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Art & Literature Magazine
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Death and Claptrap<br />
Carol Spitler Korhonen<br />
“May the road rise up to meet you<br />
May the wind be always at your back”<br />
and other Irish claptrap hauled out for funerals, wakes<br />
memorial services, prayer cards, sermons and speeches<br />
but I’m too angry for that<br />
What should I do with this anger?<br />
What can I do with this anger?<br />
Yes, you confessed to a liver transplant,<br />
but not that it was failing<br />
You should have spent years with her<br />
not a thin packet of months<br />
And my daughter is crying again<br />
because your damn truck is in the driveway<br />
and I too forget and look for you<br />
until I remember<br />
Like your dog, Osa, who keeps running out to<br />
the end of the lane to find you<br />
and I slow when I pass that certain door<br />
and double take on some look-alike in the street<br />
I needed you to stay<br />
not be thinner and thinner and then go<br />
I needed you to stay and be the man that she deserves<br />
my sweet, still young daughter with all the bad luck<br />
Surely you could have tried harder to stay so I could<br />
watch her eyes shine at the sound of your voice on the phone<br />
watch her bask in wonder at your effortless attention<br />
watch her sleep curled in perfect peace against you<br />
My daughter lay beside you on the hospital cot<br />
trying to lend you her breath, and the push of her heart<br />
trying to wind her soul tight around yours<br />
so you couldn’t leave<br />
but you said “I’m sorry”<br />
and then you died<br />
Well . . . apology not accepted!<br />
you should have been more careful<br />
you should have gotten more sleep<br />
you should have stopped drinking<br />
you should have watched your diet<br />
you should have paced yourself<br />
you should have not worked so hard<br />
you should have tried harder<br />
you should have hung on longer<br />
And if it isn’t your own damn fault<br />
then what can I do with this anger?<br />
What should I do with this anger?<br />
but<br />
Dave, my friend<br />
(my friend)<br />
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May you be a week in heaven before the Devil knows you’re dead!<br />
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