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<strong>volume</strong> <strong>one</strong><br />
ROY<br />
ROGERS<br />
<strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong><br />
TWENTY-<br />
FIRST<br />
CENTURY<br />
D U D L E Y C L A R K
What critics are saying...<br />
“Return with us to the days when good guys wore white hats<br />
and all you had to do was wish upon a star and things would<br />
come true. Step back into the black-and-white, alternate universe<br />
of movie westerns for this truly tour de force novel. Pin back your<br />
ears and hunker down to the ground, take a slug of to-kill-yah<br />
and lissen up. I got me a story to tell...<br />
If you like westerns; if you like Seattle; if you like old-time<br />
cowboy music; if you like to laugh out loud, this should pretty much<br />
settle your hash.”<br />
—The New Orleans Courier-Gazette<br />
“Bravo! A sweet, politically incorrect tale about sex and drugs, without all the<br />
sex. Roy Weston is likely to go down as an archetype of the perplexed, nonbrooding,<br />
white male drifter who is happy just to get by, while leaving other people<br />
be. In the second <strong>volume</strong>, Roy emerges as a re-visi<strong>one</strong>d hero, tapping into the power<br />
of myth in a prosaic world and, as did so many early pi<strong>one</strong>ers, re-inventing himself<br />
as an All-American movie cowboy, a type of cowboy more true to the West than<br />
real cowboys ever were.”<br />
—Sidis World Review<br />
What a follow-up to Neither Here Nor There! A slower<br />
pace than I’m accustomed to—multi-tasking, post-modern<br />
man-child that I am—and a necessary <strong>one</strong>. Slow down, take<br />
your time, revel in the details. Especially take note of the<br />
pigeons. I’ve had the delight of previewing the second <strong>volume</strong>—<br />
quite a different speed there! Get to know what makes Roy<br />
Weston tick, then hang around for the second act in <strong>volume</strong> two.<br />
—Alameda Weekly Review<br />
“...we seldom review books not directly related to farming, but<br />
when this <strong>one</strong> was given to me by my fifteen year-old daughter, I<br />
knew I had to read it. I plowed over three hundred acres before<br />
I finished it, read it all in <strong>one</strong> day. If you drive a tractor, this is a<br />
great book for you. It’s sweet, funny and filled with references to<br />
old movie westerns, Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers and broccoli. Not<br />
much about farming, though.<br />
—Plowing Magazine
What readers are saying...<br />
“Definitely an acquired taste. But once developed, it’s hard<br />
not to be hungry for more.”<br />
—Donna Velbleck<br />
“...enough. That’s what I said, but she wouldn’t listen. Oh, no,<br />
she said...so I did. Now I’ll read the second <strong>volume</strong>, maybe even<br />
something else...he wrote.”<br />
—Stanislaus Paik<br />
“These days, in order to find something worth reading, and at<br />
that something worth reading that can make you laugh, not to<br />
mention...and a cold shower. Nevertheless, when I happened<br />
upon Roy Rogers in the Twenty-first Century, I was perplexed...to<br />
do with it since it fell into no known category I’m familiar with<br />
or cognizant of. Much deeper than it appears on the surface,<br />
this book is...and will certainly...the lunatic fringe. Reminds<br />
me a lot of.... And that’s saying something.<br />
—André Gustie<br />
“Not being a reader, of course I refused to read this book.<br />
Nevertheless, finding myself prostrate with fatigue <strong>one</strong> salubrious<br />
eve, I picked it up only to put it down as the sun came up and with<br />
a tear in my eye. First and only book I ever read sitting down all the<br />
way through, front to back, beginning to end. Rough going in the<br />
middle, but it evoked Seattle as I knew it, especially the music stores.<br />
—Wallace “Wally” Oberschmidt<br />
“Nervous by nature? Love to laugh? Fed up with the twentieth<br />
century? Fan of dark humor and potato-shooting dwarfs, not<br />
to mention helium pie and cab drivers with direct links to<br />
God? Finally, a book for you!”<br />
—Thomasina Pruitt
Also by this Author:<br />
Woodman & Wonderboy<br />
Apocalyptic Crawfish!<br />
Monkeydo<br />
Karmic Warriors<br />
Neither Here Nor There<br />
My Terrible, Horrible, Wonderful Life<br />
ABOUT TIME PUBLISH<strong>IN</strong>G<br />
New York London Tombst<strong>one</strong> Bombay<br />
2008<br />
Licensed under Creative Commons A-N-SA<br />
www.abouttimepublishing.com<br />
www.dudleysworld.com
<strong>THE</strong> DEDICATION<br />
For her forbearance and faith,<br />
this <strong>one</strong> is for<br />
JENNA
<strong>THE</strong> <strong>IN</strong>TRODUCTION<br />
My Book, the Reader;<br />
The Reader, my Book.
<strong>THE</strong> OPEN<strong>IN</strong>G QUOTATION<br />
I’ve labored long and hard for bread,<br />
For honor and for riches,<br />
But on my corns too long you’ve tred<br />
You fine-haired sons of bitches.<br />
—Black Bart the Po8, 1877<br />
(Note left after robbing the Arena Stagecoach, en route<br />
to Duncan’s Mill on the Russian River, California.)
<strong>THE</strong> PROLOGUE<br />
Leonard Franklin Slye (Roy Rogers) was born into poverty on<br />
Nov 5, 1911, 2,179 miles and about 40 years from the nearest real<br />
cowboy. But that didn’t stop him from picking up a guitar, and<br />
becoming <strong>one</strong>.<br />
Roy Weston was born into poverty on April 19, 1970, somewhere<br />
on the road in the heartland of America, an unknown distance in<br />
miles and about 80 years from the nearest real cowboy.<br />
But that didn’t stop him from putting down his squeegee, and<br />
becoming <strong>one</strong>.
<strong>THE</strong> RED FOR RENT<br />
sign stops him dead in his tracks.<br />
Roy sizes up the building. The windows are filthy. Some<br />
of the panes have popped out and been replaced with chunks<br />
of thick brown cardboard, cupped and spotted with dried<br />
raindrops. The sidewalk is littered with various bits and pieces<br />
of the productive world. Large trucks thunder past, shifting<br />
gears under their heavy loads of merchandise, for this is Seattle’s<br />
warehouse district, and their thunderous passage vacuums along<br />
vortices of grit and dirt, further serving to darken the already<br />
filthy windows.<br />
He considers the tumbledown building with weed-filled<br />
gutters, and smiles.<br />
To Roy, it looks like home.<br />
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The Old Cowboy<br />
didn’t know the names of all the colors, but this fact never deprived him<br />
of their beauty. Sunsets, with their layers of reds and golds mixed by the<br />
Master’s hand, always compelled his attention.<br />
He rested his own, callused hand on his saddle’s pommel and eased up in<br />
the stirrups a bit. Nightfall. End of another, long day. Briefly, he searched<br />
the ground for a place to rest. He shifted weight onto his left foot and in<br />
an instant his right boot alighted upon the ground. He stood beside his<br />
strawberry roan, patted her withers, and stroked the long jugular in her neck.<br />
He considered the barren country of junipers and sage.<br />
To the Old Cowboy, it looked like home.<br />
ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
ROY’S KNUCKLES TAP<br />
gently upon the door. The door that could do with a coat of<br />
paint. The door that was new maybe two hundred years ago.<br />
The door that opens to reveal a squat, red-faced lady.<br />
The squat, red-faced lady squints up at him, then up and<br />
down him, then beyond him, down both ways along the empty<br />
hall past him, then back up at him again. She challenges him<br />
with a lengthy glare.<br />
“You got tchotchkes?”<br />
To Roy, she appears thus: a frowsy, jowly turnipy face<br />
mostly obscured by coke-bottle thick, eyeball-bloating lenses in<br />
rhinest<strong>one</strong> encrusted frames, the kind of lenses that darken when<br />
you wear them outside. Her thinning hair is white and frizzy,<br />
her nose pulpy and purple. The stained, lemony wrap that<br />
envelops her blocky stoutness ends just below her knees, exposing<br />
parchment like, vein-burst legs. On her feet she wears soiled<br />
mules of imitation fleece.<br />
Mistrust clings to her like cheap perfume.<br />
And there are long, long forgotten hairs on her chinny chin<br />
chin.<br />
While to her, this is how Roy appears: tall, paunchy, mostly<br />
bald, with a Bozo-the-Clown fringe of wavy, brown hair salted<br />
gray. He, too, like herself—and like Bozo—has a bulbous<br />
nose. Dilapidated headph<strong>one</strong>s hang around his neck, their<br />
skinny tail attached to an old Sony tape player held together<br />
with duct tape and hitched to his belt. His clothes are dirty and<br />
deeply wrinkled. His face is Gumby smooth, neglectful and<br />
uninformed. Several days’ stubble fuzz his cheeks; otherwise, he<br />
ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
is clean-shaven. He appears to have all his teeth. A green bit of<br />
webbing digging into his left shoulder indicates the presence of a<br />
heavy duffle.<br />
Roy works his mouth as if to speak.<br />
His right hand dives into his right jeans pocket and pulls out<br />
a wad of cash, crumpled and randomly ordered. Keeping the<br />
presence of the old lady’s gun in the periphery of his vision, with<br />
his own trembling hands he counts out ten twenties. The old<br />
woman, whose gun hand continues to swoop and loop about<br />
under the weight of her nickel-plated weapon, watches like a<br />
hawk.<br />
When Roy is finished counting, her puffy palm appears again.<br />
Gently, Roy piles his cash there as if onto an unsprung trap.<br />
Sensing the amount of his cash as much by weight as by<br />
count, her fingers snap closed onto the crinkly currency and her<br />
gun returns to its lodging behind the door.<br />
Her hairy chin stabs the hall.<br />
“Room twenty-tree. Door’s unlocked, key’s innit.” Her<br />
rheumy eyes expand behind their thick lenses. “An’ don’t you<br />
knock on dhis door again ’til rent’s due, you know what’s good fer<br />
you.”<br />
Soiled, imitation fleece mules transport her back inside her<br />
peeling crevice. She slams the door so hard the wall in which it<br />
is set—comprised of old-growth Douglas fir two-by-fours covered<br />
by lath, a thick coat of plaster, and a thin layer of gold-and-red<br />
flocked wallpaper, ca. 1890s—shudders as if constructed from<br />
cardboard. A fallout of dead bug husks and lead-based paint<br />
particles rain down from somewhere on high to land on Roy’s<br />
head and shoulders.<br />
He stands still for a while, relieved he isn’t dead—always<br />
be grateful for the little things—stands and listens to the<br />
building’s gurgles and creaks, to tenants’ muffled voices, to<br />
televisions’ assured words; stands and inhales the ancient smells<br />
of nightshade and pomegranate, of old Crown Royal and Old<br />
Grand Dad, of fried onions and boiled potatoes, of seared garlic,<br />
crusty laundry and mildewed mattresses.<br />
Once assured the door will not open again—not until the<br />
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duties of her office demand, or the needs of her body require—<br />
Roy’s chin sinks to his chest and his eyes track down the wall<br />
to the floor and come to rest on the threadbare material that<br />
perhaps once was a ritzy carpet, back when this was a tony part<br />
of town, in the heyday of the Great Gold Rush, in the time of<br />
stern-wheel riverboats, mud-covered streets, coquettish girls<br />
in crinolines, daguerreotypes and derringers and the clinging,<br />
earthy smell of horseshit in the air.<br />
Roy takes a deep breath and sighs. His hands clamp the<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s back over his ears, back where they belong, back<br />
where they will spend most of their lifetime here on earth before<br />
obsolescence and ultraviolet radiation have their way.<br />
The thumb of his right hand, exposed through a fingerless<br />
woolen glove, presses PLAY on his Sony tape player.<br />
His bald head bobs as if on the end of a spring as he clumps<br />
his scarred work boots down the hall, not to stop before he<br />
reaches his new home.<br />
Number 23.<br />
ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
The Old Cowboy could rest now.<br />
His horse shook her head, freed from the burdens of travel. After she had<br />
been watered and fed some oats, and a familiar hand had caressed her neck<br />
and curried her body, a tobacco-y breath had whispered in her ear and told<br />
her he loved her.<br />
She was as happy as a horse could be.<br />
The Old Cowboy stretched out beneath a canopy of stars, beside a<br />
mesquite fire, his boots still on, his long legs crossed, his head rested against<br />
his saddle. The length of his body was wrapped in a Navaho blanket, his<br />
Henry rifle by his side, a banged-up tin cup of coffee filling his hand.<br />
Nearby, bacon snapped in a skillet.<br />
Sometimes he wondered how many more miles of trail were left ahead,<br />
and what plans the good Lord might still have in mind for him. But at the<br />
end of a hard day he was usually too tired to grumble, and such thoughts<br />
soon scurried off like jackrabbits in the scrub. It was enough to take care of<br />
your horse and tend to your business when life’s trails seemed steep and the<br />
pass high; enough to set <strong>one</strong> boot before the other and carry on.<br />
Sometimes the greatest blessing the Lord could give was just that—the<br />
grit to carry on.<br />
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ROY DROPS HIS DUFFLE,<br />
and causes his face to smile.<br />
The filthy window he looks through, up at which he had<br />
previously peered, back before he had been a tenant, is now<br />
beaded with rain.<br />
Just made it.<br />
This fact causes his face to smile because he’s glad he doesn’t<br />
have to sleep in the rain out in a park on a bench, or hiding in<br />
bushes beneath an overpass’s parallelogram. He bends his knees<br />
and sinks onto the dinged, dilapidated brass bed’s mattress.<br />
squeak<br />
And he stares hard at his new room.<br />
He wishes he knew names of all the colors so he would know<br />
what to call the piss-yellow peeling wallpaper, besides ugly.<br />
The floor is wood, with paint spots and water stains,<br />
depressions and divots and nailheads sticking out. Asleep<br />
beneath the window, a silver radiator coils. Heat leaks from it<br />
like electricity from a potato. There is writing on the wall, spraypainted,<br />
n<strong>one</strong> of it enlightening. The sagging ceiling looks like a<br />
badly-stained sheet holding a bowling ball, or a boil in need of a<br />
lance.<br />
There is still light outside, but it’s Northwestern light, icy city<br />
light, pale blue, tawdry light. Roy read once a long time ago, for<br />
he does occasionally read while keeping warm in the library, that<br />
Eskimos have a hundred names for snow.<br />
Northwesterners should have as many for their flat, gray skies.<br />
There is even a bathroom down the hall.<br />
If only he had a kitchen.<br />
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(If Roy had his druthers, had his shot at the world; if he was<br />
not held back by inherited limitations thrust upon him by drunk,<br />
savage parents; if he just had the balls—then he would flourish,<br />
perhaps, wrapped in stainless steel, his hands filled with skillet<br />
handles and spatulas, knives chopping in the background—order<br />
up!—waitresses watching him produce soufflés and omelets,<br />
soups and salads, outré French dishes, sassy Latino numbers,<br />
scallions sputtering in butter, paper-thin crepes, his face<br />
glistening with the sheen of cooking oils, virgin olive, coldpressed,<br />
his hair reeking of slivered, sizzling garlic, his fingers<br />
redolent of cilantro and cumin, his elbows flying, his chef’s hat<br />
bopping on his balding dome, expensive headph<strong>one</strong>s cupping his<br />
ears.)<br />
The Sony tape player stops.<br />
click<br />
The bedframe on which the stained mattress rests is cast iron,<br />
the kind Yuppie Scum paint white and put in their kids’ rooms.<br />
squeak<br />
Roy leans back and digs into his m<strong>one</strong>y pocket where he keeps<br />
his horsechoker.<br />
squeak squeak<br />
The horsechoker emerges, recently reduced by the loss of ten<br />
brothers, still a decent wad of sawbucks and double sawbucks.<br />
His other pocket is repository for singles and fives. In his<br />
duffle is a giant Zip-Loc bag filled with quarters, dimes and<br />
nickels. Pennies he places heads-up on the sidewalk for others to<br />
find.<br />
Also in his duffle, besides two more pair of jeans, are his<br />
prized Carhartts (thick bib overalls with traditional watch pocket,<br />
two-quarter top pockets, a tool pocket, a coin pocket, double<br />
knees, metal rivets, convenient hammer loop, and a folding<br />
ruler pocket); some cheap-to-free tees from various local bands;<br />
another giant Zip-Loc bag filled with creaky music tapes; a blue,<br />
spiral notebook; a blue Bic pen; three plaid long-sleeve shirts; six<br />
pairs of thick, wool socks; a decent sweater; a few faded BVDs<br />
and, of course, the tools of his trade—a window mop with two<br />
mop heads, a roll of replacement rubber squeegee blades, and<br />
three brass Ettore squeegees (twelve-inch, six-inch and four-inch).<br />
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For, Roy is a window washer.<br />
He counts out his funds. He’s pleased to find how much<br />
remains. He has enough so he doesn’t have to work this winter<br />
if he doesn’t want to. And he doesn’t want to. It was a long, hot<br />
summer spent working alongside his brother, Rick the Asshole,<br />
but he made a ton of dough. Sometimes Roy wonders how much<br />
birdshit they squeegee away in a season. How many layers of grit<br />
and grime they abolish. But it always comes back, always, the<br />
grit the grime and the birdshit.<br />
He thinks what to do with his poke.<br />
Sitting on the edge of his stained, mildewed mattress,<br />
clutching his wad of cash, he looks hard at his new home.<br />
His new home.<br />
Haven from the cold and wet that is winter in Seattle.<br />
And as he looks hard at his new home, he is visited by this<br />
crazy notion: why not, with all the loot he has, why not just leave<br />
Seattle, escape the Northwest and head south like birds do?<br />
Birds, whose brains are no bigger than his little toe, know better<br />
than to hang out where it’s wet and cold and windy. So why<br />
doesn’t he? Isn’t he supposed to be some kind of superior species,<br />
graced with a neo-cortex and opposable thumbs, not to mention<br />
written language? What does he have to be so proud of if he<br />
doesn’t have enough sense to migrate? After all, he owns his own<br />
squeegees and mop. He can work anywhere. Anywhere there<br />
are windows, he can work. Just think, when birds migrate, they<br />
must shit all over the place. He bets they shit even more in the<br />
south during winter, what with tens of millions of them flocking<br />
there. How much more bird shit would there be? Would it be<br />
thousands of tons, or millions of tons? Certainly, the bulk of it<br />
would land on the ground—or on windshields—but just think<br />
how much would land on windows! It would be a bonanza, of<br />
sorts. He would make a small fortune. And with all the m<strong>one</strong>y<br />
he made, scraping away grit and grime and birdshit, he could<br />
start a philanthropic fund for the widows of window washers.<br />
People have no idea how dangerous window washing really is.<br />
It’s right up there with convenience store clerks and cabbies.<br />
But Roy’s never been anywhere before.<br />
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Ever since they were little boys, he and Rick the Asshole have<br />
lived in Seattle. Their parents claimed they moved here to open<br />
a bar. But, like everything else they tried, that plan, if it ever<br />
actually existed, fell through. Everything always fell through for<br />
Roy’s parents. Except making babies. They were good at that.<br />
Roy has been assured that he has many brothers and sisters<br />
scattered across America, but he only knows Rick the Asshole,<br />
who is younger by eight years. Still, knowing his parents, he feels<br />
sure there must be others. Perhaps dozens. It’s hard to know for<br />
sure, since he hasn’t seen his parents in such a long time. Years<br />
and years. They up and left <strong>one</strong> bright April morn. Left him<br />
and his little brother to fend for themselves. Before they left they<br />
said all sorts of nice things, like—: We love you! Be back soon,<br />
sweeties! We’ll send m<strong>one</strong>y, honnies! See you later, ’gators!<br />
Good luck, schmucks!<br />
Roy and Rick had been thirteen and five, respectively.<br />
Roy, as the older brother, should have taken the lead and<br />
been the boss—but Rick had taken after his pa, and was a freak.<br />
He was smoking at six and fucking at eight. He was banging<br />
his head and tattooed by nine. At ten he was pretty much fullgrown.<br />
And, since he knew more about how the world worked<br />
than Roy, it just seemed natural he should take charge of their<br />
affairs. And it was probably a good thing, too. If it had been left<br />
up to Roy, God knows where they would be now.<br />
Probably milk truck drivers.<br />
No—Rick was a hustler, wasn’t about to sit still for anybody’s<br />
shit, especially his brother’s. He wasn’t going to toe lines, pay<br />
dues, suck up to The Man. To Rick, Roy was a dweasel—a<br />
dweeb. Passive motherfuckinpansy.<br />
So, it was a good thing Rick took charge.<br />
But it was Roy who got them into window washing.<br />
Roy, who stumbled through life looking at his feet, also<br />
occasionally looked up.<br />
Oftentimes, while sitting cross-legged on street corners waiting<br />
for some<strong>one</strong> to drop coins into his Starbucks cup, he would stare<br />
up at little dots hanging off sides of tall buildings, little dots that<br />
were, in actuality, window washers. And he would think, as he<br />
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watched them hanging there, what a wonderful, unobstructed<br />
view of the city they must have. He also thought that hanging off<br />
sides of buildings must make a lot of m<strong>one</strong>y. And he wondered<br />
how could some<strong>one</strong> like him get a job doing something like that?<br />
Turned out, it was pretty easy.<br />
Strangely, not every<strong>one</strong> wanted to be a window washer. Nor<br />
even admired them.<br />
Being a window washer was how Roy discovered he was<br />
terrified of heights.<br />
squeak<br />
Roy has reached a decision. He stands.<br />
He lifts the stained mattress. Dropping to his right knee, he<br />
sticks the wad of cash between box springs and mattress, sticks<br />
his arm far in the back, far as he can reach, all the way up to his<br />
shoulder. Then he releases the cash, removes his arm, drops the<br />
mattress, and pats it back in place.<br />
He sits down again.<br />
squeak<br />
No <strong>one</strong> would ever think to look for it there.<br />
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RA<strong>IN</strong> PELTS<br />
the windowpanes.<br />
Tears from heaven. Acid rain.<br />
Roy sleeps, headph<strong>one</strong>s warming his ears, chinstubble on the<br />
prowl. He snores with his mouth sagged open, his balding dome<br />
facing the window filled with watery light.<br />
Bad Feng Shui.<br />
The vertical bars of the dinged, dilapidated iron bed’s<br />
headboard casts shadows along the length of his body.<br />
Off in the distance, there comes a muffled cry. Off in the<br />
farther distance, some<strong>one</strong> screams.<br />
Outside these curled-up walls, a siren keens as cops chase<br />
down infamy, plugged into a radioworld that never rests—houses<br />
flash past, filled with sleepers filled with faith that their doors<br />
will hold, that their windows will deflect, that their locks will<br />
stop; sleepers born with the belief that shit happens to other<br />
people, never to them; sleepers for whom a siren’s scream is<br />
music, is medicine, is momma’s loving hand—<br />
Roy does not count himself among such people.<br />
For Roy, cops are a pain in the ass. They are unharnessed<br />
harassment machines. Purveyors of paranoia, they are criminals<br />
themselves, only smart (or lucky) enough to have figured it out<br />
and g<strong>one</strong> to cop school, where every form of depravity known<br />
to man is taught, and new <strong>one</strong>s dreamed up—a perversity<br />
pedagogy for the morally impaired. Finishing school for freaks.<br />
Roy doesn’t like cops.<br />
The feeling is usually mutual.<br />
Perhaps if he spiffed up, styled his hair, cleaned his nails.<br />
As it stands, he fits their profile perfectly. Their profile,<br />
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that is, for—well, you name it. For a rapist. For a dognapper.<br />
Certainly, for a st<strong>one</strong>r. Definitely, for a head case. Potentially,<br />
for a reader of comic books.<br />
Likely, for a pornographer or a pederast.<br />
Maybe even for a church burner.<br />
But Roy is n<strong>one</strong> of these.<br />
Roy would die of embarrassment if he had to walk into a<br />
porn shop. Sure, he likes dogs, but not that way. And so what<br />
if he’s a head case (name some<strong>one</strong> who isn’t)? At least he’s a<br />
harmless <strong>one</strong>. Roy wouldn’t hurt a fly. Unlike his brother, Rick<br />
the Asshole, who enjoys hurting people, Roy has never stolen<br />
anything in his life. Nor has he smoked pot or tasted alcohol.<br />
He doesn’t know for sure if there’s a God or not—his guess is<br />
not—but he wouldn’t burn down a church over it.<br />
He does, however, read comic books.<br />
So, Roy is not what he appears. Except asleep, which at this<br />
moment he most certainly is, snoring loudly, mouth sagged open,<br />
dawn’s light filling the greasy sky, vertical bars of the dinged,<br />
dilapidated iron bed’s headboard casting shadows along the<br />
length of his body.<br />
Bad Feng Shui.<br />
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The Old Cowboy rose before the sun,<br />
when the air was still and cool, the chill of dew fresh on his face. He would<br />
sit quietly in this, his favorite part of the day, what the Indians called coyote<br />
dawn, and watch the eastern sky pale, still spangled with stars.<br />
Soon as the sun crested the horizon, the heat would begin. The Old<br />
Cowboy lighted a readymade, his face briefly exposed in the match’s flame.<br />
His skin was deeply lined, dark as whang leather; his eyes were perpetual<br />
squints and his hat-ridden forehead as white as a fine lady’s neck.<br />
He wouldn’t make a fire this morning, as there was no easy wood or<br />
sagebrush at hand; just jerky and water for him, a handful or two of oats for<br />
his horse.<br />
He brushed off his woolen trousers, slid on his scarred boots, and stood.<br />
He’d know an old cowboy in hell with his hide burned off, just from the way<br />
he walked.<br />
He settled his dusty, black Stetson banded with silver conchos onto his<br />
head. His kind were men who could sit a saddle twenty-four hours straight.<br />
