This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
This Monk From India - The Divine Life Society
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“Relate your own experiences too,” they said, “for though we can read such things in books,<br />
it is so inspiring to see it happening to one of us, someone we know, one who led a very happy life<br />
and who was very much attached to everything, to everyone around her, her husband, her children,<br />
even to her country, and her security, and possessed no special qualities whatsoever.”<br />
But as I found myself unable to speak in front of a tape recorder, I started to write in<br />
long-hand. At first I was a little apprehensive as I tried to describe the wonders of Swamiji’s<br />
saintliness, his awe-inspiring greatness; for, how could something which surpasses human<br />
understanding be put into words Also, how could I speak of a philosophy I knew so little about<br />
Was not my way of Yoga more a way of acceptance and experience first, with knowledge coming<br />
slowly afterwards<br />
But, as I went on with my work, a great joy came over me; for writing about Swamiji meant I<br />
was in his invisible presence all day; his grace guiding me, help coming from all sides.<br />
When the book was practically finished, some <strong>India</strong>n ladies, great and sincere devotees of<br />
Swamiji, told me, “You should not have been so short in the description of how you met Swamiji<br />
and of your own experiences. For us <strong>India</strong>ns, it is the most inspiring part, especially as you are a<br />
Westerner.”<br />
So I added a few pages, where I tried to describe the role of Chidananda in my life and the<br />
wonders of his guidance, which I was then made to realise anew; and a song of gratitude, a song of<br />
joy welled up in my heart. If I had been reluctant to write about my sufferings and trials, I was now<br />
made to be happy because I realised that it would bring a message of hope to all the suffering ones.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y would know forever, as Charles de Foueault expresses so beautifully, that “the darker the<br />
night of suffering, the more radiant the ‘life’ of pure love and joy that emerges from it”.<br />
Now I must say a special thanks to Sri Ananthanarayanan who took the. responsibility of<br />
editing, planning and supervising the production of the book in all its stages.<br />
I shall never forget the day of the celebrations of Swami Chidananda’s jubilee when he<br />
arrived from Delhi only just in time to give me the book so as to present it to Swamiji. He was<br />
exhausted after the many troubles he had to get the book printed because of the many strikes in<br />
Delhi. And the way he rushed up the hundred steps of the mountain to bow and offer his work at the<br />
feet of Sivananda, his beloved guru, moved me deeply. I will never forget the way he had the<br />
patience to decipher the pages about my son’s death. I had written them for myself. <strong>The</strong> mechanics<br />
of writing and the profuse tears that I had shed while doing it had seemed to relieve me and keep me<br />
alive. But the tears had wet the paper and made it practically impossible to read what I had written.<br />
Ananthanarayanan often had to put the sheets of paper against a light so as to be able to read<br />
my words.<br />
<strong>The</strong> feelings he felt for the book, the intuition he had that I could write and transmit them,<br />
and the perseverance with which he infused courage into me to publish the book afterwards is also<br />
something rare. So if the book has helped many a seeking soul, it is in great part to him that their<br />
hearts should turn to in gratitude.<br />
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