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A Strange Manuscript Found in a Copper Cylinder James De Mille

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up."<br />

"She never will," said I.<br />

"Oh yes," said Layelah; "I will tell her that you wish it."<br />

"I do not wish it," said I. "I love her, and will never give her up."<br />

"It's all the same," said Layelah. "You cannot marry her at all. No<br />

one will marry you. You and Almah are victims and the State has given<br />

you the matchless honor of death. Common people who love one another<br />

may marry if they choose, and take the punishment which the law<br />

assigns but illustrious victims who love cannot marry, and so, my<br />

Atam-or, you have only me."<br />

I need not say that all this was excessively embarrass<strong>in</strong>g I was<br />

certa<strong>in</strong>ly fond of Layelah, and liked her too much to hurt her<br />

feel<strong>in</strong>gs. Had I been one of the Kosek<strong>in</strong> I might perhaps have managed<br />

better; but be<strong>in</strong>g a European, a man of the Aryan race--be<strong>in</strong>g such, and<br />

sitt<strong>in</strong>g there with the beautiful Layelah lavish<strong>in</strong>g all her affections<br />

upon me--why, it stands to reason that I could not have the heart to<br />

wound her feel<strong>in</strong>gs <strong>in</strong> any way. I was taken at an utter disadvantage.<br />

Never <strong>in</strong> my life had I heard of women tak<strong>in</strong>g the <strong>in</strong>itiative. Layelah<br />

had proposed to me, she would not listen to refusal, and I had not the<br />

heart to wound her. I had made all the fight I could by persist<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong><br />

assert<strong>in</strong>g my love for Almah, but all my assertions were brushed<br />

lightly aside as trivial th<strong>in</strong>gs.<br />

Let any gentleman put himself <strong>in</strong> my situation, and ask himself what he<br />

would do. What would he do if such a th<strong>in</strong>g could happen to him at<br />

home? But there such a th<strong>in</strong>g could not happen, and so there is no use<br />

<strong>in</strong> suppos<strong>in</strong>g an impossible case. At any rate I th<strong>in</strong>k I deserve<br />

sympathy. Who could keep his presence of m<strong>in</strong>d under such<br />

circumstances? With us a young lady who loves one man can easily repel<br />

another suitor; but here it was very different, for how could I repel<br />

Layelah? Could I turn upon her and say "Unhand me"? Could I say "Away!<br />

I am another's"? Of course I couldn't; and what's worse, if I had said<br />

such th<strong>in</strong>gs Layelah would have smiled me down <strong>in</strong>to silence. The fact<br />

is, it doesn't do for women to take the <strong>in</strong>itiative--it's not fair. I<br />

had stood a good deal among the Kosek<strong>in</strong>. Their love of darkness, their<br />

passion for death, their contempt of riches, their yearn<strong>in</strong>g after

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