Tough men, hard as mesquite, men with hands coarse and strong that could<br />
nurse a calf back to life, or choke the life out of a rustler.<br />
He talked in low, gentle t<strong>one</strong>s to his roan as he slipped her saddle blanket<br />
on. She frisked a bit, nodded she was ready for the day to begin, stamped<br />
the ground with impatience. He dropped the heavy saddle onto her back and<br />
cinched it tight.<br />
The sun was up. He would eat in the saddle. The bit went in, halter<br />
over her twiddling ears. Then he swung his long leg up and settled onto the<br />
saddle.<br />
Back on the trail again, back where life was simplest and he was<br />
happiest. He reck<strong>one</strong>d if the good Lord had wanted him to stand still, he<br />
would have made him a tree.<br />
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BLUE, BLUE SKY.<br />
White, white clouds.<br />
Far below, where parallel lines converge, people move, tiny<br />
dots drained of color and detail. They have lives that are very<br />
real to them, but very abstract to Roy from his perch high on<br />
the side of this black, glass building, its reflective skin designed<br />
to keep the people inside safe, warm and productive—men in<br />
business suits, women in business skirts, cubicles fluttering with<br />
colorful Post-Its, computer screens reflected in glasses—long, red<br />
fingernails tapping—clocks crawling through the mire of time,<br />
teleph<strong>one</strong>s’ pleading bleeps. It is a competitive world, an abstract<br />
world, especially for Roy from his high perch on the side of this<br />
black, glass building.<br />
Roy removes his headph<strong>one</strong>s. One of the foam covers comes<br />
away, sucked off by the wind. He is bundled up in his Carhartts<br />
and two woolen shirts. A black, woolen Seahawks watchcap<br />
heats his hairless dome. His hands are insufficiently warmed by<br />
fingerless, woolen gloves<br />
Behind him a body rockets past, in league with devil gravity,<br />
swallowed by the yawning canyon of converging lines.<br />
Off in the distance of the blue, blue sky, an airliner balances<br />
in mid-air, performing the twin miracles of lift and drag.<br />
At the other end of the railed platform on which Roy stands<br />
is Rick the Asshole, also bundled in Carhartts, also wearing<br />
woolen fingerless gloves and watchcap, only his is gray with the<br />
Mariner’s logo stitched on.<br />
In every way he is the opposite of Roy—short and gaunt,<br />
angular, ferret-faced, with cold, black eyes. He leers at Roy. His<br />
hands grip the guardrail.<br />
Stark white ferries scratch the turquoise green of Puget Sound.<br />
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Gulls, white as the ferries, wheel and rail overhead in the blue,<br />
blue sky.<br />
Roy stands on the sidewalk looking up at the tiny platform<br />
hanging against the black, glass building; stands in a group<br />
of people clutching Starbucks coffee cups and cellph<strong>one</strong>s and<br />
leather satchels and Bon Marché shopping bags, people who<br />
have paused from their busy lives to stare up at the tiny platform,<br />
shielding and straining their eyes, paused to share the vicarious<br />
thrill of watching terror unfold, a tragedy thankfully not their<br />
own, paused briefly to gawk before moving on towards the finish<br />
lines of their lives.<br />
Roy watches the body plummet towards the sidewalk,<br />
swallowed by converging lines.<br />
Long, red fingernails tap.<br />
White, white clouds.<br />
Blue, blue skies.<br />
Rick grins and shifts his weight from side-to-side. The<br />
platform on which they stand starts to sway. It swings out from<br />
the building, then in against its black, reflecting glass. bang He<br />
shifts again. The platform swings again. bang Out. In. bang<br />
Again. bang<br />
Roy’s eyes swell with fright. His fingers curl tightly around<br />
the cold pipe that keeps him from being swallowed by converging<br />
lines. He tries to speak, but words, as usual, fail him.<br />
Rick laughs.<br />
bang<br />
The platform swings farther and farther out from the<br />
building—<br />
bang<br />
White gulls wheel and rail, while white ferries scratch the<br />
turquoise green of Puget Sound.<br />
Another airliner floats in the blue, blue sky.<br />
Roy crumbles to his knees.<br />
Through the expanded metal grating they stand upon—the<br />
platform’s floor—he can see the swinging scene, the hungry<br />
converging lines, abstract people like rolling BBs, and he starts to<br />
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cry. His ears fill with Rick’s cackle, his brain fills with the image<br />
of falling, falling like the dude in Vertigo, the fake scenery behind<br />
him spinning, his arms and legs flung out, a surprised look on his<br />
bland face. But that dude knew damn well the Director would<br />
yell cut and he could go home. After all, he was the star, and<br />
couldn’t die. After all, it was only a movie.<br />
But this. This is for real.<br />
Long, red fingernails tap.<br />
Roy climbs to his feet. His eyes are wiped dry by the wind.<br />
He roars as he lunges forward. His long legs drive him to where<br />
his Brother the Asshole stands, a look of surprise on his ferret<br />
face. Roy’s hands close around his neck. Rick might be meaner,<br />
but Roy is stronger. They wrestle. Rick shouts stop! please stop!<br />
The platform careens wildly—bang bang—swings side-to-side<br />
stop! please stop! The ropes from which it depends judder as if<br />
plucked.<br />
bleepbleep<br />
A smooth, pearly, redtipped hand snaps up the receiver. Her<br />
long, red, lustrous hair smells of lost Amazonian flowers. Her<br />
eyes are filled with a blue God no longer makes. Her lips,<br />
painted ruby red, are swollen with sensitive nerves, each <strong>one</strong><br />
linked directly to the pleasure center of her brain. Her mouth<br />
is filled with porcelain teeth, her shoulders square and strong,<br />
behind which, if she but turned, she would see the agon of<br />
brothers, Cain and Able of the Window Washing World, <strong>one</strong><br />
with a death grip on the other.<br />
An enraged Roy lifts his brother bodily off the platform.<br />
Blue, blue sky.<br />
Rick’s dirty New Balances leave the expanded metal surface.<br />
Roy lifts higher and higher. Rick’s hands clutch the air, frantic to<br />
find some purchase, something to grab onto, but there is nothing<br />
except the cold metal rail, and his fingers only brush this as Roy<br />
lifts higher and higher—then hurtles him into space.<br />
bleep<br />
The ph<strong>one</strong> again. Pesky thing. With the tiniest, irritated<br />
frown, the redhead lifts the receiver and brings it to her alabaster<br />
ear.<br />
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Roy watches Rick plummet towards the sidewalk, swallowed<br />
by converging lines.<br />
The crowd disburses, runs for safety from the mess a fallen<br />
human makes.<br />
As Roy watches his brother plummet, the fake background<br />
spinning behind him, he wishes Rick had been a nicer person,<br />
that they could have been buddies—<br />
A cellph<strong>one</strong> rings.<br />
Roy and his wishes.<br />
Rick’s arms and legs are flung out.<br />
Blue, blue sky. White, white clouds.<br />
Some<strong>one</strong> taps Roy’s shoulder, hands him a cellph<strong>one</strong>.<br />
The redhead turns to peer out the window at Roy who stands<br />
al<strong>one</strong> on the rocking platform, who stands al<strong>one</strong> staring down at<br />
the converging lines.<br />
“He’s dead now,” she whispers into the ph<strong>one</strong>, her voice like a<br />
warm corner in which to nap. “You can get up.”<br />
Roy opens his eyes and the sky stops spinning, and a<br />
pinwheeling Rick with flung-out arms and legs stops falling, and<br />
he stares instead into the ceiling that looks like a badly-stained<br />
sheet holding a bowling ball, or like a boil in need of a lance.<br />
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A WATERY BLUE, BLEARY<br />
blue, bleary eye blinks through a vertical crack.<br />
The 3 on the eye-owner’s door has only <strong>one</strong> nail left to hold it<br />
in place, and swings back and forth with the slightest movement.<br />
It is swinging now.<br />
The eye’s owner (Roy) opens his door wider.<br />
Two watery blue, bleary eyes blink through a bigger vertical<br />
crack.<br />
It is that quiet time before dawn when the Straights are still<br />
asleep.<br />
The hall stands empty.<br />
Roy doubts seriously if there are any Straights in this building.<br />
Down at the end of the empty hall is a white door set in a<br />
fluted, alabaster frame above which is a back-lit, marbled-glass<br />
transom window.<br />
The marbled-glass transom window yawns open, held in place<br />
by a solitary, painted chain.<br />
Upon the white door are these letters in scratched, patinized<br />
brass: B THRO M.<br />
Apparently, at some point in the building’s history, two vowels<br />
had managed to escape.<br />
Roy wets his lips.<br />
Because, if this building doesn’t house any Straights, there’s no<br />
telling how many of its inmates might still be awake.<br />
People who do not inhabit the straight world do not as a rule<br />
share straight habits. In Roy’s nether, in-between world, it does<br />
not hold true that early to bed and early to rise makes a man<br />
healthy, wealthy and wise; nor is it considered an enduring virtue<br />
to ingest a piece of fruit every day.<br />
Magically transformed into elastic, the hall seems to stretch<br />
out before Roy as if a scene from a 1960s Jerry Lewis movie.<br />
Roy has this, among his many problems: he is very private<br />
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about the details of his toilette. He extends the courtesy of his<br />
lack of curiosity in this matter to every<strong>one</strong> he knows, and hopes<br />
for the same from them. But not every<strong>one</strong> he knows shares his<br />
delicate sensibility. Take his brother, Rick the Asshole. He’ll<br />
whip his out anywhere, in a public place even, if he feels the urge<br />
to do so, which is far too often as far as Roy is concerned. How<br />
many times has Roy stood at a urinal guarding his precious<br />
secret while Rick would back off several paces and trace letters,<br />
even whole paragraphs, with his yellow stream? And he would<br />
pass gas, too, would Rick, whenever and wherever he damned<br />
well pleased, especially on crowded elevators, and not sneak <strong>one</strong><br />
out either, but force it out just to make it louder.<br />
Outside of Rick, Roy doesn’t know many people. There’s<br />
Mel, Rick’s roommate, and a few of Mel’s friends. But they’re all<br />
gay, so they don’t really count, because Roy isn’t gay. At least, he<br />
doesn’t think he is. Mel is sometimes nice, sometimes mean. He<br />
and all his gay friends are always making potty humor at Roy’s<br />
expense.<br />
Roy pulls his door open some more.<br />
Their jokes make him uncomfortable, make him feel maybe<br />
there’s something wrong with him because he doesn’t find what<br />
they laugh at to be all that funny.<br />
How can something said to hurt another person be funny?<br />
Like an addlepated turtle, he pokes his sleep-tousled head<br />
beyond the door frame, and cranks his face first to the left, then<br />
to the right, taking in the panorama of the vacuous hall.<br />
Life can be so filled with obstacles.<br />
Take this hall, for example. It appears to be empty, as the<br />
building appears to be asleep, so this would appear to be a very<br />
good time to make a run for it. But the Jerry Lewis stretching<br />
effect has landed the B THRO M door somewhere out in the<br />
Pacific Ocean, or in the Utah desert.<br />
Roy has never been good with directions.<br />
He opens his door all the way.<br />
He steps past the threshold and stands in the hall.<br />
One day, he intends to buy a compass.<br />
He stands listening, prepared to streak back inside at the<br />
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approach of footsteps, or the slam of a distant door, having left<br />
his own door open wide for that very purpose.<br />
He would wear it on a string tied around his neck.<br />
He desperately wants the bathroom to himself, and the<br />
experience he enjoys within its four walls to be all his own.<br />
Emboldened by the ostensible emptiness surrounding him, he<br />
draws his door to—but not shut, in case he needs to make that<br />
fast getaway—and stealthfully walks the thousand miles to the<br />
B THRO M.<br />
And of course, this being a funny place—the world that is,<br />
brimming with paradox and ambiguity despite our very best<br />
efforts to subdue them—just as Roy’s hand is closing its grasp<br />
onto the faceted glass doorknob, the faceted glass doorknob<br />
turns under its own power and the thick, white door opens with<br />
a whoosh that sucks many hall molecules inside the B THRO M<br />
with it. So violently and quickly does the door open that there<br />
is a drop in barometric pressure throughout the entire building,<br />
albeit a small <strong>one</strong> only noticed by cats.<br />
Roy’s face carroms back and forth between his life-long<br />
learned emotions of shock and surprise. He works his mouth as<br />
if chewing on a thick, juicy slab of air while his brain shoots off<br />
missives and messages to the nerves and muscles required to spin<br />
him around and run him back into his room.<br />
Caught off-guard, un-balanced between the here-and-now of<br />
Formerly-About-To-Open-The-Door and Currently-About-To-<br />
Run-Like-Hell, Roy finds he has a decision to make. And, as<br />
with most Roy Decisions, it will take him a little while before he<br />
knows what to do.<br />
Given the time of night—or day—and the circumstances of<br />
their abrupt meeting, the man who stands wet before Roy—<br />
wrapped in a thick, terry towel spotted with little Cowboys on<br />
horses chasing little Indians on horses, a similar towel wrapped<br />
around his head—has, if anything, even less desire than Roy to<br />
extend their unexpected encounter with casual conversation.<br />
Unlike Roy, who stands gawping, the toweled man reacts<br />
thus—: avoiding eye contact, he slams the door closed and<br />
scurries along the no-longer-empty hallway towards his room.<br />
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He re-enters his room and slams its door as closed as closed<br />
can be.<br />
bang<br />
Leaving gawping Roy with a narrow range of options.<br />
The way he sees it he can: (a) forge ahead with his initial<br />
plan and temporarily inhabit the B THRO M, thereby eliminating<br />
whatever waste materials the machine that is his body has<br />
manufactured, or (b) beat a hasty retreat back to his own room to<br />
lock the slab of painted wood that is his own door, and suffer the<br />
exotic pain of consequential retention of aforementi<strong>one</strong>d waste<br />
materials that will be his own pain, unique and without reference<br />
to others.<br />
In his confusion as to which of these two options ought best<br />
be applied to his life at this exact moment, it occurs to him that<br />
there might be a third.<br />
And this would be: (c) follow the man in the Cowboys and<br />
Indians towels and investigate further.<br />
That this last option is the <strong>one</strong> he elects is remarkable, given<br />
his history of challenged decision-making.<br />
He walks slowly along the hall in the towels’ wake to stand<br />
beneath a bug-filled globe suspended from three dusty chains.<br />
His sweating dome is weakly illuminated by the globe’s single,<br />
low-wattage bulb.<br />
He stares at the scratched, patinized brass numbers on the<br />
door and notes that they all have their little nails.<br />
And the door’s number is this: 28.<br />
And is this not as it should be, in accordance with the rules of<br />
numbering? For does not 27 precede it, and does not 29 follow?<br />
And is not 28 a perfect number, an integer for which the sum of<br />
its proper divisors is equal to the number itself?<br />
Roy’s number—23—is not a perfect number. It is a prime<br />
number, a number with only two divisors, 1 and itself.<br />
But these mathematical facts elude Roy who has, in fact, no<br />
mathematical facts at his disposal.<br />
What grabs Roy and gives him a shake isn’t the two fullynailed<br />
brass numbers, but what’s attached to the door beneath<br />
them.<br />
Directly beneath the numbers, secured with two screws, are<br />
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two letters. They appear to have been sliced from a sheet of steel<br />
with an acetylene torch, so the edges are ragged and rough, and<br />
this is what they look like:<br />
Roy appears thoughtful. Perhaps this is a clue to the name of<br />
the towels’ owner.<br />
RR<br />
Maybe his name is Roy, too.<br />
But it could be Roger. Or Robert. But, most people named<br />
Robert are called Bob, so it would be BR if his name was Robert,<br />
or Bob. Roy tries to think of some more names that begin with<br />
R, but not many come to mind. There’s Rob, but that’s a form<br />
of Robert, too, and that’s the same as Bob. It could be Randy.<br />
That would be short for Randall, and nobody wants to be called<br />
that. Or it could be Rudy. But that’s the name of a reindeer.<br />
Perhaps, along with who he is and why he’s here, it’s a mystery<br />
he will never solve.<br />
The sound of a door slamming elsewhere in the building’s<br />
warrens brings back Roy’s wandering mind. That and the<br />
insistence of his bowels. A wave of fear courses through<br />
him. Somewhere in the building some<strong>one</strong> else is awake, or is<br />
awakening, and will soon be thinking toilet thoughts, as once<br />
again is he.<br />
Regrettably, he must leave his vigil of a door with nailed-on<br />
numbers and screwed-on letters. Reluctantly, he must turn his<br />
back on this bedeviling mystery to betake himself with renewed<br />
urgency towards his original goal.<br />
It is a terrifying thought to Roy that, upon having completed<br />
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his business and exiting the small chamber, he might, as had<br />
the B THRO M’s former occupant, find himself face-to-face with<br />
another unnamed tenant of the second floor, whereupon, his<br />
features revealed and noted and in all likelihood remembered<br />
as they passed <strong>one</strong> another—the <strong>one</strong> going in, the other coming<br />
out—(and considering he would have left something of himself<br />
behind in that tiny room, something very private and very, very<br />
personal); then, as a consequence of all this, he (Roy) would never<br />
be able to look that unnamed tenant of the second floor in the<br />
eyes again.<br />
With the fresh, piney scent of a Glade Air Freshener luring<br />
him on, Roy hurries along the hall.<br />
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ROY LOVES HIS MUSIC.<br />
It is the sustainer of his soul.<br />
Not that he would ever put it that way.<br />
One of the great things about living in Seattle is just this: the<br />
music. How much of it there is. The variety. Not that Roy’s<br />
into variety. Not that he frequents Clubs to listen to live music.<br />
That costs m<strong>one</strong>y. And then there’s the drunks and the cigarette<br />
smoke. And the people. Seattle people.<br />
The Birkis-and-socks crowd.<br />
Mostly, when Roy listens to music—which comprises most<br />
of his day between waking up and going to bed, and oftentimes<br />
extends into his sleep—what Roy listens to is eighties Punk.<br />
Among his favorites are: the Sex Pistols, the Smiths, the Pixies,<br />
Dinosaur, Jr., and Camper van Beethoven. But he also loves<br />
the Pogues and the Ram<strong>one</strong>s and the Clash. He isn’t into early<br />
seventies shit, like Glam—except for the glamtrash Canuck<br />
group, Forgotten Rebels, who are what Glam should have been,<br />
as far as he’s concerned—and maybe a bit of Roxie, and still a<br />
little Bowie now and then, and he loves Suzie Quatro and really,<br />
really early Alice and, every now and then, for nostalgia’s sake,<br />
some Mott the Hoople. He also digs some of the more obscure<br />
Brit groups, like the Adicts and the Blitz, the Adverts and the<br />
Exploited, Chron Gen (easily as good as the Buzzcocks), Infa<br />
Riot, and the great and fab 999 led by Nick Cash; also, the Toy<br />
Dolls, Stiff Little Fingers and Generation X. He even likes some<br />
French skunk like Camera Silens and early Oi!, Komintern Sect,<br />
La Souris Delinguee and the Trotskids.<br />
What Roy hates is what his Brother the Asshole listens to.<br />
Rick likes greasy, slicked-back pukeabilly crap like Dick Dale,<br />
or the Reverend Horton Heat. Not to mention he still listens to<br />
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Guns N’ Roses! And when he’s really, really drunk he’ll sit all<br />
glassy-eyed, after puking onto somebody’s shoes, and cry while<br />
he listens to Tom Waits croak, or that whining sell-out pussy, Van<br />
Morrison.<br />
Yes, Roy loves his music. It’s <strong>one</strong> of the few things—besides<br />
cooking—he feels he knows something about, and would be<br />
competent discussing with others, were such an occasion ever to<br />
arise.<br />
But that would require social skills.<br />
Until such a time arrives, and he has a social circle outside of<br />
Rick and Mel, Roy is happy to cultivate his musical tastes al<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Roy doesn’t know much about anything really, and he would<br />
be the first to admit it. But <strong>one</strong> of the books he read a long time<br />
ago, its cover ripped off and returned to the publisher, so he<br />
found it in the recycle bin behind Beauty and the Beast Books<br />
in the U District, was about something called Zen, and it talked<br />
about flowing like water and the path of least resistance, and he<br />
realized as he read it that he was a charter member of that club.<br />
Because, for Roy, this world of rushing and grabbing, this<br />
world of nose jobs and coffee jitters, this world of producing<br />
things—this world that seems to be all about making m<strong>one</strong>y—<br />
this isn’t the real world, the world he inhabits. This isn’t the<br />
world he awakens to every morning, isn’t the world he falls asleep<br />
from every night. This world, the book explained, is the world<br />
of illusion. Oh, it’s real in its own way—it hurts when you smash<br />
your thumb with a hammer—it just isn’t really real. What’s really<br />
real are little things, like the buzz a ladybug makes when she flies<br />
away home, or the number of times you can use a razor blade.<br />
Or ants crawling over the tip of your shoe.<br />
Or music.<br />
Roy loves his music. It is the sustainer of his soul.<br />
Not that he would ever put it that way.<br />
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WAIL<strong>IN</strong>G WALL<br />
is a downtown music store haunted and inhabited by freaks.<br />
With its tattered, peeling posters that seem to come alive when<br />
the wind off Puget Sound sweeps along the street, it’s not a place<br />
for Straights. They have their own music stores. They can go to<br />
malls, or drive to Capitol Hill where the fake freaks live. They<br />
can walk along Broadway while clutching Barnes and Noble bags<br />
close to their chests. They can grope their way from Starbucks<br />
to Starbucks while dreaming of peaceful shopping in places with<br />
cardboard standees of Eric Clapton and Sting—but they can<br />
not come here. They can not come to the Wailing Wall. The<br />
Wailing Wall is not for them. They do not belong. They are not<br />
welcomed. Not that their m<strong>one</strong>y wouldn’t be taken. It would,<br />
and their bodies deposited in <strong>one</strong> of the big, green dumpsters out<br />
in the cobblest<strong>one</strong>d alley.<br />
One more time—: the Wailing Wall is for freaks.<br />
Got it?<br />
Roy’s bald dome emerges from a Metro bus. He stands on<br />
the sidewalk fiddling with his dilapidated Sony, changing tapes.<br />
He always carries several in his pockets. He concentrates on this<br />
activity as though nothing else in the world matters. (Doesn’t he<br />
understand he is in the way? That people have to sidestep him<br />
as he stands on the sidewalk like a statue? That men in Harris<br />
Tweeds with shoulder-slung bags must alter their steps? That<br />
women in high heels must circumnavigate his island in their<br />
Stream? Doesn’t he care? Isn’t he in a hurry to get anywhere?<br />
Doesn’t he have a job? A boss? Some<strong>one</strong> to answer to?)<br />
Apparently not.<br />
To change tapes, Roy has to do this: he has to peel back the<br />
frayed duct tape that holds closed his Sony’s broken door. Then<br />
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he can pop out the old tape and (a) flip it over, or (b) replace<br />
it entirely. If he chooses (a) the process is fairly simple and<br />
straightforward. However, sometimes before he can listen again<br />
he must rewind to the beginning. This can be frustrating and<br />
takes time and time is m<strong>one</strong>y, especially if his batteries are low,<br />
and they usually are. After all, batteries are expensive (why do<br />
they cost so much, anyway?), so every ounce of juice they have<br />
ought to be squeezed from them before they change career paths<br />
and become landfill. Perhaps it is a Northwest thing, but Roy<br />
always has a twinge of guilt whenever he releases the heavy<br />
little tubes, drops them into the trash. He’s not sure why, but he<br />
believes somehow their transformation into landfill is connected<br />
to the ever-expanding hole in our precious Oz<strong>one</strong> Layer.<br />
Or he could choose (b).<br />
As menti<strong>one</strong>d, (b) entails replacing the music tape entirely.<br />
Although this might seem fairly straightforward, it rarely is.<br />
And <strong>one</strong> of the reasons is that Roy always has difficulty deciding<br />
which tape to listen to next. And the reason he always has<br />
this difficulty is that he has heard every single <strong>one</strong> of his tapes<br />
innumerable times, so it’s hard for him to decide which <strong>one</strong> he<br />
wants to re-listen to again. And because of this fact—the fact<br />
of his having heard his tapes so many times before—they are<br />
seldom listened to all the way through and therefore require<br />
either rewinding or fast-forwarding once they are inserted into<br />
the Sony player.<br />
This is why there is so much complexity involved in what, on<br />
the surface—to the gruff, nettled passersby—should be a simple<br />
undertaking.<br />
In fact, it is his need for new music that has drawn him to the<br />
Wailing Wall this very day. This very chilly, drizzly, purplish<br />
November day.<br />
Roy, wearing gray, fingerless woolen gloves, succeeds in reinserting<br />
a tape and re-securing the Sony’s broken door. By<br />
holding the tape up to the concrete sky, and squinting through<br />
the little clear plastic window, he had been able to determine—to<br />
his delight—that it was not in need of rewinding. He presses<br />
PLAY and clips the Sony back where it belongs on his belt just<br />
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to the right of his navel, and beneath the outcrop of his slightly<br />
bulging belly.<br />
He rolls an exposed thumb along the knurled edge of the<br />
