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<strong>Switchgrass</strong> <strong>Review</strong> • <strong>Volume</strong> 6<br />
<strong>Radical</strong> <strong>Body</strong> <strong>Love</strong>
Senior Executive Editor, Manager, and Co-Founder<br />
Robin Carstensen<br />
Senior Co-Editor<br />
Lizbette Ocasio-Russe<br />
Art and Design Editor and Co-Founder<br />
Manuel Whitaker Garza<br />
Assistant Editor-Pagination<br />
Chloe Swan Rybalka, Script Journey<br />
Consultant<br />
Michael Quintana, Script Journey<br />
Publisher<br />
Coastal Bend Wellness Foundation<br />
Bill Jeron Hoelscher, CEO<br />
Meredith Grantham, COO<br />
Cover Illustration<br />
“Healing Waters” (Watercolor on Archival Paper)<br />
Anel I. Flores<br />
We are published annually by the Coastal Bend Wellness Foundation. The journal<br />
emerges from an initiative by Bill Jeron Hoelscher, the CEO of the Coastal<br />
Bend Wellness (CBWF), to raise awareness of women and girls with HIV<br />
and other health disparities in the Coastal Bend region of South Texas. This<br />
initiative began with a coastal bend wellness poetry prize, calling for poems from<br />
the coastal bend region and across the nation. <strong>Switchgrass</strong> <strong>Review</strong> emerged to<br />
showcase these voices and was co-founded by Dr. Robin Carstensen, Senior<br />
Editor, and Manuel Garza, Art and Design Editor. The journal has expanded in<br />
the past few years to include prose and hybrid genres, and to focus on voices<br />
from women, people of color, the LGBTQ community, people with disabilities,<br />
the senior community, and historically under-served writers in the Coastal Bend<br />
Region and beyond.<br />
<strong>Switchgrass</strong> <strong>Review</strong><br />
<strong>2023</strong> • <strong>Volume</strong> 6 • <strong>Radical</strong> <strong>Body</strong> <strong>Love</strong>
<strong>Switchgrass</strong><br />
<strong>Review</strong><br />
<strong>Volume</strong> 6<br />
Letters<br />
6 Letter from The Editors • Robin Carstensen and Lizbette Ocasio-Russe<br />
8 Cover Illustration Artist Statement • Anel I. Flores<br />
Poetry and Prose<br />
9 My Thighs • Celeste Oster<br />
10 My body is a bridge of ants • jo reyes-boitel<br />
10 My body is an octopus • jo reyes-boitel<br />
11 My body is a murmuration • jo reyes-boitel<br />
12 Cake • Jayne-Marie Linguist<br />
12 fat • Jayne-Marie Linguist<br />
13 Tres • Chase West<br />
14 Glass • Chase West<br />
15 The <strong>Body</strong> • Michael Quintana<br />
16 <strong>Love</strong>ly Bushels and Bone Orchards (Pantoum for the Violently Queer) • Jacob Benavides<br />
17 One Warm Summer Night • Jacob Benavides<br />
18 Sand Castles • Anel I. Flores<br />
21 The Size of <strong>Love</strong> • Phyllis Rittner
22 Plucked • Alè Cota<br />
23 when asked for my pronouns • Dustin Marley Hackfeld<br />
25 Stretching • Dustin Marley Hackfeld<br />
26 Sensing • Jennifer McKeen Rodrigues<br />
27 Thank you for your patience • Jennifer McKeen Rodrigues<br />
28 Land Back • Odilia Galván Rodríguez<br />
30 Turtle Pose • Lindsay-Rose Dykema<br />
31 Diastolic Hypertension • Lindsay-Rose Dykema<br />
35 Our Will Does Not Kill • Cheyenne Sanchez<br />
38 It’s Just a Phase • Alexander Rodriguez<br />
40 Wildflower • Corey Johnson<br />
42 Don’t • Cynthia Bernard<br />
43 Let Me Be Ugly • Heather Dorn<br />
44 The Lion in Winter • Charles Etheridge<br />
48 dancing in july (a ghazal) • Adesiyan Oluwapelumi<br />
49 At the Altar • Ash Miller<br />
51 Big Hair • Andrea Perez<br />
52 A Kitchen Witch’s Recipe • Chloe Tilley<br />
54 Letter to My Brave Face • John Haymaker<br />
55 The day I DIDN’T GIVE a FUCK I was fat • Kelly Jones<br />
57 This Poem Doesn’t Have a Name • Shikha S. Lamba<br />
58 I Don’t Care Who Knows What About Me • Shannon Frost Greenstein<br />
60 It takes three to tangle • Tom Murphy<br />
61 Ode to Change • Christina E. Petrides<br />
61 Fungus Haiku • Christina E. Petrides<br />
62 Boobs Haiku • Christina Petrides<br />
63 Sun Yung-Yu • Steph Schultz<br />
65 The Case for Lot’s Wife • Margaret Dornaus<br />
66 On Reflection • Trae Stewart<br />
68 Contributor Notes
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Letter From The Editors<br />
As my co-editor, Lizbette, and I write this letter in mid-May to introduce<br />
our intimate gathering of radical love inside the beautiful body of this<br />
<strong>Volume</strong> 6, we’re thinking about the importance of this theme of radical<br />
self-acceptance. In our world along the Coastal Bend of South Texas, and<br />
along its waterways and shorelines from the Gulf of Mexico to the Atlantic<br />
Ocean and beyond, the bodies of people who identify as LGBTQ+, and the<br />
bodies of women, people of color, disabled, and our elders are threatened<br />
daily. Some of the most harmful legislative policies against marginalized<br />
people and communities, especially the transgender community, have<br />
accumulated in staggering speed and execution across the United States.<br />
Large swaths of populations, rural and urban, have caught themselves up<br />
in neo-fascist rhetoric, spiraling the polarized vortex locally and globally<br />
between fear/hatred and love/acceptance. Being visible and practicing love<br />
is thus one of the most important things we can do for one another, to give<br />
each other strength, to remain visible and vigilant in our refusal to be erased<br />
and in our collective power and energy. This collection is our vigilance and<br />
determination.<br />
We’re grateful to the students we have the privilege of working with<br />
throughout our profession as teachers, writers, and editors who remind us<br />
of the importance of striving for visibility and a more loving and empathetic<br />
society. We want to give special thanks to our graduate student Jayne-Marie<br />
Linguist for her research and writing in Fat Studies, Queer Studies, and<br />
Disability Studies. It is from her vision that we were inspired to curate a<br />
series of venues that would honor all of our journeys on this path including<br />
the March 29th public event, Fat, Funky, Fresh: Queer Feminists Open Mic,<br />
that led to the creation of this volume. During the enthusiastically attended<br />
open mic night and in the coming weeks, we called for submissions from our<br />
creative community for this special flash splash issue dedicated to <strong>Radical</strong><br />
<strong>Body</strong> <strong>Love</strong>. We’re pleased to celebrate our first reading on June 8th at the<br />
Pride Poetry and Silent Art Auction for Corpus Pride <strong>2023</strong>, here at the<br />
Coastal Bend Community Health Center.<br />
This volume also includes voices that ripple from Half Moon Bay,<br />
California to Jeju Island, South Korea. These creative pieces cover a range<br />
of perspectives that include medical providers and counselors, survivors of<br />
cancer, and survivors of trauma in homes and communities. These voices<br />
stand in solidarity against tyranny as we grieve our bewildering losses, having
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come so far in civil rights and human dignity, to find ourselves in an epic battle<br />
to stop an apocalyptic reversal, losing long and hard-fought grounds to the<br />
rising factions of hate. In our feared bodies, our hated bodies, and our violated<br />
bodies, we stand and rise to show that we will not be erased; we cannot be<br />
undone.<br />
While our contributors’ experiences vary, they’re all focused on healing and<br />
celebrating our human spirit, hearts, and the vessels which hold them, our<br />
bodies, breathtaking in their fragility and resilience. We’re humbled and inspired<br />
by our contributors’ willingness to share their stories which not only showcase<br />
superior creative talent but also take action against harmful societal standards<br />
and legislation. To our contributors, we hope you realize that this type of work<br />
is essential; it saves lives.<br />
With gratitude and love,<br />
~~Robin Carstensen and Lizbette Ocasio-Russe~~
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Cover Illustration Artist Statement<br />
On “Healing Waters”<br />
When queer people dream we stare into the sky, into the moon, into the water,<br />
into the openness of meditation. We stare onto the canvas, into the glitter of<br />
the dance floor. We flip through our mother’s closet, stomp onto the floor in<br />
our fathers hunting boots.<br />
We try on everything until it fits, until it drapes down our birthing vibrating<br />
body like a silk scarf. We step out into the surprises, on every edge of the<br />
atmosphere and imaginary. We step into the darkness and make friends<br />
with winged grandmothers who tell us how it used to be. We create our own<br />
playful monsters out of curtains of shooting stars, supers/heros from sprigs of<br />
lavender, use wands that shoot ocean waves to protect us from the drought of<br />
love trapped in old paradigms. We are queer. We are bursting, shifting in a new<br />
paradigm. We are here and we are dancing behind our curtain of stars.<br />
In my series, Curtain of Stars: A Brave(e)scape for Queer Bodies, I paint<br />
subjects adorned by their fantastical animal and earth spirit, with their<br />
largeness and expansiveness gently held inside their imaginary - far from hurt.<br />
where ancestors speak through them, offer tools of earth and universe to wear<br />
as amulets of protection - like prayers, like magic, like spirit.<br />
- Anel I. Flores
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Celeste Oster<br />
My Thighs<br />
Where is Nirvana? If it’s not right here, it’s nowhere.<br />
— Lama Surya Das<br />
They look like green pinecones<br />
wound up tightly in Spring.<br />
They look like honey comb,<br />
sweetness bulging through fascia.<br />
They look like grenades,<br />
all brash and bumpy, dimpling<br />
out the bottom of my shorts<br />
with such bravado—<br />
they’ll blow you away.
