I was devastated. The enemy
and no one else would ever want me...so I stayed
pretending like nothing happened. I was
determined to prove the enemy wrong all on
wholeheartedly.
My prayer I wrote on March 16, 2014:
I stayed once again, but this time I stepped out
God in His Word and in prayer. I would seek until
writings, my chickens, my garden, my children,
brokenness.
God is an on time God. He swung the doors wide
open. He told my neighbor to go across the street
providing.
and we moved across the street. Most would say I
was still holding onto my worth.
It was when we moved across the street the true
doing everything I could in my own power, but
nothing was working. Things were getting uglier
retreat I had no shame. I told the ladies it was hard
me. God was calling me to surrender.
still.” Exodus 14:14
he had hidden during our entire marriage...but
“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank
you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your
workmanship is marvelous--how well I know it.”
Psalm 139:13-14
broken heart...I chose you in your mother’s womb.
All to Thee my blessed Saviour – I surrender all.
Judson W. Van DeVenter
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