<strong>volume</strong> control wheel, and really loud droogy shit enters into his<br />
head.<br />
G<strong>one</strong> are the honks and the sirens and the jackhammers<br />
and the snippets of migrating cellph<strong>one</strong> conversations; g<strong>one</strong> is<br />
the Outside World in all its reputed glory, implicated past and<br />
forbidding future; g<strong>one</strong> is the daily business report; g<strong>one</strong> is NPR;<br />
g<strong>one</strong> is the Bon Marché; g<strong>one</strong> are the loathed, the loaded and the<br />
lame; g<strong>one</strong> is any reason to get up and go; g<strong>one</strong> is God and g<strong>one</strong><br />
is war and g<strong>one</strong> are politics—g<strong>one</strong>, g<strong>one</strong>, g<strong>one</strong>.<br />
And g<strong>one</strong> is Roy’s unhappiness.<br />
Not that he is all that unhappy, not really. Roy is not a<br />
melancholic, not an alcoholic, not a dependant, needy man.<br />
He has never really believed he would know what love is, so he<br />
doesn’t miss it. He has never made a fortune, not even come<br />
close, never actually tried, so that’s something else he doesn’t<br />
miss. His parents aband<strong>one</strong>d him and his Brother the Asshole so<br />
long ago all he remembers about them is their boozy breaths, so<br />
he’s got that going for him. It was the metaphysical poet, John<br />
Donne, who once wrote (in Meditation XVII) that, No man is an<br />
island, entire of itself.<br />
But, then, he had never met Roy.<br />
Roy pushes open the door and enters the Wailing Wall.<br />
Because Roy’s headph<strong>one</strong>s are filled with the brass crashings<br />
of Zildjian cymbals and hissing hi-hats, the seagull skirl of<br />
Stratocasters, the repetitive Les Paul baselines and earthen<br />
thrum of Ludwig drums, he doesn’t hear the little bells ting-a-ling<br />
above his head as he enters.<br />
ting-a-ling ting-a-ling<br />
He has, in fact, never heard these bells, is, in fact, unaware<br />
of their existence, since his head is always filled with really loud<br />
droogy shit.<br />
Not that the bells mind. They’re just doing their job.<br />
In many lands and in many times, the ringing of bells has<br />
been considered a sacred act, their tinkling taken as efficient<br />
means to drive away evil spirits and demons.<br />
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That the tiny bells working so hard above Roy’s insouciant<br />
head have proved themselves ineffectual here at the Wailing Wall<br />
should by no means be taken as proof that their power is a myth.<br />
Instead, it might be asserted that the evil residing herein at the<br />
Wailing Wall is so intense that their feeble plaint is overwhelmed<br />
and muted, not merely unheard.<br />
ting-a-ling ting-a-ling<br />
For, it is a well known—if oft forgot—fact that music was<br />
invented by Satan to lure people’s minds away from God. Here,<br />
in the Twenty-first Century, so many people have traveled down<br />
this path that, for some lost souls—such as Roy’s—music has<br />
become a substitute and replacement for God.<br />
That great, gentle Rocker, Little Richard, once confessed: “I<br />
was directed and commanded by another power. The power of<br />
DARKNESS. The power of the DEVIL.”<br />
May it please the court that the music played at the Wailing<br />
Wall be entered as evidence of his assertion.<br />
The man behind the counter does not notice Roy. He is<br />
distracted, screaming into the teleph<strong>one</strong>.<br />
“Yeah? Yeah? Well, eat me, you fuckin’ bitch!”<br />
The man behind the counter has long, black, wavy locks that<br />
rain down and end in peroxided tips. Like Roy, he also wears<br />
fingerless gloves. Only his are black leather adorned with spikes.<br />
“If I don’t get my shit back TO-night, I’m gonna smoke you<br />
and that that dyke, you fucked-up piece’ve shit!”<br />
His arms are tattooed and spindly, as though little used,<br />
except for holding teleph<strong>one</strong>s, shelving records and tapes,<br />
dressing, feeding and manipulating himself, but not much more.<br />
“Yeah, well stick it up your gawdamned ass, whore!”<br />
His apparel is all black, with the exception of bold,<br />
white letters on his tee-shirt that read: I FUCKED YOUR<br />
GIRLFRIEND. A long, silver chain dangles from his belt, its<br />
nether end attached to a brown wallet that protrudes from the<br />
right, rear pocket of his skin-tight jeans.<br />
His wrists are wrapped with silver-studded bracelets, and his<br />
face is adorned with a Frank Zappa mustache.<br />
As often as Roy has been inside the Wailing Wall—and he<br />
is a frequent browser, if not buyer—he has never noticed the<br />
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man’s Frank Zappa mustache before. In order for him to have<br />
d<strong>one</strong> this he would have had to look the man behind the counter<br />
directly in the face. But Roy’s eyes seldom wander far from the<br />
various slogans the man wears on his black tee-shirts. Here is<br />
a sampling of some of those slogans: WILL FUCK ON FIRST<br />
DATE LET’S PLAY HIDE-N-GO-FUCK-YOURSELF<br />
KEEP MUSIC EVIL I’D RA<strong>THE</strong>R BE FUCK<strong>IN</strong>G<br />
YOUR WIFE DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCK<strong>IN</strong>G PEOPLE<br />
PERSON? FUCK MILK GOT WEED?<br />
He also has <strong>one</strong> that reads ROCK HARD, which Roy<br />
especially wishes he wouldn’t wear because it’s the name of <strong>one</strong> of<br />
Suzi Quatro’s best albums, released in ’81.<br />
“Don’t fuckin’ lie to me, bitch! I know what the fuck you and<br />
that shithole were doin’!”<br />
Roy can’t believe his luck.<br />
In a ragged, brown cardboard box labeled New Shit in black<br />
felt tip pen, sandwiched between Gino Vannelli’s Gist for the<br />
Gemini (1976), and Cheap Trick’s 1983 release of Next Position<br />
Please, he discovers—to his amazement—Come Alive For Suzi, a<br />
Suzi Quatro bootleg of a live concert she gave at Shibuya Public<br />
Hall in Tokyo, Japan, 1975.<br />
He draws his body close to the box, just in case some<strong>one</strong><br />
else might see what he’s discovered and entertain the notion of<br />
grabbing it. Just in case the empty store is suddenly invaded by<br />
an army of Suzi Quatro freaks. The plastic case is missing and<br />
the tape is a dupe, no doubt of the original vinyl (USA released<br />
title was, variously, Bound To Please, or Naked Under Leather), and its<br />
name is crudely written in blue ink on both sides.<br />
He holds it up to the bare florescent tubes. It seems to be<br />
intact.<br />
Below the words New Shit on the brown cardboard box is this:<br />
50 Sents.<br />
Roy’s day is made.<br />
All he has to do is pay.<br />
“You pissass meathole! You slugsucking cunt!”<br />
(If Roy could hear the man scream that word, he would<br />
cringe. Not that he cares all that much about women, or their<br />
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ights, or their liberation, or their body parts or whatever<br />
it was they’re always so angry about. In point of fact, Roy<br />
cares nothing for political movements. It’s just that he lives<br />
in a massively Politically Correct city and, even though he<br />
does not share directly in that culture’s mainstream bounty,<br />
certain prejudices have managed to percolate through and<br />
find comfortable lodging in his constitution. Among these is a<br />
disapproval of the aforementi<strong>one</strong>d C-word, not to mention use of<br />
the dreaded word that begins with N.)<br />
Roy wishes he could steal. It would be so easy, is so tempting,<br />
just to slip the black-and-gold Memorex tape into his pocket.<br />
Who would see him? The skinny, long-haired man behind<br />
the counter has his back to him. The store, except for them, is<br />
empty. It always is during the day. At night you don’t want to be<br />
here.<br />
At least, Roy doesn’t.<br />
Roy only looks like a freak.<br />
The man behind the counter jabs <strong>one</strong> finger, stiffened, into<br />
the air.<br />
“I’ll stick my .45 up your ass and blow your fuckin’ brains out<br />
you don’t give me my shit back!”<br />
Thoughts of shoplifting haze.<br />
The back of the man’s tee-shirt reads: <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> ASS.<br />
Roy approaches the counter.<br />
Speakers that hang from chains pound out a b<strong>one</strong> marrow<br />
massage while Roy’s headph<strong>one</strong>s spew forth really loud droogy<br />
shit.<br />
Thus stands Roy, laved by raucous tympani, assailed by an<br />
incantatory din; stands thus Roy, watching the man behind the<br />
counter gesticulate and shout, vaguely aware of the foul language<br />
he must be using, blissfully unable to hear it.<br />
After a spell, the skinny man in black turns and notices Roy.<br />
He glares hatefully at the single tape Roy holds. Still shouting<br />
into the little holes of his teleph<strong>one</strong>’s mouthpiece, he pounds the<br />
register, then slides the two coins across the counter and throws<br />
them at the cash register’s open drawer. One settles into the well<br />
reserved for pennies, the other bounces out to land somewhere on<br />
the floor in music-induced silence.<br />
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“You make me come after your hairy ass and you’re dead! You<br />
hear me, bitch? I’ll fucking hang your skinned carcass in a meat<br />
locker you you—FUCK!”<br />
Roy grips his new treasure, anxious to get away from the<br />
man behind the counter, anxious to get away from the counter<br />
itself, anxious to get away from the black tee-shirt’s bright, white<br />
lettering, anxious to hear Suzi Quatro sing Your Mama Won’t Like<br />
Me, and Jail House Rock.<br />
Tiny bells tinkle unnoticed above Roy’s insouciant head.<br />
ting-a-ling ting-a-ling<br />
If only the demons could hear.<br />
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There were times when the Old Cowboy<br />
grew l<strong>one</strong>some for his own kind, wondered what his life would have been<br />
like had he married Mod, settled down the way she wanted. The way they<br />
planned. But the drive West had been too strong, the call to adventure too<br />
loud; it had roared in his ears like a Colorado avalanche. Since that time<br />
there had been other women; he even thought once of settling down and<br />
working in a hardware store, selling tack and barbed wire and bolts of calico.<br />
Mod could have tamed him. But she was g<strong>one</strong> now, and the Great Plains<br />
was a woman, too.<br />
In the end, a Cowboy was just a l<strong>one</strong>r, a tough hombre, hard to please,<br />
harder to understand. Maybe <strong>one</strong> day he would stumble over another woman<br />
like Mod, <strong>one</strong> who was willing to let him be, who would love him for his<br />
wildness, instead of trying to put the bit between his teeth.<br />
He reached into a pocket of his duster and pulled out a dented Hohner.<br />
He slid it along his cracked, pursed lips. The roan’s ears twitched with the<br />
familiar sound, and her pace quickened. A man had to have more than miles<br />
ahead and a horse under him to call life good. He had to have music. Once,<br />
in his younger days, his harmonica had taken a bullet and saved his life.<br />
The way he sees it, music’s been saving his life ever since.<br />
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GEORGETOWN WAS NOT<br />
always hemmed in by warehouses, factories, freeways, barge<br />
terminals, railroads and airports. Georgetown was not even<br />
always dry land.<br />
Georgetown was not even always Georgetown.<br />
Used to be, back in the early part of two centuries ago,<br />
the Duwamish River curled lazily through this part of the<br />
world. Away back then, the Qelqaquby—the Proud People—a<br />
communal tribe, called the place Tu-kwel-tid, By-the-River-<br />
Bank. They took salmon and steelhead from its pristine waters,<br />
gathered shellfish and raised potatoes.<br />
Then came the White Man.<br />
On the first occasion they were led by Luther Collins who, in<br />
1851, claimed 640 acres of this Edenic valley as his own. Others<br />
quickly followed—Samuel Maple, Henry Van Asselt. The<br />
Denny party arrived the spring of that year and settled in what is<br />
now Pi<strong>one</strong>er Square, three miles to the north.<br />
These brazen acts naturally met with some resistance from<br />
the tribe, but it was ineffectual, disorganized and dispirited. And<br />
it didn’t last long. By the 1850s, most of the Proud People—<br />
who had never thought to register claims, much less invent<br />
a legal system or colonialism—were sent packing to Federal<br />
Reservations in far away, distant lands. The few who remained<br />
behind led miserable lives, drinking firewater and working for<br />
pennies picking hops.<br />
For the soil was sweet, the climate divine, and hops throve in<br />
abundance. As a consequence of this, in 1883, John Clausen and<br />
Edward Sweeny built a brewery. Dubbed the Seattle Brewing<br />
and Malting Company, it was destined to expand to cover five<br />
acres and become the sixth largest brewery in the world.<br />
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Thus, the origin of Rainier Beer.<br />
Germans and Belgians, arriving in droves, constituted the<br />
main population of the work force.<br />
Still, the community had no name. This oversight was finally<br />
rectified when, in 1890, a developer by the name of Julius Horton<br />
bought some of the original Collins homestead and named it<br />
after his son, George, who had just graduated medical school.<br />
Meanwhile, Seattle needed a railroad. How else was it to<br />
burgeon and grow? So, on the first day of May, 1874, three<br />
hundred residents started to build <strong>one</strong>. Called the Seattle &<br />
Walla Wall Railroad, its terminus was located in Georgetown.<br />
They envisi<strong>one</strong>d crossing the Cascades with their line, and<br />
agreed to contribute <strong>one</strong> day’s labor a week until the project was<br />
completed. But they were trumped the following year when the<br />
Renton and Talbot Coal Mines built their own line between<br />
Seattle and Tacoma, thereby connecting Seattle to the Northern<br />
Pacific RR.<br />
Thus did Georgetown become a marshalling yard for<br />
railroaders.<br />
By the time electric streetcars reached Georgetown in 1893,<br />
brewing and railroading had become Georgetown’s métier.<br />
At the beginning of the last century, Georgetown had seven<br />
saloons, five grocery stores, and four churches—alcohol proving<br />
once again to be more important than food or God.<br />
Certain influential citizens of Seattle—that big, boiling-over<br />
melting pot to the north—greatly desired to annex Georgetown,<br />
and make it a de facto neighborhood, rather than merely <strong>one</strong> per<br />
se. But Georgetownians recognized that Seattle’s temperance<br />
ordinances would force them to close all their bars and, as a<br />
result, in 1904, they managed to thwart annexation to become<br />
an incorporated entity unto themselves.<br />
Eventually, a race track was built, and the number of saloons<br />
exceeded twenty-five and were operated twenty-four hours a day<br />
with rooms to rent by the hour or the day.<br />
Georgetown had evolved into a red light district.<br />
Seattle—even then politically correct—embarked upon<br />
a campaign to quash Georgetown’s sinful pride. The result<br />
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ackfired and Georgetown became even more popular for<br />
revelers, gamblers, fornicators and drunks.<br />
Nothing good, however, lasts forever. Soon enough, the<br />
stalwart, straight-laced citizenry of Georgetown—wearied of<br />
vice, violence and public micturation—succeeded in annexing<br />
their little community to the glowering <strong>one</strong> to the north so that,<br />
in 1910, Georgetown—formerly the “Cesspool of Seattle”—<br />
became just another Seattle neighborhood.<br />
The beginning of the century before this was a time of great<br />
public works. With an arrogance attributable only to Man, rivers<br />
were being re-routed to benefit commerce, and mountains were<br />
being carved to resemble men. Even the lazy, twisty Duwamish<br />
was tamed in a way Xerxes would have found appealing—<br />
straightened and deepened and renamed a Canal.<br />
Parts of Georgetown that had once been riverine now found<br />
themselves half-a-mile or more from water. Appropriately<br />
enough, from the resulting foul-smelling mud flats, industry<br />
arose. For now the new, improved Duwamish Canal could<br />
accommodate ocean-going vessels and product-laden barges.<br />
Then came Boeing, then came WWII, then came housing<br />
projects, then came poverty.<br />
Industrial development and warehouses engulfed Georgetown.<br />
In ’48 the library closed. In ’52 the movie theater was shuttered.<br />
In ’62 the I-5 opened, ending any reason to pass along SR-99<br />
through Georgetown, effectively closing most businesses there.<br />
The Georgetown schoolhouse, opened in 1898, closed in 1970.<br />
By 1998 there were only 1,500 residents remaining in<br />
Georgetown, over a quarter of which lived below poverty level.<br />
The once famous Hat ‘n’ Boots gas station closed after the I-5<br />
opened, and years later became a cheap, weathered backdrop for<br />
indie motion pictures.<br />
Thus Georgetown in the Twenty-first Century—a down-atheels<br />
home for spray-paint artists, drug dealers, tattoo parlors,<br />
biker bars, and homeless strays like Roy.<br />
Located about 4 miles south of downtown Seattle, Georgetown is a<br />
real place and is easily accessible. From I-5 take either the Corson Ave/<br />
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Michigan St exit, or the Albro Pl/Swift Ave exit. From SR-99—E<br />
Marginal Way S—turn east on S. Michigan St. First and Fourth Avenues<br />
South pass through Georgetown. Perhaps the most architecturally interesting<br />
route is along Airport Way S. Don’t blink, or you’ll miss it!<br />
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<strong>THE</strong> SONY TAPE PLAYER<br />
attached to Roy’s belt gives up the ghost and dies.<br />
Suzi’s voice slows and slows and slows—<br />
click<br />
The circumstances could not have been less tragic. Roy’s new<br />
residence is in sight, and he has already listened to both sides of<br />
the tape five times.<br />
It took forever for him to get home—today is a Game Day, a<br />
day for the Seahawks to play the very costly game of football—<br />
and his bus spent forty minutes traversing a stretch of SR-99 he<br />
could have walked in ten.<br />
Not that Roy minded, except when his batteries were low, or<br />
he needed to pee.<br />
Sometimes he wonders why they don’t put urinals on buses.<br />
(Roy has a colorful cardboard box in his duffle bag that used<br />
to contain Parodi cigars, but is now filled with juiceless batteries<br />
he can’t bring himself to throw away. He figures that that many<br />
batteries thrown away all at once would rip a hole the size of<br />
Australia in our planet’s fragile oz<strong>one</strong> layer. And when the<br />
authorities found out he was responsible for the Australia-sized<br />
oz<strong>one</strong> hole—and they do check on these things—he, Roy, would<br />
probably have to go to jail for a long, long time. Possibly forever.)<br />
Styrofoam boxes with remnants of rice glued inside, crushedout<br />
cigarette butts, packages of squeezed-dry mustards and<br />
ketchups—all wind-delivered—rest in the corners of his<br />
building’s entryway, an entryway that had, maybe a hundred<br />
years ago, been clean and inviting.<br />
Fishing for his keys, Roy bounds up the chipped granite steps<br />
to the scarred front door.<br />
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Roy only has two keys.<br />
He inserts <strong>one</strong>, turns it, and shoves his way inside.<br />
It’s better inside—the floor, that is—kept swept by the angry<br />
lady who runs the place. It’s <strong>one</strong> of those old-fashi<strong>one</strong>d tiled<br />
floors composed of little black-and-white hexes. Roy thumps<br />
up the broad, red-carpeted stairs to the second—his—floor, his<br />
booted feet creaking and sinking the treads with his weight. He<br />
pulls the tatterdemalion headph<strong>one</strong>s away from his ears and<br />
allows them to them rest around his neck.<br />
They’ve had a long day.<br />
At the top of the stairs he stops to catch his breath. He used<br />
to walk everywhere, did Roy, but that was before he learned<br />
about bus transfers. If you know how, you can take a bus transfer<br />
all over Seattle and ride free all day. Now that he knows this, he<br />
doesn’t walk as much. He also eats too much greasy food and<br />
drinks double-tall Americanos with whipped cream for breakfast.<br />
Breakfast of Champions, his Brother the Asshole calls it.<br />
Slightly winded, he walks along the hall.<br />
At room 28 he stops.<br />
Roy stares at the door, the door’s number, and the door’s<br />
double Rs.<br />
He almost forgot, it had been such a busy day. Almost forgot<br />
about the mystery. The mystery of the letters. Forgot to think up<br />
names to fit them.<br />
The first person Roy thinks of now is Robert Redford.<br />
Just imagine if Robert—his friends probably call him Bob,<br />
or maybe even Bobby—Redford actually lived here. Maybe he<br />
moved in to escape his fans. Bob or Bobby must have tons of<br />
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fans. Maybe, this being his later life, Bob or Bobby has become<br />
a hermit like Howard Hughes, grown his nails long and pointy,<br />
his hair no longer slicked-back Hollywood, but dirty and scraggy<br />
like Roy’s.<br />
Just imagine.<br />
This is what Roy does—just imagines—as he stares and stares<br />
at the door marked 28/RR.<br />
And as he stares and stares and just imagines, he hears<br />
something. It’s something unlike anything he’s ever heard before.<br />
It’s something akin to music he’s familiar with, yet not. It’s<br />
something almost otherworldly. It’s something totally weird and<br />
bizarre.<br />
It’s also something that calls to him, urges him to lean closer<br />
and listen.<br />
And this is exactly what Roy does. He leans closer and he<br />
listens.<br />
It’s definitely some kind of music.<br />
Leaning even closer, he listens even harder.<br />
As a consequence of all this leaning and listening, the music<br />
grows louder and becomes more distinct.<br />
He slides his feet nearer the yellow bar of light that lives at the<br />
bottom of the door marked 28/RR.<br />
Whoever is inside—whose initials must be RR—is playing the<br />
weirdest shit he’s ever heard.<br />
Roy turns his head to <strong>one</strong> side and further reduces the<br />
distance between the helix of his left ear and the white surface of<br />
the door. The hairs that spike the rim of his ear make contact<br />
with the surface of the door and, like an insect’s antennae,<br />
amplify vibrations emanating from the other side. These<br />
vibrations bombard his tympanic membrane, set at a gallop his<br />
hammer and stirrup and convert mechanical energy into neural<br />
impulses that rush to fill his brain.<br />
A brain that has not formerly been favored with such sweet<br />
sounds.<br />
A brain limited by a glut of electrified cries and amplified<br />
caterwauler.<br />
A brain content with its narrow bandwidth, yet young and<br />
supple enough to appreciate marvels.<br />
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And, as the gods would have it, of all the brains in the world,<br />
Roy’s happens to be the <strong>one</strong> uniquely suited to appreciate the<br />
tunes that emanate from within 28/RR.<br />
Entranced, Roy sinks further into the sounds, and thus against<br />
the door. His ear presses upon its nicotined surface, its coolness<br />
pleasant against headph<strong>one</strong>-warmed ears.<br />
It is not yet five o’clock of a midweek afternoon. In the<br />
outside world, Straights are fussing with ties, saving files, slipping<br />
on Classic Docksides or Gor-Tex adventure boots and Penny<br />
Loafers, signing to cubicle buddies, calling home, squaring pages,<br />
craving interns (male and female alike)—while he, Roy Weston<br />
(for such is his surname), eavesdrops in a grimy, deeply-shadowed<br />
hall closed off from the consensual reality of commerce and<br />
commotion, listens intently to something totally weird and<br />
bizarre.<br />
The weirdest, most bizarre shit he’s ever heard.<br />
Then he hears something else—somewhere in the building, a<br />
door opens and shuts.<br />
He jumps back from 28/RR, his head twisting this way and<br />
that in an effort to ascertain if he is still al<strong>one</strong> in the hallway.<br />
And he is still al<strong>one</strong> in the hallway, except for the fact that<br />
footsteps approach.<br />
Some<strong>one</strong> is clumping up the stairs!<br />
Not that there’s anything wrong with Roy standing in the<br />
hallway. It is, after all, his hallway. It is, after all, his floor. But<br />
it could be construed as suspicious that he has his ear pasted<br />
against a door that is not, in fact, his own. One that, in fact,<br />
belongs to some<strong>one</strong> else entirely, some<strong>one</strong> with the initials RR<br />
who, if made aware that he—Roy—has been eavesdropping,<br />
might take offense and become belligerent and unwilling under<br />
any circumstances ever to reveal the name of the weird music he<br />
listens to.<br />
Roy figures all this out with blinding speed, the human brain<br />
being a wondrous, magical thing—even in some<strong>one</strong> like Roy—<br />
and in an instant concludes that he should run away.<br />
Very decisively and very quickly he pads along the hall to<br />
door number 23.<br />
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A prime number, and <strong>one</strong> he’s happy to be affiliated with.<br />
A number diagonally across, and three doors down from<br />
28/RR.<br />
A perfect number.<br />
And a perfect mystery, as well.<br />
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ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
BLUE LIGHT FROM<br />
a cloud-eclipsed moon darkens the sockets of his eyes, deepens<br />
the folds of his face.<br />
Exhausted earph<strong>one</strong>s curl around his neck.<br />
Roy has drawn his bedframe into contact with the building’s<br />
exterior wall, thereby bringing himself nearer the leaky radiator<br />
and the leaking sky.<br />
He presses his baldness against the metal bars of his bed.<br />
He is like a monk who for the briefest instant has looked<br />
upon the vertiginous beauty of God, only to have the experience<br />
obliterated by the sound of a flushing toilet.<br />
He knows better than to share his ecstatic vision with any of<br />
his fellow monks. Since they had not experienced it, they would<br />
scorn it and despise him for his presumption.<br />
Roy, without wanting it, without knowing it, certainly without<br />
expecting it, has been slightly altered.<br />
Unintentionally, he has penetrated the veil that insulates us<br />
from Eternal Verities; momentarily, he has crested the glass<br />
cloche that encloses us, restrains us, keeps us earthbound,<br />
anchors our feet to the clay; for an instant, he has brushed<br />
against an epiphany, sideglanced Perfection—now he lies al<strong>one</strong><br />
