This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
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THE POWER THAT PROTECTS<br />
“Oh, no, you did not lie. A friend came all right, and such a friend too! He was there from the<br />
beginning to the end....When you say ‘A big Pranayama came to me’, it was He too. Nothing can<br />
happen to a sincere seeker. <strong>The</strong> Guru will always be there to protect him.”<br />
We went in, and during meditation time I thought about it all. Someone had said, “<strong>The</strong> Guru<br />
knows your subconscious as you will never be able to know. He teaches you that you have to take<br />
obstacles as a help to spiritual growth. He gives you the very tests that will help you to overcome<br />
your very faults.”<br />
How true it was! In that experience I had to face my uncontrollable fear of knives, which<br />
used to be so great that I closed my eyes when I saw a knife in a film-show. It used to be so great that<br />
I always put the knives out of sight even in my kitchen. And then my fear of black men....they seem<br />
so mysterious to me. And most of all, the easy way in which I am repulsed by things or people who<br />
seem ugly to me.<br />
Swamiji often says that repulsion is lack of love. “Don’t find fault with the world outside,<br />
find fault with your own weaknesses. If you surrender to God, He will free you from all the lower<br />
emotions which result from a lack of love. When you overcome obstacles, you will develop will<br />
power. <strong>The</strong> obstacles themselves will thus turn into opportunities for improving and developing<br />
your will and you will progress faster. If you see the expressions only, if you see the manifestations<br />
only and not the underlying Reality, then you will have likes and dislikes, love and hate, good and<br />
evil. When you see the One in the many and all the expressions as expressions of God, then your<br />
attitude towards everybody becomes alike. Ignorance alone is the cause for separation.”<br />
I came to see that I was not treading the path with my own strength. How could I have<br />
overcome my fears, my very terrible weaknesses in that experience I thought of Chidananda. He<br />
had taken me by the hand, and there was no turning back. I had surrendered to him, how could there<br />
be any danger, any fall But the very next night I was made to realise that I was yet far from being<br />
the ideal devotee. Now, this is what happened.<br />
In the Yoga Centre I was told, “You better disappear for a while. Harry will change, he will<br />
see by now that he has spoken too much.” So I went to the country Centre that very afternoon. And<br />
when night came, I was overcome by fear as I saw a black man in the corridor of my isolated<br />
bungalow. I asked a friend to come and sleep in my room. As I lay on my bed reflecting, I came to<br />
realise that the night before my strength had been great as long as I was upheld by the strength of the<br />
Guru, the strength of Infinity. But now that I was left to the strength of my own individual<br />
personality, I was not fearless anymore. I began to feel that I must not waste time anymore. I had<br />
been so near to death. I realised that life could end at any moment. <strong>The</strong>n I remembered the story I<br />
had heard Chidananda tell:<br />
“A man was asked to go around the world and to come back and tell his Guru what was the<br />
most extraordinary thing he had found in the whole of creation. After years, he came back and said,<br />
‘<strong>The</strong> most incredible thing I have seen is that men everywhere see death around them and yet they<br />
never think it will happen to them one day, and they forget to prepare for the journey’.”<br />
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