The End and the Beginning - Open Book Publishers
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<strong>The</strong> <strong>End</strong> <strong>and</strong> <strong>the</strong> <strong>Beginning</strong>: On-line Supplement<br />
of <strong>the</strong> old homel<strong>and</strong> had fluttered. <strong>The</strong> Señora tapped <strong>the</strong> table impatiently<br />
with her needle. She could not wait to hear how many had perished in<br />
<strong>the</strong> disaster. <strong>The</strong> captain – good; <strong>and</strong> <strong>the</strong> first officer – good; <strong>and</strong> twenty<br />
sailors – only twenty sailors? And <strong>the</strong> second officer had been saved along<br />
with <strong>the</strong> rest of <strong>the</strong> crew? <strong>The</strong> Señora wrinkled her brow: “Poor show,” she<br />
muttered to her husb<strong>and</strong>. “What was God thinking of, allowing all of those<br />
to be saved?”<br />
She reached for her netting again <strong>and</strong> pulled <strong>the</strong> knots tighter <strong>and</strong><br />
tighter, as though she was tying a noose around <strong>the</strong> neck of one of those<br />
who had been saved <strong>and</strong> drawing it ever tighter.<br />
“Yes,” Señor Geraldo said to an acquaintance one day. “She has been like<br />
that for five years now. At night she gets up, turns on <strong>the</strong> light, <strong>and</strong> re-reads<br />
<strong>the</strong> old newspapers from <strong>the</strong> first to <strong>the</strong> last page. She is afraid that I may<br />
not have reported all <strong>the</strong> deaths to her. And <strong>the</strong>n she comes back to bed<br />
<strong>and</strong> whispers <strong>the</strong> names of <strong>the</strong> dead to herself. No she doesn’t need sleep.<br />
One or two hours are enough for her. At <strong>the</strong> crack of dawn, she wakes up<br />
<strong>and</strong> shakes me to awaken me also. She asks how long it will be before <strong>the</strong><br />
newspaper comes. Every day she again believes that <strong>the</strong> front page will<br />
carry <strong>the</strong> news of <strong>the</strong> fall of <strong>the</strong> regime. And in <strong>the</strong> meantime, she contents<br />
herself with deaths <strong>and</strong> catastrophes; she collects <strong>the</strong>m <strong>and</strong> reads <strong>the</strong>m out<br />
to herself from her diary. As if to pray. <strong>The</strong>n she knots her netting. I have no<br />
idea how many pieces of netting she has stored in her trunks or how large<br />
<strong>the</strong>y are. Yes, in her trunks. In <strong>the</strong> five years we have been here she has<br />
never unpacked her trunks. “What for?” she would ask. “Tomorrow or <strong>the</strong><br />
day after tomorrow we could be going home. And it would be a shame to<br />
have to waste time packing.”<br />
In a frame of springtime in Switzerl<strong>and</strong>, blossoming fruit-trees, <strong>the</strong> blue<br />
waters of a lake, <strong>and</strong> a large, bright hall, I see before me <strong>the</strong> long forgotten<br />
image of <strong>the</strong> dark-eyed woman whose fingers work restlessly on her<br />
netting <strong>and</strong> on whose thin pale lips a smile forms from time to time as she<br />
whispers to herself “Muerto, muerto, muerto!”<br />
“Die Senora,” Die Zeitung (London), 1 April 1941; Zeitspiegel (London), 8<br />
June 1946; Arbeiter-Zeitung (Vienna), 18 February 1949.