This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
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THE GURU COMES INTO MY LIFE<br />
All my life, suffering seemed to be my way. I seemed to accept it. What else could I do<br />
But when my nearest and dearest ones were in agony, I lifted my fist to God and shouted in<br />
revolt. <strong>This</strong> revolt, however, did not last. My arm fell down, and, moved by a mysterious impulse, I<br />
fell on my knees and with bowed head said, “Thy will be done, Oh Lord...I want nothing.” <strong>The</strong>n<br />
everything started. My breathing, for instance. <strong>The</strong> movements of my body were not my own any<br />
more. Mudras, Asanas and Pranayama came to me spontaneously, automatically. I watched it all in<br />
perfect composure. I seemed to forget food and sleep, but my half-paralysed body slowly began to<br />
recover movement and strength. My mind did not ask any question, but a holy man spoke to me and<br />
said, “Mystical fervour can burn you up. Now you are in touch with God. Ask for health and<br />
strength.” He was a knowing man, so I obeyed. I knelt down. But even before I could start praying<br />
in the manner advised by the holy man, a mysterious soul whisper came to me, “Don’t you think I<br />
know best Didn’t you say ‘Thy will be done” I did not talk anymore to anyone. I knew that I knew<br />
best and I was at peace. My body had hardly begun to recover movements and strength when<br />
Chidananda came. I left everything without a glance backward. I knew nothing about Yoga and he<br />
was the first Swami I had ever seen. But I knew that I knew him from beginningless time. After the<br />
Satsang, I was the only one who did not ask questions. Swamiji noticed it.<br />
“You have no questions”<br />
I bowed my head in response. My heart was full. And to the Presence within me I said,<br />
“Crucifixion seems to be my way,<br />
but if this be the quickest way<br />
to <strong>The</strong>e, my Lord,<br />
I thank <strong>The</strong>e for Thy mercy.<br />
Didn’t Jesus show us the way”<br />
In Lyons, I was staying in the home of M., a great devotee of Swami Sivananda, when one<br />
day a Swami, who was also a devotee of Swami Sivananda, asked me, “You are so blissful, so<br />
radiant, though you are new to Yoga. How did it all start with you” I answered, “Oh, I don’t know,<br />
it just happened.” But everyone insisted, “You must try and remember. Tonight at dinner, you must<br />
tell us. It would be so inspiring. It would renew our faith.”<br />
That afternoon I did a lot of soul-searching, when suddenly I realised that a new kind of joy<br />
had come into my life.<br />
When had this begun <strong>The</strong>n I remembered, and that night at dinner I told my friends, “I<br />
know when everything really began. It was the day when I first revolted against God and lifted my<br />
fist and shouted at Him. <strong>The</strong>n I fell on my knees and I was made to say, ‘THY WILL BE DONE, I<br />
WANT NOTHING.’” I had hardly finished saying this when the door bell rang insistently. It was<br />
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