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Stefen Styrsky<br />
“Ian, you’re going to hurt yourself.”<br />
He makes a fart noise with his lips. “Hardly. How bombed was I at<br />
the championship” he says.<br />
“I think everyone was surprised you could walk,” Seth says.<br />
“And I went on to what” He wags a finger at Seth. “Not lose, but<br />
what”<br />
Seth has never seen Ian from this vantage. His legs are piled beneath<br />
him, forgotten, and he clings upright to Seth’s calf.<br />
“I’ll tell you,” Ian says. “I went on to win three straight.”<br />
“You need to get a hold of yourself,” Seth says.<br />
Ian cups his crotch and laughs. “All I need is a bump,” he says. “A<br />
little crystal fixes anything.”<br />
“You used at the championship” Seth asks. He’d no idea Ian had started<br />
that far back. This should trouble him, but instead Seth notices Ian’s<br />
mouth is at just the right level. It would be so easy to unzip his pants.<br />
A friend on the edge and all he wants is a blowjob. Seth considers<br />
stabbing the scissors into his thigh.<br />
“Give me a few minutes,” he says.<br />
He puts the newspaper clipping in a manila folder where he keeps<br />
other items that form a random catalog of his life: immunization records,<br />
a U.S. savings bond, his mother’s obituary.<br />
For once Ian buys drinks. During the third round of vodka-cranberries,<br />
his eyelids start to droop and then his head hangs forward.<br />
He shakes himself awake and says he has to see a friend in the restroom.<br />
When Ian returns, sweat beads his forehead, a leer exposes teeth.<br />
“Tina,” he says. “The queen of drugs.”<br />
He is such a wreck, Seth thinks. He’ll never make it at this rate. Years<br />
later, when Seth remembers this night, he realizes it was one of the few<br />
times he knew what came next.<br />
4.<br />
Seth and his mom hug goodbye at the nurse’s station. He reels, suddenly<br />
aware he towers over the bony, trembling woman in his arms. She was<br />
never tall. His height comes from his dad. But even when he outgrew his<br />
mom, Seth still always believed he was shorter.<br />
The floor seems far away, his head a balloon near the ceiling. His<br />
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