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kept on talking, sitting there in his overalls, rolling his cigarettes with the sack hanging in<br />
his teeth. 'I'll just stay here until it blows over. I'll be better off here; cant do anything<br />
outside, anyway. And this will keep her, with maybe something for you until you're better<br />
paid.'<br />
"But I knew what he was thinking. 'I didn't know you were a coward' I said.<br />
"'You do like I say' he said. 'I'll be all right here.' But he doesn't . . ." He sat<br />
forward, rubbing his hands slowly. "He doesn't realize. . . Dammit, say what you want to,<br />
but there's a corruption about even looking upon evil, even by accident; you cannot<br />
haggle, traffic, with putrefaction. You've seen how Narcissa, just hearing about it, how<br />
it's made her restless and suspicious. I thought I had <strong>com</strong>e back here of my own accord,<br />
but now I see that--Do you suppose she thought I was bringing that woman into the house<br />
at night, or something like that?"<br />
"I did too, at first," Miss Jenny said. "But I reckon now she's learned that you'll<br />
work harder for whatever reason you think you have, than for anything anybody could<br />
offer you or give you."<br />
"You mean she'd let me think they never had any money when she--"<br />
"Why not? Aint you doing all right without it?" Narcissa entered.<br />
"We were just talking about murder and crime," Miss Jenny said.<br />
"I hope you're through, then," Narcissa said. She did not sit down.<br />
"Narcissa has her sorrows too," Miss Jenny said. "Dont you, Narcissa?"<br />
"What now?" Horace said. "She hasn't caught Bory with alcohol on his breath, has<br />
she?"<br />
"She's been jilted. Her beau's gone and left her."<br />
"You're such a fool," Narcissa said.<br />
"Yes, sir," Miss Jenny said, "Gowan Stevens has thrown her down. He didn't even<br />
<strong>com</strong>e back from that Oxford dance to say goodbye. He just wrote her a letter." She began<br />
to search about her in the chair. "And now I flinch everytime the doorbell rings, thinking<br />
that his mother-"<br />
"Miss Jenny," Narcissa said, "you give me my letter."<br />
"Wait," Miss Jenny said, "here it is. Now, what do you think of that for a delicate<br />
operation on the human heart without anaesthetics? I'm beginning to believe all this I<br />
hear, about how young folks learn all the things in order to get married, that we had to get<br />
married in order to learn."<br />
Horace took the single sheet.<br />
_Narcissa my dear<br />
This has no heading. I wish it could have no date. But if my heart were as blank as<br />
this page, this would not be necessary at all. I will not see you again. I cannot write it, for<br />
I have gone through with an experience which I cannot -face. I have but one rift in the<br />
darkness, that is that I have injured no one <strong>save</strong> myself by my folly, and that the extent of<br />
that folly you will never learn. I need not say that the hope that you never learn it is the<br />
sole reason why I will not see you again. Think as well of me as you can. I wish I had the<br />
right to say, if you learn of my folly think not the less of me. G._<br />
Horace read the note, the single sheet. He held it between his hand. He did not say<br />
anything for a while.