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Jo Reyes-Boitel<br />
My body is a bridge of ants.<br />
strung haphazardly from one veined hurt to another<br />
bless this windless moment that lets me stretch my back<br />
trust its impossible configurations to meet myself on the other side<br />
and hold<br />
this is a kind of grace<br />
My body is an octopus.<br />
with the entire seabed my cloak the water, saline and electric,<br />
becomes an extension of my desire how bodies on the shore –<br />
their exaggerated knee lifts over each wave, clumsy arms balancing<br />
against wave crashes while feet pull away from cloying sand –<br />
alert my skin<br />
even this awkwardness is a kind of glorious hunger<br />
I did not know I desperately wanted<br />
my arms an endless swirl reaching for that eternity of want
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Jo Reyes-Boitel<br />
My body is a murmuration.<br />
and believe me, this isn’t the ominous thing it’s made to be<br />
this chorus of discordant voices screaming<br />
this constant drone<br />
is about pleasure<br />
to have seen this morning rise through treetops across pavement<br />
in this land of neon and cement alcoves<br />
to know we have made it one more day<br />
despite the thousand ways we are corralled controlled decimated<br />
we are still here<br />
and we are still breathing
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Jayne-Marie Linguist<br />
Cake<br />
you once told me a diet<br />
would make my problems go away<br />
i sat in my room and stayed quiet<br />
but there are a few things i need to say<br />
you said that it would be good for me<br />
and i cursed your name as i ate<br />
a bowl of sadness meant to be<br />
something that i did not hate<br />
you counted and counted until i was gone<br />
i crawled on the floor until my knees gave out<br />
i believed you because i wanted to belong<br />
now i know and now i will shout<br />
you can try your best to tear me down and take<br />
what’s a part of me while i’ll eat my fucking cake<br />
fat<br />
i step on the scale. it wobbles for a bit and finally<br />
tells me my truth like a fortune cookie. you’re fat.<br />
don’t let it get to you. it’s not true. you’re beautiful.<br />
but do they know what the others say? you’re a wookie. you’re fat.<br />
prescription pads don’t lie when they tell you to eat 1 bar for breakfast.<br />
1 bar for lunch. and 1 bar with an apple for dinner. you’re fat.<br />
physical education became physical lecturing when you fall behind<br />
on the mile, while the rest of the class are winners. you’re fat.<br />
i’m sent to bed before the meal can even start for emotions<br />
that i cannot control. it wouldn’t hurt you to skip one. you’re fat.<br />
jayne-marie, how do you do it? you have so much confidence in your body.<br />
well, kid, it took a long time to love myself, but i finally won. i’m fat.
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Chase West<br />
Tres<br />
3—they say it comes in threes, life, death & tragedies<br />
the syllables in acceptance are 3, gotta love that irony<br />
3 years for me to accept who I was, who I am, for me to fetch my self-worth<br />
out of the trash can.<br />
You see, I was innocent, just a kid, someone living freely, you thought you<br />
could change me, beat the gay out of me, leave me exposed on a metaphorical<br />
hill,<br />
it doesn’t matter to you, of course, after all, I’m—what did you call it?<br />
A 3-dollar bill?<br />
But you have fallen, & I continue to rise. Acceptance took me a while, but I’m<br />
so much more<br />
wise<br />
They say it comes in 3s & now I’m free. A holy trinity.<br />
I’ve pulled myself out of the squalor.<br />
Yanked out of my daze, The cashier says dryly, “your total’s gonna be 3 dollars.”
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Chase West<br />
Glass<br />
I love a good mirror. it took me some years, self-esteem radiating from ear to ear.<br />
“Why though, you’re so plain?” and “why, why are you so vain?”<br />
You see, there is no winning, this dates back to my beginning. the beginning of me<br />
learning the depths of love, the intensities of rage,<br />
the inescapable reality of my body being a cage. images of my mother crying into the<br />
mirror, am I a reflection?<br />
So much beauty & still hated what she saw, am I reviving this curse, toxicities and all?<br />
The truth is that you, *I*, I say to myself, we can’t win, I’m too fat, you’re too thin,<br />
I’m too fem, you’re too masculine.<br />
Society’s standards creating that impossible stage, other days it’s my runway.<br />
On Mondays I cringe and Wednesdays I jeer, but most days<br />
I really, really love a good mirror.
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Michael Quintana<br />
The <strong>Body</strong><br />
I felt stretch marks today<br />
and tried to explain them<br />
to the body they belonged to<br />
I imagined a balloon<br />
then likened them to laugh lines<br />
I think about it now<br />
and liken those markings<br />
to wind running across water<br />
or, better yet:<br />
my heart after you.
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Jacob Benavides<br />
<strong>Love</strong>ly Bushels and Bone Orchards<br />
(Pantoum for the Violently Queer)<br />
You proclaim so readily that you are free,<br />
Lay a hyacinth upon my head. Keep<br />
tender hands upon this chest that swells.<br />
Build the pyre they— I so plentifully seek.<br />
Thrust the hyacinth upon my head. Keep<br />
lit this flamboyant, this fiery frustration—<br />
Build the pyre we so plentifully seek.<br />
Singe the Earth, burn through the violet gaze.<br />
This flamboyant, firing frustration—<br />
Sisters, Brothers, Others; toss your blissful ignorance.<br />
Singe the Earth, burnt through abominate gazes.<br />
Remember // Learn the ash pulsating a political existence.<br />
Sisters, Brothers, ephemeral others; cast your blissful ignorance.<br />
Remember Marsha, Sylvia, Colorado, Pulse<br />
Remember // Learn the ash that perfumes our plentiful existence<br />
Cultivate lavender love amongst, against happenstance.<br />
Remember Marsha, Sylvia, Queer youth, the pulse of rebellion<br />
In those hands upon this chest swelling within.<br />
Cultivate aster ammunition amongst explicit happenstance.<br />
Yes, you can proclaim so readily that you are violently free.
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Jacob Benavides<br />
One Warm Summer Night<br />
One warm summer night and with the break of a bone<br />
I felt my marrow shiver.<br />
I return here when old flames burn cold,<br />
Where the ghost of a name becomes a breath<br />
from immaterial lungs<br />
draped across the cosmos like a plastic sheet.<br />
Under apple trees and strawberry growths<br />
It’s beautiful to have loved with the brevity of one warm summer night.<br />
Summer is serendipitous.<br />
Overflowing with pomegranate-stained<br />
angel food youth, luscious and syrup filled,<br />
Pink bodied nights counting every breath<br />
overripe by sunrise counting each death;<br />
One warm summer night and with the silk of a bone<br />
buried in every vein<br />
is a cadmium flick, supple honey tongues<br />
Young blood wanting to be profound<br />
Found in sherbet clouds and burnt coffee,<br />
Clandestine hands, adoration unsung<br />
Eros’ fist caught between two lungs.<br />
Summer is abundant but fading.<br />
Like a flare or a memory<br />
Caught between a megachurch and a tar scorched beach,<br />
Here the enduring winter refuses to reach.<br />
One warm summer night and with the mend of a bone<br />
Those chromatic walls glow like the skin of a peach split open,<br />
Ripening a heart that remains dormant until awoken.<br />
And as young as I am, I know<br />
I knew a love like a cicada song, a love meant to shimmer and die<br />
Instead of his touch, I know the perfume behind burnt umber eyes.<br />
That, and the warmth of one summer night.
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Anel I. Flores<br />
Sand Castles<br />
I don’t mind<br />
to hide behind the dressing room door<br />
my hands in your back pockets<br />
your folded up script and the softness of your hips<br />
the slurp of sweat collected at the pool of your right collarbone<br />
the squeeze of your bottom lip between my teeth<br />
the hair I’ve released from your knotted messy bun<br />
while we fall in love<br />
again and again and again<br />
between scenes<br />
I don’t mind<br />
to meet you between classes<br />
on the bridge connecting our catholic schools<br />
where we were told the nuns crossed to swim<br />
and joked, it musta been a women’s fest when they dropped their habits<br />
we cracked up, held hands, kissed like kids floated<br />
suspended by the cars going by<br />
so fast they didn’t see our bodies intertwined<br />
I don’t mind<br />
to meet you under the darkest night<br />
far from the primas talking boyfriends and boob size<br />
where the ocean blends in with the starry sky<br />
you crush my bones in your arms<br />
turn my body into warm sand<br />
soft under your feet<br />
high tide up against the third sandbar<br />
splash and back down to the ocean floor
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I don’t mind exchanging whispers in the service closet<br />
while the cops wait at the other end of the hall<br />
our moms shoot us down with bullets disguised as eyes<br />
detonating in between our breasts<br />
below our bellies<br />
cracks our knees when we run away<br />
I don’t mind<br />
to hide behind the bathroom door<br />
to kiss you<br />
to conceal you<br />
to keep you safe<br />
it’s part of our way<br />
the safest way to play<br />
my steel toe boot<br />
jammed where the bottom corner meets the frame<br />
keeps the jotitas, gay boys and qweenas out<br />
for now<br />
so we can wrap our arms around each other like snakes<br />
hiss, slither, quake<br />
we waited our turn while the others made out<br />
swam in pink pools of cranberry and ocean waves of vodka<br />
perfumed accordingly<br />
and promised the eyes on the back of our head a night off<br />
I don’t mind my life<br />
you are lovely<br />
once a year<br />
sometimes more<br />
depending on climate change<br />
enchanting mountain laurel<br />
lavender buttons of sweet tits between my teeth<br />
your red hot seed squeezed between my thighs
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I don’t mind the life I’m in<br />
I learned to love the rain on my skin<br />
a brisk run from the storm<br />
the wet<br />
the cold<br />
my crushed body into shells<br />
into castles<br />
between the fingers of babies<br />
and the toes of dogs<br />
behind the bathroom door<br />
the service closet<br />
the poem<br />
the pen<br />
behind my eyelids<br />
between my call and your clit<br />
on the other side of the sea wall<br />
I don’t mind the sneaking<br />
the moat all around<br />
being bound<br />
we don’t drown.
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Phyllis Rittner<br />
The Size of <strong>Love</strong><br />
They embraced in her foyer. Her throat ached with half-swallowed sentences.<br />
This scene, rehearsed, attempted and aborted for ten years, finally over.<br />
Alone, she stared at the key moist in her palm.<br />
She erased every digital trace, scrubbed and saged the apartment, fell<br />
asleep to the blue light of the tv. His side of the bed, still molded with his<br />
impression, she crowded with stuffed animals.<br />
She went vegan, then paleo, then skipped meals, binging and purging until<br />
the gym scale revealed his favorite number. She took up African dance,<br />
stomping floors in bare feet. Nights she filled spiral notebooks, dissecting<br />
every conversation, her pen slicing each page.<br />
Months dissolved into a year. Carrying a box of framed photographs to the<br />
basement, her eyes fell on his worn leather work gloves. Laced with cobwebs,<br />
they lay face up, like an offering and she flung the box down the stairs.<br />
She dog-eared recipe books, baked focaccia bread and cannelloni, traded<br />
her skinny jeans for a red silk dress. Illuminated by the glow of candles, she<br />
soaked in scented baths, exploring her new curves with manicured fingertips.<br />
One night she lingered in a pub to prove her body was real. That’s when he<br />
spotted her in the bar mirror and sparks trickled down her spine. But as he<br />
spoke, spouting a stranger’s desires, an emptiness spread like gravel through<br />
her belly. He was mid-sentence, studying his reflection, when she rose,<br />
weaved through the crowd, escaping into the leap of night.