in his room, in claustrophobic darkness, baffled and befuddled,<br />
reeling in the aftermath.<br />
He presses his baldness against the metal bars of his bed.<br />
There is no <strong>one</strong> to turn to for solace, there is no <strong>one</strong> who<br />
could understand. The rule is simple and clear: each of us must<br />
face his Dark Night al<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Except for possibly this: he could simply knock on 28/RR and<br />
ask.<br />
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Ask the guy inside what the hell it is he listens to that has<br />
wrecked him—Roy—like this.<br />
But Roy is not constituted that way. That is not how the<br />
Great Happy One constructed him.<br />
The question then arises, how is he, Roy Weston, if it is<br />
necessary that he do so, and it appears as though it is, ever going<br />
to overcome his Old Ways, the comfortable past of his mostly<br />
untroubled life, to acquire the arcane musical information he so<br />
badly desires? How is he, a shy l<strong>one</strong>r—just how is he ever going<br />
to bridge the chasm that yawns between 23 and 28/RR?<br />
What does a Prime Number have that a Perfect Number<br />
could want?<br />
Because this he knows for certain—once he knocks on that<br />
door (if he ever does), he will be faced with <strong>one</strong> of two things:<br />
acceptance or rejection.<br />
Roy’s whole life has been built upon this simple, powerful twovalue<br />
system.<br />
Acceptance or rejection.<br />
Mostly, it’s been rejection.<br />
His parents rejected him, his Brother the Asshole rejects him,<br />
society shuns him, his landlady can’t stand him, and on and on.<br />
It stands to reason then that the fellow with the Cowboys<br />
and Indians towels and beatific tunes who dwells within 28/RR<br />
will also reject him. And, why shouldn’t he? How else could it<br />
be? What does poor Roy Weston have to offer any<strong>one</strong>? Indeed.<br />
What does he? What does poor Roy Weston?<br />
What does he have?<br />
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GROGGY, GRAY, GROAN<strong>IN</strong>G<br />
Roy rises from his bed. He squinches his eyes and scrunches his<br />
face. Now, if only he can stand.<br />
Roy Weston stands.<br />
Cowering pigeons coo on his windowsill.<br />
Roy wobbles to his door and snicks open its lock.<br />
With the sound of fatigued metal, he cranks on the doorknob<br />
until it runs out of crank.<br />
With his left shoulder slabbed up against flocked wallpaper,<br />
he opens the door enough for <strong>one</strong> of his watery blue orbs to roam<br />
the hallway.<br />
He tips his face forward so the leading edge of the door<br />
encounters and bisects the ridge of his brow.<br />
He needs the support of both wall and door to keep from<br />
falling over.<br />
The hallway stands empty.<br />
Unlike Roy.<br />
The bar of light that lives at the bottom of 28/RR is asleep.<br />
O, Lucky Bar!<br />
Roy has tossed and turned all night, headph<strong>one</strong>s cuddling his<br />
neck.<br />
His neck as a result is nice and warm.<br />
His ears—perhaps the most highly developed portion of<br />
himself—can hear the pathetic cooing of shivering pigeons on his<br />
windowsill.<br />
Having once been a shivering pigeon himself, Roy<br />
understands.<br />
But his sleeplessness was worth it. For, Roy’s mind is made<br />
up.<br />
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Roy has a plan.<br />
His hand tightens on the knob.<br />
By cricky, he is going to do it, too. His plan, that is. And, also<br />
by cricky, it is going to work.<br />
Or not.<br />
Cold though it may be—and it is; wet though it might<br />
be—and how could it be otherwise, for this is Seattle in winter;<br />
nevertheless, his mind is made up.<br />
He sets his face with steely resolve.<br />
Removing his now dented forehead from the leading edge of<br />
the painted, wooden slab, Roy closes the door.<br />
He releases the knob.<br />
The knob, glass-faceted and powered by an ancient spring,<br />
snaps back to its resting place with a sound akin a thunderclap.<br />
(How many times has it d<strong>one</strong> this—a million? Now it is a<br />
million and <strong>one</strong>.) Roy winces at the sound.<br />
To his super-sensitive ears, it is terribly loud. It is, in fact, a<br />
noisy racket. He is fearful lest it awaken his neighbor in 28/RR.<br />
Or the whole building.<br />
Or the world.<br />
He wants to sneak out unannounced, quickly and quietly, a<br />
drifting shadow, avoiding chance encounters with other souls.<br />
He doesn’t want a repeat of the B THRO M fiasco.<br />
He shuffles over to his bed and sits.<br />
squeak<br />
For a while he stares out his sash window at the rising globe<br />
that, on the other side of the window’s glass, saturates morning<br />
clouds with a pearly opalescence.<br />
He assumes it’s the sun.<br />
An overpowering urge causes him to stand.<br />
squeak<br />
In <strong>one</strong>, quick stride he is at the latticework of dirty glass<br />
rectangles. He unlocks the catch and shoves up the sash.<br />
The pigeons—deeply engrossed in a discussion about the<br />
overuse of the subjunctive in post-modern literature—are startled<br />
by this event and display their aggravation by thrashing their<br />
wings wildly. As <strong>one</strong>, they display to the human interloper the<br />
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feathered nether regions of their avian anatomy, then flap off into<br />
the greasy light of dawn.<br />
Roy wastes precious little energy pondering where they<br />
might be going. Roy, it may truly be said, has no interest in<br />
pigeons, or in birds of any feather. Nor in cats or dogs or gerbils<br />
or fish. Roy has never owned a pet in his life, has never had<br />
any<strong>one</strong> or anything to take care of but himself—unless you<br />
count his Brother the Asshole—and, as a result, has a severely<br />
underdeveloped, almost opaque side to him when it comes to why<br />
any<strong>one</strong> would want a pet.<br />
He unzips his jeans.<br />
He barely aims, what with the rain and all, nor does it occur<br />
to him there might be an innocent, ambling passerby below—<br />
partly because of the hour, partly because of the neighborhood.<br />
Mostly because he doesn’t care.<br />
Roy pees.<br />
His business d<strong>one</strong>, he reassembles himself and squeaks the<br />
window closed.<br />
This turns out to be quite a noisy ordeal. The sash joints<br />
are moldering and the frame is out of square. Apparently, its<br />
very lack of squareness had held the window open throughout<br />
Roy’s process of elimination. Long g<strong>one</strong> are the pig iron<br />
counterbalances, or the sash cords that once secured them. The<br />
mullions are creeping away from the frame and, by his opening<br />
the window, unfamiliar stresses have been placed on the old,<br />
drooping panes, endangering their very existence.<br />
Chunks of petrified putty pop out of ancient beddings and<br />
drop onto the glistening sill.<br />
Roy holds the window together with both hands and guides it<br />
down its track to its familiar resting place.<br />
It had not been an easy process, but preferable to visiting the<br />
B THRO M and possibly running into the tenant of 28/RR again.<br />
With the window finally closed and the radiator chugging<br />
away ineffectually—trying to replace heat lost by the window’s<br />
opening, a task that could take another hundred years—Roy sets<br />
about his preparations for departure.<br />
Burying an arm under the mattress, his hand returns from its<br />
explorations clutching several twenty-dollar bills.<br />
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He counts them—there are four in all—then folds them neatly<br />
and stuffs them into his right, front jeans pocket.<br />
He takes down from its nail the stained, yellow raincoat<br />
purchased for a song from Value Village, and slides it on. It<br />
is unlined, but its hood still has its drawstring and not all used<br />
hoods do. To make up for its lack of lining, Roy wears two<br />
woolen shirts over a tee-shirt. But, then, Roy wears two woolen<br />
shirts over a tee-shirt winter, spring and fall so even if the<br />
raincoat did have a lining, he would still have worn two woolen<br />
shirts over a tee-shirt.<br />
So the fact the raincoat is unlined is hardly worth mentioning.<br />
He awakens his curled-up, dozing headph<strong>one</strong>s, expands their<br />
bandy legs so as to span his barren dome, then snaps their foamcovered<br />
drivers over his ears.<br />
The Sony tape player assumes its rightful place on his belt.<br />
He is like a superhero suiting up.<br />
But there the comparison ends.<br />
Roy’s enthusiasm for his music, although certainly not g<strong>one</strong>,<br />
has somewhat dimmed from its normal level of intensity. For the<br />
first time since he can remember, he thinks about not listening to<br />
anything at all but, instead, exposing his ears and thus himself to<br />
the Noises of the World.<br />
Alas, the Noises of the World are a poor substitute for the<br />
accustomed clangor of his tunes and, anyway, Old Ways are hard<br />
to break.<br />
He seizes upon his most recent acquisition—the Suzie<br />
Quattro bootleg—and introduces <strong>one</strong> of its rewound sides into<br />
the yawning player. He clicks the player closed, re-tapes its door<br />
securely shut, and plugs in his earph<strong>one</strong>s’ dangling cord.<br />
He will wait until he has successfully maneuvered his way out<br />
of the ponderous, flyblown building before pressing PLAY.<br />
Then he gasps as he remembers his batteries are dead.<br />
This new twist in no way alters the previous decision to wear<br />
his headph<strong>one</strong>s. He may not be able to fill them with really loud<br />
droogy shit, but they will serve to warm his ears.<br />
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FOR ROY,<br />
moving into the Outside World can be something of a challenge.<br />
Although exiting the building had been easy, easier than he<br />
had expected, this offers small comfort for him<br />
Just because something turns out to be easier than expected<br />
doesn’t—to Roy’s mind—mean you should suddenly change your<br />
point of view and assume you’ve now turned a corner in your<br />
life and clouds will henceforth have silver linings and all future<br />
undertakings will be successful. On the contrary. The fact<br />
something turns out to be easier than expected simply means the<br />
next thing will be that much harder.<br />
This aspect of Roy’s character may or may not have anything<br />
to do with his parents, who used to call him a wart; a blister; an<br />
unrestrained ejaculation; a ruptured rubber; a baldheaded freak<br />
(Roy’s diffuse baldness, attributable to the maternal genome and<br />
a diet of white bread and Ivar’s clam strips, began in his teenage<br />
years); also, that he was a canker, a wanker, a boil, a retard, a<br />
blackhead, a freakazoid, a booger, a mutant, and a ninny.<br />
Strangely, he retains many loving memories of them.<br />
Consider the time they took him and his little bro, Assholein-Training,<br />
to Magnuson Park to see the Sound Garden and<br />
drop acid. Or the time they visited Woodland Park Zoo and fed<br />
the hippos Cheetos Cheese Puffs and Da asked <strong>one</strong> of the zoo<br />
persons if they accepted donations to the monkey house because<br />
he had two he was very eager to let go of cheap (say, twenty<br />
bucks?).<br />
Then there was that visit to the Aquarium and a week of<br />
talking to cops and sleeping at Juvey Hall before Mom and Da<br />
were found hitchhiking in Canada.<br />
No. They weren’t all bad times.<br />
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Although, looking back at it—which is not Roy’s way—<br />
Christmas could be a little rough.<br />
Like most kids, Roy loved Christmas. The colored lights<br />
misted by fog; the metallic music emanating from outdoor<br />
speakers; the increased largesse of passersby, whose occasional<br />
donations of nickels, dimes and quarters would briefly flower into<br />
folding m<strong>one</strong>y; the window dressings filled with unattainable<br />
merchandise; the food wagons with free turkey and cranberry<br />
sandwiches (Roy loves cranberries)—these memories were forever<br />
burned into his mind.<br />
One Christmas, Mom sewed him and his little bro miniature<br />
Santa suits to wear as they stood in an icy drizzle holding<br />
hand-painted Salvation Army signs, Roy ringing the bell, Rick<br />
carrying the pail, and they managed to collect over four hundred<br />
dollars before they were arrested.<br />
Roy’s mind works like this—: he expends very little energy<br />
revisiting his angst-y past, sifting through his crummy years in<br />
search of clues as to the Why-ness or the How-ness of the Wh<strong>one</strong>ss<br />
that he is. Roy does not retreat into self-pity, or gaze into his<br />
twisty navel while nursing ancient woundsand picking psychic<br />
scabs.<br />
Roy doesn’t linger over the past while lounging in the future.<br />
Not a Hedonist, not an Epicurean, not a Platonist, not a<br />
Confucian, not Born Again, not a Sunni, not a Shi’ite, not a<br />
Shintoist, not a Buddhist, not a Sikh, not a Moonie, not a Jain,<br />
not a Baha’i, neither a Marxist nor a Neo-Marxist, not a Maoist,<br />
not a Leninist, not a Keynesian nor a Whirling Dervish, not<br />
a Webelo, not a Jeddi Knight, not a Jew, not a Wiccan, not a<br />
Druid, not a Unitarian, not a Utopian, neither a Pagan nor a<br />
Fabian, not a Druse, not a Scientologist, not a Zoroastrian, not a<br />
Catholic—not even an Atheist, Anarchist, or Republican.<br />
Roy is n<strong>one</strong> of these.<br />
Roy—if he must be categorized and pigeonholed, limited and<br />
described—is, if anything, a Stoic.<br />
For, if he is pushed, does he not leave? If he is pulled, does he<br />
not follow?<br />
Is he not as dust upon a millst<strong>one</strong>?<br />
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Roy may well be the perfected incarnation of Eudaimonia—the<br />
Philosophical Life aspired to by ancient Greek thinkers.<br />
Like Zeno of Citium (c. 334?-262? B.C.)—has he not<br />
aband<strong>one</strong>d all knowledge? Does he not tread the pathless path?<br />
Does he not abjure wealth and high station as goals in life? Has<br />
he not relinquished the critique and judgment of others? That is,<br />
besides his Brother the Asshole and Yuppie Scum?<br />
Could he not be likened to a leaf upon the palm of God?<br />
In some ways, Roy is a remarkable find, a true rara avis,<br />
perhaps an example of the next stage in the Development of<br />
Man.<br />
But even with all this going for him, moving into the Outside<br />
World can be something of a challenge.<br />
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Crouched on an outcrop of granite,<br />
the rifle’s barrel balanced on his left knee, the Old Cowboy held the<br />
Pronghorn buck in his sights. He squinted along the barrel of his Henry,<br />
took a deep breath, then released it slowly as the buck passed behind a tree.<br />
He made out the grazing animal to be between two-fifty to three hundred<br />
yards. It was Tom Horn once boasted he plugged a man at three hundred<br />
yards, and that there wasn’t no <strong>one</strong> but him could do a deed like that in all<br />
Wyoming.<br />
He’d been wrong about that, and knew it well.<br />
But not all men are drunken braggarts, like Tom.<br />
The buck leisurely nosed the tall grass. Thinking of Tom brought a song<br />
to mind, and the Old Cowboy’s coppery lips moved as he whisper-sang the<br />
words—<br />
Life is like a mountain railroad<br />
With an engineer so brave;<br />
We must make this run successful<br />
From the cradle to the grave;<br />
Watch the curves, the fills the tunnels<br />
Never falter, never fail;<br />
Keep your hand upon the throttle<br />
And your eye upon the rail—<br />
He recalled how, back in ’03, Frank and Charlie Irwin had sung this as<br />
Tom was hanged by the horsehair rope he had braided while in jail.<br />
That had been a somber day, and for many a reason besides the passing<br />
of an old friend.<br />
The wild days were d<strong>one</strong>, what with Tom g<strong>one</strong>. Ton Horn—the man<br />
who brought in Geronimo single-handed, and thus ended the Indian Wars.<br />
The sheep ranchers and homesteaders came along close behind and built their<br />
churches, outlawed spitting, strung barbed wire and telegraph lines all over<br />
the place—<br />
As you roll across the trestle<br />
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Spanning Jordan’s swelling tide;<br />
You behold the union depot<br />
Into which your train will glide;<br />
There you’ll meet the superintendent<br />
God the Father, God the Son;<br />
With a hearty, joyous greeting<br />
Weary pilgrim, welcome home—<br />
The buck stepped clear of the tree.<br />
The eyes of a Pronghorn can detect motion three miles distant. The Old<br />
Cowboy took a shallow breath and remained dead still.<br />
In ’98 he had been a muleskinner for Teddy and his Terrors—the<br />
Roughriders some newspaper fellow named them—but he’d come down with<br />
malaria before they shipped him and his mosquito-riddled compadres off to<br />
Cuba.<br />
That was where he met Tom. They both missed the war and went back<br />
to busting broncs for $60 a month.<br />
They later joined Pinkerton’s and gunned down outlaws, which they<br />
themselves had surely been, without reproach or dangling from a rope for the<br />
doing of it, but it was a distasteful business, although Tom stayed on a while<br />
longer, after the Old Cowboy sauntered off.<br />
Their paths never crossed again until he’d heard about the trial and made<br />
the long ride to Cheyenne.<br />
Too long a ride, as it turned out. He arrived the day they dangled Tom.<br />
The buck was in the open now. Enough food for a month. He would<br />
skin it and jerk the meat this very day.<br />
Maybe it was three hundred yards, after all.<br />
It only took <strong>one</strong> shot. Direct to the heart. The rifle’s report was<br />
swallowed by the empty land, just like the Old Cowboy would <strong>one</strong> day be,<br />
just like the world he used to know already had been, just like the fate of<br />
everything born.<br />
The buck dropped, never knew what hit it.<br />
The Old Cowboy cranked the empty .45 casing out of the Henry’s<br />
chamber and caught it before it hit the ground.<br />
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ROY’S PLAN IS SIMPLE,<br />
almost of necessity.<br />
He will bake a lasagna.<br />
He will bake a lasagna, and leave it at door 28/RR. He will<br />
place it, covered in aluminum foil, by the light that lives at the<br />
bottom of that door, ready to pop into a microwave for heating,<br />
except first you have to remove the foil. And he will also write<br />
a note that he will leave on top of the foil-wrapped lasagna, and<br />
that note will include his room number and his name and say<br />
something nice about the guy’s music.<br />
To Roy’s mind, this appears as perfect a plan as ever he has<br />
hatched. Not that he has hatched that many plans in his life.<br />
Roy’s natural predisposition is more comfortable with chance<br />
than intentionality, or designed evolution; far be it from him to<br />
impose his will upon the World.<br />
There seems to be enough of that going on without his two<br />
cents thrown in.<br />
Nor has he troubled himself to consider that his plan<br />
might backfire and be wrongly interpreted—i.e., as crafty<br />
manipulation. Otherwise, he might reconsider. But Roy lives an<br />
isolated life with himself as sole arbiter for his thoughts and deeds<br />
and, according to his way of understanding things, how could<br />
his gift be construed as anything other than a neighborly gesture,<br />
and thus benign? So what if he happens to mention in his note<br />
something about the guy’s music? He’s not complaining. He’s<br />
complimenting. And people like to be complimented.<br />
No. Roy is convinced this is the best course of action for him<br />
to pursue.<br />
His mind is made up.<br />
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And this is how much his mind is made up—: in order for<br />
him to accomplish his bold, simple plan, he will have to undergo<br />
hazing and humiliation at the hands of his Brother the Asshole.<br />
Not to mention his brother’s gay housemate, Mel.<br />
That is how much his mind is made up.<br />
You might ask yourself why Roy must drag himself through<br />
this mire of self-degradation, just to bake a lasagna?<br />
The answer is simple—: because his brother Rick lives with<br />
Mel, and Mel owns the house they share, and Mel’s house has a<br />
kitchen.<br />
And Mel, from time-to-time, permits Roy the use of his<br />
kitchen.<br />
Rick and Mel are what the ancient Stoics would call difficult<br />
people.<br />
Difficult people are people who behave badly because they<br />
lack a knowledge of good and evil.<br />
For the moderns—more accurately, post-moderns—these<br />
people are commonly referred to as Assholes.<br />
To the Stoic, even difficult people possess a rationality which<br />
is identical to that of the sage—it’s just that their rationality has<br />
not been tutored.<br />
The ancients would have adjudged these people—despite their<br />
propensity towards acts of violence and self-degradation—to be<br />
related to us directly through the divine mind of God.<br />
In post-modern, scientific terms, people become difficult<br />
either as a result of flawed genetic material, or societal forces<br />
beyond their power to avoid. Rationality in such people ceases<br />
to develop, and they become morally blunted. Whelmed and<br />
overwhelmed by violent imagery in the media and designer drugs<br />
on the streets, they regress to a more basic, brutal type—:<br />
Assholes.<br />
As perceived through the connectedness we all share with<br />
God, the sage would have no grounds either for anger or hatred<br />
toward Assholes, no matter how stupid or brazen their behavior.<br />
Roy, not being a sage, would like to throw all the difficult<br />
people he knows—not to mention the <strong>one</strong>s he hasn’t met—off the<br />
Smith Tower in Seattle and watch them explode on the sidewalk<br />
far below like flame tokay grapes.<br />
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Especially Rick the Asshole, and sometimes Mel the<br />
Homosexual.<br />
Thus, it is with a heavy heart that Roy trudges forth on<br />
the journey to Mel’s house, a nineteen-thirties faded yellow<br />
clapboard Craftsman nestled on the backside of Capitol Hill in<br />
an upscale community of turn-of-the-century, turreted, leadedglass-and-colonnaded<br />
homes, <strong>one</strong> block off 15th Ave.<br />
Mel’s is <strong>one</strong> of the houses held in least regard by a trim<br />
and subdued neighborhood. One of the last houses left in that<br />
part of the world not to have underg<strong>one</strong> lovingly-executed<br />
and astronomically-expensive renovation, it is a house in sad<br />
disrepair, in need of just about everything, especially paint and a<br />
chimney, but—and this is small consolation to his neighbors—set<br />
far enough back from the sidewalk, and separated by a tawdry<br />
lawn spotted with lackluster, weedy roses behind a faded white<br />
picket fence, so as to be almost unnoticeable to the casual<br />
passerby.<br />
To his neighbors, however, it remains a constant eyesore, <strong>one</strong><br />
that all and sundry hope eventually will be mismanaged into<br />
repossession and fall into more tasteful and ambitious hands.<br />
Hands warmed in deep, lint-free pockets.<br />
Capitol Hill is a haven for the gay and straight well-to-do.<br />
Spotted with classical and neo-classical facades, it is a favorite<br />
venue for Californian film makers who don’t want to drive all the<br />
way to Canada. Driveways are congested with late model Saabs<br />
and Escalades. Boston ferns abound, as does the incessant highpitched<br />
whine of lawn blowers as yards infrequently touched by<br />
their owners are massaged and sculpted into loveliness by men<br />
who speak foreign tongues and drive rusted pickup trucks.<br />
One block over—on sprightly 15th Ave—there exists a<br />
hodgepodge of trendy businesses, such as: Stuff It! (an erotic<br />
bakery); Glam Grrls (retro 70s clothing); Reading Out Loud (a<br />
gay & lesbian bookstore); three Starbucks; Eat Right Now (an<br />
organic grocery); Frayed Edges (S & M leather repair); Nose Workes<br />
(aromatherapy shoppe); two fiercely competing Yoga studios<br />
(Anusara versus Iyengar); Hard Balls (Pilates); Chew-N-Spew<br />
(a Pizzeria-Laundromat); two internet cafes, Safety Last and<br />
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Metasations; Chinese, Thai, Salvadorian, Cajun, Ethiopian,<br />
Vietnamese and Tex-Mex restaurants; two pubs, Moe’s Malts<br />
(a Scotch bar), and Shaken & Slurred (a Martini bar); thirteen<br />
massage therapists; a potpourri of psychological counselors; Bun<br />
Heads (Ballet supplies), Snippits (a hair salon), Apocalypse Tao (an<br />
upscale tattoo/piercing parlor), and a Safeway.<br />
This last happens to be Roy’s goal.<br />
Buses in Seattle mostly suck. North and South are the worst.<br />
East and West are OK, if you know the city pretty well, but<br />
just try getting from, say, south Seattle, where Roy lives to, say,<br />
Capitol Hill, where his brother lives—it can take hours. This<br />
doesn’t bother Roy so much today, since it affords him time<br />
to doze. It is not a restful sleep, as he is awakened frequently<br />
by the unfamiliar sounds of travel. So used is he to the white<br />
noise of his tunes that the clattertrap of the bus—conversations<br />
of the riders, snapping of newspaper pages, ding of the pulled<br />
bellcord—all serve to disturb his slumber.<br />
How he longs for his tunes!<br />
Until that time arrives, he rests his weary head against the<br />
window’s cool, rain-beaded surface. A head that sways with<br />
the motion of the bus. The bus that is <strong>one</strong> of the big articulated<br />
models, with an accordion bellows middle. The bus that whines<br />
along like the trolleys of old, powered by overhead cables.<br />
As the driver calls out stops, a portion of Roy’s brain listens to<br />
his chronicle of their pilgrimage, but another portion of his brain<br />
thinks about other things.<br />
Briefly, these are some of the other things Roy thinks about:<br />
1) —the music, of course. This is, after all, what started<br />
the ball rolling. Odd, how he’s so willing—eager, even—to<br />
destabilize his world because of some muffled music heard<br />
through a door. Music he barely remembers now, and couldn’t<br />
hum if he had to. He might not even recognize it when he hears<br />
it again. And, what if he doesn’t hear it again? What if the guy<br />
doesn’t like lasagna? What if the guy turns out to be a bigger<br />
asshole than Rick? Until now, Roy has been driven along by<br />
a passionate infatuation, a manic zeal. It hadn’t occurred to<br />
question the reasons of his undertaking. It just seemed to make<br />
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sense. And that doesn’t happen a lot for Roy. Maybe music<br />
shouldn’t be so important to him, but it is. Besides, he’s come<br />
