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S.E.C.R.E.T., I’d never be sitting in the middle of a plaza across from the Casa Rosada watching old<br />
men—wearing well-made tweed coats—playing chess, while nearby couples caressed each other in<br />
the sun.<br />
I walked the neighborhoods from Recoleta to Palermo, from San Telmo to Boca, scouring secondhand<br />
shops, finding out who their suppliers were and how they priced goods. First thing I noticed in a<br />
city of tall, thin brunettes with aquiline noses (some inherited, most purchased) is that my curvy<br />
”Americanness” stood out. Nothing I tried on in the vintage stores fit, which left some of the shop<br />
girls more mortified than I was.<br />
“Lo siento, señora,” said the tiny, nervous proprietor of a beautifully curated vintage store near the<br />
Recoleta cemetery. At another store I couldn’t do up a pencil skirt.<br />
“My darling,” said a kind, elderly store clerk in his perfect English. He’d sensed my funk while<br />
cashing out a set of tea towels and a linen tablecloth. “Do not let your body make you sad. It is a good<br />
body.”<br />
Thanking him, I left, carefully navigating the narrow sidewalks with the other pedestrians, trying<br />
unsuccessfully to act like a local as I tripped over the potholes while ogling the gargoyles and<br />
cupolas on some of the more stunning buildings.<br />
In La Boca, eating sweet alfajores and sipping mate, a kind of tea, I watched an elderly couple<br />
dancing a slow public tango. He was a few inches shorter than her and twice as small, and she was<br />
wearing too much makeup for daytime. But these oddities made them more attractive, more<br />
compelling. Their dance was achingly intimate, the way they performed for a crowd of strangers<br />
gathering in the square at dusk. I was moved nearly to tears by the music, and the expressions of pain<br />
and love on their faces. If she could be so vulnerable in front of so many people, in broad daylight,<br />
what the hell was I afraid of? Maybe that was true generosity. Giving of yourself, just as you are, for<br />
the sake of a dance.<br />
That night I actually needed Ernesto’s proffered hand to help me out of the back seat of the limo and to<br />
unravel the mass of red feathers surrounding my tango dress. I was not at all surprised that the dress<br />
fit perfectly, but I was shocked at how flattering it was. The bodice encased me snugly, my breasts<br />
spilling over the top. Below the dropped waist, the dress tufted into a mass of feathers that floated<br />
down to my calves. I felt like a goddess emerging from a scarlet ocean.<br />
“Gracias.”<br />
“Por nada,” he said, bowing again. “You look … lindísima in that dress, Señorita Dauphine.”<br />
I gave Ernesto a nervous smile and glanced down the narrow alley towards the tango club’s neon<br />
entrance. Very few people were on this secluded street at midnight.<br />
“I meet you right here … after?”<br />
He motioned me forward with his white-gloved hands. I’ll be okay, I’ll be okay. As I inched<br />
closer to the mournful, lilting music wafting out of the dark club, a kind-faced doorman, also gloved,<br />
opened a gap in the velvet curtains hanging in the entrance.<br />
“We’ve been waiting for you, Dauphine.”<br />
Oh dear. I ducked inside, feeling faint. A dozen couples turned to look my way, as though they had<br />
been expecting me. I was led around the tiny tables to a banquette against the far wall. As I took my<br />
seat, a sprightly waitress wearing a white tutu and black-and-white-striped stockings dropped a pink<br />
drink in front of me.