Storyline Summer 2017
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could have my application sent in within the week; instead<br />
it took us over 2 months to get everything in place to<br />
apply.<br />
We weren’t prepared to live on a single income, so I<br />
poured my time into creating budgets and plans to help<br />
us succeed. Once I had the plan in place, a little bit of<br />
comfort returned. I thought I had gained some control<br />
again. But I began to struggle with feelings of anxiety and<br />
believed I was a burden. I felt responsible so I started<br />
slicing the budget in areas where we needed money,<br />
like our groceries. As our groceries became cheaper and<br />
cheaper, our food became lower quality but it was “my<br />
sacrifice.” However, when you live with celiac disease<br />
there are major consequences to eating things you<br />
shouldn’t and so on came my sickness. Three months of<br />
constantly being sick and unable to leave the house for<br />
long meant I lost weight, I had no energy, and mentally I<br />
hit a low. Austin and I couldn’t get through a day without<br />
me upset at him. I blamed him for the state of where I<br />
was physically, emotionally, mentally. My<br />
self-worth had vanished. I was convinced<br />
nobody knew how I felt and honestly, I<br />
think people couldn’t handle how I felt.<br />
Everyone around me was in a land of<br />
comfort and security, yet I couldn’t get<br />
through a day of wondering if my next<br />
visitor visa would be approved, or if my<br />
residency would come through, when I<br />
would be able to work again … The list<br />
goes on.<br />
I could tell you endless amounts of things I went through<br />
to tear down my walls of control and comfort. When I<br />
finally hit the bottom, I cried out to God and my burden<br />
became lighter. Austin and I went away for a week and<br />
we began praying that my visa would come in. But we<br />
began to realize that wasn’t our prayer; our prayer was<br />
that we would trust God in the circumstances, that we<br />
would let Him be our provider. We began to look back on<br />
the things that had happened and see God’s hand in it all.<br />
A GST return we weren’t expecting to help with groceries<br />
… Grandparents giving us a late wedding gift to get away<br />
for awhile when things were unbearable … God provided<br />
for our needs; He never abandoned us. But He did give us<br />
trials, lots of trials. In that week I had to finally give up my<br />
last ounces of control, fully surrender, and humble myself.<br />
We trusted God with what was to come.<br />
We got home refreshed and ready to continue our time<br />
of unknowns. I remember it was dark outside and Austin<br />
decided to get the mail. He came around the corner,<br />
Our prayer was that<br />
we would trust God in<br />
the circumstances, that<br />
we would let Him be our<br />
provider.<br />
looking at me in disbelief, with a single brown envelope<br />
in his hands. “I think it’s here,” he said. As we opened<br />
the letter shock fell over us. It wasn’t permanent<br />
residency, but it was my work visa. God works in<br />
mysterious ways. He brought me on a long road to<br />
surrender my control and when I finally did He gave<br />
me just enough to have a sense of normalcy again.<br />
But even the next steps were predetermined by God.<br />
Within the week I was offered a job at First Alliance to<br />
cover a one-year maternity leave. Shortly thereafter<br />
the Syrian Refugee Crisis hit the news. I was providing<br />
admin support for Pat Worsley, who oversees our<br />
refugee ministry. Daily, I answered phone calls from<br />
people desperate to have their stories heard. I wasn’t<br />
uncomfortable anymore. I listened, I felt their pain, and<br />
I told them it wasn’t fair. My empathy for these people<br />
was so strong, and God stirred my heart for them so<br />
vividly. I would go home and be driven to pray for them<br />
in the same way God drove me to pray for him to take<br />
my burden of permanent residency. I<br />
knew I couldn’t do anything for these<br />
people in a task-driven way. God had<br />
been equipping me and preparing<br />
me to share hope and love with the<br />
broken and hopeless.<br />
I grew immensely through these<br />
phone calls and listening to people’s<br />
stories. Months after things slowed down, I woke up<br />
from a repetitive dream where I audibly heard the<br />
name of one of the women I used to talk to on the<br />
phone. The Holy Spirit pushed me to call her to see<br />
how she was doing. I am so thankful for this boldness<br />
that the Holy Spirit gave me! I know that if I hadn’t<br />
gone through the trials I did, I would have never called<br />
her to see how she was doing. I called her on a day<br />
when all hope was gone and she wanted to give up.<br />
Hearing that and now gaining an amazing friendship<br />
with her has made my trials worth it. Austin and I are<br />
now co-sponsors to have her sister come to Canada<br />
as a refugee and we are on a journey with her and her<br />
family. There are days where I am uneasy because<br />
there is no task for me to help with, but I am gently<br />
reminded to listen to her, to pray for her, and to pray<br />
for God to direct the application. Sometimes all we can<br />
do is listen and pray.<br />
This is just the journey of one of the many applications<br />
we as a church are applying for and I challenge you to<br />
pray diligently for the ministry of refugee sponsorship.<br />
It is a long, dark, and painful journey for so many. •