this far. No sense turning back now. He simply has to trust his<br />
gut.<br />
And his gut tells him to bake a lasagna.<br />
But then Roy’s gut would.<br />
2) —the recipe, of course. There are all kinds of lasagnas.<br />
Some people don’t know this. Roy has read tons of cookbooks in<br />
the Seattle Public Library, and he thinks he knows all the kinds<br />
of lasagnas there are. For instance, there’s lasagna made with<br />
zucchini and walnuts; lasagna made with sausage and potatoes;<br />
lasagna made with seafood; lasagna made with spinach and<br />
ham—and that’s just four! There are dozens more. But the <strong>one</strong><br />
Roy plans to make for 28/RR is his favorite, four-star classic<br />
lasagna. And to make it, he will need the following ingredients:<br />
pork sausage (12 ounces, or so); fennel (<strong>one</strong> teaspoon); onion (<strong>one</strong>,<br />
large, minced); garlic (2 cloves, minced); a can (14 1/2 ounces) of<br />
diced tomatoes (drained); an 8 ounce can of tomato paste; Italian<br />
seasoning (<strong>one</strong> tablespoon); ricotta cheese (15 ounce container);<br />
Parmesan cheese (1/4 cup, grated); mozzarella cheese (6 ounces,<br />
grated); black pepper; a beaten egg and, of course, lasagna<br />
noodles (6).<br />
The fennel and pepper and garlic are already at Mel’s, as is<br />
his Pyrex baking dish (Roy is allowed to store some of his spices<br />
and cooking utensils in the kitchen, as long as they don’t take up<br />
too much room, but he has to hide everything because if Rick the<br />
Asshole finds it, he’ll throw it all away); the rest he’ll have to buy.<br />
3) —Rick, naturally. Just knowing he’s going to see his<br />
brother and they won’t be engaged in window washing or floor<br />
mopping or cabinet cleaning or carpet vacuuming or dead<br />
body mopping or doing whatever dirty job it is they do together,<br />
makes Roy’s stomach hurt. Even though Roy is older, bigger,<br />
and physically more powerful, he is dwarfed in the presence of<br />
his sadistic little brother. He becomes tongue-tied, befuddled,<br />
incapable of defending himself. Sometimes a week will pass<br />
before Roy can conjure an apt rebuttal to the shit his brother<br />
says, like that he’s a fat pussy who gargles with toilet water. Of<br />
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course, by the time he thinks of something to say it’s way too late<br />
to say it. He could, if he thought it was worth the trouble, always<br />
write it down and keep it in his pocket for another time. There<br />
will always be another time. But Roy’s heart is not a vengeful<br />
<strong>one</strong>, nor is he a hateful man (except, perhaps, when it comes to<br />
Yuppie Scum), nor does he always have to win, or come out on<br />
top, or jockey for the limelight.<br />
Roy’s Way is to fade, to forget, to forge ahead.<br />
But that is not Rick’s Way.<br />
For Rick, every slight, real or imagined (and most are) is<br />
magnified into a monstrous deed deserving of lengthy, loud,<br />
hate-filled diatribes and outlandish schemes to kill or maim—<br />
bloodchilling schemes worthy of Charles Manson or Freddy<br />
Kruger. Rick carries a switch blade he likes to snap open and<br />
stick in Roy’s face when he’s pissed off. And he’s pissed off a lot.<br />
He knows knives scare the shit out of Roy, that’s why he went<br />
to the trouble of getting <strong>one</strong>—to scare the shit out of Roy. Roy<br />
couldn’t recall ever seeing his brother threaten any<strong>one</strong> else with<br />
it. But, even though it scares the shit out of him, Roy doesn’t<br />
think Rick would ever actually use it, not really, not unless he’s<br />
pushed too far. The question, then, of course, becomes this:<br />
how far can Rick be pushed? Not that Roy has any intention of<br />
finding out. It’s just an unpleasant question that crops up from<br />
time to time.<br />
(Rick has a tattoo on his left forearm of a tarantula with fangs<br />
like a saber-toothed tiger. On his back is a tattoo of Elvis hung<br />
on a cross. He also has <strong>one</strong> of a snake that coils up his right leg,<br />
its head snooping around inside his BVDs. On his right bicep is<br />
a picture of a mermaid spreading her legs for an octopus with a<br />
giant—)<br />
“Roy!”<br />
Roy’s eyes snap open.<br />
“Roy!”<br />
He shakes his head and tries to remember where he is. He<br />
is on a bus; he is on his way to Mel’s; he has to get off, now; this<br />
is his stop; he must pull the cord, and be quick about it and, of<br />
course, stand up.<br />
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He pulls the cord and stands up.<br />
Roy made sure when he got on the bus that he was sitting by<br />
himself. He has a way of making the unoccupied seat beside him<br />
extremely undesirable.<br />
Unless it’s rush hour, Roy always sits al<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Lurching to his feet, he grabs the back of the seat in front of<br />
him for support.<br />
(Sometimes, when he has to stand the whole way, because the<br />
bus is crowded, he imagines that the swaying motion is what a<br />
boat would feel like to stand on, the water moving beneath him<br />
instead of asphalt, but he can only speculate about this, never<br />
having been on a boat before, not even on <strong>one</strong> of the many local<br />
ferries.)<br />
The driver had not called out his name, but the name of the<br />
street he had requested.<br />
East Roy.<br />
Roy likes that there is a street with his name on it in the big<br />
city of Seattle.<br />
He knows for a fact there is no street anywhere in all of Seattle<br />
named Rick.<br />
Roy caroms along the length of the bus until he stands behind<br />
the driver. He glances briefly down at him, hoping he doesn’t<br />
notice. The driver is sparely-built, skinny, older, losing his hair,<br />
and—as if to underscore his gnarled, red nose—wears a prissy,<br />
pencil-thin mustache.<br />
Roy decides he looks as gay as a three-dollar bill. Not that he<br />
cares. Not that Roy is prejudiced. He’s just afraid of gay people,<br />
is all. Afraid <strong>one</strong> of them might suddenly fall in love with him, or<br />
whatever it is they do, and grab him and start kissing him—stuff<br />
like that. He’s seen that sort of thing happen before. Gay guys<br />
hugging and kissing in broad daylight. And it repelled him but<br />
also made him wonder—although he will never admit to it if you<br />
asked—what it would be like to kiss a man, with the beard and<br />
all, and mustaches and nose hair and hairy necks and ears and<br />
underarms—<br />
“Watch your step.”<br />
The old, gay-as-a-three-dollar-bill bus driver has spoken.<br />
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He springs open the doors.<br />
If Roy’s current wish were suddenly to come true, he would<br />
have his tunes cranked up and wouldn’t have heard what the<br />
driver said. Instead, he would sense everything like a blind man,<br />
or a gastropod, and he wouldn’t have this feeling he has right<br />
now, that he needs to say something back to this old, gay-as-athree-dollar-bill<br />
bus driver’s kind words regarding his step.<br />
Roy nods, careful not to make eye contact, and steps down<br />
and out and in no time is blessed by the benediction of rain.<br />
The doors hiss closed. The bus grunts and roars, looking like<br />
an armored worm, and pulls back into traffic.<br />
The Safeway is only a block away.<br />
Roy makes a beeline for its giant red S, and the best prices in<br />
Seattle.<br />
Not that he shops at all that many places and compares them<br />
and knows where the best deals are. In actual fact, Roy pretty<br />
much restricts his grazing to Safeway and the Red Apple over<br />
on MLK. It’s true that he’s tried some of the Yuppie grocery<br />
stores, like Larry’s and Whole Foods and the PCC. But they<br />
made him feel uncomfortable, like he needed to spend more<br />
m<strong>one</strong>y in order to belong. He would stand in line with his little,<br />
plastic basket containing a few stalks of celery and a can of flat<br />
anchovies, and maybe <strong>one</strong> or two other items, while the woman<br />
ahead of him wrote a check for eight hundred and sixty-five<br />
dollars and eleven cents for two bags of food. And most of it<br />
wasn’t food, anyway, but bottles of French mustard, German<br />
water, organic wine—shit like that. Not real food. Just fancy<br />
packaging. And they would invariably have a kid in a sling. And<br />
the kid in the sling would invariably have an attitude and would<br />
invariably be wearing clothes that cost more than all of Roy’s<br />
clothes put together with his squeegees thrown in. (Why does a<br />
kid who doesn’t even walk need Italian shoes? Or a hand-knitted,<br />
lambswool sweater?) And the people who shopped in these places<br />
all looked like they lived in fashion magazines and wouldn’t give<br />
Roy the time of day if he fell down on the painted concrete floor<br />
and had a seizure and his brain fell out of his head.<br />
The Safeway is better because that’s where regular people<br />
shop, people who don’t wear Gucci iPod cases and Armani<br />
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underwear. It’s a regular place for regular people who eat<br />
regular food. Roy has never understood what the deal is about<br />
organic food. Organic food is all rocky and puny compared to<br />
the shit Safeway offers that’s always bigger and more colorful,<br />
and cheaper too. He figures it’s a Yuppie conspiracy to make<br />
everybody feel bad because they can’t afford to buy tomatoes that<br />
have yellow tape wrapped around them like at a police crime<br />
scene, only instead of Crime Scene it says Certified Organic.<br />
Roy figures it’s their way of feeling superior.<br />
Seattle is so freaking Politically Correct.<br />
Roy figures the Yuppies want Seattle all to themselves. They<br />
want a city where men can kiss men and women can kiss women<br />
in broad daylight, and restaurants can cost seven hundred dollars<br />
to eat in and, if you want to wear fur, they shoot you.<br />
It feels safe in the Safeway.<br />
Probably why they call it that.<br />
You still run into the occasional slumming Yuppie, of<br />
course—how couldn’t you? They’re like cancer cells. You kill<br />
<strong>one</strong> in Larry’s, and two pop up at the PCC.<br />
Mostly, the Safeway is a YFZ—Yuppie Free Z<strong>one</strong>.<br />
And bright, too. It’s easy to see things in the Safeway.<br />
No earth t<strong>one</strong>s. No mood lighting. And the music is cool.<br />
Especially at the Red Apple on MLK. It’s so cool, in fact, that<br />
sometimes Roy turns off his Sony and listens.<br />
That reminds him that he has to buy batteries.<br />
As he thinks this, Roy arrives at a large, red banner that<br />
proclaims<br />
PRODUCE<br />
He is standing before bins overflowing with the colorful<br />
bounty of foreign lands—: carrots and cilantro, potatoes (red and<br />
golden Yukon), celery and beets, snap beans, jalapeños, and on<br />
and on. What he is looking for is zucchini, but what he finds is<br />
broccoli.<br />
As Roy stares at the broccoli, his heart starts to pound and he<br />
has trouble catching his breath.<br />
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Roy hates broccoli.<br />
Not hate like a little kid hates.<br />
Hate like a grown man hates.<br />
Hate like the way some people hate clowns.<br />
As if frozen, Roy stands staring at the broccoli’s deep green<br />
stalks and tiny BB-shot florets. A crease deepens upon his brow.<br />
He is remembering why he hates broccoli.<br />
It was a pretty spring day when they pulled up before the red brick house<br />
in Renton, Roy and his asshole brother and some new dude from Louisiana,<br />
whose name he can’t remember. They were all working for this guy who<br />
only had initials for a name—J.J. was all they ever knew he was called.<br />
J.J.’s House Cleaning. And that’s what they did all day—clean houses<br />
from top to bottom, except the chimney because that would mean buying more<br />
equipment. Spray bottles and rags were cheap.<br />
They pulled up and piled out with their spray bottles and rags and<br />
knocked at the peeling door and waited.<br />
Renton is just south of Seattle and is where Boeing builds airplanes. If<br />
you don’t work for Boeing, or don’t think that airplanes are pretty cool, then<br />
there would be no reason for you to visit Renton. J.J. and company wouldn’t<br />
have visited Renton if they weren’t being paid.<br />
You have to pay people to visit Renton.<br />
They knocked a lot before the lady finally answered.<br />
She wore deep red lipstick that was smeared over her lips like it had been<br />
applied in the dark by some<strong>one</strong> who was blind. Her hair was in curlers,<br />
but she had stuck a plastic showercap with yellow flowers over them, as if<br />
that was going to make a difference. She wore heavy, gold clip-on earrings,<br />
and similar gold rings on all her sausagy fingers. Roy remembers she wore<br />
glasses, too, the kind that look like little TV screens, and that she had on<br />
some kind of brightly-colored patterned robe, and that she was clutching a<br />
newspaper turned to the crossword puzzle, and that she had a pencil in the<br />
same hand that clutched the newspaper.<br />
She stood in the doorway all defiant and yammered something about her<br />
children doing this to her and how she didn’t need any help, while fumes<br />
escaped from inside her house, fumes that made their eyes water. Even his<br />
tough little bro’s eyes leaked tears. The guy from Louisiana looked like he<br />
was going to toss his cookies.<br />
It was ammonia. Ammonia fumes coming up through the floor from the<br />
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asement. Ammonia fumes from years and years of cat piss from dozens and<br />
dozens of cats. Animal Control would later report they hauled thirty-seven<br />
cats from the basement, along with the skeletons of at least a hundred more.<br />
Their job—: a light spring cleaning, gift from appreciative kids who<br />
were trying to build a case to have their mother carted off to the Funny Farm<br />
so they could take her house.<br />
Every room was packed shoulder high with cardboard boxes filled<br />
with unopened packages of men’s shirts and pants from Sears and Monkey<br />
Wards. The bedrooms were so solidly packed they had to remove the doors to<br />
get inside. And all the while they worked, their eyes leaking and their heads<br />
hurting—long term exposure to ammonia can lead to pulmonary edema,<br />
chronic eye, nose and throat irritation, brain damage and even death—the<br />
old bat with the smeared lips ranted, TV droning in the background, ranted<br />
on and on about invasion of privacy, and how she was gonna call the cops<br />
because they was stealing her stuff and she didn’t have no children, anyway.<br />
But the worst was yet to come.<br />
J.J. tapped Roy and the Louisiana dude to clean the kitchen.<br />
Maybe Roy had lived on the streets; maybe Roy had lived in run-down,<br />
drug-infested dives; maybe Roy had slept with cockroaches on piss-soaked<br />
beds—but nothing he had ever seen, no place he had ever lived, came close to<br />
being as bad as her kitchen.<br />
The table in the center of the room was piled high with crusty plates and<br />
sticky cups and gooey, lidded pots and a jungle of food-caked silverware.<br />
crunch crunch<br />
So the woman was a little messy; with all the ammonia she was<br />
breathing, that was probably to be expected.<br />
crunch<br />
When they looked down to see what they were stepping on, they<br />
discovered a floor covered with crunchy cat shit. Old, dried crunchy cat shit.<br />
It looked like a gravel quarry, it was so thick. crunch Or like the surface<br />
of the moon. Or a dry riverbed. crunch In some places it was over six<br />
inches deep.<br />
crunch crunch<br />
J.J. handed them a square-nosed shovel and gave them some paper masks<br />
to wear.<br />
If there had been nothing else, it would have been an awful day. But<br />
there was something else, something that made it a horrible day.<br />
There was broccoli.<br />
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Pots and pots of the stuff. Apparently, the old lady was nuts about<br />
broccoli. Not about eating it, mind you. She was nuts about cooking it.<br />
Cooking it and cooking it and leaving it to rot. Pots and pots of rotting<br />
broccoli. Broccoli covered with thick fungal colonies.<br />
Roy lost it then and there. First time in his life he ever refused to do a<br />
job. Hell—hadn’t he cleaned up the gelatinous remains of a decaying corpse?<br />
Hadn’t he used bare hands to scoop shit out of toilets? It wasn’t like he was<br />
a wuss, wasn’t like he was afraid of dirty work. But—the smell. It made<br />
his head spin, his stomach heave. There was nothing he could do to stop it.<br />
He had to go out back, white as a sheet, and sit down while the Louisiana<br />
dude emptied all the broccoli pots into big, black plastic bags.<br />
As if frozen, Roy stands staring at the broccoli’s deep green<br />
stalks and tiny BB-shot florets. A crease deepens upon his brow.<br />
He is remembering why he hates broccoli.<br />
A well-dressed Caucasian couple (he in a leather duster and<br />
brown slouch hat, she in a retro plastic, paisley-print raincoat<br />
with matching cloche chapeau) arrive behind Roy’s immobile,<br />
remembering back, and are balked. They, too, would like to look<br />
at the broccoli. Not because they have hateful memories they<br />
want to relive, but because they would like to take some home to<br />
eat. They would like the opportunity—this being a free country<br />
and all—to peruse the thick, succulent stalks to their hearts’<br />
satisfaction before selecting <strong>one</strong> or two for their very own. But<br />
they are balked by the big, balding man with headph<strong>one</strong>s on his<br />
ears. The big, balding man with headph<strong>one</strong>s on his ears who<br />
could stand a bath. And a change of clothes. The big, balding<br />
man with headph<strong>one</strong>s on his ears and body odor who stands<br />
before them transfixed by a bin of broccoli.<br />
“We’ll come back,” whispers the Caucasian female, who has<br />
spent her entire life avoiding conflict and confrontation, and who<br />
has allied herself with the man in the brown duster because he<br />
reminds her of her father.<br />
“Asshole doesn’t even know we’re here,” grumbles the<br />
Caucasian male, expressing a lick of bravura, the kind he learned<br />
as a boy when he watched his drunken father shove his mother<br />
around. A brown, duster-covered arm squeezes a frail, plasticcoated<br />
shoulder.<br />
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Her big eyes shimmer.<br />
“Sh. He might hear you.”<br />
With a baleful glare, the dustered gent accedes to his<br />
inamorata’s desire (and gratefully, too; for, a child of alcoholics,<br />
he also hates conflicts and confrontations). They squeak their<br />
palsied cart to other parts of the brilliantly-lighted store with<br />
the hope and expectation that, soon, in a little while, when they<br />
return to the broccoli bin, the big, balding, smelly man with<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s on his ears will be g<strong>one</strong>.<br />
The zucchini, Roy, the zucchini.<br />
The Lasagna whispers his name.<br />
He looks at the contents of his basket. He has everything he<br />
needs, except the zucchini.<br />
The zucchini, Roy, the zucchini.<br />
With a mighty effort, he selects two of the green, slender<br />
squash, despite their proximity to broccoli.<br />
Down at the end of the aisle, the young couple hover. They<br />
appear to be perusing the ingredients of Spaetzle but are, in fact,<br />
perusing Roy.<br />
As soon as Roy selects his two zucchini and carts them away,<br />
they squeak their borrowed Safeway wagon along the aisle,<br />
flashy shoes clicking on terrazzo, Spaetzle mix carelessly shelved<br />
among boxes of Jell-O.<br />
At the checkout stand Roy is next after an old, overweight<br />
woman with a wattle, her blued hair tucked inside a furry pillbox<br />
hat. The old, overweight woman with a wattle and blued hair is<br />
writing a check. Roy watches her fingers that hold the pen that<br />
writes the check. It has been a long time since she applied a fresh<br />
coat of red polish to her nails.<br />
The checkout girl—her tag says Robyn/Supervisor—yaps a<br />
mile a minute to Old Blue Hair. Meanwhile, the bagger—an<br />
even older woman with missing teeth and massive wrinkles—<br />
watches and waits, groceries bagged and settled in the cart.<br />
Watches and waits for the check to get written and ripped from<br />
its book so she can chirrup an offer to Old Blue Hair to help her<br />
waddle out to her car.<br />
Robyn’s darting aqua eyes encounter Roy’s existence and<br />
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iefly present him with her Automatic Smile. Her eyes then<br />
return to the check writing infinity that looms before her and lose<br />
focus as her mind wanders to a nostalgia for nectarines and how<br />
nice it’ll be when it stops raining and how much booze did Old<br />
Blue Hair have to drink to get a nose like that?<br />
Old Blue Hair ultimately triumphs over her check. With<br />
fingers that look like root vegetables she rips it from the book and<br />
shoves it across to Robyn/Supervisor who, returning from her<br />
interior musings, taps a key on the register. When the drawer<br />
clicks open, she slides the check under the twenties then bounces<br />
it closed with her polyestered hip.<br />
Now Old Blue Hair has to put her checkbook away.<br />
This is a difficult and complicated business, <strong>one</strong> that makes<br />
Roy’s changing music tapes seem trivial by comparison. Robyn’s<br />
bored, aqua eyes slide once again to Roy, then over him, then<br />
beyond him and onto the rest of the endless line of customers,<br />
ultimately to return to the slow-motion checkbook disappearing<br />
act.<br />
Robyn/Supervisor is desperate to get through her shift so<br />
she can go home, burn <strong>one</strong>, and pleasure herself with her new,<br />
eighty-seven dollar vibrator.<br />
“OK.” Old Blue Hair says this conclusively, her wallet now<br />
buried in the vastness of her enormous orange bag. “We’ll see<br />
you next week, hon.”<br />
The wizened bagger tugs on her forelock and pushes the<br />
creaking cart after old wattle woman who may still to this day be<br />
looking for her 1989 white Cadillac DeVille with 29,347 h<strong>one</strong>stto-God<br />
original miles on its odometer.<br />
Roy never unloads his basket. Since he refuses to use the little<br />
plastic dividers the store provides—as if your food’s got cooties—<br />
he never unloads his basket.<br />
Robyn, the taste of maryjane already on her tongue, a buzz<br />
already between her legs, unloads his basket for him.<br />
“Did you find everything you need today?”<br />
There are so many ways to answer this question, Roy doesn’t<br />
know where to begin.<br />
How he wishes his tunes were in his ears.<br />
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“S-Sure.”<br />
“Will that be all for you today?”<br />
It doesn’t take long for her to tote up his few items. It’s no<br />
wonder she’s a Supervisor.<br />
“All what?”<br />
The man behind Roy, who wears expensive rectangular<br />
glasses on his chiseled features, tries hard not to be peeved by<br />
Roy’s inertia. He snaps up a copy of the National Enquirer and<br />
pretends interest in the Second Coming of Christ as Bill Clinton’s<br />
Illegitimate Child.<br />
Roy is having trouble getting his m<strong>one</strong>y out of his pocket<br />
while wearing woolen, fingerless gloves. The thick wool keeps<br />
hanging up on the stitched rim of his jeans pocket. Robyn’s aqua<br />
eyes glaze. The dude behind Roy picks up Grisham’s latest and<br />
reads the back cover’s delirious blurbs.<br />
(For the most part, life as a Safeway Supervisor is not the<br />
endless round of parties and promiscuous sex Robyn had thought<br />
it would be, back when she started working for the company<br />
straight out of Medford High. Her secret desire is to have sex like<br />
Geena Davis did with Brad Pitt in Thelma & Louise and then light<br />
out for the badlands toting a .45 and drinking tequila out of little<br />
airplane bottles, then pushing old ladies crammed into shopping<br />
carts off a cliff into the deepest gorge of the Grand Canyon.)<br />
Finally fishing out his dough, Roy hands it all to her, all four<br />
twenties, even though the digital readout only calls for $18.87.<br />
Robyn does her best to smile as she hands him back the three<br />
unnecessary twenties, carefully avoiding his hand.<br />
(Is it just her, or does Roy smell? Spending the bulk of her life<br />
in a place where the light is bright and the air is filtered and the<br />
food is wrapped in plastic, it’s unusual to smell anything at all,<br />
much less a customer standing three feet away. Nevertheless, the<br />
fact is—Roy smells.)<br />
His bills returned, she touches a key with a slender finger<br />
and the register drawer springs open once again. She removes a<br />
single, a dime, and three pennies. Next, she tears off the receipt.<br />
And that’s when it happens. That’s when all those years spent<br />
becoming a Supervisor fail her. Her neck flushes, and she stifles<br />
a gasp.<br />
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She forgot to ask him for his Safeway card!<br />
He could report her to the GM for this. Her years of making<br />
change and stocking shelves and being coy and flirting and<br />
learning all the price codes would have been in vain. Years<br />
throw away. This smelly, bald man holds her career in the palm<br />
of his woolen, fingerless glove.<br />
She has no choice but to proceed, and pray he doesn’t notice.<br />
By the looks of him, he probably doesn’t even have a Safeway<br />
Card.<br />
Then she was supposed to sign him up for <strong>one</strong>!<br />
Christ—how she wants to go home.<br />
“Y-Your change, sir. Have a nice day, now.”<br />
He probably doesn’t even have I.D.<br />
She grits her teeth as she says sir and smiles and holds her<br />
breath and grits her teeth some more.<br />
Roy takes the plastic Safeway bag from the wizened bagger<br />
lady and shuffles away. He doesn’t even bother raising his eyes<br />
to Robyn, much less acknowledging her wish for a nice day, now.<br />
Robyn/Supervisor sighs. She glances at the big electric clock<br />
hung over the automatic doors through which Roy passes.<br />
A little bit less than two hours to go.<br />
She wonders if she should get some extra batteries for her<br />
dildo.<br />
Roy steps into the rain.<br />
Mel’s house is three blocks away. As Roy’s feet direct him<br />
there, his stomach fills with butterflies, scorpions and dung<br />
beetles. His heart races as if considering a bin of broccoli. The<br />
closer his feet bring him to his destination, the more panicky he<br />
becomes, the more he thinks the best thing in the world might<br />
be for him to go back to his room, put his bold plan on hold, and<br />
forget the whole thing.<br />
So rattled is Roy that he forgets to install the new batteries for<br />
his Sony.<br />
And does he ever need his tunes.<br />
But the truth is he’s tired of them, too. In a flash he recalls<br />
what brought him here today—the allure of new tunes.<br />
No. He can’t back out now.<br />
