esprit - Academic Scranton - The University of Scranton
esprit - Academic Scranton - The University of Scranton
esprit - Academic Scranton - The University of Scranton
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La Petite Mort<br />
Danielle Torres<br />
My memory was as jumbled as the mess <strong>of</strong> limbs and bodies<br />
from which I struggled to break free. I can recall a muddle <strong>of</strong> screeching<br />
metal and wafting billows <strong>of</strong> smoke, piercing screams, crashing briefcases<br />
and breakfast sandwiches, and the way the pools <strong>of</strong> red stuff—maybe<br />
ketchup—glimmered intermittently as the electric lights flickered on and<br />
<strong>of</strong>f, like the light dancing merrily on Monet’s lily-pad-covered pond.<br />
I guess that’s what they call a bonding experience. <strong>The</strong> only other<br />
one I remember occurred a year ago. I walked past canvases <strong>of</strong> shimmering<br />
blues and greens, mauves and lavenders, and paused in front <strong>of</strong> Monet’s La<br />
Promenade at the same instant that a girl about my age approached it. Our<br />
two pairs <strong>of</strong> eyes absorbed the painting, drinking in the swirling cream<br />
and blue and buttercup-yellow sky, glistening like an oil spill. A lady in a<br />
verdant field hid in the shadow <strong>of</strong> a parasol while the wind whipped her<br />
hair and peachy-white dress around in graceful, ballet twirls. As I stared at<br />
her hungered gaze, mirrored by that <strong>of</strong> a small boy in the background, my<br />
pulse began to quicken.<br />
<strong>The</strong> girl and I simultaneously turned and our eyes connected:<br />
brown and blue, earth and sky. We smiled, tilting the corners <strong>of</strong> our lips<br />
like the flowing curves <strong>of</strong> the lady’s wind-blown dress, celebrating that<br />
shared experience. I wanted to stay encapsulated in that moment, looking<br />
with longing at the way she tucked her curling chestnut hair behind her<br />
ear, the rosy blush <strong>of</strong> her cheeks, and how the lights above the painting<br />
reflected <strong>of</strong>f the gossamer fabric <strong>of</strong> her ivory sundress. Instead, her<br />
boyfriend came up beside her and put his arm around her delicate shoulder.<br />
As the pair walked away, the girl turned her head back to face me.<br />
She opened her mouth and spoke with the shaky, baritone voice <strong>of</strong> the<br />
conductor, “Ladies and gentlemen, brace yourselves.” Adrenaline-saturated<br />
blood drumming in my head, hair rushing around my face, I stared at the<br />
dilated eyes <strong>of</strong> the people around me. A pale mother clutched her wide-<br />
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