JESUS LEER MY ASSEBLIEF BID - His Will His Way
JESUS LEER MY ASSEBLIEF BID - His Will His Way
JESUS LEER MY ASSEBLIEF BID - His Will His Way
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often felt as a child that if I would join “the boys” when they were playing, that I would spoil their<br />
fun.<br />
This acceptance of rejection had led to me being very susceptible to the attention of this older<br />
man and choosing a very destructive route which I remained on for many years. Only when I<br />
repented of these sins and asked God to forgive me, did I receive <strong>His</strong> forgiveness and then I<br />
was able to be free and live a life that truly reflected what was available in the promises of<br />
God’s word.<br />
In the 6 years that I had been saved (and in fact in my whole life), I had hurt many people, some<br />
directly, some indirectly, I broke most of the 10 commandments, and even though I was always<br />
one of the “top” performers, a good “girl” in the eyes of many, my life had been rooted in lies<br />
and deception and sin. In this time I had come to know God’s character and even at the worst<br />
times I still knew that <strong>His</strong> character was what I could rely on – that He was unfailing and that He<br />
was the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.<br />
After the deliverance session when I truly was healed of the rejection and was able to walk<br />
freely in God, I was able to truly experience the love of God and the ministry of <strong>His</strong> Holy Spirit.<br />
In the preceding years I had learnt a lot about the Word of God, had done Bible School and had<br />
been in every church meeting, every prayer meeting, every camp, every everything but this had<br />
not made it possible for me to lead a Holy life, to live a life that was pleasing and acceptable to<br />
my Father. The key had been repentance, forgiveness and then being filled with the Holy Spirit<br />
to a new level.<br />
In the next few years it was more about being in <strong>His</strong> presence rather than learning something<br />
about Him. But still this had its challenges. Two years later I had to leave the ministry that I had<br />
been part of because I chose to marry a man that the church would have preferred me not to<br />
have a relationship with. Suddenly, my life was without all the trappings of church – the ministry,<br />
the youth group, the school teachings, the camps, the prayer meetings, etc. All I had was a raw<br />
heart and a new relationship. My friends were no longer my friends, I was out of a job and<br />
needing to start over.<br />
This was also a time of re-establishing what I was sure of – was I into the things of God or the<br />
God of the things. When you have everything stripped away, you can find the core. Walking in<br />
faith is then sometimes a lonely road, one that is narrow and few find it.<br />
My relationship with my husband was one that was grounded in God but needed much grace.<br />
We were not together in spite of what we had been through in our lives but, I think, because of<br />
it.<br />
Throughout our marriage, when we were closer to God, we were closer to each other. It didn’t<br />
matter what challenges we encountered, this seemed to be the key. Shortly after we were<br />
married we had a son who has been a blessing to us and I also have the privilege of being “the<br />
other mom” to three stepchildren. In all these things I know that without a relationship with God,<br />
without applying <strong>His</strong> Word to ALL things in my life, it would be impossible to live. I genuinely do<br />
not know how people can raise children without knowing God!<br />
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