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Chauna Craig<br />
Boxcar Willie Doesn’t Live Here Anymore<br />
This train whistle is more a horn. Long and loud and musical—blown into the wind before a storm.<br />
Through town, the heavy mechanical whining wheels, their bass rhythm thumping through my walls, pulsing<br />
up the soles of my feet. I lean into the feeling of sound. How my blood wants to follow and hop an open<br />
car and be taken…somewhere.<br />
The Railway Killer followed a line in the late 90s that took him within yards of a house where I slept. It<br />
wasn’t my house, though my cousin had once lived there. In Arkansas, expect that. My lover lived there.<br />
The horn never blew, the trains just rolled through. Expect that too. That summer I screamed when a<br />
Junebug knocked the screen. I screamed and called for a man because something deep inside me believed: if<br />
men could kill, they could also save.<br />
It was only a Junebug, sometimes called a May beetle. The neighbors had a pit fire, our windows open to the<br />
charred night.<br />
I have wanted to be taken. Silent whistle to a Grim Reaper in the form of a Junebug batting my screen day<br />
and night until the wire starts to unravel.<br />
Present perfect. I have wanted.<br />
In this perfect present, the train whistle blows forever. A loneliness I cannot capture and that cannot capture<br />
me.<br />
Present perfect continuous: you haven’t been listening. And so, I’m tense.<br />
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