Metropolitan Lines Issue 2 - Brunel University
Metropolitan Lines Issue 2 - Brunel University
Metropolitan Lines Issue 2 - Brunel University
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“Shall we retire to the bedroom?”<br />
She nodded dutifully and followed<br />
him. Before exiting the room she<br />
turned and mouthed ‘sorry’.<br />
I feel alone, miserable and sad.<br />
Now, in bed, I can’t sleep. Partly<br />
because I feel sorry for myself and<br />
am worried about my first day back<br />
at school tomorrow, but mainly<br />
because I can hear them shagging.<br />
I have never liked the first day of a<br />
new school year and the thought of<br />
a brand new class is always<br />
daunting.<br />
Three: Class Rules<br />
The school gate has received a<br />
fresh lick of blue paint during<br />
the 6 weeks I have been away and<br />
the wisteria over the entrance is<br />
slowly shedding its spongy summer<br />
leaves. The staff room is humming<br />
with talk of expensive holidays, new<br />
cars, and new homes. I have<br />
nothing to say; over the summer<br />
break I have done zilch but put on<br />
10 pounds and watch TV. I scurry<br />
to the corner of the room and sit<br />
with my tea and biscuits avoiding<br />
the gaze of everyone.<br />
“ Good morning, Lindsey, have<br />
a nice break?”<br />
I know the voice before I see the<br />
face.<br />
“ Lovely, yourself?” I ask, not<br />
really wanting to hear the answer.<br />
“Wonderful, wonderful. David<br />
proposed in Dubai and the sale<br />
went through on the 4-bed in<br />
Chalfont. So not a lot really.” She<br />
trails off to a titter. I look up at the<br />
fresh blonde highlights of the<br />
bobbing head above me and realise<br />
that I haven’t answered.<br />
“That’s great for you, how<br />
fantastic”. I try to say the words<br />
without sarcasm.<br />
“I know, it’s a dream come true.”<br />
She walks off in the direction of<br />
another sucker willing to hear her<br />
‘wonderful’ news. I remember the<br />
days in college when I helped her<br />
pass her exams. Now, she has been<br />
promoted over me, is marrying a<br />
music industry mogul, and has a<br />
lovely house in the suburbs. Not<br />
that I’m envious. I, on the other<br />
hand, haven’t had a proper<br />
boyfriend in three years, live in a<br />
rented flat, and am professionally<br />
overlooked. I have a feeling the day<br />
is set to get worse.<br />
My new classroom is bigger than<br />
my last one, and is flooded with<br />
light from a large window that<br />
overlooks the school playing field.<br />
As yet the walls are white and<br />
empty, awaiting decoration. I barely<br />
have a minute of contemplation<br />
before the room is heaving with<br />
boisterous 8 year olds. I enjoy the<br />
happy hubbub. On first impression<br />
they don’t seem like a bad bunch.<br />
The girls are chatting in intimate<br />
groups and the boys are playfully<br />
kicking one another. But one boy in<br />
particular is standing completely<br />
alone. Sam has a reputation<br />
throughout the<br />
school as being<br />
disruptive in<br />
lessons and<br />
anti-social<br />
towards other<br />
pupils. Even<br />
though I can’t<br />
see his face, I<br />
know it’s him. I<br />
call his name<br />
and he turns<br />
round and<br />
stares at me<br />
dolefully from a<br />
lowered head.<br />
He has the<br />
features of a<br />
cherub; golden<br />
blonde curly<br />
locks frame his<br />
plump face and<br />
48<br />
Paranoia<br />
undergraduate fiction<br />
large sad blue eyes that he stares at<br />
me with. Everyone is seated apart<br />
from him.<br />
“Can you sit down please, Sam?”<br />
I instruct him firmly.<br />
He takes no notice and continues<br />
to stare out of the window.<br />
“Something worth looking at<br />
outside?” I ask, walking closer to<br />
him.<br />
Still he gives no answer.<br />
Running out of the classroom, he<br />
slams the door. Maria, my<br />
classroom assistant, goes after him.<br />
Within minutes he is back, sitting at<br />
his desk, refusing to work. Playing<br />
with the lid of his pen, he is already<br />
wearing my patience.<br />
At lunchtime I purposely sit with<br />
Mr Trent, a small German man<br />
with black hair styled in a slick side<br />
parting. Rude and unwelcoming, he<br />
has few friends among the staff. As<br />
he stares down my top, I ask him<br />
questions about Sam’s behaviour<br />
last year. In between taking large<br />
bites of a greasy sausage sandwich,<br />
the only explanation he can offer for<br />
Paranoia is whispers on the back of hands,<br />
Paranoia is clutching a plane seat before it lands.<br />
Paranoia is feeling watched as you walk upstairs,<br />
Paranoia is finding three grey hairs,<br />
Paranoia is checking your teeth when someone stares.<br />
Paranoia is walking home late at night,<br />
Paranoia is flight over fight.<br />
Paranoia is smoking spliffs on your own,<br />
Paranoia is acid changing music’s tone,<br />
Paranoia is God talking on the phone.<br />
Paranoia is a knife shining bright,<br />
Paranoia is when your throat gets tight.<br />
undergraduate poetry<br />
Kerry Williams<br />
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A Lesson Learned<br />
Laura Brown