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Sarah Miller Freehauf<br />
Melancholia Blinks<br />
The morning of the massacre<br />
I found two of them. Babies.<br />
Likely born within minutes<br />
of one another. But I couldn’t<br />
ask their mother. She stood dumb,<br />
blinkless. On the edge of concrete.<br />
Both of their bodies rose and fell.<br />
With a slam of the screen door<br />
Daniel somehow picked them<br />
both up. No bleeting.<br />
Likely bleeding.<br />
I sat upstairs in squares of sun. Waiting for their charcoal to rest.<br />
The lambing-time. The hard hours.<br />
Later I found them. Dry. One<br />
with her head facing sun. Half-yelling<br />
eyes not old enough. He curled as<br />
tightly as when he fell. Head tucked.<br />
Isn’t that how it is? Head up, head down,<br />
death. No matter the matter.<br />
I used a silver kitchen spoon to dig their graves.<br />
A spoon. Because they were so very small.<br />
I threw it away and vowed no food that day.<br />
Later, I saw him eating animal off a bone.<br />
We do that, as humans. Spoon-dig graves<br />
eat our own after. In fellowship.<br />
In their grave now. Head up, head down.<br />
A burnt offering for the Midwestern haze.<br />
I can see their blood pigment to black.<br />
Carbon bones gone soft. Blood gone hard.<br />
How long does this all take?<br />
Soft hearts, always blink.<br />
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