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Interview 156<br />
• What inspires you? (Individuals, contexts, etc.)<br />
• Why painting? (How did you discover this medium and why have you chosen it?)<br />
Asked about when did I start drawing or painting, I always give the same answer:<br />
early in the childhood, just like we all did. The only difference between me and<br />
someone who is not an artist is that I never quit. For me, the secondary school<br />
classes were always boring as hell. Drawing was the only thing that used to save<br />
me from falling into depression. All my study books and papers were full of<br />
drawings. Some were funny, others were violent. At some point teachers simply<br />
got used to it.<br />
At the age of 15–17, I started studying art more seriously. Especially animations,<br />
comic art, caricature, and photography. In addition to drawing I started taking<br />
a lot of pictures of my surrounds. At that time I making mostly black and white<br />
pencil drawings on paper. These were black-and-white times: all my photographs<br />
and drawings were monochrome. When I had to decide what to do after<br />
finishing school, Art Academy came as an obvious choice. Everybody who knew<br />
me where sure I was going to study art. I did not know much about installation<br />
art or sculpture, nor did I know anything about printmaking. Although I did not<br />
have much of the painting experience, I decided to apply for painting program.<br />
I turned out to be the worst painter in the class. I regarded painting as ‘drawing<br />
with brushes.’ I gradually became interested in colours and learned about how<br />
layers of paint can turn into unpredictable surfaces. In the year 2011 Estonian Art<br />
Academy rejected my MA applicationthe at the. For the following three years I<br />
was working on my own, managing various painting, photography and film<br />
projects. In 2014 I got accepted into the MA program at the Helsinki Art Academy.<br />
That was also a start of my professional career.<br />
I think it is the absurdity of life that has always been my main inspiration. The<br />
world around us can be a complicated thing. It could be much better, but people<br />
keep making the same mistakes all over again. We don’t learn from history. Our<br />
values are extremely artificial and controversial, and our picture of the world is<br />
sometimes incredibly poor. Growing up in post-soviet Russia and Estonia, I witnessed<br />
a lot of depression, fear, and hopelessness. My early works were all about<br />
people being lost in this crazy world. The main protagonists of my early cartoonish<br />
drawings were social anti-heroes, alcoholics, bums and junkies. Later, when<br />
my professional career started to develop, I starated witnessing a lot of absurdity<br />
in art world as well. At first our ideas about being an artist are deeply romanticized.<br />
Then we start encountering various uncomfortable things about the art society<br />
and the art market. Many artists don’t talk about all that. And those who do,<br />
have nothing going on for them. There were times I was questioning my choice<br />
to become artist. I had no money and no hope. Although I considered making art<br />
being the best thing in the world, I had doubts about my committing to it. However<br />
these doubts are also the source of inspiration. I would prefer not to be too<br />
serious in my works. There is no point in being serious in such a world with its<br />
absurd beliefs. I am inspired by our everyday thoughts, observations, and stupid<br />
jokes. My dissatisfaction is the main thing that keeps me doing stuff.<br />
• Creative motifs. (What drives your creative practice? What are the topics you are<br />
working on?)<br />
Nowadays my main motif is the existence of an artist in the world of strict and<br />
blind rules of capitalism. In fact half of the artists in this world seem to be thematising<br />
the struggle against capitalism. Somehow, this world does not make artists<br />
happy. I have witnessed a lot of insecurity among creative people. It is hard<br />
to survive even with the ingenious ideas, unless they are practical. My favourite<br />
motifs relate to how spirituality and money, and the will to create and the desire<br />
for stable life crash into each other. My art arises from my personal fears and<br />
anxieties about being an artist, and it extends into global topics such as social<br />
traumas and anxieties, politics, poverty, love and hate.