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Sir John looked sly. "Donna Giulia," he said, "was a sensible woman. She knew very well the length of her shoe. Donna Giulia<br />

has joined her husband at Naples—a Court appointment and a good house. Dr. Lanfranchi occupies the Villa San Giorgio.<br />

Now do you see how the land lies?" I frowned and squared my chin. I think that I was disturbed because I did not then see<br />

how the land lay. I suspected, however, that Sir John knew more than he chose to tell me. I rose to take leave of him. There<br />

was something about me which he noticed.<br />

"You are going to the doctor?" he said. "You will find him in court."<br />

"I am going," I said, "to the Villa San Giorgio."<br />

He showed his alarm by saying, "You may regret it; you may regret it all your life long."<br />

"I shall regret that I ever lived if I do not go," said I. As I went out Sir John threw up his hands.<br />

CHAPTER XLII. I STAND AT A CROSS-ROAD<br />

I did not go immediately to the Villa San Giorgio; it was necessary that I should be clear why I was to go there at all. How did I<br />

stand with regard to Donna Aurelia—did I love her still, or was I cured of my wound? If I loved her, to go to her now were to<br />

play the criminal; if I did not, it might be to play the fool.<br />

Because—if I did not love her, why was I going? That is easily answered. I was going because I suspected that all was not well<br />

with her. Why was Donna Giulia in retirement? Why was the villa at the disposition of the learned judge? Why was Sir John<br />

Macartney so guarded in his admissions, and why so desirous that I should not see Count Giraldi? Apart from my private<br />

grievance against that person, which, after all, was only based on surmise and the convictions of Virginia, I could see no<br />

possible reason why I should not meet him, but one. That was, that he was fallen a victim to Aurelia's charms. And to a certain<br />

extent I felt that I should be responsible for that misfortune, for if I had never loved her she had never been in Florence; and if<br />

she had never been in Florence, she had never seen this accomplished, scoffing, cynical Tuscan.<br />

I was not ashamed to confess that I still thought Aurelia the most beautiful woman in the world, the most heavenly in<br />

conversation as in person the most superb. All the old glamour was upon me still. I knew that I should be a child at her knees<br />

the moment I set eyes upon her again; I knew that I should be imparadised, longing after impossible goodness, filled with<br />

impossible joys. But I knew also that I did not desire her. She was sacred, she was so little of the earth that as well might one<br />

hope to wed a seraph, all compact of fire, as she. I set by her, in my mind's eye, that passionate Virginia—that faithful, clinging,<br />

serving mate of what I knew were my happiest days. Ah, my sweet, lovely, loving wife! Virginia's long kisses, Virginia's close<br />

arms, her beating bosom, her fury of love, the meekness, obedience, steadfastness into which it could all be changed at a mere<br />

lift of my brows—ah, nuptial love, wedded bliss, the joys of home and the hearth, English joys! Virginia meant all this and more<br />

to me. I swore to myself that without her I could not live, that to deserve her I would renounce the world, my patrimony, my<br />

country, and that not even a changed Aurelia—changed from Seraph to calling Siren—could keep me from her side.<br />

But Aurelia—Aurelia Gualandi, that delicate flower of Siena, that youngest of the angels, that fount of poesy—what of her?<br />

What had she to say to such a certainty as this of mine? In my mind's eye I saw them stand together, she and Virginia, those<br />

two beautiful girls, Virginia a head the taller, proudly erect, with arms folded over her chest, and her dark brows forming a bar<br />

across her forehead. I saw her in white bodice and green petticoat, her arms and neck bare, her feet in old slippers, her black<br />

hair loosely coiled and stuck with a silver pin. I saw her hold herself aloof and dubious, proud and coldly chaste. "Call me and I<br />

come," she seemed to say to me between her shut lips, "Call me and I follow you over the world like a dog at your heels. Send<br />

me into infamy and I go; expect me to woo you there and I will die sooner. Yours, if you will have me; nobody's, anybody's, if<br />

you will not!" In my fancy I could hear her very words, see her steady eyes, her pure and moving lips.<br />

And Aurelia—how did she stand there? I saw her too in my mind's eye; dazzlingly, provokingly, like a creature of pure light,<br />

with thrown-back head and parted lips, with jewels about her neck, as I had seen her in the theatre at Siena; and jewels also in<br />

her hair. Like a queen of beauty at a love-court, conscious of her power, loving it, proving it; she smiled, she shook her cloudy<br />

tresses, she demanded my worship as of right. "If I choose I shall call thee," she seemed to say, "and thee— and thee—and<br />

thee again, to stand behind my chair, to kneel at my feet, to be my slave. And wilt thou deny me, Francis—or thou—or thou?"<br />

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