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Understand that your<br />
caregivers do want the best for<br />
you<br />
When I first entered my partial hospitalization program, I<br />
felt like the people in charge of my diet were trying to<br />
break me. I thought they wanted me to change my morals<br />
and make me give up on the things I felt most passionate<br />
about. As time went on and I progressed in my treatment,<br />
however, I realized that they weren't trying to convert me.<br />
They were in fact just trying to convince me to eat<br />
anything! As a habitual calorie restricter, it was my mind<br />
which was trying to break me.<br />
attachment.<br />
Many people I was in treatment with saw meat as a safe<br />
food and thus saw it as an inextricable piece of their<br />
psyche. I drew a parallel to this when analyzing my own<br />
prerecovery diet, in that I saw consuming an almost<br />
entirely fruitbased diet as a way to comfort myself from<br />
the ills of my disorder.<br />
Once I came to understand that certain foods were being<br />
used as coping mechanisms in different ways for different<br />
people, I realized that although I could see the cruelty in<br />
their dietary decisions, it was not the time to be showing<br />
them how they could change. I could save that for later.<br />
Once I realized that my caregivers were looking out for me,<br />
I found it easier to open up in group therapy, and I noticed<br />
that my ability to avoid restrictive urges was improving all<br />
because I felt that others cared.<br />
Mindfulness when eating was<br />
a make‐or‐break factor in my<br />
recovery<br />
Whilst I know that they cared about my wellbeing, I<br />
believe in my heart that they (my caregivers and the<br />
majority of people) are just not in a place where they can<br />
accept new ethical values. This leads me to my second<br />
point.<br />
When I first entered the partial hospitalization program, I<br />
ate robotically. Eating was a hurdle to get over before I<br />
could do things that I placed more value on. When<br />
reflecting on my history of restricting calories, I realized<br />
something that increased my ability to be mindful.<br />
An eating disorder recovery<br />
center is not prime real estate<br />
for converting people to<br />
veganism<br />
I'm very proud to say that in my life as a vegetarian and<br />
then a vegan, I have converted at least 4 people in my<br />
immediate friendship groups or family to plantbased diets.<br />
Because of this, I feel that I am a particularly good<br />
advocate for veganism/vegetarianism. My style of<br />
inspiration is (in my opinion) pretty lax. It generally<br />
consists of showing people that it isn't hard to change your<br />
habits, and exemplifying that plantbased eaters can be<br />
healthy and happy.<br />
Eating according to my values<br />
This doesn't just apply to eating vegan, it also applies to<br />
avoiding more harmful plant foods such as palm oil. I find<br />
that when I end up in a place where I must consume palm<br />
oil or animal products, I try my best to leave my body so as<br />
to feel less like a hypocrite. Less shame. Less guilt. These<br />
feelings of guilt, shame and, hypocrisy were very linked to<br />
my tendency to restrict.<br />
Since leaving the treatment program and resuming my<br />
plantbased diet, I have developed a better ability to be<br />
mindful; thus over time, I experience less and less guilt<br />
when I eat. ><br />
In a place as hostile as an eating disorder treatment center,<br />
my advocacy style briefly went out the window as I was<br />
confronted with a multitude of people who had eating<br />
patterns that I just couldn't understand (they likely couldn't<br />
understand mine either). I was shocked to see people who<br />
had not only a strong taste and traditionbased attachment<br />
to meat, but people who had an intense fearbased<br />
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