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Delusions I was too cold. White air
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Room A creek ran on the edge of tow
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Questions Water dribbled through a
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Show Folks came through the door, t
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gathered in his fists and face. I s
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“I love you,” he said. Was this
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Spells in the Corner The music was
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Silence. We looked at Tad. He shrug
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The Mormons stumbled and turned. Th
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“I understand,” Tayla said. “
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PE I watched the game without watch
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He got off the couch and came to me
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Tayla grunted in her sleep. I didn
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I didn’t know that for sure. Gid
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How do you explain what it was like
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Air seemed to slice through me. Par
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Glass The room was mine. The walls
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“I love you,” she said. Sweet w
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“Turn away from sin,” he shoute
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down and grabbed my arm. He hauled
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Secrets Sadness verged on depressio
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Real Enough Orion hung in the south
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Escape Tayla and Angie took me to t
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We crouched behind a hedge. The cop
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Shit Follows Voices told me to run.
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“You’re dying,” he said. Spot
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Emergency Darkness. Thick, vast and
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Friends Miss Tris and Tad came with
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At the corner, I sat in a hard chai
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Awkward Everyone stared at Angie an
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The Dead On the edge of sleep, just
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Real and Not Real Visiting hours st
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I stared at the trees on the other
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Home Part of me thought things woul
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He was a wall of bone and muscle. H
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She came back to the bathroom. “I
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Tayla put on Duke Ellington. We hel
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gulped down. That was it. This was
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Worry Broken leg. Broken ribs. Disl
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“She hates me,” I said, soundin
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Soon I knew things. I knew someday
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Open Communication Pain and oxy str
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Tayla gave her the finger. I grinne
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“You’ll make it,” Tad said. I
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Love Oxy made everything okay. Not
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Things Come Out “Sweet Jesus,”
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Fight For days, we fought but we fo
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“Really?” she asked. The word h
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An old man stopped. He looked from
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Faith There he was. Gid. In the win
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The First Shot Queertopia. Tayla, r
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Always and Forever I dreamed of lig
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Temptation Last call. The stage emp
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Empty Promises It started. But then
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Gifts Music lifted into the air, br
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Object of Admiration Mr. Skarey cal
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Black birds came from the corners.
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This Body I dreamed of music, compl
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Miracles I was late. I was never la
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laughing. I had nothing to laugh ab
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“You’re talking religion,” Co
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Tayla’s drawn face tore at me.
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This Is Love First, I saw his hands
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Making Sure Posters of smiling wome
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Something Hard and Sad Rain fell li
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Looking Forward Dance team girls ga
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Closet Water stains made dark masks
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“You okay?” he asked. “Fine,
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“The baby! Jesus, the baby!” So
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“I love you,” Gid said. He went
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“You’re not a guy,” he said.
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Heavy Music and movement. I spun an
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It felt as if my skin were going to
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“They did nothing to you,” Gid
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I smiled a fake smile. Tayla watche
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“Really,” I said. “They can s
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I closed my eyes. “Let’s go,”
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“What’s up?” she asked. “Te
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I smoked and waited. Tayla came and
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Waiting I danced. I danced and hope
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The Talk “What’s his name?” T
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Almost a Victim I sat on the floor
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pushing his fingers into my pie and
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“She thinks I cheated,” I said.
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“You know better.” Suddenly, I
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“You know,” she said. “No one
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“No,” I said. “Yes. And other
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“I know.” Her fingers squeezed
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That put an end to it. 220
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“What happens,” I asked, “if
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didn’t trust her because they ass
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“Have you thought of adoption?”
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“I have some newborn clothes here
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Safe Dead folks filled the room wit
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Consequences Mr. Skarey’s office
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A Domestic Moment I lay on the bed
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Birth It started with a rush of wat
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When they handed me my son, I cried
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He fought with me, but there was a