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He’s already bought the groceries.<br />
He arrives at the intersection of Mel’s street. In the middle of<br />
the intersection is this Seattle sight—a traffic island. A traffic<br />
island is a small, round, concrete-curbed hump of earth filled<br />
with plants. This particular traffic island has a banana tree in its<br />
center crowded around with camellias.<br />
Roy steps off the curb just as two vehicles approach. One is<br />
a beat-up, hand-painted black Toyota pickup driven by a ravenhaired<br />
girl, her exposed arms covered with tattoos. The other<br />
is an almost new, sage green Lexus SUV, its driver obscured<br />
behind smoked glass.<br />
Roy, his mind clotted with mounting dread, fails to notice<br />
either of these two vehicles. He steps off the curb with the<br />
confidence of a professional pedestrian. And he walks like <strong>one</strong>,<br />
too—slowly—with the gait of a sloth.<br />
The black Toyota pickup noses into the intersection first, its<br />
left turn indicator flashing like a caffeinated firefly. But the<br />
street it wishes to turn into, narrow in its original design, made<br />
more so by the presence of parked cars along both its curbs, is<br />
occupied by the sage green lump of smoked-glass Lexus, its own<br />
lovingly sculpted right turn indicator blinking insistently.<br />
The correct procedure would be for the black Toyota pickup<br />
to move into the intersection and circle the island to the right,<br />
allowing the SUV to make its right hand turn onto the narrow<br />
street currently occupied by the black Toyota pickup. The black<br />
Toyota pickup could then, in turn, proceed along the street of its<br />
choosing—the <strong>one</strong> currently occupied by the sage green lump of<br />
smoked-glass Lexus. But this is Seattle, and in Seattle such an<br />
act of consideration would be construed as cowardice. Therefore,<br />
the black Toyota pickup’s tattooed, raven-tressed driver scowls<br />
and holds her ground, while the taciturn, obscured driver of the<br />
Lexus follows suit.<br />
Again, all this takes place without Roy’s knowledge or interest,<br />
so that he is startled when angry horns bleat behind him as he<br />
pushes his way through the faded white picket gate attached to<br />
the faded white picket fence surrounding Mel’s faded yellow,<br />
tumbledown house.<br />
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The big, bracketing houses on either side of Mel’s—along with<br />
the many trees and shrubs—serve as sound buffers so that, with<br />
each step Roy takes towards Mel’s front porch, set far back from<br />
the street, the <strong>volume</strong> of the bleating horns subsides.<br />
By the time he stands on the porch, faced with the problem of<br />
Mel’s front door, he can barely hear them at all.<br />
The problem of Mel’s front door is this: Roy has to knock. Or,<br />
if the door is unlocked—which it often is because Mel is a homo<br />
and believes in the tooth fairy—then he can simply enter. That<br />
way he won’t have to knock. So, the first thing he has to do is try<br />
the doorknob. In order for him to try the doorknob, he must first<br />
try the screen door to see if it is unlatched.<br />
Roy tries the screen door and discovers that it is, indeed,<br />
unlatched.<br />
So far, so good.<br />
He takes a deep breath—far off, muted horns bleating<br />
madly—and cranks the door knob.<br />
To his great relief and satisfaction, Mel’s front door is<br />
unlocked. Roy opens it wide enough to intrude his head.<br />
Laughter from deep within the house affronts his sensitive<br />
ears. This is discouraging news. The only time Rick laughs is<br />
when he’s drunk, and when he’s drunk is when he is usually his<br />
meanest.<br />
Briefly, Roy thinks again about bagging the whole enterprise.<br />
Instead, he clears his throat and calls out—<br />
“Hello? Hello? Rick? Mel? Can I come in?”<br />
His voice—traveling through lath-and-plaster walls, two-anda-half<br />
inch thick solid wood doors, drapes, antique furnishings<br />
and Boston ferns—doesn’t stand a chance of being heard in the<br />
back of the house where the kitchen is, where the laughers are<br />
located.<br />
He could knock like a linebacker and they probably still<br />
wouldn’t hear.<br />
And the doorbell got tired of being pushed around years ago.<br />
So Roy steps inside.<br />
“Hello? Mel? Rick?”<br />
The screen door snaps closed behind him. He pushes the<br />
heavy front door back into its white frame and latches it.<br />
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The living room is swell. Real neat and cozy. Although<br />
the furniture is old and was bought used, it’s in good condition.<br />
There is a red couch from the fifties, and a leather chair from the<br />
sixties—the kind with a wooden stickshift that lets you recline<br />
and rest your feet. Off to <strong>one</strong> side is a massive, oak roll-top desk<br />
that must weigh a ton and be at least a hundred years old. Roy<br />
imagines it came from a bank in the Wild West days. There’s<br />
even an Oriental rug on the floor, worn in places but still pretty<br />
nice. The windows are all covered with floor-to-ceiling drapes,<br />
and gold-framed oil paintings he’s never bothered looking at<br />
hang on flocked wallpapered walls. Plants—mostly Boston<br />
ferns—are all over the place. Some hang from chains while<br />
others sit quietly on fancy, ornamental stands. The largest <strong>one</strong>s,<br />
like somber guards, slouch upward from heavy planters on the<br />
floor.<br />
Roy thinks Rick’s pretty lucky to live in such a swank place.<br />
He has his own bedroom, plenty of heat—and a kitchen. Which<br />
is funny, because Rick hates to cook—calls it bitch’s work—and<br />
endlessly needles Roy because he enjoys it so much.<br />
Roy thinks Rick doesn’t know how good he has it.<br />
Not that Rick hasn’t lived on the streets in cardboard boxes<br />
in the dead of winter, or in shelters or shit like that. It’s just that<br />
he always takes what he has for granted, like life owes him or<br />
something.<br />
These thoughts hold Roy’s hand as he makes passage across<br />
the intricate, ancient rug to the far side of the cavernous room,<br />
where he stops before the hallway door.<br />
The laughter grows louder.<br />
This makes sense, because he’s closer now.<br />
He can even make out some words between bouts of laughter.<br />
He tips his balding dome forward and rests it against the door.<br />
“Rick? Mel?”<br />
Using his forehead, he eases open the door.<br />
At the end of a long, dark hall cluttered with oddments of<br />
furniture and hung with more gold-framed (and unviewed by<br />
Roy) paintings, looms the kitchen.<br />
Its door seems to float eerily in space. Light emanates from<br />
around it like in a creepy movie.<br />
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He threads his way to the door and stops. He can now clearly<br />
make out everything Rick and Mel are saying, and from this<br />
information determines they are both pretty drunk.<br />
This is very discouraging.<br />
Now what?<br />
Does he turn tail and sneak out before they discover he’s<br />
there? Does he knock gently and hope they’ll invite him in? Or<br />
does he shove his way inside brazenly like it’s no big deal?<br />
He eases the door open an inch. In the widened crack he can<br />
discern that Mel is doing something at the counter just beyond<br />
his view, while Rick the Asshole leans back in a chair, his whitesocked<br />
feet crossed on the kitchen table. His head is ratcheted<br />
back and an amber bottle is tipped to his lips, its frothy contents<br />
entering his mouth to steal his brains away.<br />
Even at the sight of this, Roy does not turn tail and run.<br />
Instead, he steels himself, then boldly half-way opens the door<br />
and sticks his head inside the kitchen.<br />
The Formica-topped kitchen table is littered with Chinese<br />
takeout boxes and empty beer bottles.<br />
Rick goggles at Roy.<br />
This gives Roy the momentary upper hand, and he steps all<br />
the way inside.<br />
Mel, pouring a martini from a frosted metal shaker into a<br />
frosted fancy glass, is the first to react.<br />
“OhmyGod—it’s Brad Pitt!”<br />
Roy shuffles inside the kitchen, avoiding eye contact with<br />
either of the two men.<br />
If he had a forelock he would tug it.<br />
In reality, Mel doesn’t mind if Roy drops by occasionally. It’s<br />
his brother who gives him the hard time. Like now, for instance,<br />
when he says:<br />
“The fuck? You just waltz in here when you want?”<br />
Mel sips from his brimful, stemmed martini glass wherein a<br />
deep green, toothpick-skewered olive lolls.<br />
“Good timing, Brad.” Mel displays awesome white teeth.<br />
“Now we can have a ménage à twat. I’ll be the twat.”<br />
“Shut the fuck up, Mel.”<br />
Roy smiles, raises his grocery bag so all can see.<br />
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Mel pouts.<br />
“Hey, you’re not Brad Pitt. You’re the Galloping Gourmet.”<br />
“I called out.”<br />
At this Mel and Rick observe a moment of silence.<br />
“It’s raining outside.”<br />
Mel chuckles.<br />
“Mild-mannered Roy Weston squeegees windows by day, but<br />
by night dons leotards to become—Weather Man!”<br />
Roy’s uncertain smile deepens as if he’s <strong>one</strong> of them, as if he’s<br />
cool, as if he gets it—very funny stuff.<br />
Two blue and two hazel eyes follow him as he trudges across<br />
the vast kitchen to the white-tiled counter, his scarred-up work<br />
boots leaving muddy patches on the clean linoleum floor.<br />
The kitchen is an old fashi<strong>one</strong>d, mid-nineteenth century<br />
farmhouse affair with tall ceilings, picture rail, and a big central<br />
light suspended from a chain. The walls are dark green, the<br />
refrigerator avocado. The gas stove is the best thing in the<br />
kitchen, as far as Roy’s concerned. He prefers gas to electric.<br />
Here in the Northwest, it seems everybody but Yuppies has<br />
electric.<br />
Mel has all the neat appliances you could ever want—a big<br />
microwave oven that can hold a turkey, a toaster with bagel-sized<br />
slots, a powerful blender and a chrome Cuisinart he won’t let<br />
Roy touch.<br />
Ever.<br />
Mel, a mid-Twentieth century, middle-aged white gay man,<br />
is by nature very laid back, even when not drinking martinis.<br />
Unlike Rick, when Mel drinks he laughs a lot and becomes<br />
friendlier. His thin, steel-gray hair is worn cropped close to the<br />
skull so that his scalp shines through, and he wears a diamond<br />
stud in his left ear. Shorter than Roy, but taller than Rick, he’s<br />
g<strong>one</strong> soft in the middle, with deep crow’s feet at the corners of his<br />
eyes, probably from laughing so much because he’s gay.<br />
Rick views Roy as if he’s a rodent.<br />
“The fuck he make last time, tasted like dog puke?”<br />
Roy settles his plastic Safeway bag onto the immaculate<br />
countertop. He hates the sound plastic bags make. Usually he<br />
can’t hear their chemical rustle because of his tunes.<br />
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Mel chews on his olive.<br />
“’eef Strawganov.”<br />
He sets down his martini glass, empty now except for a naked<br />
toothpick stuck to its sloping sides, and swallows.<br />
“And it was delish.”<br />
He crosses to Roy who stands counting out his bag’s contents<br />
at the drainboard, and puts his arms around him in a bear hug<br />
from behind.<br />
“My big, strong Holly Golightly.”<br />
Roy freezes as Mel briefly twiddles his nipples. He closes his<br />
eyes and hopes for it to end soon.<br />
Be cool, Roy.<br />
Roy is afraid of what might happen if he turned and shoved<br />
Mel away.<br />
For <strong>one</strong> thing, he would probably lose his kitchen privileges.<br />
He might even be banned from the house forever. Or, he might<br />
hurt Roy. His brother would, that’s for sure. After all, his<br />
brother and Mel are housemates. They’d probably gang up on<br />
him.<br />
Roy would be outnumbered.<br />
Mel presses his lips close to Roy’s right ear and whispers,<br />
“I’ll be upstairs—waiting.”<br />
Then he makes that cat purring sound like Bob Hope used to<br />
make while his right hand slides down Roy’s shirtfront, over his<br />
belly’s bulge, and into the woods of his crotch.<br />
He gives Roy’s cock a squeeze.<br />
Roy’s eyes are screwed tightly together. If it could be said he<br />
stands any stiller, then even stiller does he stand.<br />
Mel—not really a bad sort, just gay and aslosh with<br />
martinis—laughs and laughs before releasing Roy’s penis.<br />
(Roy can breathe again. Roy’s blood can flow again.)<br />
Mel pauses at the kitchen door.<br />
“Now, don’t forget about Thanksgiving, Roy. I expect to see<br />
you here.”<br />
Then he pushes through the door and is g<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Roy unscrews his eyes.<br />
As if nothing happened, he continues to sort through the bag’s<br />
contents.<br />
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Meanwhile, far across the kitchen, almost on the other side of<br />
the world, Rick glares. It is a glare born from hatred, sired by<br />
meanness, and nourished on beer.<br />
One of the Chinese takeout containers sits close to the<br />
table’s edge. Rick slides a white-socked foot until it touches the<br />
container. The container that contains the remainder of sweet<br />
and sour chicken.<br />
It requires 33 joints, 107 ligaments, 19 muscles and an untold<br />
number of tendons to move the human foot. Rick uses all of<br />
these and more to push the Chinese takeout container off the<br />
table’s edge.<br />
plop<br />
“Uh-oh. Widdle brother made a big mess.”<br />
Without turning, Roy says,<br />
“I’ll clean it up.”<br />
Rick drops the front two legs of his chair onto the white floor<br />
with a bang.<br />
bang<br />
He uncurls his body and stands.<br />
If <strong>one</strong> can be said to speak with a sneer, then this is what he<br />
sneers:<br />
“Fuckin’ A you will.”<br />
He walks to where big brother rinses a zucchini.<br />
“Who the fuck you think y’ar, waltzin’ in like that? An’ don’t<br />
hand me any of that bein’ brothers crap and that makes us family<br />
shit. Do I see your name on the lease? Do I? No, your name’s<br />
not on the lease. And you wanna know why, McFly? It’s not<br />
on the lease because you don’t fucking live here. And since you don’t<br />
fucking live here, you don’t fucking walk in on people—unnerstand?”<br />
Rick circles his brother like a bee sizing up a flower.<br />
Roy doesn’t take the bait; instead, he unwraps the pork.<br />
Rick bares stained, skyline teeth.<br />
“Hear you got a new crib somewhere, bro. Bet you saved up<br />
all your dough this summer, dint you? Just bet. Don’t drink,<br />
don’t smoke. Fuckin’ virgin. Reg’lar saint. So—where you<br />
keep your cash, saint Roy? Not in a bank. Not you. Bet your<br />
mattress is stuffed with hundred dollar bills.”<br />
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Roy winces.<br />
“Why don’t you tell me where you live, big brother? Invite me<br />
over? You know—family and all that bullshit.”<br />
“I will.” Roy sets the pork onto paper towels.<br />
Rick snorts.<br />
“Bet your sweet ass you will. Guaranfuckingteed.”<br />
Roy can almost feel his brother’s body heat subside as he drifts<br />
away, headed for the kitchen door.<br />
At the door, Rick pauses and glances at the lurid red splatter<br />
of sweet and sour chicken on the linoleum floor. The upturned<br />
container in the middle of the mess makes it look like some<strong>one</strong><br />
microwaved a snail.<br />
“You better not forget to clean up your mess, Roy.”<br />
He shoves through the swinging door.<br />
Roy’s shoulders relax.<br />
He exhales.<br />
It hadn’t been so bad, after all.<br />
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The Old Cowboy rode down the bluff,<br />
towards the dead animal. He approached cautiously, downwind, away from<br />
its sharp hooves. He stared down for a long moment before sliding his Henry<br />
into its scabbard. Then he stretched his legs, making his stirrups groan, and<br />
looked around at the vast stillness surrounding him. Here, hours can pass<br />
in a moment, years drift in and out of focus in the beat of a heart. Here,<br />
history thunders and moans in the wind.<br />
He eased down from his saddle and pulled a skinner’s knife from his<br />
warbags.<br />
Kneeled beside the Pronghorn, he spoke in low t<strong>one</strong>s,<br />
“Sleep well, old fellow. It’s the way of the world.”<br />
Then he pushed the tip of his knife into the animal’s throat.<br />
Blood surged forth onto the ground.<br />
When the flow slowed, the Old Cowboy turned the animal onto its back<br />
and gutted it from ribs to pelvis, being careful not to cut into any internal<br />
organs. He spread the cut apart and scooped intestines, liver and stomach<br />
onto the ground. When this was d<strong>one</strong> he stood, grabbed the animal’s hind<br />
legs in his bloodied hands, and dragged its carcass to a nearby tree.<br />
Retrieving his rope from the saddle, he bound the animal’s rear legs with<br />
it, tossing the other end over a limb. He guessed the buck’s weight at just<br />
over a hundred pounds. As he tied off the free end of the rope to his saddle’s<br />
pommel, he found himself wondering what it had been doing out here all<br />
al<strong>one</strong>, away from the herd. What had caused it to separate from its own<br />
kind? Maybe it was a l<strong>one</strong>r, a drifter like himself. And, like himself, he<br />
wondered if this is what he would come to <strong>one</strong> day, only hung from a limb by<br />
his neck.<br />
He patted his roan’s croup and she started, shook her head, ready for<br />
labor, desirous of knowing more about what was expected. The Old Cowboy<br />
murmured gently into the shell of her ear while moving her forward a few<br />
feet, pulling the buck into the air.<br />
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He set about gathering firewood and built a pyre near the buck as it<br />
rocked gently to-and-fro. He used <strong>one</strong> of the newfangled red phosphorus<br />
matches to ignite the tinder, sending up a thin, gray fuse into the sky. Next,<br />
he piled on deadwood and watched with satisfaction as the flames cracked<br />
and popped and danced in the bright day. He wiped off the sticky blood,<br />
rubbing his hands along the buck’s still-warm flanks, before returning to his<br />
roan. Flipping up a stirrup, he uncinched the saddle and slid it off her back.<br />
She flared her nostrils and bobbed her head once or twice. Then the Old<br />
Cowboy carried saddle and blanket to a spot in the tree’s scanty shade.<br />
He lit a cigarette and stared at the horizon. Sometimes, weeks passed<br />
without saying a word. His life was quiet, quiet as his mind. The basic<br />
steps of life—eating and drinking, then eating again—occupied a large<br />
portion of his day, while his night was spent in sleep. Seasons passed—city<br />
people called them years—but a cowboy notices the passage differently. He<br />
saw the small things, like the bushiness of a fox squirrel’s tail, or the speed<br />
with which a cricket played its song. The winter would come again, harsh<br />
and indifferent to human need or suffering, and then the spring and then<br />
the fall, just as sure as war and hunger. These things seemed warranted by<br />
God. Like death. Not time for much else. Except a drink or a smoke.<br />
The cigarette burned down to his fingers and he tossed it into the fire.<br />
Thinking of a drink made him wish he had <strong>one</strong>. Or two. He stared into<br />
the fire as it ate its way through the wood. After a while, when it became a<br />
hot, incandescent heap of charcoal, he would construct a latticework of sticks<br />
about two feet above the embers. On that he would lay strips of meat to jerk.<br />
Much of the carcass would be sacrificed to the carrion birds already lazing in<br />
wide circles, holding council overhead.<br />
Such was the way of the world.<br />
The Old Cowboy closed his eyes against the blazing sky and tipped his<br />
black hat far forward so its leather sweatband rested on the bridge of his<br />
nose. He would sleep for a while, half awake, always on guard, body tensed<br />
and ready to spring; sleep a dreamless sleep as if still in the saddle, still on<br />
the trail.<br />
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“TWO SHORT SK<strong>IN</strong>NY<br />
mochas—shock <strong>one</strong>!”<br />
Suzie Quattro’s smoky stylings—assisted by electrons shed by<br />
a brace of new double-A alkalines—purls inside Roy’s ears and<br />
causes him to smile.<br />
He tries to comprehend the complex hieroglyphics that<br />
chock the Starbuck’s menu. There are words up there he can’t<br />
pronounce. Words like Yergacheffe and Sidamo and Sulawesi.<br />
He supposes they want him to ask what they mean, maybe even<br />
how to say them, but if that’s their plan then they’re going to be<br />
mighty disappointed.<br />
The plastic Safeway bag is heavy in his hand, weighted as it is<br />
now with the burden of a foil-wrapped lasagna.<br />
Dozens of people mill about the store, nose the pricey<br />
wares on fancy glass shelves; those who mill too close to Roy<br />
unavoidably listen to Suzie and how she wails.<br />
Then there are all the kinds of drinks he’s never tried before,<br />
like: Caffé Freddo; Caffé Lungo; Caffé Macchiato; Caffé Ristretto; Latte<br />
Puné; Mochaccino; Caffé Con Panna—where do they get all these<br />
names? Why can’t they just sell coffee?<br />
All that Roy knows about coffee can be summed up thus: it<br />
comes from coffee trees in South America, and is harvested by<br />
a mustached dude named Juan who has a pet donkey and wears<br />
a blanket over his shoulder like Clint Eastwood did in The Good,<br />
The Bad and The Ugly.<br />
The only coffee drink Roy knows how to ask for is a doubletall<br />
Americano.<br />
“A Medici tall, kill the lemon—no whip!”<br />
And the reason he knows how to ask for this particular drink,<br />
a double-tall Americano, is because that’s the drink J.J. always<br />
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ordered. On Roy’s first day working for him, J.J. stopped the<br />
crew by a Starbucks to order his daily double-tall Americano,<br />
and asked Roy what he wanted. Roy had never even been inside<br />
a Starbucks before. Oh, he had panhandled in front of <strong>one</strong> once;<br />
he remembers how the people coming out were more generous<br />
than the people going in. But the management had shooed him<br />
away, threatened to call the cops if he ever showed up again, and<br />
that episode had pretty much colored his opinion about the place.<br />
Add to this the fact that it is a great big corporation out to<br />
crush competition and cater to Yuppies, and you’d think it’d be<br />
the last place on earth Roy would want to visit, much less spend<br />
his hard-earned cash.<br />
But J.J. loved Starbucks. If J.J. had had more m<strong>one</strong>y, Roy bets<br />
he would have become a Yuppie in a hot New York minute. But<br />
he was just a window washer, a cleaning guy like the rest of his<br />
motley crew, except that he owned a blue, 1992 Aerostar and had<br />
a business license.<br />
So, when J.J. asked Roy what he wanted—and it was apparent<br />
he was willing to pay—and Roy was confronted with a menu<br />
that made his head swim, he took the easy way out and said,<br />
“Same.”<br />
That’s why to this day the only coffee drink Roy has ever<br />
ordered is a double-tall Americano.<br />
Suzie takes a bow and Roy’s head is filled with cheers,<br />
whistles and applause.<br />
“One shot in the dark—soy latté tall—a short quad on a<br />
leash!”<br />
A man standing next to Roy, who also peruses the menu, also<br />
wears headph<strong>one</strong>s on his head. He is younger, taller and leaner,<br />
with professionally sculpted black, wavy hair. He is redolent of<br />
a subtle aftershave. A self-winding Rolex Oyster Submariner<br />
(list price $3,575) tells him the time night or day, and never needs<br />
a battery. His Sennheiser headph<strong>one</strong>s retailed for $360 on the<br />
internet, but he was able to score them for $268 on eBay, not<br />
including $15 shipping. That brought it to $283, which was still<br />
a good deal. Their expensive, supple cord disappears inside his<br />
Polo Ralph Lauren Military Flight Jacket ($944), and is plugged<br />
into an iPod U2 Special Edition, $344.<br />
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These two men—from such polarized socio-economic<br />
worlds—have been brought together today by happenstance and<br />
addiction.<br />
A happenstance occasi<strong>one</strong>d by a world built upon chaos and<br />
disorder, and an addiction to C 8 H 10 N 4 O 2 .<br />
Otherwise known as caffeine.<br />
“Two Nicos and a tall breve—no whip!”<br />
Suzie sings of love unrequited.<br />
Roy thinks he knows how she feels.<br />
Not that he’s ever been in love. But he digs what the fallout<br />
of such a loss might be. Without having been there, he shares<br />
Suzie’s heart-wrung words. He disappears inside her voice,<br />
into the catalytic cataclysm that is her music, drifts out of his<br />
body and into the undulating, adulating crowd, slips out of the<br />
Starbucks for a bottomless moment, an unreckonable eternity—<br />
long enough for the man with the professionally sculpted hair<br />
and flying ace aspirations to break ahead of him in line.<br />
A young blonde in a green apron, hair pulled back and<br />
twisted tight, smiles at him with a dazzling array of Frigidairewhite<br />
teeth and two intensely blue, jitterbugging eyes.<br />
“WhatcanIgetforyoutoday?”<br />
The sculpted young man is smitten by jealousy; he longs to<br />
join her in her amplified realm.<br />
His eyes frantically scan the menu.<br />
“I’ll-I’ll have a doppio cappuccino double-double wet with an<br />
addshot.”<br />
Did he forget to say something?<br />
Yes, he did. But the Magic Word is not forthcoming.<br />
Roy looks on with loathing at the Yuppie Scum who has<br />
broken in front of him and not used the Magic Word. It is at<br />
times like these he wishes he were a black-belt Karate guy. Then<br />
he would tap the Yuppie Scum on his factory-distressed leather<br />
shoulder and, when he turned with his sour did you actually touch<br />
me? look, Roy would take him out with a single blow and he<br />
would drop like a sock puppet and the milling, caffeinated scrum<br />
would stop milling and price-checking and nosing wares and<br />
would stare instead in shock at how this fallen Yuppie Scum had<br />
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met his comeuppance, and they would gasp, cheer, and the room<br />
fill with applause.<br />
“Sir?”<br />
Roy can’t hear a thing, his head is so filled with applause.<br />
Suzie takes another bow.<br />
(What a night that must have been, ’way back in ’75, at the<br />
Shibuya Public Hall in Tokyo, Japan!)<br />
“SIR?”<br />
She with dancing teeth and galloping eyes and slipstream hair<br />
is windmilling a hand.<br />
People are starting to stare.<br />
But they had been taking peeks at Roy ever since he walked<br />
in carrying his Safeway bag weighted with a foil-wrapped<br />
something, maybe a bomb, and staring and staring at the menu<br />
like a space zombie.<br />
The applause dies away and Suzie says her thanks and Roy<br />
