The Human Touch 2013 - University of Colorado Denver
The Human Touch 2013 - University of Colorado Denver
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<strong>The</strong> Saga <strong>of</strong> Ms. White [Continued]<br />
her side and me cheering from the back, but she was obviously weary, waiting<br />
for some amount <strong>of</strong> peace. So on the third discharge attempt, there wasn’t<br />
that tinkling in the air <strong>of</strong> little chimes <strong>of</strong> excitement that there had been during<br />
the fi rst discharge. Instead the news landed hard with a dull thud.<br />
On this day that was supposed to be a triumph, Ms. White was alone for the<br />
fi rst time, and she started to cry. My team let me stay and as she spoke, the<br />
room fi lled with her fears and doubts and worries without her companions to<br />
banish them away. So I fell into the liturgy that I had seen played out so many<br />
times over the past month. I grabbed the notebook and one by one wrote in<br />
her questions with the accompanying answers. I had almost fi lled up the last<br />
few pages when she stopped crying, but I couldn’t leave the ritual incomplete; I<br />
asked if she wanted to pray. She nodded, grabbed my hands, bowed her head<br />
and began; only what she started saying wasn’t for her, it was for me.<br />
As her words poured over me, the past month fl ooded back. How I loved the<br />
OR and procedures and sutures. But the times that stood out, that I waited for<br />
each day,that left me fulfi lled, those were all Ms. White. <strong>The</strong>y were her family<br />
and her confi dantes. It brought back my entrance essay in which I spoke about<br />
how medicine was about advocacy and how I wanted so desperately to fi ll the<br />
role <strong>of</strong> listener and comforter in people’s most vulnerable times. <strong>The</strong> fl urry <strong>of</strong><br />
third year settled and was silent, and I heard a warm, embracing, resonance<br />
that reminded me <strong>of</strong> what gave my work meaning. As she said, “Amen,” I was<br />
refreshed. Tears were now in my eyes, maybe a little unpr<strong>of</strong>essional but she<br />
just smiled. She was back, and she was ready to go home.<br />
So there she was stood only a few hours later, in her loose fi tting black dress.<br />
A little paler, certainly thinner, but there she stood, strong and beautiful. She<br />
had shared all <strong>of</strong> herself with me and renewed my purpose as a physician. So<br />
when she said, “Thank you,” I hope you understand why all I could do was<br />
whisper, “Thank you,” back.<br />
*All names have been changed •<br />
Twilight [Mary Norbury-Glaser]<br />
PG 122<br />
PG 123