UNCOMFORTABLE CONVERSATION

I had prayed and when nothing was answered l just stopped
praying! Then l blamed God for all my problems and hid
behind my job. Someone once told me l lost myself and l was
living people’s lives instead of mine. I never went back to see
her. So when I joined Alabastron I was hoping to sort out my
life, find the missing link that had made my life crumble.
and nowhere
in my wildest
dreams would
l expect this to
be the core of
my problems
for Him in my life.
One of the things I realized during
the program was that my
relationship with God was not
right (and nowhere in my wildest
dreams would l expect this to be
the core of my problems).
I had put him aside after going to
campus and slowly,
I stopped experiencing His love
and favor. I did things my way.
Yes l went to church once in a
while but l never acknowledged need
My experience during the 2weeks was powerful. A roller
coaster of emotions. The first week was tough!!! I wanted to
run away at some point…!! But that was my turning point.
Hahaha! But I am also very grateful to my friend Sally for
following up and pushing me to do this program, l would not
have made it to class. I had a lot going on but l managed to
put everything aside to be there for myself.
Right now, I can see. I can breathe. I have this peace that
l cannot explain. I feel like I am in control of MY life. I can
choose what is important and what is not, l can influence, I
can enjoy my SELF. I am happy. I am living life, not just being.
I make decisions that are healthy for me. I chose what to let
into my heart.
DADAZINE
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