Caribbean Beat — January/February 2019 (#155)
A calendar of events; music, film, and book reviews; travel features; people profiles, and much more.
A calendar of events; music, film, and book reviews; travel features; people profiles, and much more.
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Dear Winston, the Immortal,<br />
Now that you are gone but not really, I can say some of the things<br />
I always wanted to say to you, but could never find the words or<br />
the right moment.<br />
On our encounters, I always felt like I was in the presence of<br />
a being who was too great to be real. The fact that you seemed<br />
so unaware of your greatness made you even more amazing. You<br />
were magical, a walking example of obeah, in the highest sense<br />
of that which cannot be explained merely with words.<br />
A shadow is a thing that appears when the light is obscured.<br />
It is the darkness that we are, it is our truth. Dear Shadow, you<br />
were and are our truest self, grappling with the reality of darkness<br />
while holding desperately to the certainty that we are also<br />
made of light.<br />
Look, I’m a writer who is terrified of writing, and on the days<br />
when I feel there are things I want to say, I find myself referring<br />
to you first. You have a song for every state of mind, you are the<br />
soundtrack of the stranger trying to find her way back to herself.<br />
You were fearless about being unsure of yourself, about being<br />
afraid, about doubting your talent.<br />
This always appealed to me, the way you banished your<br />
fear to the bars of music that wrapped around us all, the most<br />
beautiful cloak of darkness, the most naked disguise. I tried to<br />
follow your example, to be honest about the fear, but still trying<br />
to make work that mattered. You hit sometimes and you missed<br />
sometimes, but you kept going.<br />
You were what a philosopher should be: happy to not be<br />
labelled, comfortable in your strangeness, playful, and sharing<br />
wisdom with such refreshing simplicity. You were the future<br />
before Afro-Futurism. You taught me nihilism better than any<br />
textbook. I heard “Cook Curry Ochro” and laughed at how easily<br />
you made a case for vegetarianism. I listened over and over to<br />
“Soucouyant”, marvelling at how you took a modern crisis called<br />
AIDS and made us understand the seriousness of it from the<br />
point of view of the nightmarish blood-sucker who now needs a<br />
blood test from potential victims.<br />
I think they should declare “My Belief” our National<br />
Hymn. You taught me the correct sound that accompanies a<br />
woman’s rolling bumbulum, so much so that I always aim for a<br />
whups whaps when I wine. You taught me the beauty of language<br />
and storytelling in song, because you played with words and<br />
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