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Floodgates Issue 1 2019
Floodgates Issue 1 2019
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Features<br />
It keeps us going, it pushes us to endure<br />
countless attempts and it motivates us to<br />
look around the next corner, even after<br />
being stonewalled at every turn. With such<br />
grim statistics, is hope only the preserve of<br />
the courageous? Or the foolish?<br />
Our psyche is shaped by narratives that<br />
have a beginning and an end. For couples<br />
struggling with infertility or other health<br />
issues however, there is no end, for as long<br />
as they are determined to have a biological<br />
child, they keep going, even if their efforts<br />
thus far have come to naught. Somehow,<br />
these couples feel “incomplete” without<br />
children.<br />
And this feeling is as real for childless<br />
couples as it is for couples suffering<br />
from secondary infertility. For two years,<br />
Desmond, 41, and Susan, 40, (not their<br />
real names) have been trying for a<br />
second child. Lisa, their only child, is four<br />
and was conceived relatively easily -–<br />
after ten months. Their second attempt has<br />
left them stumped. They have spent about<br />
RM30,000 on western and traditional<br />
Chinese medicines, and suffered two<br />
miscarriages. With the emotional and<br />
financial toll, they have decided to take<br />
a break from the treatments and rely on<br />
essential oils to balance Susan’s hormone<br />
levels.<br />
Says Susan, “If you ask me if I’m willing to<br />
not do anything and just let it be, I would<br />
feel it’s a waste, because there’re only 12<br />
chances a year you can do it! I don’t know<br />
how to let it go.”<br />
At 40, the likelihood of conceiving within<br />
a year is about 44% while the risk of<br />
miscarriage is 50%. As dour as these<br />
figures may be, as long as the possibility<br />
presents itself, the spectre of hope looms<br />
large before Susan and her restlessness<br />
prevents her from finding an emotional<br />
equilibrium.<br />
“I don’t think I’ve found the balance yet,”<br />
she conceded. “I’m still trying to seek it.”<br />
Moments later, she revealed, “The more you<br />
want it, the harder it is to let go, especially<br />
if it slipped through your fingers twice.”<br />
With hope deferred, can couples ever find<br />
their happily-ever-after without the baby<br />
they so long for?<br />
OVER A DOZEN CHILDREN,<br />
YET CHILDLESS<br />
The emotional roller coaster is a common<br />
ride for couples with difficulty conceiving.<br />
Like most, Paul and Beth’s (not their real<br />
names) early marital bliss included high<br />
hopes for a child. They were in their<br />
twenties when they got married and they<br />
tried actively for 10 years to conceive. After<br />
some tests, it was revealed Paul had a low<br />
sperm count.<br />
“We did not seek treatment because of<br />
the demands of ministry and also the cost<br />
factor. We just wanted to trust God for our<br />
best,” recalled Paul, 52. Summing up his<br />
feelings in the early years: “It was not so