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I could not control myself, and my wife sensed
that there could be some spiritual disturbance.
She asked me to go to a church or see a Taoist
Sifu to seek for help. I chose the church.
MY
Transformed Life…
by Jeffrey Lim, PJN 2
Before knowing Jesus, I was a devout
follower of another religion. I always
thought Christianity was only for
rich people, and for obtaining business
connections. In 2015, I lost my job and
my income due to the oil price drop. I was
also deep in debt. People owed me money
but I could not collect the debt. I suffered
from depression and a serious case of acid
reflux causing me to spend a lot of time and
money on medication.
To me, losing my job felt like a surgeon
losing his hand. I began to be really worried
for my family’s future, feeling both helpless
and hopeless. There was no peace in my
heart. I had sleepless nights, no appetite,
was always in a bad mood and was
downcast. My wife, Mei Ling, and I were
not communicating well with each other.
I felt even more hurt and insecure when
she sought advice from her friends because
I did not want others to know about my
problem.
I went to see a psychiatrist, but he was
of little help. I kept changing medications,
to help me sleep better and to control my
mood swings. The medication was a strong
tranquiliser that caused me to be very
groggy. I could sleep for days at a time and
would constantly argue with my wife. In
order to manage my inner anger, I would
just keep very quiet. I would park my car
a distance away and walk back home. I felt
that I could not manage my family anymore
and had disappointed them. Our marital
relationship grew worse, and I wanted
to get a divorce.
One day, during a heated argument over
family matters, I lost control and slapped
Mei Ling. I felt it was not me and did not
know what came over me. In another
quarrel, in a fit of rage, I broke things
in the house. I shook her shoulders and
pushed her onto the sofa. Mei Ling and my
son were both terrified! They left me alone
in the house. I felt so alone, I wanted to end
my life. Feeling broken and sick, I needed
help, but I did not want people to know.
Then, once again in a fit of rage, I hit my
fist so hard against the wall that I fractured
it. I could not control myself, and my wife
sensed that there could be some spiritual
disturbance. She asked me to go to a
church or see a Taoist Sifu to seek for help.
I chose the church.
Our son had already started attending
Children’s Church here at DUMC. My wife
had also started attending church. I was
uncomfortable seeing my son sing worship
songs. I did not believe the words of the
songs. At times, I would ask my wife not
to go to church.
In October 2015, I accepted Jesus after
bumping into Pastor Moy How at the
church cafe. At first, I accepted Jesus
because I wanted to please my wife, but
something special happened during the
process of saying the sinner’s prayer. It was
noisy that day in the cafe, but I could only
hear the Pastor’s voice. I was sobbing with
tears which was not the usual me.
Not long after that, my family was assigned
to a cell group. Initially, I avoided going.
One day, I dreamt I needed to follow my
cell Leader, Adrian Chen, who heads the
Marriage Course, which we eventually
attended. I knew God was directing me.
At the same time, I joined the “To Be
A Better Dad” course, led by Fan Ngian
and Sian Li. I learned how to treat my son
better, and the importance of leaving
a strong legacy. I started to open my heart
to my cell group. Knowing that I was in
financial need, my cell group helped by
referring jobs to me. My family was in a
much happier and healthier state in this
loving environment. I love my cell group,
and we have received much love from
them. They are my ‘true’ family.
During a family trip, I encountered God
personally. Many miracles happened.
We walked closely with the Holy Spirit,
our prayers were answered and we learned
to be at peace. God is so good.
On returning home, I was healed of my
sickness and freed from taking medication.
Mei Ling and I were able to communicate
better. When I could not sleep, she would
pray for me and before she finished her
prayer, I would fall asleep like a baby.
We attended the Baptism and Membership
Encounter Weekend (BMEW) and arranged
for a home cleansing by Pastor Jin Leong.
I remember clearly on the morning I was
baptised, I felt a chain ‘break’ away, my
‘old-self died’ and I experienced such an
overwhelming peace. Consecutively for
three days, when I started my car, the
same lyrics, ‘Be humble and kind’ played
on a radio channel. God is with me even
in my car! Now, I am not easily angered
as I surrendered my all to God. In Him,
everything happens for a reason.
Today my life is completely changed
and transformed. I serve in the Children’s
Church and soon I will be going on my first
mission trip to Myanmar. Even when things
seemed difficult, we learned to fully trust
God. Jesus loves me. He loves all of you
too. Thank You Jesus!
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