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Alè Cota<br />
Plucked<br />
Ma, there is a winged girl atop your rooftop. Enveloped in<br />
Night, she exhales a birthing cry. Death is cyclical like that<br />
Remember?–the first must be the last. She faces forward,<br />
Her toes curled on the stone edge.<br />
Goodnight never comes softly to womanly silhouettes.<br />
The gossip of bustling cars & doors shut from overtime appears<br />
Mute to her volume of hair–wearing your scarlet feathered dress–<br />
Lifted and swaying.<br />
It’s layered, folded to hold past selves, shelves of mangled men.<br />
Men who solicited her to throw away.<br />
Find myself another tranny.<br />
They spit, erasing her. But there is a witness tonight.<br />
The cement waits for her–yearns for salacious pigment–<br />
Her splatter to color his hunger. Ladybird<br />
Takes a downward flight. Passes windows filled with<br />
Men holding different lives, men<br />
With different wives.<br />
Falling is to become, Ma.<br />
The ground catches her flesh–bursting.<br />
She figured out the meaning of life, mid-flight.<br />
Maybe to be alive is to be half<br />
Half-empty<br />
Half<br />
Halved in<br />
two,<br />
Against gravity, is the<br />
Situation. The memorial, crimson-feathered.<br />
Another<br />
Another man fed. Ma, maybe the<br />
Bird does not sing but<br />
Bleeds in half-flights.<br />
dead.<br />
Trans woman murdered,
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Dustin Hackfeld<br />
when asked for my pronouns<br />
when asked for my pronouns<br />
after Robin Wall Kimmerer<br />
ripples<br />
web<br />
a well<br />
don’t know<br />
shoulders<br />
plow<br />
a furrow<br />
hmmmmm<br />
maybe communal<br />
body<br />
a myriad<br />
microcosms<br />
i am the bread of microbes<br />
eat of me<br />
to replenish<br />
and be<br />
replenished<br />
maybe mushroom<br />
the fruition<br />
of hyphal tongues<br />
singing an<br />
ephemeral<br />
body<br />
into<br />
the air
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or could be<br />
lichen<br />
on a rock<br />
preparing<br />
a meal<br />
for the<br />
mouths<br />
of roots<br />
hmmmmm<br />
hmmmmm<br />
humus<br />
yes<br />
yes<br />
humus<br />
dark<br />
rich<br />
liminal<br />
table<br />
ladened<br />
with<br />
death<br />
and<br />
breath<br />
the snail<br />
the woodlouse<br />
the worm<br />
feast upon<br />
but i digress<br />
to answer<br />
the question<br />
i am antinoun<br />
and pro verb<br />
call me by<br />
one word<br />
becoming
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Dustin Hackfeld<br />
Stretching<br />
knot<br />
of<br />
kernel<br />
slender<br />
aching<br />
flower<br />
storm of tender thunder<br />
streaking roots<br />
and dark branching breath<br />
long flowing koto strings<br />
shake dewy flesh<br />
from bony boughs<br />
channels of rainy light<br />
river cloudy muscles<br />
and ocean a body in waves<br />
tendrils twine the spine and bloom blue dawnings<br />
hips unhinge<br />
into<br />
sky<br />
pelvic corolla<br />
ribcage pergola<br />
weave of stars and wind<br />
a dazzle of suns fires the lungs<br />
breath a flowering deluge<br />
eyes open into wombs<br />
a skull of hyphal fugues felting into a rising moon
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Jennifer McKeen Rodrigues<br />
Sensing<br />
you ever just lie down<br />
and stare at the wall<br />
study the shadows created<br />
by the decorations hung<br />
then you notice<br />
your mouth shape change<br />
because your jaw relaxed<br />
and the bridge of your nose softens<br />
your ears fall back<br />
then the back of your body<br />
unbears its burdens<br />
into the bed below you<br />
you notice your breath<br />
you really listen<br />
to the air passing through your nostrils<br />
which makes you think<br />
of the breath moving<br />
up and down<br />
your belly<br />
which you totally forgot<br />
to keep holding tight<br />
because the shadows on the wall<br />
are soft and unmoved<br />
and the boredom brought you through<br />
a little journey<br />
unto yourself
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Jennifer McKeen Rodrigues<br />
Thank you for your patience<br />
as I undo decades of<br />
stored tension held<br />
in my lower belly,<br />
as I learn to unbridle<br />
my internal corset<br />
Thank you for your patience<br />
while I try on<br />
radical friendship<br />
first towards my body and mindlet<br />
me see how it feels<br />
against my skin<br />
within my fascia<br />
held within my thoughts<br />
-then within the circumference<br />
of souls whom I see as<br />
my chain of support<br />
the ones who are familiar with<br />
the song of my heart<br />
I’ll welcome<br />
the eternal fitting on<br />
to the collective body<br />
of radical friendship<br />
there is no tag that reads<br />
One Size Fits All<br />
this is a life-long flow<br />
of silhouettes and abounding colors<br />
of texture as universal and changing as<br />
the wind<br />
the universal thread braided into<br />
One Line<br />
allows me to come back to<br />
myself<br />
and<br />
I thank you for your patience
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Odilia Galván Rodríguez<br />
Land Back<br />
a place of lessons<br />
to learn and be reminded<br />
of what’s good and not<br />
for us who know<br />
in our DNA<br />
what land is and is not<br />
how it’s living and<br />
how tender<br />
we must care<br />
for life<br />
in the balance<br />
fingers sing<br />
across a keyboard of flesh<br />
every note strikes bone<br />
lights the major and minor<br />
chords of our bodies<br />
tightly bound we are<br />
a concierto de amor<br />
y vida<br />
we are<br />
an alchemy<br />
of verses of arms that<br />
have held us<br />
of lips we’ve tasted<br />
tender<br />
of symbols<br />
traced on skin<br />
by nimble fingers<br />
geographic dreaming<br />
our heaven’s mouth<br />
a constant line<br />
of everlasting green<br />
we are formed and
are born land<br />
blood river rushes<br />
our tributaries sing<br />
ancestral songs of ages<br />
we know our land<br />
our body<br />
we will love it<br />
back
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Lindsay-Rose Dykema<br />
Turtle Pose<br />
This morning during my yoga practice, I felt the strength and beauty of what<br />
I call a Modified Warrior 3. In (OG) Warrior 3, you balance on one leg while<br />
holding both of your arms out in front of you. I prefer the closest counterpart<br />
in the Bikram series, which is Balancing Stick Pose; your arms are still out in<br />
front of you, but you clasp your hands together with the index fingers pointing<br />
out (similar to what I like to call Charlie’s Angel Pose, because you’re making a<br />
gun with your hands, and looking hot doing it).<br />
I started practicing yoga in 2017, which also coincides with the year I went<br />
from “very dark bad place” to climbing out of said dark bad place, toward the<br />
wounded warrior I am today. I remember struggling with poses that required<br />
balancing on one leg, feeling the awkwardness of others witnessing me fall out.<br />
I low-key decided “I’m just not gonna fuck with balancing poses and focus on<br />
the poses I like to do, the ones that make me feel strong.” I’m glad one of my<br />
early yoga teachers got me out of that line of thinking pretty quick, though.<br />
What yogis do, she told me, is progressive approximation. “If you can’t do a<br />
perfect Warrior 3 today, you do your Warrior 3 today.”<br />
In other words, in practicing yoga, you have to risk toppling over in order for<br />
your body to learn to find its intuition. Over time, at a turtle’s pace, you learn<br />
what tiny little adjustments other parts of your body can make that keep you<br />
balancing one second longer. For example, one of the things I have learned<br />
over time is that incorporating Charlie’s Angel Pose into any leg-balancing pose<br />
helped me find my center of gravity. The amount of force I can generate with<br />
one centimeter of surface area of my hand is enough to tighten my core, and<br />
once stabilized, I can just chill the fuck out on that one leg. If you would have<br />
told me in 2017, “Touching the tips of your index fingers together will help you<br />
balance longer on one leg,” I would have responded with a rhetorical question:<br />
“What kind of pixie fairy dust are these yogis smoking?”<br />
My yoga teachers have been traumatized AFABs who have learned to trust<br />
their own bodies, and to hone their instincts. Traumatized people, while<br />
hypervigilant around perceived threats when they are actually safe, also<br />
sometimes struggle to see actual threats when they are in fact in danger. Zenju
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Earthlyn Manuel said it best<br />
(in Buddhism her name means “complete tenderness”):<br />
Neglected intuition is a<br />
life-threatening symptom<br />
of the disease of oppression.<br />
We must turn instead, she said, to what we know in our bones.<br />
This morning I saw a client, a 19-year-old college student with PTSD, who<br />
started his session with “Welp, I’m single.” Knowing how emotionally abusive<br />
and manipulative his partner was, and what kind of a hold she seemed to have<br />
over him, I wasn’t sure whether to say “congratulations” or “I’m sorry.” So I just<br />
asked for the story of how it went down, which was essentially: I set boundaries.<br />
I gave her the opportunity to respect those boundaries. She chose not to. Later, he<br />
told me about spending time in queer spaces, talking more to friends, killing it<br />
academically. He sounded as strong and capable as I have ever seen him.<br />
To be clear, once upon a time, my client was still going by the name Marielle.<br />
During one of our early sessions, he was clearly aware that his girlfriend had<br />
only mistreated him, but he could not bring himself to end the relationship.<br />
“She’s the only person I’ve ever dated, the only person who actually knows me.<br />
I can’t bear the thought of starting over.” (Bless your heart, I wanted to say. You’re<br />
19 years old. Do you have any idea how many times you’re going to have to start<br />
over?)<br />
My client has spent the past year working his ass off in psychotherapy. He<br />
started gender-affirming hormone therapy, and takes the pills I’ve prescribed.<br />
He told me that his ex-girlfriend still calls him most days, to ask how he’s doing.<br />
She’s worried about him, she says. But while his ex is grieving what she has now<br />
realized she has lost, my client is, as I said, as strong and capable as I have ever<br />
seen him. He is aware she asks how he’s doing not out of genuine concern, but<br />
out of a wish to see that he is doing as badly as she is. In other words, wanting<br />
him to be in pain. I don’t feel any sort of sadness, he told me. I don’t know if it’s the<br />
medications making me numb, or… Not to detract from the potential side effects<br />
of psychotropic medications (though I did recommend we start tapering one), I<br />
posed a question to him: Is this numbness, I asked, or is this growth? The smile on<br />
his face seemed to point to the latter.
