JESUS LEER MY ASSEBLIEF BID - His Will His Way

time and subsequently.) I needed to get that done so that I could leave Sunday School, so I did
and I did. (Got confirmed and left the church)
So, this girl was showing me her Bible which had architectural section in the back which I
thought was pretty cool because it showed pictures of places in the Bible which was where the
stories actually happened. As I had travelled to some of the places, this seemed to prove that
the Bible could be true. I went out and bought one just like it yet never read that or the Koran.
I was living in Paris at the time and attended the local Embassy church quite (not very)
religiously every second Sunday, even teaching Sunday School to the English children (never
believing in God, of course, but no-one seemed to notice or care).
I remember one conversation though with the Dominee about Heaven and God. I was very
concerned about all the “other” people – the Chinese, Indians, pigmies – if they were going to
hell, well what made me better than them, I would go too. The Dominee pointed out that I was
not focussing on the reality of what a relationship with God would bring. It wasn’t about one day
in Heaven, where you could be in the presence of God, it was that relationship with God would
mean that I would have access to the presence of God on earth, from that day on.
That made a pretty large impression on me, but that was that.
I returned to South Africa in 1991 and one the of things that I wanted to do was find a church.
Not sure why but that was obviously God’s Holy Spirit calling me to Him. I eventually started
attending a church that my brother was involved in, and 6 weeks after I first started going I
responded to the altar call – not sure why even till today – but I did and that was the beginning
of the journey that God had planned for me. This was almost three years to the day after I
bought the Bible!
Was that the beginning of all things wonderful? Oh no, in fact, from that time, the sin that I had
in my life actually got worse in many ways.
I can say with all seriousness that I didn’t “give my heart to Jesus in a prayer” – no I got SAVED.
There had been times in my life when I had made choices which had been born out of rejection
and hurt, which had dire consequences and even after I began to have a relationship with
Father God, these things were still a stronghold and no matter how many church services I
attended, no matter how many ministries I served on, these things did not go away.
It was only after 6 years, after a year of part-time Bible Study, after many thousands of hours of
good Bible teaching and learning what the Word of God had to say about life and Godliness that
I experienced a breakthrough and deliverance to lead a life which truly was pure. In one session
with a counsellor (who I went to see about chronic back pain) she asked me when the pain had
started and I realised that this had been when I was 16 years old [15 years earlier] and was
then prompted to remember that it was at that time that I had started an extra-marital affair with
a teacher at the high school I had attended. In doing so I had given authority to the devil to bring
this pain/affliction to my body. My relationship with my father had not been very good in my
childhood, we would fight quite a bit and I felt that he loved my brothers more than me. In fact, I
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