INfusion 47 ebook - Summer 2012 - NMIT
INfusion 47 ebook - Summer 2012 - NMIT
INfusion 47 ebook - Summer 2012 - NMIT
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Dusseldorf Lake<br />
S.L. Higgins<br />
141<br />
S.L. Higgins<br />
Misandry<br />
I’ve never known heartbreak. I always prided myself on ending a relationship<br />
before I got hurt; I never got emotionally involved. I made a wall around my<br />
heart: three inches thick and ten metres high. But he got through. He swept<br />
me off my feet and made it harder to breath. He made all the clichés true and<br />
all those silly love songs make sense.<br />
But one day I caught the early train one day and saw him — and her.<br />
Michelle. I guess I had it coming: she was easy; I wasn’t. I envisioned scenarios<br />
of walking over and making a scene, or saying hi because it didn’t bother me;<br />
even though it did. But the truth is, when I saw them, it felt like someone had<br />
… it felt, as clichéd as this sounds, as though someone had sucker-punched<br />
me in the stomach.<br />
I ran off the train and waited thirty minutes in the pouring rain for the<br />
next one. I got three texts from him in that time. I ignored them. He’s with her<br />
— either hiding the fact that we’re an ‘us’, or making fun of me.<br />
When the next train arrived, I grabbed the most secluded seat I could.<br />
I’m sure I’d frighten little kids with my smudged makeup. My hair — once<br />
intricately braided into a bun — was now a destroyed plait, only half resting<br />
on my shoulder like it should.<br />
I took out my iPod and scrolled through my playlist.<br />
‘Nothing Compares 2 U’ — Sinead O’Connor<br />
‘I Will Always Love You’ — Dolly Parton<br />
‘This Kiss’ — Unknown Artist<br />
‘Unchained Melody’ — Righteous Brothers.<br />
Really? As if my day couldn’t get any worse. I kept scrolling until ‘I Hate<br />
Everything About You’ by Three Days Grace came on. Still a love song, but it<br />
works. Why did I change my playlist when I was happy in my relationship with<br />
Sebastian? Where’s my Linkin Park, Green Day, RZA, Chester Bennington —<br />
my pump up music?<br />
Ugh, this is not my day. The train was nowhere near full yet this arse<br />
decided to sit next to me. I sneezed on him, thinking he might be afraid of<br />
germs.<br />
Nope. God damn him. Why wouldn’t he piss off?<br />
‘Hi, I’m James.’ The annoying man reached out his hand.