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He shared a story as we wrapped up our session. I saved a turtle from campus.<br />
They had it in an aquarium that was half the size it should have been. The water was<br />
all gross and they said it was because they were studying the effects of gross water on<br />
turtles. It’s my pet now. Its shell had basically rotted. But I cleaned it up, and it has all<br />
the space it needs now.<br />
I wanted to say: you’re a Turtle Hero, is what you are. Your shell has rotted away,<br />
and your authentic self -- the strong, capable, single you -- has all the space it<br />
needs to recover and grow. And to think, there was a time that turtle couldn’t<br />
bear the thought of starting over. But, ever so slowly, it has.<br />
I remember my yoga practice, how I have slowly learned, through daily toppling,<br />
that touching my fingers together helps me balance on one leg longer. I want to<br />
morph into Doctor Seuss with a pep talk for the Turtle Hero:<br />
You’ll survive on water!<br />
You’ll survive on land!<br />
Sometimes you’ll survive<br />
by holding your own damn hand.
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Lindsay-Rose Dykema<br />
Diastolic Hypertension<br />
For me, one of the hardest parts of Roe v. Wade’s downfall was reading that<br />
52% of female-bodied respondents to a poll indicated they were pleased with<br />
the SCOTUS decision. Zenju Earthlyn Manuel’s book The Way of Tenderness<br />
would later remind me that one of the most prominent symptoms of<br />
systemic oppression is neglected intuition, but at the time I lacked capacity<br />
for this brand of empathy. I remember thinking: What is WRONG with<br />
you people? Brainwashed? Blind? Put on your white bonnets and bare your<br />
barely-viable proud boy babies!<br />
Not long after that, my primary care provider started me on anti-hypertensive<br />
medication.<br />
Two medication trials later, my systolic blood pressure responded beautifully,<br />
but my diastolic remained somewhat stubbornly elevated. It is as if my arteries,<br />
ignoring pharmacodynamics and acting solely on their own intuition,<br />
never let their guard down. They keep gripping just a little, clamping my<br />
blood like they hate letting go. (My partner told me that when I climax, my<br />
vagina clamps down on him starts leaking and squeezing him clenching him<br />
like it hates letting go. This body just knows.) So, in my meditation space, I<br />
lean into learning to let go. While hypertension looms as the so-called “silent<br />
killer,” meditation remains as my silent treatment.<br />
One of my favorite texts on meditation is Lama Rod Owens, a queer Black<br />
Buddhist monk and activist who describes a series of techniques he has<br />
termed “the seven homecomings” in his book <strong>Love</strong> and Rage: A Path to<br />
Liberation through Anger. I’m not sure whether this was his intent, but it is<br />
in practicing Lama Rod’s meditations that I have crafted an inner representation<br />
of what I call “God,” one I can draw upon at any time. The homecoming<br />
practices offer layers of wisdom and warmth that progress as follows: guides<br />
and teachers; meaningful texts; community; ancestors; nature and the earth;<br />
silence; and, finally, the self. Meditation is how I seek out wisdom and follow<br />
where it leads me, and (spoiler alert) it will always lead us home, to our own<br />
selves.<br />
In order for meditation to lead us “home,” we broaden our perspective as<br />
widely as the Milky Way galaxy both now and a long time ago, and feel our
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way to our own physical bodies as we inhabit them in the present moment;<br />
this saves us the confusion of knowing how far back, exactly, we want to trace<br />
our roots. Or, perhaps better said for many, how far we can trace our roots.<br />
Consider, for example, the address James Baldwin presented to a group of<br />
students at the West Indian Student Centre in 1969. He started his speech<br />
with an anecdote about a Trinidadian boy asking him a simple question:<br />
Where are you from? He told the boy he’d been born in Harlem, but the<br />
question became: Yes, but where are your people from? This led to the best<br />
one-line description of the African Diaspora I have ever heard: The paper<br />
trail ends at the cash register.<br />
At the end of the day, our physical bodies are all just meat that our souls<br />
walk around wearing, for an average of 77.28 years. But I acknowledge that<br />
the thin-bodied white-skinned meat I’ve walked through the world wearing<br />
has offered me numerous advantages over the course of my life, and it is<br />
my responsibility to try my best to understand how other people’s meat has<br />
subjected them to forces of oppression, to listen to as many stories as I can.<br />
We must all keep our eyes and ears open, to imagine what it would be like<br />
to walk around with someone else’s meat -- a Black body or a trans body or<br />
a disabled body or an ostrich’s ridiculous wingless body, the fastest creature<br />
on two legs. If we are to help each other survive, there is no other option but<br />
to keep listening until we can understand well enough to weave it into our<br />
worldview.<br />
I will keep trying hard, but also try to be softer, on myself especially, to care<br />
for this body, not because it’s a temple -- fuck that, you think I’m gonna invite<br />
a bunch of churchgoers inside me to just, like, hang out? -- but because it’s<br />
mine and no one else’s. I get to choose who gets my sweat and tears, and my<br />
blood can stay warm in the sunbeams of those who support me and see what<br />
I see: this wide-eyed wild child trying hard to try a softer way of supporting<br />
herself and others.
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Cheyenne Sanchez<br />
Our Will Does Not Kill<br />
When she arrives<br />
She is on a drive<br />
Not the kind with a car<br />
But the kind where<br />
She’d very much like to<br />
Be alive and not<br />
Suffer the uterine<br />
Blood clot chain<br />
The cord attached to<br />
A newborn pain<br />
The cry of life that would<br />
Bring her disdain<br />
Where she’d only have<br />
Scraps of pink slime<br />
And ramen<br />
And dollar menu fixings<br />
Just to sustain<br />
Meanwhile milk and<br />
Puree and medicine for the<br />
Little one she’d strain<br />
Her wallet<br />
Or her state-flagged card<br />
Which would tag itself<br />
As an object of shame<br />
By the onlookers<br />
Whom the chance to<br />
Completely forgo this pain<br />
Their thin paper doctrines<br />
Dictate she does not<br />
Deserve to attain.<br />
When she enters<br />
Hand intwined with<br />
That of her mother
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Whose cracked shield<br />
Broken by maternal fear<br />
Gives way to a deluge<br />
Of crystal clear tears<br />
The girl’s stature and<br />
Her attire of<br />
Glitter and pastel<br />
And beads adorning<br />
Her doll-faced adolescence<br />
Becomes focused in the center<br />
Of the swirling shouts<br />
And cajoles and jeers<br />
From the seated powers<br />
That dehumanize<br />
That chastise<br />
That delegitimize<br />
What is supposed<br />
To be her innocence<br />
The picketed crowd<br />
Spewing pious rage<br />
Forever blind to<br />
The girl’s tender age<br />
Her shining doe-eyed<br />
Expression of porcelain<br />
Purity a mask over<br />
A wound unhealed<br />
And raw<br />
Only present in<br />
Her still sprouting mind<br />
When he walks in<br />
It is because<br />
There is growth within<br />
That utterly betrays<br />
The body he is claiming<br />
As finally his<br />
And not that of she<br />
Whom his birth<br />
Family demands him
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To be<br />
On the table<br />
Dressed by a<br />
Ghostly thin<br />
White paper sheet<br />
Head in hands<br />
He weeps<br />
The hands of<br />
The clinician<br />
On his shoulder<br />
Offering solace<br />
As reflected in<br />
Their caring eyes<br />
A comfort denied<br />
By all who glare<br />
With scourging eyes<br />
Saved by the scalpel<br />
Protected by the pill<br />
Walking on the tightrope<br />
Threaded by force of will<br />
No matter the spread<br />
Or shrieks<br />
Or yells<br />
Or shouts<br />
The threats of hell<br />
And the false hopes<br />
The opposition spouts<br />
Only we are the masters<br />
Of our bodies<br />
Our minds<br />
Our lives<br />
Our hands<br />
As the guides<br />
We drive our own fates<br />
And for that<br />
We’ll disregard the hate
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Alexander Rodriguez<br />
“It’s Just a Phase” by Alexander Rodriguez
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Alexander Rodriguez<br />
Artist’s Statement:<br />
In accordance with the theme of radical body love and feminist’s\queer<br />
resistance, I have created a sketch that reflects the often misguided and<br />
unsympathetic response to mental health and identity challenges; it’ll<br />
pass, it’s just a phase. This sketch captures the isolation and desperation<br />
those suffering from mental health and/or identity struggles experience.
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Corey Johnson
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Corey Johnson<br />
“Wildflower”<br />
This poem is about my life being overtaken by my bad habits, at different ages I<br />
would say that the wildflower is a different thing. It can be beautiful & comforting,<br />
but so detrimental at the same time.
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Cynthia Bernard<br />
Don’t<br />
Don’t ask a bluebird to be green,<br />
snow to be warm,<br />
the ocean to stop reflecting the sky.<br />
Don’t paint a seagull shameful red,<br />
sunshine a dreary grey,<br />
my living heart the coldest blue.<br />
Or not.<br />
I could be thin, you know,<br />
slim, slender, svelte.<br />
I’ve done it before.<br />
No trouble at all,<br />
just follow the plan,<br />
lots of this, none of that,<br />
precisely this much of the other.<br />
Early morning meetings,<br />
the scale decides—<br />
feel bad, feel good—<br />
bright colors or black,<br />
tight pants or baggy.<br />
Adhere to this gospel.<br />
Immense hunger—<br />
for life, for love,<br />
for all kinds of delicious,<br />
welcoming everything that<br />
caresses my tongue,<br />
my mind, my heart:<br />
Don’t ask me to live anything less.
