The Later Elmshaven Years: 1905-1915 (vol. 6) - Ellen G. White

which began to come to me from your pen at camp meeting time and
thereafter. But instead, I feel very much softened and subdued.... I certainly
desire to learn every lesson that the Lord has for me, and to put it into
practice in my daily life and in my associations with fellow workers and in
my relationship to the cause of God.
He reviewed his experience in resigning from the medical boards,
except Loma Linda. He pointed out that there were now capable men who
could carry responsibilities and that he was enjoying having time to study
and pray as he had not done before. It was his plan to spend his time with the
churches. He was reaching out for preparation of heart to do acceptable work
for souls. He declared:
Now, Sister White, I can give you positive assurance that I have no
other thought than to humble my heart before God, to seek full forgiveness
by repentance and confession of the many mistakes of my past life and to
walk humbly and softly before the Lord hereafter, and to labor in love and
perfect accord with my brethren. I am sure that there is grace sufficient for
this, and I am determined to avail myself of it, and to accept in humility all
reproof and instruction that the Lord has for me.
I have been connected with this message too long, Sister White, to now
turn away by any reproof that may come. The thing for me to do instead of
turning away is to conform myself to it. I cannot afford to be out of harmony
with heaven nor to be blinded so that I will not see my sins and weaknesses.
I am thankful for the assurance that you give that the Lord will freely
forgive and accept me.
Elder Reaser wrote again on December 31 to Ellen White:
Dear Sister White,
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