notices the girl’s windmilling hand with its gold Promise Ring<br />
and charm bracelet.<br />
“SIR?”<br />
(It is not easy for her to call him “sir,” but she is paid by the<br />
hour to do her master’s bidding, and her master would bid her<br />
know that Roy’s m<strong>one</strong>y spends just as well as the guy’s with the<br />
cool leather jacket, and that either way he—the master—would<br />
be laughing all the way to the bank.)<br />
“WhatcanIgetforyoutodaysir?”<br />
Roy shrugs. He is uneasy in this place, but his dopaminedeprived<br />
frontal lobe screams out for its daily ration of<br />
C 8 H 10 N 4 O 2 .<br />
He reaches up and with <strong>one</strong> free, fingerless-gloved hand<br />
expands the bands of his cheap headph<strong>one</strong>s so he can hear<br />
himself speak, so he can modulate his voice, so he can say—<br />
“Double-tall Americano. Please.”<br />
Unlike the Yuppie Scum before him, Roy had not forgotten to<br />
utter the Magic Word.<br />
The girl’s frozen mask of forced cordiality asks,<br />
“Want that Misto?”<br />
Roy is gripped by panic—he has no clue what she’s talking<br />
about.<br />
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This has never happened before. Roy’s brow beads with<br />
sweat. He can think of no meaningful reply.<br />
This young blonde girl who would pass him on the street<br />
without a second glance, much less a first—even if he were lying<br />
groaning with an arrow in his chest, or a skateboard up his ass—<br />
has complicated everything with her nonsensical question.<br />
She frowns briefly as she watches her goofy-looking customer<br />
processes her simple question.<br />
“Misto?”<br />
She hates to repeat herself.<br />
Her eyes shift focus so that the image of a panicked Roy blurs<br />
and the growing knot of darkly-muttering, scowling, glowering,<br />
de-caffeinated customers clustered behind comes into focus, and<br />
she wonders will she get to take her break today, because State<br />
Law requires she gets <strong>one</strong>, and she really, really needs it.<br />
What she could do with a cigarette.<br />
Make that a cigarette and some chocolate.<br />
She just stared her period and her gut feels like it’s carrying a<br />
melon the size of Brunswick, <strong>Ohio</strong> (pop. 35, 200).<br />
What she’s used to is people who know what they want. She<br />
enjoys talking to those people, people who can name their<br />
poison, people who are at ease with their uncontrollable urges,<br />
people who are at peace with their need to be cranked.<br />
Her job is not to educate newbies.<br />
People who don’t have a clue about coffee should buy <strong>one</strong> of<br />
the fun-to-read (she read <strong>one</strong> once), fact-filled books for sale on<br />
the glass shelves that hold so many other cute, fun items, like<br />
Travel Cups with actual paintings by Chopin and van Golf. If<br />
Maggie would only <strong>one</strong> day ever actually come back from her<br />
fucking break when she was supposed to, but no she’s always<br />
getting st<strong>one</strong>d to bring down the buzz, as if any<strong>one</strong> would want<br />
to do that—God, this guy smells.<br />
In the meantime, Roy has decided to nod.<br />
It is a decision reached reluctantly, because he doesn’t know<br />
what he’s agreeing to. But it’s a far sight better than the other<br />
option, which would be to ask her what that word he’s already<br />
forgotten means.<br />
Relieved beyond description, the young blonde scoots away to<br />
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attle cups and spoons, jazzed to have someplace to channel her<br />
pep.<br />
Roy looks around. His Sony has clicked off. Suzie has been<br />
cheered offstage, and he doesn’t feel like flipping her over. He’s<br />
heard the tape now far too many times.<br />
Too much of a good thing.<br />
Unlike the mass of the human population, muted earth t<strong>one</strong>s<br />
distress Roy. It makes him think of all the cardboard boxes he’s<br />
lived in. How could people want to be surrounded by brown?<br />
They probably have a bunch of different names for it, but Roy<br />
calls it brown.<br />
His gaze glazes over at the abundance of what his landlady<br />
would call tchotchkes.<br />
This is what the New World Order is all about—crap. Crap<br />
piled on crap. Landfills filled with crap. People dumping last<br />
year’s crap into the ocean to make room for this year’s crap that<br />
will soon follow last year’s crap into the ocean to make room for<br />
next year’s crap.<br />
And how can people who are so politically correct wear so<br />
much leather? Roy loses count of all the toasty, trendy leather<br />
jackets and coats. Vaguely, he wonders how many kinds of<br />
leather there must be in the world. He tries to visualize burly<br />
men stripping the bloody flesh off freshly-killed carcasses so that<br />
Yuppies can be warm and trendy.<br />
Then he notices them.<br />
There are two of them, and they sit at a table staring at him.<br />
Yes, at him.<br />
One has fine, straight black hair in a pageboy cut. The part<br />
that divides her hair’s left from its right looks to have been made<br />
with a laser. Her chocolate eyebrows are thick enough to provide<br />
toeholds, if <strong>one</strong> wanted to climb her forehead.<br />
And climb it men would, if she but asked.<br />
Her skin is a shade of Mediterranean olive, not Seattle<br />
tanning booth brown, like a stain from a swim in Lake Union.<br />
And she is looking at him.<br />
And smiling.<br />
And so is her friend!<br />
Her friend who has a rack that would stop an Amtrack express<br />
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also has a head of frothy, brown curls. Parrot-friendly gold hoops<br />
dangle from alabaster ears. A lightly-freckled lass, she wisely<br />
eschews the sun’s damaging rays; her skin is a milky carnation,<br />
and her lips a new shade of red.<br />
And her smile—like that of her friend’s—is aimed at Roy.<br />
Roy smiles back.<br />
The young blonde girl returns with Roy’s double-tall<br />
Americano (Misto) and sets it on the plastic counter that looks<br />
like tan granite.<br />
“Sir?”<br />
Her eyes lose focus on Roy as they take in the growing line.<br />
The bleary-eyed crowd behind the bald doofus has<br />
reproduced, like, ten times.<br />
Any minute they could mutate into a decafinated mob.<br />
“Hello?”<br />
She forces another pert smile, reminding herself that the<br />
cameras are watching.<br />
The two pretty girls start to giggle. The <strong>one</strong> with the curls<br />
dips the tip of her nose into her friend’s fine, black hair, and<br />
speaks. The recipient of her words snickers—yes, snickers—then<br />
shakes her head as if and turns her attention to other humorous<br />
distractions elsewhere in the room.<br />
The curly <strong>one</strong> gives Roy a wrinkly-nosed rejection and<br />
withdraws her toothy approval.<br />
For a moment, Roy had forgotten they were Yuppie scum;<br />
for a moment, Roy had become convinced they, too, had<br />
surrendered their powers of critical judgement; for a moment,<br />
Roy had been certain they shared his pherom<strong>one</strong> fantasy; for a<br />
moment—for the briefest and stupidest of moments—Roy had<br />
been blindsided by love.<br />
“That’llbetwoseventyfive. Doyouwantanythingelse?”<br />
Involuntarily devoured by lust.<br />
“Thereareotherpeoplewaiting.”<br />
Slave to hearts’ alchemy.<br />
“Small cake in a cup—three double-talls, two without, <strong>one</strong> with room!”<br />
Roy shifts his eyes away from the Yuppie couple, their long,<br />
lean, yoga-stretched backs to him now, their blinding tooth<br />
enamel illuminating other parts of the brown room.<br />
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Roy wonders what they were laughing at.<br />
“Twoseventyfive?”<br />
He manages to return his attention to the young, blonde girl<br />
with the cold, round eyes.<br />
Carefully, for it contains his lasagna, he sets the plastic<br />
Safeway bag onto the man-made tan countertop. She watches<br />
him do this with muted rage. Relieved of his foil-wrapped<br />
burden, Roy next removes the thick, woolen glove from his right<br />
hand. This he also places on the tan countertop, still filled with<br />
the warmth and shape of his personal hand and, of course, his<br />
personal odor. The girl’s nose crinkles. She fights the urge<br />
to wrinkle her brow. As if out in the world for the first time,<br />
blissfully unaware there are others who require her ministrations,<br />
Roy grubs in his pocket, deeper and deeper; perhaps so deeply<br />
that, when his hand reappears, it will be clutching Yuan notes<br />
issued by the People’s Republic of China.<br />
It seems to take Roy the lifetime of a gastrotrich.<br />
Gastrotrichs are a phylum of microscopic animal found in<br />
fresh water. They are bilaterally symmetric, and have a complete<br />
gut. Their locomotion is primarily powered by hydrostatics, and<br />
they reproduce entirely by parthenogenesis. They are also the<br />
shortest-lived animals known, their entire life-span lasting only<br />
three days.<br />
Which is exactly how long it seems to take Roy to find his<br />
m<strong>one</strong>y—three days, or the lifetime of a gastrotrich.<br />
The m<strong>one</strong>y he finally wrings from his pocket is not Chinese at<br />
all, but a familiar green adorned with a famous male dominator<br />
(Andrew Jackson, author of the Indian Removal Act of 1830).<br />
He peels the twenty from its sordid fellows and it flutters onto<br />
the tan countertop.<br />
The change has been made in her blonde, ponytailed mind<br />
for the last two-and-a-half days. The dirty bill is in her hand<br />
almost before it alights. After the transaction is complete, she<br />
will wash her hands vigorously, but for now all she can think of is<br />
a-ten-a-five-two-<strong>one</strong>s-and-a-quarter. A-ten-a-five-two-<strong>one</strong>s-anda-quarter.<br />
Atenafivetwo<strong>one</strong>sandaquarter.<br />
No, she does not place the change directly into Roy’s<br />
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outstretched hand. She has had enough contact with this person.<br />
She slaps it onto the man-made tan countertop and stares<br />
pointedly over his shoulder.<br />
“Next!”<br />
Some<strong>one</strong> mutters Thank God while Roy scrapes up his change.<br />
A man wearing an umber (brown, to Roy) corduroy jacket<br />
with leather elbow patches and a mauve turtleneck sweater<br />
squeezes beside Roy and gasps—“A triple tall, short and dry, and<br />
a venti Zebra without!”<br />
The blonde girl is g<strong>one</strong> in a flash, first to wash her hands<br />
vigorously, then to satisfy the needs of this new, cleaner, betterdressed<br />
member of the coffee cognoscenti.<br />
But mostly to get away from Roy.<br />
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MIST PREVAILS<br />
in Seattle throughout the winter, but occasionally it actually<br />
rains.<br />
The day’s mist has turned into exactly that—: a torrential<br />
rain.<br />
Roy flips up his raincoat’s hood before he steps off the bus.<br />
There is a different driver sitting behind the wheel from earlier in<br />
the day, and this fact gladdens his heart considerably.<br />
(Roy has learned that there is an expiration date to chance<br />
encounters. The way he figures it, if more than two days go<br />
by after a nod or a few words are exchanged, the opportunity<br />
for that event to be made into a Big Deal slips forever beyond<br />
recovery.)<br />
Before stepping off the bus, he ties a knot in the plastic<br />
Safeway bag to keep out the rain that peppers the bus’ shell and<br />
creates a deafening roar.<br />
Raindrops shatter and deepen puddles. Seattle’s grit, grime<br />
and birdshit sluices off buildings, windows and rooftops to<br />
disappear in a gushing torrent down the city’s drains, plunging<br />
through a network of ancient clay pipes to Puget Sound.<br />
Thunder is so seldom heard in the Great Northwest that the<br />
passengers are startled, perhaps filled with dread of End Times,<br />
as it rolls like bowling balls through the cloudy alleys overhead.<br />
Roy steps off the bus and into a fast-flowing freshet filled with<br />
candy wrappers, cigarette butts and other cast-off bits and pieces<br />
of the productive world.<br />
The beat-up boots he wears he bought new at Chubby &<br />
Tubby’s several summers back because they were advertised to be<br />
weatherproof.<br />
Roy had supposed that to mean waterproof.<br />
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As stated earlier, Roy possesses but two keys. His life is that<br />
simple. One key opens the door of the building he inhabits, the<br />
other key opens the door of the apartment he rents.<br />
His apartment: almost warm and mostly dry.<br />
From the bus stop he races through the downpour towards<br />
his building. In places along the sidewalk, pigeons band together<br />
in dark, feathery huddles. Their discussions range from Ibises<br />
to Ibsen. They turn as <strong>one</strong> at the slapslap of Roy’s approaching<br />
beat-up weatherproof boots and scurry out of his path, quickly<br />
reassembling after his passage to coo and prattle about human<br />
rudeness, an ongoing topic of avian discontent.<br />
Roy sprints up the steps to the covered stoop of his building.<br />
Although the simplicity of his life may be symbolized by a<br />
reduced number of keys, this in no way dismisses the fact that<br />
those two keys may just as readily be lost or stolen as a larger set<br />
decorated with an imported car’s fob.<br />
Roy pats his pants and raincoat pockets in search of his two<br />
keys.<br />
Rain pounds the evacuated, windswept streets of Georgetown.<br />
Even the coffee shop across from his building is closed. A ghastly<br />
dread floods his system. Just beyond this thick, wooden door lies<br />
warmth of a sort and a mattress stuffed with cash. He can’t have<br />
lost his keys—he can’t! He doesn’t want to sleep outside in the<br />
cold, outside in the rain, outside with brooding pigeons.<br />
He is relieved beyond words to discover that the beaded chain<br />
that serves to link his two keys together has come und<strong>one</strong> and<br />
that the keys have settled apart from <strong>one</strong> another in different<br />
regions of his pocket.<br />
His hands shake—as much from cold as from fear—as he<br />
jams the end of his outside door key into the lock’s metal sleeve<br />
and snicks the deadbolt open. With a deeply-felt gratitude, he<br />
pushes into the freshly-swept, dry vestibule.<br />
He is glad to be out of the wind, out of the rain, and away<br />
from pigeons.<br />
He shakes out his raincoat, sending a spray of water onto the<br />
faded, flocked walls. The tile floor is now freshly-marred with<br />
mud from his beat-up boots.<br />
Oblivious, he thumps up the broad, carpeted stair.<br />
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thumpthumpthump<br />
Not far from the head of the stair is 28/RR. When he comes<br />
in sight of this, his heavy thudding becomes a dainty tiptoe.<br />
Quietly, he steps onto the second floor.<br />
He glides past 28/RR and hurries along to 23.<br />
His second key is out. Into the slotted cylinder it goes,<br />
muscling pins up and out of its way. With a twist the cylinder<br />
revolves—and he’s safe inside.<br />
He heads for the bed where he sets his burden, then removes<br />
his draining raincoat. This he replaces on its nail.<br />
If not clean, Roy is at least neat.<br />
His raincoat replaced on its nail, a puddle on the floor<br />
beneath just getting started, he next moves to his duffle. He digs<br />
through this until he encounters the blue, spiral-ring paper pad<br />
and, with a bit more digging, uncovers a plastic Bic pen filled<br />
with blue ink.<br />
With these items in tow, he moves to the bed.<br />
squeak<br />
Now he must compose his thoughts. What ought he to write?<br />
Cooking the lasagna had been the easy part. Outside, wind<br />
lashes a freezing rain. Inside, Roy’s steam radiator maintains<br />
just enough headway to steer against the current. Roy chews on<br />
his Bic.<br />
He wishes he had a pencil.<br />
Roy is always wishing for something.<br />
He begins:<br />
To Whom It May Concern:<br />
Your music the other night was awesome! I dug<br />
it very much!! Here is some food for you. I am in<br />
room 23. I am the <strong>one</strong> ran into you the other<br />
night. I would like to hear more of your awesome tunes.<br />
If that is cool with you that is. My name is<br />
Maybe he shouldn’t tell him his name.<br />
What If he gets pissed off, and comes after him? Then he<br />
shouldn’t tell him his room number, either. What he should do is<br />
he should eat the lasagna, and forget the whole thing, that’s what<br />
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he should do. But now he’s g<strong>one</strong> to all this trouble—the bus trip,<br />
the gay bus driver, Mel pinching his nipples and grabbing his—<br />
No. He can’t stop now.<br />
He crumples the note and tosses it to the floor.<br />
On a fresh piece of paper, he writes:<br />
To room 28, how are you? I hope you are as<br />
fine as I am. Here is a little something to eat I<br />
cooked to welcome you to the building. Hope<br />
your time here is good. Also, you can play<br />
your’re music louder if you want, since it is very cool<br />
sounding…I wonder what its called?<br />
Fondly, anonomus.<br />
That doesn’t look right, anonomus. He doesn’t want 28/RR to<br />
think he’s dumb. Also, since the guy was in the building before<br />
him, how could Roy be welcoming him? For all he knows, the<br />
guy’s lived there twenty years and that’s what the RR on his<br />
door stands for: Revered Renter.<br />
He balls up this page as well and adds it to the <strong>one</strong> already on<br />
the floor. Roy is making a mess.<br />
He starts over:<br />
Hello, room 28. I am in room 23. I liked<br />
your music I heard the other night. It made me<br />
happy. I want to make you happy to. Here is<br />
something I made to say thanks for the nice music.<br />
It is nothing really. Hope you like it a lot as I liked<br />
your music lots too.<br />
That’s it. Simple and direct. He reads it over again. And<br />
then once more. Maybe he should sleep on it. Water cascades<br />
down his windowpanes. He is feeling leaden-eyed. If he sleeps<br />
on it, maybe rats will tear into the plastic Safeway bag and gut<br />
his lasagna. He wishes he knew how to spell lasagna. He would<br />
have liked to use that word in his note, telling the tenant of 28/<br />
RR what it was he was eating. But, most people know a lasagna<br />
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when they see <strong>one</strong>, so that should be OK. He yawns. It has been<br />
a long, tiring day. He recalls how he barely slept last night. No<br />
wonder he’s bushed. He yawns again. The windows rattle with<br />
the roar of crashing bowling pins. His eyes droop.<br />
If it’s going to happen, it better happen now.<br />
He pushes his palms against his knees and cranks himself<br />
erect. With the note in <strong>one</strong> hand and the Safeway bag in the<br />
other, he steps towards his door.<br />
He cracks it open and investigates the hall.<br />
The hallway stands empty. The light above the B THRO M<br />
sleeps.<br />
He opens his door wider and steps into the hall.<br />
With his heart in his throat, he settles the rustling plastic<br />
bag beside the bar of light that lives at the bottom of door 28/<br />
RR. Next, the note. He has no way to attach it, so he folds it<br />
in half and sticks it inside the rabbit ear loops of the knotted bag<br />
handles.<br />
Should he knock?<br />
“Special lasagna delivery, get it while it’s hot!”<br />
Yes, he should.<br />
Instead, he hurries back to his room and eases the door closed<br />
and shoots the deadbolt home.<br />
Vanquished by the day’s activities, he drops onto the mattress<br />
and closes his eyes.<br />
squeak<br />
Tonight he will sleep. Sleep like a rock. This has been a big<br />
day. A great day. He has turned a corner in his adult life. He<br />
has hatched a plan unlike any he has ever hatched before, and<br />
he’s followed it through.<br />
He feels vaguely proud and strangely excited.<br />
He is, in fact, as excited as he had been when, as a little boy<br />
on Christmas Eve all those Christmas Eves ago, he had g<strong>one</strong> to<br />
bed in his cardboard box believing Santa would think he had<br />
been a good boy and finally bring him something.<br />
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110 ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
ROY’S EYES POP OPEN.<br />
He had been dreaming of a time when the OK Hotel had<br />
been cool, back before they served booze, and this band was<br />
playing there, only it wasn’t a band that ever really played<br />
there, but the <strong>one</strong> that was in his dream, the <strong>one</strong> that he was<br />
in—himself on lead guitar, J.J. on drums, Rick on bass and Mel<br />
naked except for a pink boa he fibrillated between his hairy legs<br />
while belting out Suzie Quattro songs.<br />
The audience was a bunch of punked-out dwarfs with potato<br />
guns they kept shooting, aiming for their eyes.<br />
Roy blinks his freshly popped-opened eyes.<br />
Eyes crusted with sleep.<br />
He had not stirred once all night long.<br />
He squeezes his thighs together.<br />
He needs to pee.<br />
He sits up in his deeply-fissured clothes.<br />
His room is frigid, his body stiff.<br />
And he really needs to pee.<br />
He drops the two heavy weights that are his big, booted feet<br />
onto the floor.<br />
thunk followed by thunk<br />
He wonders what time it is. Not that it matters. Not that he<br />
really cares. Does a wrist of his sport a digital watch? Roy is no<br />
Yuppie Scum, always hurrying somewhere, eyes bulging, tearing<br />
out his hair.<br />
Roy has no hair to tear.<br />
Still, sometimes he wonders what time it is.<br />
The puddle that formed beneath his dripping raincoat had<br />
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evaporated during the night, embraced by its brethren and<br />
sistern in the Great Hydrologic Cycle.<br />
He crosses to the scarred door that restrains the screeching,<br />
turbulent world and unlocks its deadbolt.<br />
He cracks the door ajar.<br />
That portion of the hall he is presented with appears to be<br />
chock-full of nothingness.<br />
He opens the door a bit wider so he can see all the way down<br />
to the B THRO M.<br />
It, like the hallway, overflows with vacuity. Emptiness. A<br />
total lack of all things human.<br />
Relieved he will have the little room entirely to himself, he<br />
steps into the hall.<br />
It is precisely at this juncture that his right toe encounters a<br />
small, plastic object.<br />
Said object, suddenly abristle with kinetic energy transferred<br />
there by the tap from Roy’s right toe, clatters noisily across the<br />
tatty carpet until it encounters the opposing wall and—as all<br />
irresistible forces met by immovable objects should—abruptly<br />
stops.<br />
The result of this abrupt stop is that the object under<br />
discussion disassembles, its parts no longer making up a whole,<br />
and scatter in several directions at once.<br />
The kinetic energy provided by Roy’s right toe soon enough<br />
sputters out, and the plastic objects come to a rest upon the<br />
hallway floor.<br />
The hallway that continues its slow unraveling.<br />
Roy frowns as he focuses on what appears to be an audio tape<br />
and its exploded case.<br />
So intent had he been on the fullness of his bladder, he had<br />
clean forgot about the lasagna trap he set the night before. In a<br />
flash of rewound memory, Roy recalls carrying home the foilwrapped<br />
treat in a plastic Safeway bag, then writing the note,<br />
then placing the bag and note against the bar of light at the<br />
bottom of 28/RR. His eyes scoot there now, leaving behind for a<br />
moment the plastic fragments.<br />
The bag is no longer there.<br />
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The man inside 28/RR took the bait!<br />
And now, apparently, the result of Roy’s clever plan lies in<br />
several pieces upon the hallway floor.<br />
Could it be The Music?<br />
His urinary urgency not altogether forgotten, Roy creaks<br />
down on his knees and crawls about, scooping up the scattered<br />
parts.<br />
He is delighted to find they still fit together.<br />
Roy holds the tape—his tape!—reverentially before his face,<br />
and fairly close to his eyes. He squints at it in the dim light. It is<br />
not labeled, but he’s pretty sure he knows what it is.<br />
It’s The Music.<br />
Suddenly remembering he is kneeling in the middle of the<br />
hallway floor, and that his bladder is about to burst, Roy springs<br />
to his feet.<br />
The lightbulb in the B THRO M still drowses.<br />
While there might never be a better time to slip inside the<br />
B THRO M and do his business, Roy’s longing to take a listen to<br />
what he holds in his hands trumps his leaning to take a leak.<br />
He decides that a compromise of sorts might be possible.<br />
Roy’s fingers fumble with the tape as he inserts it into its case,<br />
as he betakes himself to his original destination.<br />
In the distance, thunder rumbles. Even thick, ancient walls<br />
such as these can’t completely keep out the World.<br />
Roy creaks open the B THRO M door, slips inside, snicks the<br />
lightswitch on, then settles his—yes, his!—tape onto the cast<br />
iron corner sink and turns to face the oval of water resting in<br />
the commode. The toilet is as old as the building. A wooden<br />
waterbox affixed to the wall above it has a pull-chain for the<br />
flusher.<br />
The commode itself is a white ceramic flower with a chromed<br />
stem in back, its petals opened to reveal its liquidy heart. Rust<br />
streaks down to the water’s brown, crusty rim.<br />
It is rumored as many as 17 million men in America suffer<br />
from paruresis—the fear of peeing in public. By public is meant<br />
bathroom urinals in public facilities. Or outdoors with a Boy<br />
Scout Troop. Or off the ledge of a tall building. Or from a<br />
speeding automobile.<br />
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Sometimes it is referred to as bashful bladder.<br />
17 million American men constitute about 7% of the<br />
population.<br />
It is Roy’s fraternity with this 7% that leaves him, bladder<br />
about to burst, staring into the commode’s discolored oval,<br />
waiting for something to happen.<br />
During this longueur, his ears turn crimson and his forehead<br />
shines.<br />
Sounds, minute and mouse-like, are amplified by his crimsonrimmed<br />
ears into a walloping racket. Within his fanciful<br />
imagination, some<strong>one</strong> stands right outside the B THRO M door,<br />
impatiently awaiting a turn.<br />
Soon however, in keeping with Nature and Bernoulli’s<br />
Principle, Roy’s bladder finally pushes fluid through his<br />
urethra—first a dribble, then a drip, then a jolly stream.<br />
His stream displaces the toilet water’s equilibrium position<br />
and creates sustained, violent oscillations of a complex<br />
mathematical nature. Roy, no less complex, pays the event scant<br />
attention. He is more focused on the self-gratification associated<br />
with the release of insistent internal pressures.<br />
Waste elimination being the second most gratifying of all<br />