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Heather Dorn<br />
Let Me Be Ugly<br />
Everyone tells me how good wigs are these days: I can help you find a wig.<br />
Insurance pays for wigs. You will look beautiful in a wig. Nobody will be able<br />
to tell you’ve lost your hair.<br />
I think they say these things to avoid talking about the more permanent<br />
things I may lose: my breasts, my health, my life.<br />
I type “breast cancer chemo” into the Google search bar and it offers: “side<br />
effects,” “hair loss,” and “how to look beautiful.” How to look beautiful during<br />
chemo. This punches me in the throat. That I should even think of looking<br />
beautiful during chemo. Beautiful to who?<br />
Maybe one day during treatment I will want to feel beautiful to myself or<br />
others. Maybe one day I will want a long wig and fake lashes to replace the<br />
ones that fall out. Maybe I will draw my eyebrows on like a movie star. I’m<br />
not trying to diminish the feelings of other cancer patients – other survivors,<br />
thrivers, warriors who want to wear a wig, put on makeup, maybe pretend<br />
to be cancer free in a society that stares in pity. But isn’t it a bit too much to<br />
expect? To ask us to be warriors and brave and fight while being pretty?<br />
I’m battling an ugly thing. Let me be ugly.<br />
Let me put away my foundation. I wear it so my face has color. I wear it so I<br />
don’t look sick for my students. I wear it because it smooths my pores, makes<br />
me look photoshopped. Why should I be concerned with pores when a lump<br />
in my right breast is trying to kill me faster than the river of a wrinkle can<br />
form?<br />
Let me put away my concealer. There is nothing left to hide. I walk around<br />
my doctors’ offices with my gown open to the front. The nurse reminds me<br />
to close it before we leave the room. My breasts are not a mystery. I have no<br />
modesty.
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Let me put away the eyeshadow. I wear it so my eyes look darker. I wear it so I<br />
look feminine for my boyfriend. I wear it because I like it, but I like it because<br />
it looks like women in magazines. Who decides which women live in magazines?<br />
Who decided symmetry should be celebrated in thin pages?<br />
Let me put away my powder. Nothing stays in place. Everything is in flux. Let<br />
me put away my mascara. My lashes are going to fall out anyway. I don’t have the<br />
strength to bat them at anyone to get free drinks and I shouldn’t be in crowded<br />
places. Let me put away my blush. I have rosacea and a round face. Let me put<br />
away my eyeliner. There is no border between my lid and eyes. The liner will grow<br />
into the whites the way my tumor spreads. It will stain them alien black and I can’t<br />
see the galaxies for the trees.<br />
Let me put away my brush. My hair is going to fall out. Let it live wild while it can.<br />
Let it curl and split and tangle until it sheds to my pillow. Let it shed. Let it fall out<br />
so I can fight without it blowing into my eyes, obscuring my vision.<br />
I’ve been told I’m brave, though I don’t feel it. I feel scared. I didn’t choose to fight<br />
cancer. Can someone be brave if they are pushed into a battle? Does it make other<br />
people feel better to think I’m brave? Does this mean they don’t have to witness<br />
the fear?<br />
Cancer patients describe themselves as fighters, survivors, thrivers, warriors.<br />
These self-defined terms don’t feel right for me. Maybe because I’m just starting<br />
my journey. My fight. Maybe because the port placement still hangs in my chest<br />
as heavy as my diagnosis. Maybe because I haven’t fully accepted it, though I talk<br />
about it non-stop. I have cancer, I say easily, without emotion. It’s just a fact I don’t<br />
yet understand. I have cancer.<br />
And now, even though I haven’t found the right self-definition, I’ve become a<br />
fighter, survivor, thriver, warrior to the world. I’m days away from starting chemo.<br />
I have soft sheets and bamboo washcloths and ginger candy and no-slip socks.<br />
These are the weapons I take to chemo, where nurses will pump poison into my<br />
veins.<br />
This doesn’t make me feel like a warrior.
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I think of mythical Amazonian women, strong and skilled. Living outside the<br />
patriarchy. Or the archeological team who excavated 2000-year-old graves to<br />
find Sarmatian women buried with their weapons.<br />
The patriarchy wants to give me a wig, but I want a crossbow. Where is my<br />
spear? Where is my sword?<br />
Even if a wig can help me, even if it helps me by making me feel more beautiful,<br />
even if feeling beautiful can raise my self-esteem, I must ask what my selfesteem,<br />
my self-image, is relying on? How many women had to Google How to<br />
look beautiful during chemo to make that a popular search?<br />
The chemo will take my hair. This will make me aerodynamic. I will swim<br />
without resistance. The chemo will take my eyebrows. My enemy will never<br />
read the pain on my face. The chemo will make me puffy. Maybe even gain<br />
weight. Let me take up space. Like confronting a bear in the woods, I will make<br />
myself large and make loud sounds to scare my cancer away. If the world wants<br />
me to be a warrior, let me look like one.<br />
Let me be ugly. Let me be as ugly as the necrotic cells eating my tit.
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Chuck Etheridge<br />
The Lion in Winter<br />
For Mr. Beebe<br />
(2003-<strong>2023</strong>)<br />
For twenty years he slept on my belly,<br />
Shedding orange fur,<br />
Spearing my nipple with a sharp claw<br />
Purring loudly, unashamed,<br />
His convenience and comfort<br />
More important than my passing pain.<br />
As a kitten, he scaled<br />
My bare legs,<br />
Daggerlike claws<br />
Spearing flesh,<br />
So cute I let him get away with it,<br />
A pattern that dominated our shared life.<br />
As an adult, he ruled the neighborhood,<br />
A massive, orange furred predator,<br />
Feared by every dog and cat,<br />
Beloved by every person,<br />
Who fed him, had their own name for him,<br />
But he always came back to me and my belly.<br />
He trained everyone in the house,<br />
To put soft pillows around,<br />
To leave cups of water in the bathroom and on the coffee table,<br />
To provide wet and dry food prepared just so,<br />
And finally, his piece de resistance,<br />
He got his own room.
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He trained our dogs as backup—<br />
All he had to do was let out a yowl<br />
And our German shepherd and beagle<br />
Would burst through the gate, onto the street<br />
And corner his assailant—<br />
That cat had bodyguards.<br />
One Sunday, wheezing,<br />
He climbed onto my belly,<br />
Purred loudly,<br />
Fell asleep,<br />
Jerked a few times<br />
And was gone.<br />
I still find fur,<br />
Random bits of cat food,<br />
A scratch mark,<br />
But when I sit to relax,<br />
My belly feels naked,<br />
Missing purrs and sharp claws.
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Adesiyan Oluwapelumi<br />
dancing in july (a ghazal)<br />
boy, you are pouring into miracles again...<br />
the garden of your bones rattling like a storm in july.<br />
with my hands, i bury your throat into its grave,<br />
your music falling like sickled pears in july.<br />
there are rosaries of tombs trailing your steps,<br />
your feet preying into every cemetery like a mass funeral in july.<br />
in a curfew of water, we dance...<br />
our legs wading through a turbulent night in july.<br />
in a deluxe, i illusion you for a fine ghost,<br />
luxuriant column of formless vacuum in july.<br />
i am dreaming of you in another nightmare<br />
your body a god made of dust in july.<br />
who will hear a song calligraphed in rain?<br />
from whose lips will a god breathe in july?<br />
the music fractures like a broken stem...<br />
wounds do not heal in july.
Ash Miller<br />
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“At the Altar”<br />
She steps to my grave and asks for wisdom.<br />
I tell her:<br />
Young girl,<br />
no rape story<br />
will grant empathy<br />
to a man<br />
who never held interest.<br />
I tell her:<br />
During my tenth summer,<br />
I begged for my life.<br />
Decades later<br />
I still pleaded for my humanity.<br />
I offered myself at the altar.<br />
I opened my wounds;<br />
picked my bones clean.<br />
I tell her:<br />
I prayed<br />
for my stories to be enough.<br />
We prayed<br />
for our stories to be enough.<br />
During prayer,<br />
I opened my eyes and wept<br />
at the women before me<br />
gutting themselves,<br />
reliving their worst moments<br />
as they begged for change.<br />
I turned<br />
and my foremothers<br />
embraced me in skeletal arms.<br />
I tell her:<br />
Do not let me<br />
embrace you in my skeletal arms.
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I tell her:<br />
Your body is yours.<br />
Your story is yours.<br />
You do not exist for their consumption.<br />
I tell her:<br />
Bones are all I have left,<br />
hollowed eyes and long teeth.<br />
Young girl,<br />
they are yours.<br />
Fashion them into tools.<br />
Wield them as weapons.<br />
Please,<br />
Do not join me at the altar.
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Andrea Perez<br />
Big Hair<br />
When I was young I remember being teased because of my hair<br />
Too nappy, too kinky<br />
Constantly being told to take the curls out and use blonde dye<br />
Back before there were straighteners as a household items<br />
My sister would use the clothing iron<br />
Praying she would not burn your scalp<br />
Now that I am older I have learned to accept my curly hair<br />
I proclaim ethnic hair don’t care days and wear it down with pride<br />
After all, people pay money for these curls!
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Chloe Tilley<br />
Ingredients<br />
1. 2 Cups Self-love<br />
2. 1 Cup Acceptance of love<br />
3. 4 tsp of Medication<br />
4. 1 oz Positivity<br />
5. 3 tbsp Confidence<br />
6. 1 tbsp Sugar (for sweetness)<br />
7. 2 tbsp Spice of choice (for a kick)<br />
Steps<br />
A Kitchen Witch’s Recipe<br />
1. Begin with water, as all things in this world did. When you looked in the<br />
mirror when you were 14, you hated what you saw: brown skin, big nose,<br />
big lips, brown eyes, singed hair that wasn’t naturally straight, and a body<br />
that was not like the ones in the beauty commercials. When you were 21,<br />
you began to see the beauty in your unique features and how they make<br />
you you. Now you are 23, pour two cups of self-love into the cauldron. A<br />
subtle vermillion reaction should occur.<br />
2. When you were 17 you believed you couldn’t love because you believed<br />
no one found you attractive. You have successfully expelled this. Now,<br />
pour acceptance of love into the cauldron. The mixture should now foam<br />
into a bubbly paradise that accepts the warm embrace of others.<br />
3. When you were 19, you realized that praying alone couldn’t help with<br />
the secret war within the battlefield of your mind. Spirituality allowed<br />
some sanctuary, but you realized you required something secular and<br />
empirical. Add 1 teaspoon of each into the cauldron: Abilify, Concerta,<br />
Hydroxyzine, and Lexapro. The bubbles should contract and begin to<br />
become more relaxed.<br />
4. When you were 21, a global pandemic hit and it was hard to maintain<br />
your mental health. A physical sickness overcame the world, yet another<br />
sickness of greed also dictated the lives of the vulnerable. You relapsed
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and regretted things you said and did during these lows. You gained weight<br />
and relapsed into a state of self-hate. However, you eventually found peace<br />
and reconciliation with yourself. Add an ounce of positivity to the cauldron,<br />
as a treat.<br />
5. The journey to self-love is no hero’s journey. You have yet to return with<br />
this elixir, a permanent cure to escape from white supremacist and sexist<br />
beauty standards. With this next add-in, you will be able to say “screw all of<br />
that” and hold your head high. Add three tablespoons of confidence to the<br />
cauldron. The mixture will fizzle to a bronze glow.<br />
6. Add one tablespoon of sugar for the sweetness you will have for yourself<br />
and others.<br />
7. Add one tablespoon of spice of choice. (Write-in: Paprika). This will add<br />
a kick for you to resist negativity and not take shit from anyone, not even<br />
yourself.
