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2 <strong>proza</strong> literaturuli gazeTi 25 dekemberi 2009 - 21 ianvari 2010<br />
eka da jemala<br />
(sevai-du)<br />
_ dedao, dedao! _ sofleli mezobeli<br />
Sors mTaze idga da eZaxda.<br />
neta ra unda, gaefiqra ekas.<br />
_ gogoni, dedao! _ SeajanjRares<br />
da gamoeRviZa.<br />
kaci tuCzeTiTmikruli idga da<br />
odnav daxriliyo ekasken, TiTqos, Tu<br />
gainZreva, daartyamso.<br />
ekas xma ar amouRia. SeaTvaliera.<br />
normalurad ecva, metic – Zalian kargi<br />
jinsis Sarvali da Savi feris kapiu-<br />
Soniani jempre. Sarvali totebTan<br />
sul talaxiani hqonda, etyoba sadRac<br />
Cavarda. fexebs Tvali moacila da mzera<br />
or mozrdil zurgCanTaze gadaitana,<br />
romlebic iqve egdo.<br />
_ me dedao ara var, morCili var.<br />
_ Tqva ekam.<br />
_ xo, sulerTia, ravi. momdeven da<br />
unda dammalo, ra, daiko.<br />
_ aq dedaTa monasteria, kacis Semosvla...<br />
_ ar minda exa eg riJa bazari... -<br />
kaci Seyovnda, raRaca awon-dawona da<br />
ganagrZo – vici, ro monasteria da imitomac<br />
Semovedi. Tu damiWires, momklaven...<br />
_ aq damelode, winamZRvars vetyvi<br />
da is...<br />
kacma damTavreba ar acala, xelSi<br />
waavlo.<br />
_ ara, ra winamZRvari, daiko, is<br />
mRvdeli Cemi ubnelia ega, egreve CamiSvebs.<br />
xo ar gagiJdi, mismine...<br />
ekam raRaca Caiburtyuna da dajda.<br />
_ am CanTebSi ori milioni laria.<br />
ara mkiTxo exa ra da ratom. aris ra.<br />
cudi gziT aris, mara aris. am fulis<br />
gamo, egreve momklaven ZaRlebi, amito,<br />
Tu ginda ro qristianis sicocxle<br />
ar daido codvad, unda dammalo,<br />
ra.<br />
_ sad dagmalo, ver gavige me aq<br />
marto ki ara vcxovrob.<br />
kaci karTan mivida. raRaca xmauri<br />
gaisma gareT da daiZaba. qamridan iaraRi<br />
amoiRo da Caxmaxi Seayena.<br />
_ nu geSinia, mamao aq ar SemouSvebs<br />
policias, sul ro moklan mainc,<br />
magram aq mainc ver dagtoveb. _ ekam<br />
es sityvebi iseTi simSvidiT uTxra, rom<br />
kacic raRacnairad damSvidda da kars<br />
moSorda.<br />
_ mismine, dedao... daiko, me aq sul<br />
raRac erTi saaTiT minda gaCereba,<br />
mere Cems Tavs mivxedav, oRond...<br />
Seyovnda. gadawyvetilebas iRebda,<br />
eTqva Tu ara. bolos mainc Tqva:<br />
_ am fuls aq davtoveb. unda Seminaxo,<br />
sadme unda Seminaxo. eg Seni mosafiqrebelia.<br />
ro Camoval, monastersac<br />
Semovwirav... ra gWirdebaT,<br />
aba<br />
_ monasters yvelaferi Wirdeba,<br />
meravi.<br />
_ kai. – kacma CanTa gaxsna da ramdenime<br />
Sekvra fuli amoalaga – aha esa,<br />
Seni saxeliT Sewire, an yuTSi Caagde,<br />
ar vici. ar uTxra mamaos ro mogeci,<br />
gaige<br />
Cqarobda. CanTa isev Sekra da sawolze<br />
daagdo, TviTonac wamowva.<br />
_ SeiZleba CameZinos da zustad<br />
erT saaTSi gamaRviZe, kai<br />
ekam pasuxi ar gasca. cota xani ase<br />
iyvnen. mere eka karisken daiZra:<br />
_ me gaval. locva iwyeba da rom<br />
ar gavide, SemomakiTxaven.<br />
kaci sawolidan wamoiwia: _ gendobi,<br />
icode.<br />
ekam kari gaixura da gavida.<br />
roca Semobrunda, sawoli carieli<br />
daxvda. CanTebi loginis qveS Seetena.<br />
viTom damalao _ gaeRima ekas da gamoaCoCa.<br />
erT-erT CanTaze batifexuriT<br />
