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“You’re so romantic,” I said, watching him with a smile as he pulled my jeans down over my hips<br />
and knees, and finally my ankles.<br />
Bryce stood at my feet, unbuckling his belt and then unbuttoning his jeans. He used the toes on his<br />
right foot to pull off his left sneaker, and then repeated the action on the other side before kicking it<br />
aside. He pulled his cream henley over his head and tossed it on top of a growing pile of his clothing.<br />
I reached down to the sides of my panties and lifted my hips and pushed down the fabric at the<br />
same time. It had stopped being romantic for him to undress me over a year ago, and that was one<br />
thing that hadn’t changed in the last few days. My feet flutte<strong>red</strong> back and forth a few times before my<br />
panties catapulted to a dark corner of the room, and then Bryce reached down to pull off my socks at<br />
the same time. We were smiling, relaxed and comfortable; our sexcapades had graduated from trying<br />
to be sexy or feeling uneasy long before that evening.<br />
After pushing down his jeans and stepping out of them, he lowe<strong>red</strong> himself on top of me, kissing<br />
the corner of my mouth. To my surprise, he kept kissing me without advancing to any other part of my<br />
body. Just before I asked him if everything was okay, his head slumped and he buried his face in my<br />
neck.<br />
“I can’t.”<br />
“You . . . can’t”<br />
He fell onto his back next to me on the mattress, staring at the ceiling. “I think I’m too stressed. Or<br />
ti<strong>red</strong>. Or both.”<br />
“Oh. Oh.” I shouldn’t have been so surprised. Sometimes before a basketball game he couldn’t get<br />
it up, either. The end of the world definitely qualified as a source of anxiety. I guess knowing it had<br />
been over a week made me assume he would be beyond capable. “It’s okay,” I said, snuggling closer<br />
to his chest. “I like just being like this, too.”<br />
Bryce took a deep breath and blew it out, making my hair tickle my face. “We’re going to be at<br />
your dad’s tomorrow. We may never have sex again. It’s not okay.”<br />
I giggled. “We’ve been sneaky before.”<br />
Bryce wrapped both of his arms around me, and kissed my temple. “I wouldn’t want to be<br />
anywhere else, you know. I’m glad it happened this way.”<br />
“Yeah”<br />
“I might have gone crazy worrying about you otherwise.”<br />
I closed my eyes and listened to Bryce’s breath as he inhaled and exhaled. He fidgeted more than<br />
usual, still restless for any number of reasons. I fantasized again about the look on Dad’s face as we<br />
pulled up into the drive, and wonde<strong>red</strong> what his reaction would be to Nathan and Zoe. He wouldn’t<br />
turn Zoe away, but desperate times made people do weird things.<br />
“Bullshit!” Cooper said from the living room.<br />
Bryce and I stood up quickly and got dressed, both awkwardly reentering the world, feeling like<br />
everyone knew what we were supposed to be doing but weren’t. My fingers knotted in my hair as I<br />
twisted it up into a messy bun and sat on the floor with my sister. She sat next to Cooper, and Joey<br />
was standing by the window, peeking intermittently through the crack.<br />
Joey managed a small, amused smile. “No, I’m completely serious.”