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oad as a barn door. “Hit me with it good.” Purple pools. Purple<br />
pools.<br />
“T<strong>here</strong>’ll be time for all that,” Gatsby would tell me, volleying<br />
from closer and closer as the shadows drew long.<br />
The October I turned sixteen, Gatsby crept into my bedroom.<br />
“It’s you and me, old sport. We need to get serious.” The kickball<br />
field was empty. The rest of the girls had taken to sitting in boys’<br />
parents’ cars late at night, laughing at jokes that weren’t funny.<br />
Everybody else had crossed themselves off Gatsby’s roster. He and<br />
I took up racquetball. It’s a serious game.<br />
“You’re co-captain now,” Gatsby told me. But it was just the<br />
two of us, and we were playing on different sides.<br />
Late phone call Thanksgiving night, after people’s parents had<br />
given up on pinning them to couches in the den. A friend of a<br />
friend picked me up in his parents’ Oldsmobile. Tall and meaty,<br />
with pimples like tender little cherry blossoms kissing up out of his<br />
collar. Out in the middle of the desert, t<strong>here</strong> were two other cars<br />
waiting. T<strong>here</strong> were six guys; all the real girls had been trapped at<br />
home, feeding leftover pie to maiden aunts. T<strong>here</strong> was some booze,<br />
t<strong>here</strong> was lots of talk about a bonfire but nobody had a lighter.<br />
Gatsby had stayed home. Crawled in through the window at<br />
sunrise reeking of Jack Daniels and John-Paul Gaultier Classique –<br />
everything smells like it now – and Gatsby got into bed with me for<br />
the first time.<br />
“Capital,” he told me. “Aces.” My grandmother had died the<br />
month before and I was in the habit of wearing long Victorian<br />
bedthings, my own strange mourning. “I’ll show you something,<br />
old sport,” Gatsby said and the hair at the back of my neck soaked<br />
with sweat, drew a canopy of whiskey perfume around us.<br />
He lifted the covers but not the dress (Gatsby’s like that) and<br />
reached a hand into the bottom of my rib cage, the other into my<br />
unruly pubic nest, and pulled out a long tense spring. When it<br />
broke through my surface, it thrummed like a guitar string, one of<br />
the thick ones.<br />
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