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John Haymaker<br />
Letter to my Brave Face<br />
You were thirteen and gay. It was 1969. Playground taunts often reminded<br />
you that being homo was the worst thing anyone could be, worse than being<br />
a murderer on death-row. Yet you asked a favorite teacher, Mr. Costopolous,<br />
if the government deported known homosexuals. “Who’d want you?” Mr<br />
C. spat back and pivoted away like the Vietnam vet he was. Rude response,<br />
yet you felt reassured knowing you couldn’t be deported. No country would<br />
accept you. Still, you never hid your sexual bent, not from Mr. C or from<br />
the government. Good to find the world grew ever more understanding and<br />
welcoming for homosexuals. And by the way, we’re all learning too that deathrow<br />
convicts are often innocent.
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Kelly Jones<br />
The day I DIDN’T GIVE A FUCK I was fat<br />
The day I didn’t give a fuck I was fat, I finally reclaimed my sense of dignity.<br />
I spent plenty of time worrying about what everyone else thought and how<br />
much extra space I was taking up. In fact, I started to go out of my way to take<br />
up even more space and get into people’s faces even more than usual. I wanted<br />
to be seen, you know for who I really am. My voice raised by octaves and my<br />
stance by inches. I was unstoppable. Nothing was fucking wrong with me.<br />
The day I didn’t give a fuck I was fat, I finally did it. I took that Ruger double<br />
action revolver with me on my jog that morning. I have jogged every morning<br />
since the sixth grade. After I got my period, my tits and hips took over, and I<br />
couldn’t stand it! That’s when I started jogging. I watched every calorie that<br />
passed through my lips. I wouldn’t even dare smell cookies baking. I swore<br />
it would make my ass jiggle. One day, it was too much. That was the day I no<br />
longer gave a fuck.<br />
The day I didn’t give a fuck I was fat, I quit dating all together. I realized<br />
that I was letting my value depend on my attachments to people. After taking<br />
all that time to myself, I decided it was best to stay single. Instead of investing<br />
in relationships, I invested in my education. Now, my name carries as much<br />
weight as my ass. Those three little letters, PhD, are heavy, and they have been<br />
useful when throwing my weight around.<br />
The day I didn’t give a fuck I was fat, I finally found the courage to do it. I cut<br />
them all off. My dad. My grandmother. I decided it was time to do what was<br />
best for me. It was June. I had just graduated from high school and moved from<br />
Texas to Michigan. I wanted to get as far away as possible from them all! That<br />
small town was TOO small. Small minds. Small people. I needed ROOM! I<br />
gave myself all the space I needed.<br />
The day I realized I was fat<br />
The day I realized I was fat, a boy in my class called me, “Kelly Belly”. I didn’t<br />
even do anything to him. I was nice to everyone. Isn’t that what our
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teacher taught us?! There was even that one scene in “Bambi” where the mom<br />
tells them, “If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all!” I always<br />
noticed that I took up more space than everyone else, but I didn’t think it was<br />
bad. No one had ever made fun of the size of my belly before.<br />
The day I realized I was fat… Well, I don’t really remember the exact day. I<br />
do remember it was in the fifth grade. I had just started my period, and nothing<br />
fit me right. Why didn’t Ms. Sturm mention that when she taught us about getting<br />
our period? She told us about cramps, blood, and pregnancy. Why didn’t<br />
they mention we would get fat? I think I’m the only one. No one else’s shirts fit<br />
them funny.<br />
The day I realized I was fat, my very first boyfriend broke up with me. He<br />
cited the excuse that “I just wasn’t his type anymore” before he started dating<br />
someone else. She was skinnier than I was. He told me that was what made her<br />
“hot”, or whatever. He’s so stupid. I mean she doesn’t even know how to write<br />
an essay. I had to tutor her in Mrs. Kveton’s class. She couldn’t even read the<br />
word brain. She kept saying, “Brian”!!!!!!!!<br />
The day I realized I was fat was the day I was born. My daddy always lovingly<br />
called me “Chunky Cheese.” My grandmother always fed me full of all the<br />
goodies while simultaneously telling me about how much better and healthier<br />
I’d be if I would just lose a few pounds. She even offered to buy me a bikini if<br />
I lost weight one time. I sometimes wonder if my weight is the reason why my<br />
mother won’t take me with her when she goes out in public.
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Shikha S. Lamba<br />
This Poem Doesn’t Have a Name<br />
No, this will be untitled - without definition,<br />
just as she would like to be.<br />
It may be politically correct, or not.<br />
It may sound rude - Is Fat a rude word?<br />
Why do we entangle bodies in explanations?<br />
Rationalize the pleasantly plump?<br />
The girls with nice faces and heavy thighs<br />
and belly rolls.<br />
Are there complimentary synonyms for fleshiness,<br />
that accompany definitions for bodies<br />
that are abundant, generous and<br />
overflowing with exuberance and skin?<br />
Where do these bodies fit? (In this world)<br />
Where do they sit with their belly weight,<br />
reassured and audacious despite their paunchiness?<br />
Why do we define anything at all?<br />
No, this is not one of those poems.<br />
At least, not yet.
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Shannon Frost Greenstein<br />
I Don’t Care Who Knows What About Me – after Beau Sia<br />
I don’t care who knows what about me. Except for when that thing happened<br />
behind the camper when I was five years old in Toledo. – Beau Sia, “Toledo”<br />
Shame<br />
like a pall<br />
like I’m mourning the soul<br />
I used to be<br />
clings to the surface of my skin<br />
heavy and viscous, a permanent stain<br />
my version of Hester Prynne’s regret<br />
and I woke up this morning<br />
to make the world a better place<br />
nonetheless.<br />
The guilt<br />
of a lifetime of bad choices<br />
has always trailed behind me like a shadow;<br />
the trauma<br />
of a lifetime of mental illness<br />
has always divined my path like an oracle.<br />
Remorse like theme music<br />
guides all of my steps<br />
but this ongoing Herculean effort<br />
to heal<br />
might just actually be working.<br />
Anorexic and Bipolar, a writer and a mother<br />
years of therapy<br />
and the Nietzschean urge<br />
to overcome,<br />
I make breakfast even as I grapple<br />
with the lure of ideation;
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Ceaselessly seeking to atone,<br />
I smell cut grass<br />
and pungent caffeine<br />
as the kids leave for school<br />
and I am grateful to be alive.<br />
I have sloughed off the scars of my past<br />
presented naked<br />
for the judgement of all<br />
and grown a whole life anew<br />
from the fertile ground of the restitution<br />
I was owed for my youth.<br />
So I don’t give a f*ck<br />
who knows<br />
what<br />
about me.<br />
Except, that is,<br />
for all of the shit<br />
that traumatized me so badly<br />
in the first place.<br />
I never want anyone<br />
to know<br />
anything<br />
about any of that.
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Tom Murphy<br />
It takes three to tangle<br />
Remember the battle of Anita Hill<br />
Staring Uncle Thom — ass<br />
and his wife,<br />
Long Dong Strap-On<br />
Senator Chappaquiddick<br />
and Queasy Orrin Mormon<br />
left the other four women outside<br />
Low blow Joe’s deal<br />
ended Roe vs Wade<br />
Long Dong left a voice mail<br />
Apologize! (a supposed olive branch
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Christina E. Petrides<br />
Ode to ‘The Change’<br />
You give me unprecedented courage,<br />
but have me gulp predawn javas<br />
to achieve minimal coherence,<br />
and sip chamomile to doze<br />
fitfully past midnight.<br />
Your abrupt fluxes<br />
demand winter tanks<br />
and summer parkas.<br />
You flatten my posterior,<br />
yet inflate my waist;<br />
first, I am a rung-out mop,<br />
then an over-stuffed goose.<br />
Altogether, though, are you so bad?<br />
I’ve relinquished lunar misery<br />
and have grown neither horns nor hooves.
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Christina E. Petrides<br />
Fungus Haiku<br />
I am a mushroom,<br />
sitting in the silent dark,<br />
growing soft and round.<br />
Boobs Haiku<br />
Let those bold bosoms<br />
do what they will: bounce, jiggle,<br />
just sag with relief.
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Steph Schultz<br />
Sun Yung-Yu<br />
The cracks in your face ran deep.<br />
Did I or the age drive the scalpel -<br />
Scraping more, sculpting less?<br />
Talking enough to bore us,<br />
Lulling us to soft sleep<br />
Where we could dream –<br />
Dream about<br />
Nothing but<br />
Wasted times.<br />
Coughing up bitter blood<br />
Whenever we spoke,<br />
You said you didn’t belong<br />
And I believed you.<br />
You said you weren’t good<br />
Enough, too stupid.<br />
I didn’t<br />
Believe you<br />
That time.<br />
But if you were that dense,<br />
Dancing after the dozens<br />
Of white men and mercy<br />
Would we still have met?<br />
I wouldn’t even be able to<br />
Move my teeth today.<br />
And then I<br />
Asked you for<br />
your time.
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Maybe you were right<br />
About me. Maybe I was<br />
Just mistaken, a mistake.<br />
Yet still I regret not trading<br />
My blood for more moments,<br />
My only miserable money.<br />
Foreigners formed from<br />
The finished furniture<br />
And the unfurnished roof.<br />
Glaring at the sun<br />
For too long, I saw the<br />
Lingering black behind it.<br />
Young sun<br />
Could you please<br />
deliver us?<br />
Take my blood -<br />
Count clock ticks -<br />
Slow the time.
