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A Person Without a Story, A Person Without a Name<br />
Christine Satory’s Story by Michael Brockley<br />
Christine is 58 years old.<br />
Call me NoName Changeling. I was born in the year the Lumbee stood down the<br />
Klan in the Battle of Maxton Field. The government placed mixed-blood babies with<br />
white adoptive families. The children with blond or red hair. With blue or green eyes.<br />
America’s forgotten children. My hair was as red as wild strawberries. My eyes, the<br />
color of luna moths. Even then, my skin was light. In Canada, I carry papers that say I<br />
am Métis but, in my country, I have no tribe.<br />
In my country, I have no tribe. I am a split-feather. One of the lost birds set apart<br />
from the legends of Nanabozho. I never sat in a circle while the grandfathers spoke of<br />
how Nanabozho dwells among the seraphim of the Northern lights on a great island of<br />
floating ice. I am neither Potawatomi nor Ojibwa. Neither Menominee nor Kickapoo.<br />
I am the daughter who dreams of feeding her grand-daughters pemmican.<br />
I am the daughter who feeds her grand-daughters pemmican made from a recipe<br />
printed in a book. I read Roget’s Thesaurus in search of synonyms for the language<br />
I cannot speak. I rescue abandoned words and shield them from harm’s way. Quid<br />
nunc. Gobsmacked. Hear me when I tell you, the songs my ancestors bequeathed me<br />
remain unsung. I do not resemble the silver screen image of Sacagawea, but I joined<br />
the caravan to Pine Ridge to restore what was stolen. Each day I thank the spirit leader<br />
whose gift to me was her trust. And the elders who told me to follow my spirit.<br />
The elders told me to follow my spirit. My first husband sought his heritage among<br />
his Choctaw roots. My husband, like a Hollywood Indian from Thunderheart or<br />
Dances with Wolves. Black hair, brown eyes and copper skin. Stoic until his final<br />
devastation. Our sons danced in midwestern powwows. Grew their blond hair long to<br />
hold their mysteries and prayers. Were taunted in the high school halls. Others at the<br />
powwows complained of wannabes to the BIA. They stripped the feathers from my<br />
sons’ regalia. One son was a drummer. The other a firekeeper. I taught my sons to live<br />
with honor, and they honor their mother. My sons walked away. I cut my hair. Still I<br />
walk in a spirit way.<br />
I walk in a spirit way. I host a feast for dancers who travel with wolves. I serve<br />
squash, maize and beans. The Three Sisters. We sing for The Child of Many Colors.<br />
Practice trills. I wear long skirts. One summer, fifty people from a Bible camp stood<br />
in my lawn to ask if I had been saved. I ordered a statue of Pan for the front yard.<br />
They never returned. I teach college freshmen to celebrate mistakes in their paintings.<br />
To see beyond the limits of oil and water. For my fiftieth birthday, I had a phoenix<br />
tattooed the length of my arm. I dyed my short hair teal. To remind myself how to live<br />
as a mixed-blood in Indiana. How to live in this age without my ancestor songs. I live<br />
without a name and without a people. I walk alone in a spirit way.<br />
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