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“No. Zoe’s in there.”<br />
“So”<br />
“No,” I said, shaking my head, disgusted in Zoe’s honor. “I remember walking in on my parents,<br />
once. It scar<strong>red</strong> me for life.”<br />
“My parents split up when I was four,” Joey said. “I don’t remember what it’s like to have them<br />
both in the house.”<br />
“Your mom never dated”<br />
“Once or twice. I did a pretty good job of scaring them off. I was a hateful little shit.”<br />
I smiled. “I can see that.”<br />
Nathan<br />
I DIDN’T MEAN TO KEEP making comparisons, but Aubrey was the first woman I’d ever loved. So I had<br />
to wonder, now, feeling the way I did about Scarlet, if I just loved her differently than I ever had<br />
Aubrey, or if it meant I’d never really loved Aubrey at all.<br />
My life went from one disappointing day to another, to keeping track of time by how much was<br />
spent with Scarlet, and how much time was spent between the moments I spent with her. We would sit<br />
on the porch and wait together, and she would tell me about her girls, how funny and smart and<br />
talented they were, and what it was like to bring them into this world. She talked about her marriage,<br />
and her decision to leave. I’d already thought she was maybe the strongest, bravest woman I’d met,<br />
but to listen to how alone she was in that decision, with no support, I couldn’t help but be in awe of<br />
her.<br />
Each night was a buildup to when I would finally have enough balls to touch her. Sometimes I<br />
would play it off with a nudge, or a playful smack on her leg, and she wouldn’t mind if I left it there.<br />
Childish, but she was nothing if not intimidating . . . and distractingly beautiful. I found it difficult not<br />
to stare at her, and was glad for the dim light after the sun went down, and that the darkness gave me<br />
an excuse to concentrate on her mouth while she spoke.<br />
It felt strange—this happiness I’d found in such a dark time. But with Zoe content in our new home<br />
and the routine we’d found, and finding Scarlet, the only thing that bothe<strong>red</strong> me was what life would<br />
have been like without death descending on the world. What did it mean that I’d had such good<br />
fortune when so many had lost everything<br />
Sitting on the top step of the porch next to Scarlet, it was easy to forget the nightmare that was just<br />
beyond that <strong>hill</strong>, and that she wasn’t just outside spending time with me, but passing the time while<br />
waiting for her children, the true loves of her life.<br />
“I’m still sweating,” Scarlet said, letting go of my hand to lift the collar of her T-shirt to dab her<br />
forehead. “Summer must be in full swing.”<br />
The locust and crickets were taking over the symphony the birds had just ended. “It’s going to be