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Margaret Dornaus<br />
The Case for Lot’s Wife<br />
I imagine there are worse things. Like being chided for everything you might<br />
think or say or do. As if you were a toddler. As if you had no thoughts or<br />
feelings to call your own. What if someone told you it was time to gather<br />
just what you could carry in your heart and leave the rest behind? Without a<br />
trace of who you’d been. Without even knowing what might become of you<br />
or your daughters—the ones your husband cast off as chattel.<br />
Look, I’m not asking for forgiveness. And it’s too late for mercy. Regardless,<br />
here I am, still standing, straight and tall, year after year, above a place long<br />
buried beneath a torrent of fire and brimstone. Bearing witness to the past.<br />
To the future. Without judgment or envy. Like the pillar of strength that<br />
I am. Like the salt of the earth I always was. Not so different from you, I<br />
imagine. Not so different at all.
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Trae Stewart<br />
On reflection<br />
Fuck, I hate myself sometimes,<br />
Just my body,<br />
My mind is on point, thank you very much.<br />
Husky old bear,<br />
stretch marks like caution tape pulled until unreadable,<br />
across a drape of adipose billowing over my struggling waistband, an invading<br />
country’s flag on foreign soil,<br />
Chalky, ghost-like dough that doubles in size within a season,<br />
Pannus of self-loathing obstructs change,<br />
And desire of myself.<br />
I’m alright, kinda cute, I guess, in my own way,<br />
Unenthused self-talk, I swipe left on myself,<br />
Few other choices, seek something better,<br />
Brown eyes like the world, even cows,<br />
I’m a cow, Guernsey or Jersey related,<br />
I wonder if the See ’n Say - the Farmer Says - would play my voice.<br />
But, damn, if I don’t be a tender boy, my mama says so,<br />
Marbled from the permanent imprints in the Lazy Boy,<br />
Buttery, melt in your mouth, under the gristled exterior,<br />
Maybe that’s why he loves me,<br />
I’m like a fine cut,<br />
Aged to perfection,<br />
To be devoured,<br />
A delicacy,<br />
I serve up the main course, sides, dessert,<br />
Like a Vegas buffet, glittery simulacra with questionable morals.<br />
I live it, this body,<br />
I diet and starve to change it,
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Deserving a binge on self-esteem,<br />
Because I hate my form,<br />
Or others have made me hate it,<br />
Now, I nourish someone with my essence,<br />
I feel his love in my reflection, more often when I don’t avoid mirrors,<br />
Since I love him, I love that I sustain us,<br />
From what I truly am, inside.<br />
I don’t hate myself, really,<br />
Because of him, mirrors grow more tolerable, like a work acquaintance,<br />
I’m still smart as shit.
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Contributor Notes<br />
Jacob R. Benavides is a writer from Corpus Christi, TX who holds a BA in<br />
English from Texas A&M University Corpus Christi and is pursuing an MFA<br />
in Creative Writing (Poetry) from Oklahoma State University. His work often<br />
deals with the ephemeral nature of representations and seeks to contribute to<br />
the conversations of form and feeling as they relate to the margins of form and<br />
a Queer South Texas existence. These poems touch on the sacred, Queer love<br />
that is at once something to be cradled but also blown apart and examined,<br />
resistance in lyricism.<br />
Contact him at: jrben00@icloud.com and instagram handle @jabejohnson.<br />
Cynthia Bernard is a woman in her late sixties who is finding her voice as<br />
a poet after many decades of silence. A long-time classroom teacher and a<br />
spiritual mentor, she lives and writes on a hill overlooking the ocean, about 20<br />
miles south of San Francisco.<br />
Alè Cota is a trans performance artist, educator, and poet. She holds a B.A.<br />
from Carleton College in both Latin American and Gender Studies. Her work<br />
primarily focuses on poetry narrating the violence against trans women, the<br />
paradoxes of stitched cultural-gender identities, and the ontological quest of<br />
home and family as illegibly constructed against queerness.<br />
Email: alecotaix@gmail.com Insta: ale.cota.ix<br />
Heather Dorn has done three rounds of chemo and has twenty-one left. She<br />
shaved her hair with dog clippers when it started falling off in chunks. When<br />
she isn’t getting chemo she’s a lecturer at Binghamton University. Her poetry,<br />
fiction, essays, and art can be found in The American Poetry <strong>Review</strong>, Paterson<br />
Literary <strong>Review</strong>, Shrew: A Literary Zine, and similar journals. Her first book<br />
of poetry How to Play House, from Roadside Press, came out in February to<br />
rave reviews from her mother. She hopes that one day she will have a washing<br />
machine of her very own.<br />
Email: heatherdorn@me.com<br />
Margaret Dornaus holds an MFA in the translation of poetry from the<br />
University of Arkansas. Her poetry appears in numerous journals and<br />
anthologies, including I-70 <strong>Review</strong>, MacQueen’s Quinterly, Minyan Magazine,<br />
MockingHeart <strong>Review</strong>, and One Art. A Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net<br />
nominee, her first book of poetry, Prayer for the Dead: Collected Haibun &
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Tanka Prose, received a 2017 Merit Book Award from the Haiku Society of<br />
America. In 2020, she had the privilege of editing and publishing a pandemicthemed<br />
anthology—behind the mask: haiku in the time of Covid-19—<br />
through her small literary press Singing Moon.<br />
Lindsay-Rose Dykema, MD (she/her/hers) is a queer psychiatrist,<br />
prison/police abolitionist, and founder of Uncaged Minds, a mental health<br />
and wellness resource for low-resourced Detroiters with neurodivergent<br />
conditions and marginalized identities. Her work has been published in leftist<br />
and mental health journals, poetry anthologies, and Slate Magazine. Her first<br />
chapbook, “Odes to Floating,” is set to be published by Finishing Line Press<br />
this year. She lives in Detroit.<br />
Chuck Etheridge is a self-proclaimed desert rat, raised in El Paso, Texas. He<br />
joined the Navy and later attended UT El Paso and TCU, working as an actor,<br />
convenience store clerk, Rent-a-Poet, and catalog copywriter before finding<br />
semi-respectable employment at Texas A&M University-Corpus Christi. His<br />
poetry, fiction, and creative non-fiction have been published in a variety of<br />
reviews and books, two of his plays have been produced, and he is the author<br />
of three novels.<br />
Learn more at www.chucketheridge.com.<br />
Anel I. Flores, author of forthcoming book, Cortinas de Lluvia, and book and<br />
play, Empanada: A Lesbiana Story en Probaditas, holds an MFA in Creative<br />
Writing. Her work oscillates between the disciplines of visual, literary and<br />
multidisciplinary art, and can be found in Camino Real, Fifth Wednesday,<br />
RiverSedge Journal, Entre Guadalupe y Malinche, Rooted, Sinister Wisdom,<br />
Raspa Magazine, and exhibited at the McNay Art Museum, La Peña, Tex Pop<br />
Museum, Centro de Artes, Esperanza y mas. Her awards include Catalyst for<br />
Change, Best Poet, Women’s Advocate of the Year, Nebrija Creadores Award,<br />
Best SA Author, Chingona in Literature, Ancinas Award at Squaw Valley,<br />
the NALAC Fund, Accion Women Inspiring Women, the Yellow Rose of<br />
Texas Educator Award, and the Mentorship Leadership Award. Her current<br />
affiliations include: founder of La Otra Taller Nepantla Residency, Queer<br />
Voices, Tierrita Grande, and member of LGBTQ+ Mayor’s Council. She<br />
previously served as Co-<strong>Review</strong>er at SSGA Conference, Board Member at<br />
Macondo, The Esperanza, SAYL, PrideSA, LezRideSA and Our Lady of the<br />
Lake University Writer-in-Residence. Currently she is at work on her Graphic,<br />
Memoir Pintada de Rojo, and art series, Cortina de Estrellas.
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Shannon Frost Greenstein (she/her) resides in Philadelphia with her<br />
children and soulmate. She is the author of “These Are a Few of My<br />
Least Favorite Things”, a full-length book of poetry available from Really<br />
Serious Literature, and “Pray for Us Sinners,” a short story collection with<br />
Alien Buddha Press. Shannon is a former Ph.D. candidate in Continental<br />
Philosophy and a multi-time Pushcart Prize nominee. Her work has appeared,<br />
or is forthcoming, in McSweeney’s Internet Tendency, Pithead Chapel, Litro<br />
Mag, Bending Genres, Parentheses Journal, and elsewhere.<br />
Follow Shannon at shannonfrostgreenstein.com or on Twitter at @<br />
ShannonFrostGre.<br />
Dustin Marley Hackfeld is pursuing a B.A. in Literary Studies at Texas A&M<br />
University-Corpus Christi. His haiku have been published in Frogpond, The<br />
Heron’s Nest, tinywords, and tsuri-doro. He is currently working on a chapbook,<br />
The Deep Line, wherein he seeks to render into organically poetic forms the<br />
myriad manifestations of creative energy surging through all existence. He<br />
lives in Ingleside, Texas with his wife, daughter, two dogs, and cat.<br />
John Haymaker is a LGBTQIA+ writer whose stories and nonfiction appear<br />
in various online journals, including Quibble Lit, The Bookends <strong>Review</strong>, Hawaii<br />
Pacific <strong>Review</strong>, Piker Press, Cosmic Double and Across the Margin. Chinese to<br />
English translations appear online at Bewildering Stories. John writes as an<br />
American expat in Portugal, where he lives with his partner of 28 years.<br />
Find John online at https://johnhaymaker.com.<br />
My name is Corey Johnson, and I’m currently an online business student<br />
and full-time youth prevention specialist. I began reading slam poetry in my<br />
junior year of highschool in St. Louis, Missouri. I’ve faced plenty of adversity<br />
in my life: being a Black & Queer person growing up in a White & Christian<br />
household, going through self-harm and dealing with addiction in my family.<br />
I wanted to share what I was going through so I was no longer alone, so I<br />
wrote about my own life. Doing this helped me realize that sharing my life’s<br />
experiences was helping other people share their stories as marginalized<br />
people and people coping with mental health challenges.<br />
Kelly Jones is a high school English teacher and graduate student at Texas<br />
A&M Corpus Christi pursuing a master’s degree in English: I have an<br />
interest in affect theory when looking at the relationship between reading
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literature and creating original written pieces. While I have been teaching<br />
English Language Arts for nearly a decade, I am a fairly new writer who has<br />
only recently been inspired to pursue my craft after signing up for a Creative<br />
Writing course given by the lovely Dr. Carstensen. For this inspiration, I will<br />
be forever grateful.<br />
Shikha S. Lamba is a jewelry designer and poet living in Hong Kong. She<br />
is also the co-editor of an online magazine, Coffee and Conversations. In love<br />
with all things creative, she has contributed poetry for various publications<br />
in Hong Kong, US, the UK and India over the years. Passionate about<br />
raising awareness about women’s health and mental health issues through<br />
her writing, Shikha’s poems often touch on themes of feminism and social<br />
injustice. She admittedly lives a big portion of her life online and can be found<br />
on most social media sites for her writing, jewelry and magazine.<br />
Twitter - https://twitter.com/shikhaslamba<br />
Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/shikhaslambapoetry/<br />
Jayne-Marie Linguist (she/her/hers) received her BA in English and<br />
Writing for Nonprofits Certification from Texas A&M University-Corpus<br />
Christi in May 2021; she has recently returned to TAMU-CC and is currently<br />
a graduate student in the MA English program. Throughout high school<br />
and college, Jayne-Marie grew to love poetry as a tool for self-reflection and<br />
healing. She often writes about her experiences with grief, mental health,<br />
queerness, and fat positivity. Most recently, Jayne-Marie is working on a<br />
creative nonfiction and poetry hybrid project about her experience living<br />
as a fat queer person. In addition to creative writing, Jayne-Marie’s research<br />
interests are in the fields of Fat Studies, Queer Theory, and Disability Studies.<br />
In her free time, Jayne-Marie enjoys going to the beach, streaming cozy games<br />
on Twitch, and cuddling with her cat Poe M.<br />
Ash Miller currently resides in San Antonio after spending over two decades<br />
growing up along the Coastal Bend. Their writing ranges from the absurd to<br />
the sincere. They love to explore storytelling in different mediums, from the<br />
written word to creating interactive text-based games. While achieving their<br />
Bachelor of Arts in English and minor in Creative Writing at Texas A&M<br />
University-Corpus Christi, they also served as Associate Editor of Creative<br />
Nonfiction for The Windward <strong>Review</strong>. Their poetry and short stories can also<br />
be found in Survivor Lit, The Windward <strong>Review</strong>, and <strong>Switchgrass</strong> <strong>Review</strong>.
