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things might have been; but the strongest ray of comfort shed upon me from this worthy fellow's store was this, that Donna<br />
Aurelia had returned to her house. Plainly, if she had been thither twice, she could be induced thither a third time. It must then<br />
be my business to induce her, and to see to it, if possible, that she was properly received upon that occasion.<br />
Here was a duty plainly set before me—my first and greatest reparation, which no other tie must hinder, to accomplish which I<br />
must shrink from no hardship however severe, no humiliation however bitter. Another lay closer to my heart, I'll allow, the<br />
words of pardon which I hoped to sue forth from the dearest lips in all the world—for I could never hope to be happy until the<br />
being whom, most loving, I had most offended could consent to assure me of my peace. This, however, I resolutely put by as a<br />
selfish pleasure which I must not expect to enjoy until I had earned it. However natural might be the impulse which urged me to<br />
find Aurelia, fall at her feet, anoint them with my tears, I must withstand it until I could be sure of her honour saved. Now, was<br />
that surety to be gained first from her or first from her wrathful husband?<br />
I turned to the custode, who stood smiling and rubbing his chin in my doorway. I said, "Beppo, I am in great perplexity. It is idle<br />
to deny that I am the immediate cause of all this misery, for you know it as well as I do."<br />
He said that he had guessed something of what I was so good as to tell him. "There was, as I understand, a little misadventure<br />
with a cupboard door," he said; "but who can contend with Fate?"<br />
"It has been my fate," I said, "to bring ruin upon the lady whom I adore. My sin is worse than that of Hophni and Phineas, and I<br />
would that the requital might be as theirs was, save that I can make it more bitter yet."<br />
"Why," says he, "what was done to those gentlemen?" I told him that they were slain with the sword; to which he replied that, so<br />
far as he had ever heard, the doctor was nothing of a swordsman, and that he knew I had some proficiency in fence. "I hope<br />
then," he added, "that your honour will succeed where those other gentlemen failed; but if you ask my advice, I say, leave the<br />
doctor alone, and comfort the little lady."<br />
His gross misapprehension of every merit of the case nettled me: I saw it was useless to talk with a person of his condition, and<br />
that instant action was my only safety. I must go, on my knees if must be, to the feet of Donna Aurelia, I must put myself entirely<br />
at her service. Should that lie in spurning me with her heel I must endure it; should she bid me go and receive public<br />
chastisement from her dangerous husband, I would assuredly go. Tears, stripes, hunger, thirst, cold, heat, loneliness, nakedness,<br />
unjust accusation, ridicule, malicious persecution—all these I would cheerfully undergo; and if one or any of them could repair<br />
her misfortunes, then they would be repaired. The custode said that he believed they could not, but I bade him be silent and<br />
begone. "Wretched Venetian," I cried at him, "thou art incapable of comprehending anything but victuals. If I tell thee that I have<br />
lacerated an angel and deserve the sword, thou speakest of my skill in fence! I waste my breath upon thee. Comfort the lady,<br />
dost thou dare to say? What comfort can she have but in my repentance? What have I to offer but devotion?"<br />
"It is just that which I advise your honour-" he began, but I was now embarked upon the waters of adventure, cheered with the<br />
prospect of action, impatient to begin my voyage. Astonishment cropped his period midway; he gaped as he saw what I did. I<br />
threw upon the floor my sword and finely laced coat; I threw my vest, ruffles, cravat, watch, rings, after them. I kicked into a<br />
corner with my foot my buckled shoes, my silk stockings, my fine gilt garters. Upon the top of the heap I cast my Paris hat, my<br />
gloves and brooch. "There lies," I said, "the sinful husk of Francis Strelley. Let the swine nozzle and rout in it for what they can<br />
find to their liking. And here," I cried, standing before him in shirt and breeches, barefooted, bareheaded, without a coat to my<br />
back, "here, good man, stands the naked soul of that same Francis, which shall go shivering forth to declare his shame, to meet<br />
his penance, to stand begging at the door of the Holy Place for the mercy which he has shown himself unworthy of."<br />
About my disordered hair I tied Aurelia's ribbon, round my upper arm I placed her garter, to my neck, upon a silken cord, I<br />
hung her Venice slipper. In the bosom of my shirt I placed the little book of devotion which she had given me, and the "Aminta"<br />
of Tasso in which we had last read together. "Farewell, Beppo," said I; "you may not see Francis again."<br />
"Where are you going, sir?" he asked me, wondering.<br />
"To Siena—to Aurelia—to Heaven!" and he held up his hands.<br />
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