dawerili baraTi ido:<br />
_ me jemala var, gagonili geqneba,<br />
qurdi var. am fuls gabareb da icode,<br />
kapiki ar daakldes, Tore Seni TaviT<br />
gadaixdi. me Tu ar movedi, vinme mova<br />
Cemi saxeliT da imas gaatane. paroli<br />
iyos juce. es werili gadaagde, dawvi.<br />
dedao, Tu rogorc gqvia, icode,<br />
gendobi!<br />
guram megreliSvili<br />
domino<br />
(fragmenti romanidan)<br />
“ratom icini Secvale saxeli da es moTxroba Senze iqneba”.<br />
horaciusi<br />
miSa<br />
(iagani)<br />
kurdRlis formians sasacilod<br />
aqvs erTi yuri Camokidebuli. miSa Sedis<br />
da warmodgena mTavrdeba kidec.<br />
bavSvebi daRlilebi Canan. naniko sigarets<br />
asress saferfleSi, magram miSas<br />
Tvals es ar gamoepareba da saxes<br />
aridebs. ras umalavs ra qmari (is<br />
siri!!!) ar uSlis da aman idardos<br />
TvaliT fexmZime cols eZebs da uceb<br />
uknidan exveva nia.<br />
_ morCiT _ ekiTxeba miSa.<br />
_ movrCiT. _ pasuxobs nia da ise<br />
uRimis, rom aSkarad samagieros elis,<br />
magram miSas ar eRimeba. karTan dgeba<br />
da tuCebmokumuli elodeba, rodis<br />
gamova misi fexmZime coli da iubilari<br />
Svili dabadebis dRis centridan.<br />
nia iZabeba. etyoba gogoebi jer<br />
ar apirebdnen daSlas; torti naxevrad<br />
SeuWmelia, magram karTan miSa<br />
iseTi saxiT dgas, darCenis survilsac<br />
ver gamoTqvams nia. viTom bavSvs usworebs<br />
tansacmels da amiT Tan dro<br />
gahyavs.<br />
kurdRlis formiani formas<br />
iZrobs. qeraTmiani, odnav gauparsavi<br />
saxis biWia da miSas is Zalian lamazad<br />
eCveneba. uneburad, Tavis colsac ki<br />
adarebs da gaifiqrebs, rom mis colze<br />
lamazia. biWs SeubRvers da nias gaxedavs.<br />
nias hgonia, rom mas uyurebs ase<br />
qmari, amitom bavSvs xels hkidebs, megobrebs<br />
emSvidobeba da karisken midis.<br />
yvelam icis, rom nias “mZime xasiaTis<br />
kaci” hyavs, amitom aravin arafers ambobs<br />
da aravin arafers imCnevs.<br />
mTeli gza Cumad arian. miSa saxl-<br />
Tan Camosvams col-Svils da swrafad<br />
daZravs manqanas, magram ubans gaSorebuli<br />
arcaa, rom ukan brundeba da binaSi<br />
adis. nia saxlSi ar misula.<br />
_ sad xar<br />
_ ager...<br />
_ ra ager saxlSi misvla ar unda<br />
icode su gareT rogor unda wanwalebde,<br />
Seni deda...<br />
qali uTiSavs da zustad sam wuTSi<br />
brundeba. mezobelTan Seuvlia.<br />
nia SublSeWmuxnili aRebs kars, magram<br />
emCneva, daZabuli da SeSinebulia.<br />
_ gamistumre da dawowialob, ara<br />
_ ras davwowialob, qeTim gamoo...<br />
_ Cumad! Seni xma ar gavigo exa, isedac<br />
nervebze var aTxrili. Sedi oTax-<br />
Si!<br />
nia saZineblisken midis, bavSvic<br />
miyavs.<br />
_ datove! modi aq, mami!<br />
lizi mamasTan mirbis da yelze<br />
ekideba. miSa Cakocnis, televizorTan<br />
dasvams, nikoledeons CaurTavs da<br />
TviTonac saZinebelSi Sedis.<br />
_ meCqareba, samsaxurSi unda viyo<br />
samze! _ saaTs daxedavs miSa, raRacnairad<br />
aaTvalierebs cols, romelic<br />
ukve sacvlebis amaraa da wveba. miSa<br />
Sarvals ixdis. ratomRac isev is kurdRlis<br />
formiani axsendeba da uneburad,<br />
isev cols adarebs. mere odnav<br />
wamozrdil mucelze akvirdeba da<br />
sacvals xdis. niam zepirad icis rac<br />