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Tom Murphy was the 2021-2022 Corpus Christi Poet Laureate and the<br />
Langdon <strong>Review</strong>’s 2022 Writer-In-Residence. Murphy’s books: When I Wear<br />
Bob Kaufman’s Eyes (2022), Snake Woman Moon (2021), Pearl (2020),<br />
American History (2017), and co-edited Stone Renga (2017). He’s been<br />
published widely in literary journals and anthologies such as: Poetry is DEAD:<br />
An Inclusive Anthology of Deadhead Poetry, Boundless, Concho River <strong>Review</strong>,<br />
MONO, Good Cop/Bad Cop Anthology, Odes and Elegies: Eco-Poetry from the<br />
Texas Gulf Coast, The Great American Wise Ass Poetry Anthology, Outrage: A<br />
Protest Anthology for Injustice in a Post 9/11 World among other publications.<br />
Find Tom online at: http://tommurphywriter.com<br />
Adesiyan Oluwapelumi, TPC XI,(he/him) is an African poet from Osun<br />
State, Nigeria. He was the winner of the Cheshire White Ribbon Day Creative<br />
Competition (2022) and a finalist in the WeNaija Literary Contest(<strong>2023</strong>).<br />
Some of his poems are published/forthcoming in Poet Lore, West Trade<br />
<strong>Review</strong>, Poetry Column-NND, Tab Journal, Poetry Wales and elsewhere.<br />
Email: pelumiadesiyan@gmail.com<br />
Celeste Oster is a compulsive taker of classes, lover of odd words, and maker<br />
of hand bound books. Her poems have appeared in a variety of journals,<br />
including Tiny Frights, Thorny Locust, The Muleskinner Journal, Bluepepper,<br />
The Kansas City Star, The Mid-American Poetry <strong>Review</strong>, and the Same. She<br />
lives in Kansas.<br />
Andrea Perez is a native of Corpus Christi, TX and a Veteran of the United<br />
States Army. Poetry is a positive creative outlet to aid in her PTSD and<br />
anxiety, especially after the untimely death of her dog MAX. Andrea strives to<br />
share her life experiences and stories in hopes to create a positive message for<br />
all to enjoy.<br />
Christina E. Petrides taught English on Jeju Island, South Korea, from 2017<br />
through <strong>2023</strong>. Her verse collection is On Unfirm Terrain (Kelsay Books,<br />
2022). Her children’s books are Blueberry Man (2020; Korean translation,<br />
2021), The Refrigerator Ghost (Korean translation, 2022), Tea Cakes, Quilts,<br />
and Sonshine (2022) and Mr. Fisher’s Whiskers (forthcoming). She is the<br />
primary translator of Maria Shelyakhovskaya’s memoir, Being Grounded in<br />
<strong>Love</strong>: A History of One Russian Family, 1872-1981 (Slavica, June <strong>2023</strong>).<br />
Her website is: www.christinaepetrides.com
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Michael Quintana is a practicing queer writer that holds an MFA in<br />
Fiction and Screenwriting from San Jose State University. His debut book<br />
of poetry The Silence Holds Us Together will be released in the Fall of <strong>2023</strong>.<br />
He currently works with writers, entrepreneurs, and businesses through his<br />
company Script Journey for manuscript, speech, website, and brand and<br />
marketing development.<br />
To learn more about Script Journey, visit www.scriptjourney.com.<br />
You can also follow Michael on Instagram: @mquintana_writer.<br />
jo reyes-boitel is a queer Latinx poet, playwright, and scholar currently<br />
completing their MFA at the University of Texas Rio Grande Valley while also<br />
teaching undergraduate creative writing courses. Their forthcoming book of<br />
poetry from Next Page Press will be available in November <strong>2023</strong>.<br />
For more information visit joreyesboitel.com.<br />
Phyllis Rittner writes poetry, flash fiction and creative non-fiction. Her work<br />
can be found in Burnt Breakfast, Roi Faineant Press, Paper Dragon, Versification,<br />
Fairfield Scribes, Sparks of Calliope, Gyroscope <strong>Review</strong> and others. She is the<br />
winner of the Grub Street Free Press Fiction Contest and a member of The<br />
Charles River Writing Collective.<br />
She can be reached on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/phyllis.<br />
rittner<br />
Jennifer McKeen Rodrigues (she/her) currently lives on Powhatan land in<br />
Fairfax, VA. She is trained as a certified yoga therapist, is a mom & military<br />
spouse. She has been published as either poet or photographer in tinyfrights,<br />
The Muleskinner Journal, Amethyst <strong>Review</strong>, The Martello Journal, & Bluepepper.<br />
She wishes to thank Not-the-Rodeo poets for their unconditional support.<br />
Alexander Rodriguez: I’m an Art Major at TAMUCC that started painting<br />
and sketching in the middle of the pandemic. I found art to be therapeutic<br />
in helping me deal with PTSD and Depression. All my artwork can be found<br />
on my Instagram page @mexicanbobross and some additional written works<br />
at www.pussypopculture.com<br />
Odilia Galván Rodríguez, poet, writer, editor-publisher, and activist, is the<br />
author of seven volumes of poetry. Her latest book from FlowerSong Press<br />
is The Color of Light ~ Poems to the Mexica and Orisha Energies. She is also
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a co-editor, along with the late Francisco X. Alarcón, of the award-winning<br />
anthology Poetry of Resistance: Voices for Social Justice, The University of<br />
Arizona Press. She is a long-time social justice activist and the editor-in-chief<br />
and publisher at Prickly Pear Publishing & Nopalli Press. Additionally, she has<br />
worked as the editor for several magazines, including Tricontinental Magazine<br />
in Havana, Cuba, <strong>Switchgrass</strong> <strong>Review</strong>, Corpus Christi, and online – Cloud<br />
Women’s Quarterly Journal and Anacua Literary Arts Journal.<br />
Cheyenne Sanchez I am a graduate student of English at Texas A&M<br />
University - Corpus Christi. My pronouns are she/her/they/them. My<br />
favorite writing genres are creative nonfiction, literary journalism, poetry,<br />
and hybrid work. I tend to write about subjects such as being intersectional,<br />
poverty, travel, wandering, and childhood among other things. I hope to<br />
become an established writer or journalist, possibly taking on a second<br />
master’s degree in humanities, journalism, or an interdisciplinary major. This<br />
poem was composed in response to the abolishment of Roe v. Wade in 2022.<br />
Steph Schultz resides in San Antonio after traveling about the country as<br />
a recovering military brat. Their writing seeks to explore connections with<br />
their family ties, toeing the threshold between worlds and understand what it<br />
means to be a queer mixed-race Asian American in a cis world. Additionally,<br />
their work reflects their experience as a licensed counselor seeing everyone<br />
ranging from those who live in gated neighborhoods to those who live<br />
outside under highway ramps.<br />
Email: m2cks2@gmail.com<br />
Trae Stewart is an emerging queer poet and psychiatric-mental health nurse<br />
practitioner. He writes poetry to center and ground himself so that he may<br />
best help others. Trae’s poetry has been recently featured in San Antonio<br />
<strong>Review</strong>, Aurum Journal, orangepeel, Tabula Rasa <strong>Review</strong>, and Survive & Thrive.<br />
He is also a widely published academic researcher and seasoned educator.<br />
Chloe Tilley is an English major studying writing and literature at Texas<br />
A&M University-Corpus Christi. She is a Corpus Christi native and was<br />
born on July 31, 1999. Ever since she was little, she had a love for reading and<br />
writing, and by the time she reached middle school, she knew she wanted to<br />
be a writer. This piece, “A Kitchen Witch’s Recipe,” showcases Chloe’s journey<br />
to self-love and body positivity/neutrality. It is in the form of a hermit crab
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essay and borrows the format of a recipe. Chloe hopes that this poem can<br />
encourage other BIPOC, especially women of color, to embrace themselves<br />
and expel white beauty standards from their conscious and subconscious.<br />
I’m Chase West, a traveler, an animal lover, a men’s fashion addict, a full time<br />
car dad, & in my day dreams a bit of a writer. This piece is near and dear to<br />
me and is a mirror image (no pun intended) of the trials and tribulations one<br />
finds on the road to self love.