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evident <strong>on</strong> Louis’ face as he scrolls to answer. “Liam, how’ve you been, beautiful?”<br />
“Most divine, thank you. You seem to be chipper today, what’s the oh-ccasi<strong>on</strong>?”<br />
“Nothing, just enjoying the world, I’ve decorated in lavender, Liam. You know, the color of<br />
calm?” Louis picks at his nails, removing any remnants that may have been lodged during his last<br />
little project. Which actually turned out to be a complete bust.<br />
“What happened to ‘tree-canopy’ green?”<br />
“Still <strong>on</strong>e of my favorites, but after all the stress of this week I needed to be surrounded in<br />
something that would help me breathe a little easier. The color of nature doesn’t do much when<br />
you’re bordering a panic attack, you know.”<br />
“Why are you bordering a panic attack? Is this because of m<strong>on</strong>ey, again?”<br />
Louis lifts himself from the bed, blissfully <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> easily as he finds his way into the bathroom,<br />
lighting another c<str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g>le before running a stream of <str<strong>on</strong>g>burn</str<strong>on</strong>g>ing hot water, “M<strong>on</strong>ey is but an object,<br />
something that defines worth, <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> it’s not going to bog me down. I refuse to worry about paper,<br />
when my mind is better occupied elsewhere.”<br />
“You live al<strong>on</strong>e, Louis. You need a steady source of income. You have resp<strong>on</strong>sibilities <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> such,<br />
it’s not the time to brush everything off like it’s not important.”<br />
“What other choice do I have, exactly? I cannot force myself into a painting, you know that they<br />
come when they’re ready. There’s nothing I can do to speed the process. Is this news to you?”<br />
“No. But, you’re like a brother to me <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> I refuse to watch you lose yourself in debt because<br />
you’re so focused <strong>on</strong> being artistic about everything. Call dad, tell him you need a little help. But<br />
you need to start looking for another job, just t’give you that stability, okay?”<br />
“Breaking every individual b<strong>on</strong>e in my body sounds more enjoyable than that, Liam.” Louis<br />
murmurs. Steam is rolling over the surface of the water as he dips his toes in, feeling the heat run<br />
in bursts up his legs. All over his body, <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> he sucks in a sharp breath. “I told him if he wouldn’t<br />
be supportive of my lifestyle, then I didn’t want him in my life at all. He pounded it into my head<br />
that I would certainly meet failure, but this is what makes me happy. I can’t give him the<br />
satisfacti<strong>on</strong> of knowing I need his help.”<br />
“So you admit it,” Liam says through the line, <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> Louis’ body is matching the temperature of the<br />
water, mostly because he’s starting to get really pissed off, “You need dad’s help?”<br />
“D<strong>on</strong>’t fucking start this, he has a formal invitati<strong>on</strong> to kiss my ass, that’s about it. I d<strong>on</strong>’t want his<br />
pity.”<br />
“You spend too much m<strong>on</strong>ey decorating your flat in all different colors, then you d<strong>on</strong>’t even have<br />
enough to pay your fucking rent, Louis. Do you see a problem here?” Liam’s generally kind voice<br />
cuts through the line like a sharpened dagger. And it slices through Louis’ veil, <strong>on</strong>e that cloaks<br />
him in faux n<strong>on</strong>chalance.<br />
There’s a silence, the heated water jostling under Louis' touch as he tries to stop the inevitable sad<br />
that’s spreading over every inch of his body. When he speaks, his voice is a mere whisper, <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g><br />
c<strong>on</strong>veys everything that Louis is feeling right now, “The colors make me feel better.”<br />
A deep breath, <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> Louis can almost hear Liam shake his head, “I’m sorry, I know they do. I’m<br />
looking out for what’s best for you, we’ve grown up together. And your dad might have wanted a<br />
different career path for you, but he loves you, <str<strong>on</strong>g>and</str<strong>on</strong>g> he will always help you if you need it, Louis.