unda moxdes: miSa jer fexebs awevinebs,<br />
ulokavs da mere aqvT siaxlove. miSas<br />
amis gareSe ar unda. miSas amis gareSe<br />
ar SeuZlia!<br />
mere icvamen. miSa zurgze akvirdeba<br />
cols da TiTqos pirvelad xedavdes,<br />
raRacnairad aRizianebs gogos<br />
Tmiani weli.<br />
_ gvian moxval _ adevnebs kar-<br />
Tan coli.<br />
unda upasuxos, rom es misi saqme<br />
araa, magram Sexedavs da gaifiqrebs,<br />
rom pasuxis Rirsic ki ar aris nia da<br />
kars gaiketavs.<br />
samsaxurSi sami dakavebuli xvdeba.<br />
erT-erTs icnobs. adre qurdobisTvis<br />
hyavs daWerili. danarCeni orni Rlapebi<br />
Canan, magram Zalian ki didoben.<br />
mere im ors sastikad scems, “ZaRlurad”<br />
TirkmelebSi urtyams da aginebs.<br />
miSas sisastikeze yvela laparakobs<br />
samsaxurSi da Tavad miSamac icis amis<br />
Sesaxeb. siamovnebs. is Zveli nacnobi<br />
egreve Tanxmdeba TanamSromlobaze –<br />
erTxel ukve gamoscada amis sisastike<br />
da Tanxmdeba. is orni TiTqos uZaliandebian<br />
da miSac ufro agresiuli<br />
xdeba. ar Semogakvdes! _ afrTxilebs<br />
ganyofilebis ufrosi da am gafrTxilebaSi<br />
faruli pativiscema igrZnoba.<br />
miSa ki scems da scems im ors da<br />
raRac momentSi acnobierebs, rom “saqmis”<br />
garda, siamovnebs kidec rom i m -<br />
orCilebs or damnaSaves, romlebsac<br />
Tavi avtoritetebad miaCniaT.<br />
wamierad kurdRlis formiani axsendeba.<br />
kurdRlis formiani egreve<br />
nias axsenebs, nia im qurds, visac coli<br />
waarTva Tavis droze. marTalia, qurdma<br />
mZimed daWra, magram xom waarTva<br />
xom miisakuTra da daanaxa vin ufro<br />
Zlieria!<br />
is ori Rlapi tydeba. yvelaferze<br />
xels aweren da axla es aRizianebs miSas.<br />
zedmeti rom ar mouvides, ganyofilebidan<br />
midis da uaxloes nacnob<br />
barSi brendis wrupavs.<br />
mimi<br />
(pusta-pusta)<br />
gamarjoba.<br />
me mimi var, gei.<br />
Cemi axlandeli profesia veteqimobaa.<br />
31 wlis var da ukve movaswari<br />
daqorwinebac da qvrivobac. oTxi welia,<br />
rac meuRle dameRupa da sami welia,<br />
rac homoseqsuali var.<br />
ar vici, es (rogorc Tqven<br />
uwodebT) “pederastoba” marTla genetikuria<br />
Tu ara, magram cxadia, rom<br />
rodesac erTxel mainc igemeb saku-<br />
Tari sqesis gemos, mixvdebi, rom erTi<br />
safexuriT maRldebi danarCenebze.<br />
me Semexedeba. is ki arada, Zalian<br />
simpatiuric var. grZeli, ukan gadayrili<br />
Tma, Txeli aRnagoba, didi mwvane<br />
Tvalebi da odnav gapobili bage.<br />
yovelTvis movwonvar qalebs da, rac<br />
mTavaria, kacebsac, amitomac Tavs<br />
arasrulfasovan adamianad ar vTvli<br />
da sakmaod sworad vuyureb am cxovrebas,<br />
romelic ise swrafad icvleba Cem-<br />
Si, rom ramdenime pirovnebad vaswreb<br />
yofnas.<br />
me myavda coli, romelic Zalian<br />
miyvarda, imdenad miyvarda, rom xSirad<br />
mifiqria _ SeiZleba ki ase erTi<br />
adamianis siyvaruli Cven erTad<br />
vizrdebodiT. is Cems ezoSi gadmovida<br />
sacxovreblad, rodesac me Tormetis,<br />
is ki aTi wlis iyo. mas hqonda gr-<br />
Zeli kululebi, TeTri saxis kani da<br />
Zalian Savi, Savi Tvalebi. rodesac am<br />
TvalebSi viyurebodi, yovelTvis vg-<br />
Znobdi, rom erTxelac isini sicocxliT<br />
savse aRar iqneboda.<br />
mere is mokvda, momikles. mogzaurobisas<br />
