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Kristin LaTour<br />
After the Sewol Sank, 2014<br />
There are empty spaces in the rooms<br />
our children are not crowded into, no cries.<br />
We stand on the beach and call their<br />
names into the wind, but they are just<br />
carried back to us, transparent. We<br />
are not grateful for imagination and<br />
experience. The water is cold. Underneath<br />
the surface is dark. The boats pump air<br />
into the cavities to keep the ferry afloat.<br />
They are like lungs. The ferry is a shark.<br />
One mother asks, see, this child, round<br />
faced, almond eyes, laughing? She loved<br />
goats and sparklers. Another shows her child<br />
dancing in a loop, hula hoop around his waist.<br />
Their bodies are now cradled by arms that weep<br />
seawater when they bring them above.<br />
They are <strong>shr</strong>ouded in a tent, then blankets.<br />
We are told their fingers are broken.<br />
How hard they tried to climb out, how<br />
metal doesn’t care about tendons and bone.<br />
The searchers are blind, reach forward<br />
in the darkness for softness. The water is cold.<br />
Underneath the surface is dark. There is<br />
nothing between them and our daughters’ hair<br />
flowing black, the jelly of our sons’ eyes, the supple<br />
breast or curve of a knee. We try to be thankful<br />
for touch and connection, that fingers can feel.<br />
They are <strong>shr</strong>ouded in a bag, the a tent, then blankets,<br />
then caskets. We are asked to look at their hands<br />
and ankles, find marks that show they belong<br />
to someone. We do not see their faces.<br />
We want to be thankful for their youth<br />
the soft breath of sleep we watched when<br />
they were just born. We want to be thankful<br />
that they were together in the end, embracing<br />
each other until—<br />
The monks continue praying, eyes closed, facing<br />
the sea, silent and wrapped in orange cloaks. Mourners’<br />
candles are shielded from the wind by cups. Who shielded<br />
our children from the water? Who will shield us<br />
as we walk before their two hundred portraits, the scent<br />
of lilies perfuming our grief?<br />
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