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He wants you at His feet. He wants you to hang on<br />
His every word, to choose the good thing that will<br />
not be taken from you (Luke 10:42). I want to see<br />
women empowered to choose Him.<br />
This world is so broken, so harsh and so altogether<br />
temporary. Even our alabaster flasks and our<br />
expensive ointments, the very best of what we<br />
have, are completely worthless unless we use them<br />
to anoint our precious King.<br />
Can I encourage you today? Perhaps you are<br />
running at full speed, the weights flung off in your<br />
rearview. I want to cheer you on. I don’t want<br />
to stand like the disciples did while that woman<br />
broke her alabaster on Jesus’ feet, questioning the<br />
wastefulness of the sacrifice. I want to say, “Yes!<br />
You chose rightly! Keep running! Wash His feet<br />
with your tears! Yes, He is worth it!”<br />
And if you haven’t made that choice, yet? If you,<br />
even now, are feeling that beautiful weight of<br />
conviction on your heart, can I help you? Can I<br />
expose the lie of the enemy that comes in the form<br />
of shame? Shame is a lie and the devil is a liar!<br />
You are desired by our Father. You are loved and<br />
wanted and it doesn’t matter what you see anyone<br />
else doing. He wants your creative best from you.<br />
He wants your expression of worship. He wants to<br />
hear your voice and see your face. Let today be the<br />
day you pray the prayer and make a declaration of<br />
radical devotion. You don’t have to understand it.<br />
I didn’t. I didn’t understand it at all, but let me tell<br />
you something: I pray it every day now because if<br />
there’s more of Him, I want it. If there are deeper<br />
waters, I want to walk on them. If there’s another<br />
alabaster place in my heart, I want to break it.<br />
Let this be the random day that changes everything<br />
you are. Repeat after me, and know He will be<br />
faithful to respond,<br />
“Let me love you more. Help me know you<br />
more. Give me more of you, Jesus. I want to be<br />
RADICAL.”<br />
I Still Choose Me<br />
Mallory Jenkins<br />
“I would rather be what God chose to make me<br />
than the most glorious creature that I could think<br />
of; for to have been thought about, born in God’s<br />
thought and then made by God, is the dearest,<br />
grandest and most precious thing in all thinking.”<br />
-C.S. Lewis<br />
For the longest time I didn’t want to be me. I<br />
vividly remember telling my mom that I was tired<br />
of having to be Mallory. I didn’t want to be who I<br />
was anymore; I just couldn’t do it. I felt trapped,<br />
itching to crawl out of my own skin, desperately<br />
wishing I wouldn’t have to continue on as me.<br />
Yet now, even with how hard it is to live in this<br />
body, even with all the challenges I have and will<br />
always have, it feels amazingly refreshing to say<br />
that “I honestly, really want to be ME.” Regardless<br />
of how painful daily life may be-- I still choose<br />
me... Because God chose me.<br />
The last three years have contained suffering<br />
beyond what I thought was possible. At the age<br />
of 20 my life went from that of a healthy, strong,<br />
thriving college student, to the life of a terribly<br />
ill, weak, suffering, dying patient. Still, I wouldn’t<br />
swap my suffering, pawn my pain, turn back<br />
time...even if it meant never having to endure the<br />
torture. I would not edit the beautiful story God<br />
has graciously chosen to write through my life. The<br />
lessons I’ve learned and am learning every single<br />
day are treasures that can only be found in the<br />
dark.<br />
And that, dear sisters, is the power of Our King.<br />
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