brma tyvia moxvda da adgilzeve<br />
gardaicvala. im wams, roca me<br />
mis TvalebSi ukanasknelad Cavixede,<br />
CemSi raRaca daexva gorgaliviT da<br />
mere moulodnelad gaiSala, gaiSala<br />
da TiTqos basri iaraRi yofiliyos,<br />
yvelaferi damisera SigniT.<br />
dasaflavebis dRes, patara minanqris<br />
jvari movxseni, romelic Svidi<br />
wlis win vaCuqe dabadebis dReze, movxseni<br />
da gavikeTe.<br />
im dRidan me var me da Cemi coli<br />
sofo.<br />
_ naTqvamia, orxmlian kacs metad<br />
ufrTxis mteri da SiSiT erTze ufro<br />
bevrni midiano, asevea orjvrian kacis<br />
SemTxvevaSic – ormagad etanebian<br />
Turme eSmakebi! _ es miTxra erTxel<br />
eklesiaSi misuls erTma iqaurma maTxovarma,<br />
roca jvrebi movixseni da<br />
xatebTan davawye. im dRes sofias gardacvalebidan<br />
zustad erTi weli gadioda<br />
da gadavwyvite eklesiaSi Semevlo<br />
da sanTlebi amenTo misi sulis<br />
mosaxsenieblad. es erTi (umiso) weli<br />
rogor gavatare, ar maxsovs. gana gadataniTi<br />
mniSvnelobiT vambob amas _<br />
marTla ar maxsovs, Tumca faqtia, rom<br />
gavatare da arc movmkvdarvar. mTeli<br />
am xnis ganmavlobaSi, Cemi sofia<br />
CemSi cocxlobda da imdenad realuri<br />
iyo es, rom qmedebebSic vlindeboda.<br />
magaliTad, aqamde arasodes myvarebia<br />
Sokoladis nayini, axla ki iseTive gemrieli<br />
meCveneba, rogorc vanilis. ver<br />
vitandi yvavilovan kombostos, axla<br />
kvira ar gava, ar vWamo.<br />
CemSi ori adamiani gamTlianda.<br />
magram gamTlianebul adamianebsac<br />
aqvT bunebrivi moTxovnileba, romelic<br />
RamiT gawrialebs da dRisiT eiforia<br />
gewyeba.<br />
me ar SemeZlo movferebodi sxva<br />
qals, magram ase yofnac aRar SemeZlo...<br />
da im dRes, roca maTxovarma orjvrianobaze<br />
leqcia Camitara, raRaca<br />
SemerWo marjvena ferdSi, xurda<br />
mivugde da zurgi Sevaqcie. mTeli sxeuli<br />
gamioflianda, gamixurda da<br />
sicxianiviT avkankaldi. gamovvardi<br />
eklesiidan da pirdapir zRvaze wavedi.<br />
rac sofo aRar myavda, ar mibanavia.<br />
xandaxan Tu wavidodi napirze da<br />
horizonts vuyurebdi. curva azradac<br />
ar momsvlia, radgan me mxolod<br />
Cemi colis gamo Sevdiodi zRvaSi.<br />
is saocrad kargad curavda, uxdeboda<br />
kidec da erTi siamovneba iyo,<br />
geyurebina misi mSvenieri sxeuli<br />
rogor miapobda talRebs. xSirad dediSobilebi<br />
SevsulvarT da am dros<br />
sofias mec ki vaviwydebodi. yvelas<br />
arseboba aviwydeboda, ise siamovnebda<br />
wyali. me ki ukan mivyvebodi da misiT<br />
vtkbebodi xolme.<br />
erTxel tansacmelic ki mogvpares<br />
da ase SiSvlebi dagvtoves plaJze. ma-<br />
Sin kiserze Camomekida da miTxra: _<br />
ginda aseTebi davrCeT aq, avaSenoT<br />
qoxi, viTevzaoT da me or gogos gagi-<br />
Cen.<br />
qalaqis plaJidan samas metrSi<br />
viyaviT.<br />
da ai, mivadeqi zustad im adgils,<br />
sadac tansacmeli mogvpares adre, gavixade<br />
da Sevvardi wyalSi, Tavidan<br />
cota civi meCvena, magram es iqneb uke-<br />
Tesic ki iyo ase ufro swrafad<br />
amoZraveb xel-fexs da Tavs modunebis<br />
saSualebas ar aZlev.<br />
im dRes CemSi sofia curavda da me<br />
mTeli arsebiT SevigrZeni ra iyo wya-
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