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“Hey, Skeeter,” I called, looking up to the roof. He poked his head over the edge. “You see Joey<br />
or Ashley”<br />
Skeeter pointed south, but didn’t say a word.<br />
I walked out to the barn, but Butch and I were the only two around.<br />
Several emotions bubbled to the surface: confusion, worry, and even suspicion. Noises from<br />
behind the barn piqued my curiosity, so I peeked around the corner. Joey and Ashley were standing in<br />
the field together. She was holding the rifle, and he was trying to help her hold it correctly. He said<br />
something, making her drop the barrel toward the ground a bit. His hand was on her hip for a fraction<br />
of a second. They began to laugh, the ugly kind that produces tears. Joey even doubled over and<br />
steadied himself with his hands on his knees.<br />
My face instantly flushed and my eyes filled with tears. At first I was angry with Ashley. She’d<br />
been walking around the house nearly comatose, not responding to anyone or anything. All she’d done<br />
for almost ten days was cry and sleep. Every time I tried to talk to her, she’d just get angry. But in the<br />
field with Joey, she was herself again. Laughing and joking like Cooper hadn’t been shot in the face<br />
right in front of her less than two weeks before. Suddenly, alone with Joey, she was just fine.<br />
I stifled back a sob, letting the jealousy, and then the guilt, swallow me whole. Of course Ashley<br />
deserved to do something other than be miserable. How could I say that I loved her and then be angry<br />
with her for having a moment of peace I slowly let myself slide to the ground and sat in the dirt.<br />
Sweat was forming along my hairline, and a drop finally fell just in front of my ear. It was like an<br />
oven, even in the shade, but Ashley and Joey didn’t notice they were baking with the sun shining<br />
straight down on them.<br />
She was alone now, and so was Joey. They would talk about their loss, and find comfort in one<br />
another, and I would have to watch them because I had nowhere else to go. I closed my eyes and let<br />
my head fall back against the wall of the barn. God, I was a horrid, selfish bitch.<br />
Joey’s and Ashley’s voices got louder, and I realized they were walking my way. I stayed very<br />
still and didn’t dare breathe, afraid they would catch me eavesdropping and crying over them like a<br />
crazy person. I was convinced they would both know why if they saw me. Thankfully, they were too<br />
busy impressing each other to see me, and continued to the house. I finally took a deep breath and let<br />
out a quiet cry. I said once that I wouldn’t want Joey if he were the last man on earth. Now I was just<br />
horrible enough to wish we were the last ones on earth so I could have him to myself.<br />
That night at dinner, Ashley and Joey sat next to each other. They carried on about their afternoon<br />
and how awful a shot she was. For absolutely no reason at all, I was annoyed with Ashley’s voice<br />
and the entire conversation. No one else was talking, just listening to them go on and on and on about<br />
how funny that was, and how hilarious this was, and bragging about how much help Ashley needed.<br />
“We’ve decided she needs some serious help, and this should be a daily thing until she gets<br />
better.”<br />
“Sounds like a good idea,” Nathan said, nodding.<br />
“You’ve shot a gun before, Ashley. I don’t understand how you’d be so bad at it,” I said.<br />
Ashley chuckled, and then when she realized I wasn’t amused, she stopped altogether. “I haven’t<br />
shot that much.”