human bodily functions.<br />
What he knows about the first most gratifying of all human<br />
bodily functions could fit nicely inside a thimble with plenty<br />
room left over for a tree. A very large tree.<br />
Roy zips up then turns to the sink to wash his hands.<br />
Lavese Las Manos Con Jabon Y Agua.<br />
Roy has no desire to become Typhoid Roy.<br />
Resting on the cast iron corner sink is a pruned lump of<br />
soap, its deep cracks black with dirt, its color slaty gray. From<br />
the deck of the sink sprout two taps, <strong>one</strong> hot <strong>one</strong> cold. Life can<br />
be that simple. The left, nominally hot, tap is in fact unable to<br />
achieve any degree of warmth greater than the ambient room<br />
temperature. The cold tap is only slightly more useful. At<br />
the bent tip of each spout, where water departs from its long,<br />
convoluted journey, lumpy, turquoise stalactites clot.<br />
Roy uses the pruned bar of soap to lather his hands in<br />
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accordance with the Lavese Las Manos signs posted throughout<br />
Seattle restrooms. He wonders if it matters that the lather is also<br />
as brown as the water that trickles past the turquoise clots.<br />
There being no paper towels in the paper towel dispenser, he<br />
dries his hands on his pants, then picks up his tape.<br />
Yes, his!<br />
He would like to study it in the friendly overhead light, but<br />
is afraid if he dawdles he may hear footsteps followed by an<br />
imperious knock, which would sound like the pounding of a<br />
sledge hammer to his sensitive ears.<br />
Roy yanks on the pull chain—an action he puts off to the very<br />
end—and the commode flushes. It is like firing off a cannon in<br />
a church. It is a noise so raucous as to shake the building to its<br />
roots. It is a blare to bedevil the dead. It is a hubbub to ruffle<br />
pigeon feathers, yea, even unto the sidewalk.<br />
Quickly now, having made such a noise, he unhooks the door<br />
and creaks it open. To his great relief, the hallway still stands<br />
empty, looking pretty much as it had the last time he saw it,<br />
perhaps a tad older, perhaps a touch more threadbare.<br />
He snicks the lightbulb back into a state of comfortable repose,<br />
then races along the hallway to his room.<br />
Easing the door closed behind him, he clunks its deadbolt<br />
home.<br />
It is lighter outside. The sun must be rising, or something.<br />
The clouds are infused with a pallid shimmer.<br />
Roy sits on his bed.<br />
squeak<br />
With a triumphal flourish, he drops the tape from its case<br />
into his hand. He is pleased to see what he holds is a 120 minute<br />
cassette.<br />
Again, he holds it up to the bare bulb, and squints through the<br />
cassette’s tiny window.<br />
60 minutes is an hour plus another 60 minutes equals two hours<br />
of tunes.<br />
Of course, there is a chance the tape might not contain two<br />
full hours of tunes. There may be only a half hour, and the rest<br />
blank. Or, it could be entirely blank and have been left at his<br />
door as a cruel joke.<br />
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There’s only <strong>one</strong> way to find out.<br />
He unhooks the Sony tape player from its honored place<br />
beneath his gut and peels back the duct tape so he can open its<br />
little door. He studies the tape again and wishes again—Roy<br />
and his wishes—that whoever had left it had labeled it as well.<br />
He inserts the tape into his Sony player.<br />
He closes the hatch and smoothes down the tape’s frayed<br />
edges, then covers his ears with his headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
All that’s left is to press PLAY.<br />
He closes his eyes.<br />
It occurs to him that he forgot to wash his face.<br />
But who wants to wash his face in brown water?<br />
What if this isn’t what he’s hoping it is? Then he will feel like<br />
he did as a kid on all those Christmas mornings when Santa<br />
didn’t bring him anything because he hadn’t been good enough.<br />
Boy, is he ever glad his kid years are over.<br />
He presses PLAY.<br />
click<br />
Nothing happens for a little while, as the ferromagnetic tape<br />
winds its way through the machine—much the way ferrous<br />
water winds its way through the building—threads through the<br />
capstan and pinch rollers, then across the electromagnetic heads<br />
at approximately 1.875 inches per second.<br />
And this is what Roy hears: static.<br />
White noise.<br />
Then comes a bump.<br />
Then comes The Music.<br />
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The Old Cowboy looked down<br />
on the town from a high ridge, his roan knee-deep in sunburned grama grass.<br />
From his warbags he withdrew his battered Busch binoculars—what<br />
was left to remind him of the war in Cuba he never fought—and through<br />
them studied the treeless town, its weatherbeaten, clapboard buildings, the<br />
streets besat by wagons, buckboards and gigs, the womenfolk in swishing<br />
skirts passing along the boardwalks, checked-cloth covered baskets dangling<br />
from bent arms, flowered bonnets bowtied beneath their chins.<br />
At the far end of town a white church spiral scratched the sky’s blue belly.<br />
Telegraph poles studded the length of Main street,<br />
Along the backside of town ran the railroad track, its iron ribbons<br />
stretching off to the horizon, beckoning the adventuresome.<br />
It had taken over a year to get here, what with <strong>one</strong> thing or another.<br />
Unlike the other cowhands, he left the herd the day after they hit Abeline.<br />
He wasn’t interested in staying around for the rip-roaring and the hoe-dig<br />
with the Calico Queens and the painted Cats, or dowsing himself with fifty<br />
cent whisky that left a man blind, broke and unbalanced.<br />
I’ve finished the drive and drawn my m<strong>one</strong>y,<br />
Goin’ into town to see my h<strong>one</strong>y—<br />
Instead, he had drifted on, had lit out and headed south.<br />
He was used to this sort of travel, rocking along in his saddle<br />
unaccompanied by other men’s voices, sleeping on the ground—a Tuscon<br />
bed—always headed for the next horizon with only the dust-muffled beat of<br />
horse hooves for company. Most of his life had been lived that way, trailing<br />
herds across the West. A veteran of the Shawnee and Chisholm Trails,<br />
he’d ridden from Texas to Missouri, and on into Kansas. The Goodnight-<br />
Loving Trail had taken him through New Mexico. The Bozeman Trail had<br />
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ended him up in Wyoming and Montana. He had ridden from Bandera<br />
to Sedalia, from Ogallala to Deadwood, from Fort Laramie to Dodge more<br />
times than he could reckon.<br />
And all along the way, at every flea-bitten waterhole, in every cantina,<br />
saloon and honky-tonk, in every livery stable and bunk house, he had asked<br />
the same question—had any<strong>one</strong> ever seen a man looked like him only with a<br />
broken nose, scar under his left eye, and muttonchop whiskers?<br />
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ROY STANDS BEFORE<br />
28/RR, right hand poised to knock, his Sony tape player turned<br />
off.<br />
It’s been a wonderful day.<br />
A day unlike any other.<br />
It’s not every day he gets eighty-sixed from two stores.<br />
He is filled with courage and aflame with confidence.<br />
He is no longer Window Washer Roy, or Brother of Rick the<br />
Asshole Roy.<br />
He may not be exactly sure of who or what he has become,<br />
but he knows that he’s a changed man, an altered version of the<br />
Before Roy.<br />
The fact he’s about to knock on 28/RR proves it.<br />
But what’s brought him to such an uncharacteristic place?<br />
What’s prompted such feelings of bravado?<br />
It all began after he pressed PLAY.<br />
click<br />
Nothing happens for a little while, as the ferromagnetic tape<br />
winds its way through the machine—much the way ferrous<br />
water winds its way through the building—threads through the<br />
capstan and pinch rollers, then across the electromagnetic heads<br />
at approximately 1.875 inches per second.<br />
And this is what Roy hears: static.<br />
White noise.<br />
Then comes a bump.<br />
And then, after the bump, when his expectations are at fever<br />
pitch, when he is holding his breath, unsure what to expect, there<br />
comes a mournful whistling.<br />
A tenor voice sings.<br />
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Shades of night are falling<br />
As the wind begins to sigh<br />
And the world’ s silhouetted against the sky—<br />
A guitar is strummed, and the haunting whistling resumes.<br />
Roy’s face is fixed with fierce concentration. Never in his<br />
entire life, in his whole miserable existence, has he ever heard<br />
anything so beautiful, so compelling.<br />
So satisfying.<br />
Then, after another pause, he finally hears it—the same<br />
sound he heard the night he stood out in the hall, helix of his ear<br />
touching the door of 28/RR—the sweet sounds of mens’ voices<br />
singing in harmony:<br />
Bluuuuue shadows on the Trail<br />
Blue moon shinin’ through the trees.<br />
And a plaintiff wail from the distance<br />
Comes a driftin’ on the evenin’ breeze—<br />
For the first time, Roy experiences something music has never<br />
given him before.<br />
Chills.<br />
The dilapidated building he sits within on a stained and<br />
smelly mattress begins to lose its substance and anchor in reality;<br />
haunting childhood memories fog; Rick’s sick words lose their<br />
sting; from somewhere a warm wind laves his face, smoothes his<br />
rumpled brow and tugs the corners of his mouth into a smile.<br />
Move along, Blue Shadows, move along<br />
Soon the dawn will come and you’ll be on your way<br />
But until the darkness sheds its veil<br />
There’ll be Blue Shadows on the Trail—<br />
Outside, the rain has lost its punch. With an almost audible<br />
sigh it wanders off to bully and bruise other neighborhoods.<br />
A long-muffled sun stiffens its resolve and glares down upon<br />
Seattle with unconvincing determination.<br />
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Doughy clouds thicken with light. Moist pigeons dance jigs on<br />
the sidewalk.<br />
But Roy sees n<strong>one</strong> of this. His eyes are closed and his ears<br />
strain for the slightest nuance and subtlety in a song that invades<br />
his soul like a new form of hunger—:<br />
Move along, Blue Shadows, move along<br />
Soon the dawn will come and you’ll be on your way<br />
But until the darkness sheds its veil<br />
There’ll be Blue Shadows on the Trail—<br />
Shadows on the Trail.<br />
The sweetest sound he has ever heard fades away, replaced by<br />
mournful whistling.<br />
The swaying hammock of Roy’s smile slips into an O of<br />
wonder.<br />
As many times as he has been known to listen to a tape, he<br />
knows for a certainty that this <strong>one</strong> will be listened to many times<br />
more.<br />
And this strikes him as funny, since the music he is listening<br />
to is unlike anything he could ever have imagined listening to,<br />
much less enjoying.<br />
Enjoying?<br />
That’s not the right word.<br />
He enjoys double-tall Americanos.<br />
He enjoys using bus transfers to see how long he can ride.<br />
No. This experience goes far beyond mere enjoyment.<br />
This music awakens. It conjures new feelings. It stimulates like<br />
the sun, purges like the rain. It dismisses doubt. It ascends his<br />
spine like an eagle climbing the sky. It thaws. It administers an<br />
antidote. It cuddles like a mother-warmed blanket. It reaches<br />
out a hand to a long-forgotten friend.<br />
It doesn’t confront.<br />
There is no challenge.<br />
Nor is there need to study in order to understand.<br />
It simply is.<br />
What would have happened had he not hatched his simple<br />
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plan? Had he not followed it through? Had he not braved the<br />
confrontation with Mel and Rick?<br />
This is what: nothing.<br />
His life would not have changed.<br />
This morning would have been like any other, tomorrow not<br />
much different from today.<br />
Roy has made a decision that rocked his world.<br />
And this is why he stands before 28/RR, right hand poised to<br />
knock.<br />
It has been a wonderful day.<br />
A day unlike any other.<br />
It’s not every day he gets eighty-sixed from two stores.<br />
He’s filled with courage and aflame with confidence.<br />
He is no longer Window Washer Roy, or Brother of Rick the<br />
Asshole Roy.<br />
And it’s not because the rain stopped—briefly—or because<br />
the sun came out—also briefly—or that a blue he wished he<br />
knew the name of was unveiled.<br />
Or because of what that skinny, black man—Workneh—said.<br />
He may not be exactly sure of who or what he has become,<br />
but he knows that he’s a changed man, an altered version of the<br />
Before Roy.<br />
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And here’s how it happened…<br />
FLABBY, FISSURED<br />
Roy Weston stands at the top of his building’s steps.<br />
His earph<strong>one</strong>s are clapped to his ears, ready for tunes.<br />
His empty bladder lurks in his abdomen, ready for double-tall<br />
Americanos.<br />
His adenosine receptors, pituitary gland, brain and liver are<br />
ready! ready! ready! for C 8 H 10 N 4 O 2.<br />
The sun has muscled aside a stubborn sky, fractured its slate<br />
grayness and filled in the cracks with cerulean.<br />
But Roy barely notices this; does not, in fact, know the<br />
meaning of the word cerulean.<br />
He is in a different space, is Roy, as he descends the rainwashed<br />
steps, a strip of magnetized tape unspooling on his belt.<br />
As I was out walking <strong>one</strong> morning for pleasure<br />
I spied a cowpuncher riding along<br />
His hat was throwed back and his spurs were a-jingling<br />
And as he approached he was singing this song—<br />
Trucks roar past as Roy walks down the sidewalk, a beam<br />
of bright sunlight gracing his head. He moves along quickly<br />
and kicks at some pigeons, then steps off the sidewalk before the<br />
light’s red.<br />
Whoopee-ti-yo, git along little doggies<br />
It’s your misfortune and n<strong>one</strong> of my own<br />
Whoopee-ti-yi-yo, git along little doggies<br />
You know that Wyoming will be your new home—<br />
Roy enters the Café across from his building, its windows<br />
fresh-washed by the night’s thunderin’ rain. He steps to the<br />
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counter and smiles at the waitress as she tries real hard to<br />
remember his name.<br />
Early in the springtime we round up the doggies<br />
Mark ’em and brand ’em and bob off their tails<br />
Round up the horses, load up the chuck wagon<br />
Then throw the little dogies out on the long trail—<br />
Roy thanks her and leaves her a tip worth rememberin’, he<br />
walks out the door and back into light. The pigeons all scurry<br />
when they see him comin’, there’s something about him that just<br />
don’t seem right.<br />
Whoopee-ti-yi-yo, git along little doggies<br />
It’s your misfortune and n<strong>one</strong> of my own<br />
Whoopee-ti-yi-yo, git along little doggies<br />
You know that Wyoming will be your new home—<br />
Roy walks along smilin’, his hand grips his coffee, his knees<br />
feel like new and his brain is a-swirl. He passes by people and<br />
tips them his greetin’, he actually smiles at a beautiful girl.<br />
Night comes on and we’ll hold ’em on the bedground<br />
The same little doggies that rolled on so slow<br />
We roll up the herd and cut out the stray <strong>one</strong>s<br />
Then roll the little doggies like never before—<br />
Roy sashays on downtown with no cares a-showin’, he smiles<br />
as he listens and sways as he moves. The people who pass him<br />
all look gray and broken, n<strong>one</strong> of them like him and no <strong>one</strong><br />
approves.<br />
Some boys go up the long trail for pleasure<br />
But that’s where they get it most awfully wrong<br />
For you’ll never know the trouble they give us<br />
As we go drivin’ them doggies along—<br />
The sign that hangs there bright in the morning, it calls out to<br />
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him and it uses his name. He places his hand on the cold shining<br />
metal, then pushes inside to a world g<strong>one</strong> insane.<br />
Whoopee-ti-yi-yo, git along little doggies<br />
It’s your misfortune and n<strong>one</strong> of my own<br />
Whoopee-ti-yi-yo, git along little doggies<br />
You know that Wyoming will be your new home<br />
You know that Wyoming will be your new ho-o-o-ome—<br />
click<br />
The brass bells ting-a-ling ting-a-ling unheard above Roy’s<br />
insouciant head.<br />
ting-a-ling ting-a-ling<br />
He stands inside the Wailing Wall and for the first time ever<br />
feels out of place.<br />
Today the man behind the counter—the <strong>one</strong> with the long,<br />
black curly hair dipped in peroxide—wears a black tee-shirt that<br />
has this printed in large, white letters: ROCK HARD.<br />
This is the tee-shirt Roy wishes the guy would not wear<br />
because it’s the name of <strong>one</strong> of Suzie Quattro’s best albums,<br />
released in 1981.<br />
The guy behind the counter isn’t pissed off today. He seems<br />
to be at peace with himself, grooving on the headbanging tunes<br />
that throb from ceiling-hung speakers, vibrate concrete walls,<br />
thump up into Roy’s feet, knees and thighs, and shakes his liver<br />
and adrenals as they work to make him happy.<br />
Roy is not here today to buy. Roy is not here today to look.<br />
Roy is here today to talk to the guy behind the counter.<br />
That’s right. Talk.<br />
To the guy behind the counter.<br />
The guy behind the counter busies himself, flipping through<br />
a cardboard box of LPs. The same guy who, last time Roy<br />
saw him, was screaming into the tiny holes of his teleph<strong>one</strong>’s<br />
mouthpiece, using words he, Roy, was glad he hadn’t heard.<br />
This is the same guy Roy wants to talk to now.<br />
Roy figures he has a rapport with him because he has spent so<br />
much time, if so little m<strong>one</strong>y, here. Hasn’t he burrowed deeply<br />
into the Wailing Wall’s collection, almost to the point where he<br />
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knows the entire inventory? That had required hours and hours<br />
taken away from his life. Hours he could have spent pursuing<br />
other things, like Carrom or juggling, or Jai Lai. Instead, he<br />
chose to burrow into the inventory of the Wailing Wall.<br />
That should count for something.<br />
The small music store is empty, except for them. This is not<br />
unusual during the day when the freaks are still in bed groaning<br />
from the various drugs they have run through their systems for so<br />
many years.<br />
Roy nears the apocalyptic counter covered with crude,<br />
graphic sexual acts.<br />
The guy flips through the cardboard box of LPs. Every<br />
now and then he selects <strong>one</strong>, scans its cover, then sets it aside on<br />
another part of the counter where several other canted stacks<br />
rise.<br />
Roy is concerned about two things. For <strong>one</strong>, he is not certain<br />
how to get the guy’s attention since the guy is not looking his way,<br />
and since the music is turned up so loud. It is turned up so loud<br />
that Roy doubts the guy would hear him if he let loose a shotgun<br />
blast.<br />
His second concern stems directly from his first. Assuming he<br />
does manage to get the guy’s attention, how will be hear a word<br />
he says?<br />
Roy hates to shout, loathes raising his voice. His brother Rick<br />
always shouts and yells and farts out loud. Roy would not like to<br />
be mistaken for his brother. He figures that people who (and who<br />
wouldn’t?) find his brother objectionable must also judge Roy just<br />
as objectionable, simply by association.<br />
Maybe that’s why Santa never left anything for Christmas.<br />
There is a word, among many, that Roy doesn’t know:<br />
propinquity.<br />
Propinquity is <strong>one</strong> of the main factors that lead to<br />
interpersonal attraction as described by British philosopher,<br />
Jeremy Bentham (1748-1832). The Propinquity Effect is the<br />
tendency for people to form relationships of many kinds based<br />
on the frequency with which they encounter each other. For<br />
example, tenants in an apartment building who share the same<br />
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stair are more likely to become friends that those living on<br />
different floors.<br />
Another word Roy doesn’t know that also relates to his<br />
current situation, is proxemics.<br />
Proxemics is a term introduced into the world back in 1963<br />
when Edward Hall was investigating people’s use of personal<br />
space.<br />
Being a scientist, and therefore fond of categorizing, Dr.<br />
Hall broke down the concept of personal space into four basic<br />
types. The first type he called intimate distance, for embracing or<br />
whispering (6 to 8 inches). The second type he named personal<br />
distance, for conversations among good friends (1.5 to 4 feet). The<br />
third type he referred to as social distance, for conversations among<br />
acquaintances (4 to 12 feet). And, finally, he distinguished a type<br />
of personal space he called public distance, that referred to public<br />
speaking (12 feet and over).<br />
If Roy knew any of this he would also know his choice of<br />
proxemic space with the guy behind the counter (based on the<br />
music’s <strong>volume</strong>) is limited to intimate distance.<br />
Despite his dislike of propinquity with his brother or of<br />
sharing proxemic space with strangers, Roy is feeling pretty<br />
good right now. It’s the music that’s responsible for this feeling<br />
of euphoria, the music on the tape he wants to know more about.<br />
His curiosity about the music is what has brought him to the<br />
Wailing Wall today. He needs to know the name of the group<br />
who created such wondrous, harmonious songs.<br />
He figures the guy behind the counter surely must know.<br />
After all, he’s probably an expert on all things musical, what<br />
with working in a music store, and all. Roy imagines he must<br />
have worked in lots of other music stores in his life before he<br />
limited himself to the crushing brainbeating tunes he specializes<br />
in now.<br />
Roy continues his approach to the counter. The guy behind<br />
the counter continues to flip and stack. The rising stacks of LPs<br />
continue to canter.<br />
Strangely, Roy is not nervous. He does not dread the<br />
forthcoming interaction <strong>one</strong> little bit. And the reason for this<br />
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is simple: he is excited that he is about to satisfy his burning<br />
curiosity. When he knows the name of the guys singing on the<br />
tape, then he can go looking for some more of their music. There<br />
must be plenty more out there somewhere.<br />
But first he has to know their name.<br />
Roy achieves the first part of his goal—he reaches the counter.<br />
The second part of his goal, talking to the guy behind the<br />
counter, seems a bit more elusive.<br />
Roy clears his throat.<br />
He removes his headph<strong>one</strong>s, since he is not listening to the<br />
tape anymore, and clears his throat again, this time louder.<br />
The guy behind the counter pulls out an album from the<br />
cardboard box and scans it before turning it over and studying its<br />
sleeve.<br />
Roy coughs.<br />
The guy continues scanning.<br />
Roy coughs again, this time louder.<br />
The guy scans again, this time harder.<br />
Does the scanning guy know Roy is standing there, coughing<br />
and clearing his throat, but just doesn’t care, is ignoring him on<br />
purpose?<br />
Isn’t there supposed to be a little bell or something on the<br />
counter to ring for service?<br />
Roy doesn’t know how unwanted bells are in this Devil’s Din<br />
music store.<br />
“Hey!”<br />
This monosyllable is unleashed by Roy.<br />
The guy, choosing to keep the album he has selected and so<br />
arduously scanned, drops it on top of <strong>one</strong> of the two cantering<br />
towers of LPs.<br />
“Excuse me?”<br />
Roy has doubled his chances by doubling his syllables. But,<br />
apparently they are not spoken loud enough. He tries again, this<br />
time louder.<br />
“EXCUSE ME!”<br />
So caught up is he in this phase of his undertaking—the<br />
part that requires getting the guy’s attention—that Roy is quite<br />
unprepared for what to do when he succeeds, which he now does.<br />
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The guy turns and glares.<br />
And, for the first time, Roy notices his face.<br />
He looks a lot like the late Frank Zappa, who had a musical<br />
group called Mothers of Invention, and who was a cool dude<br />
who even conducted symphonies, but who never got regular,<br />
professional checkups of his male parts.<br />
Frank may be pushing up daisies, but his music and mustache<br />
live on.<br />
The Zappa lookalike continues to glare at Roy.<br />
Roy, who would look like a doofus even if Oprah gave him a<br />
makeover.<br />
Glaring Guy’s lips move.<br />
Roy can’t hear a word.<br />
Glaring Guy’s lips move again.<br />
He watches hatefully as Roy’s lips move.<br />
Glaring Guy assumes he must have asked some dumb-ass<br />
question.<br />
The worst part of his job is dealing with the fucks who come<br />
in and ask dumb-ass questions. If it was him, he would keep the<br />
door locked and barred and welded shut, but the owner would<br />
freak and who the fuck else would hire him to sit around all day<br />
listening to music while augmenting his personal LP collection<br />
without paying a dime?<br />
Doofus is moving his lips again.<br />
Glaring Guy is not the least bit curious about what the doofus<br />
is saying. In fact, he wishes he would evaporate. But word might<br />
get back to the owner, so he reaches under the counter where sits<br />
a big, black 126 pound AT3000 seven-channel amp with 2,100<br />
watts of power—enough to stop charging gorillas in their tracks<br />
and demolecularize kangaroos—and drops out the <strong>volume</strong>.<br />
There is the story of a man who grew up next to Niagara<br />
Falls. Never once in his life did he notice the roar of those<br />
billions of tons of falling water. Then, <strong>one</strong> day, he moved away.<br />
And went insane.<br />
Roy has heard this story, but never understood until now.<br />
Now he can imagine the cold sweats that man must have<br />
endured as he went insane without his friendly childhood roar.<br />
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The quiet in the Wailing Wall is deafening.<br />
Roy has been coming here for years and never imagined there<br />
was a time when the music was actually turned off.<br />
He is caught off-guard by Glaring Guy’s decision to drop out<br />
the <strong>volume</strong>, and is shouting when he does so:<br />
“—COULD YOU PLEASE HELP—me?”<br />
Glaring Guy hardens his glare.<br />
No, as a matter of fact, he does not want to help Roy.<br />
Nor would he want to help Suzie Quattro, if she came in the<br />
store.<br />
And he would probably tell Frank Zappa—were he not<br />
already a shade in Hades’ realm—to fuck off and die.<br />
That’s how hard he hardens his glare at Roy.<br />
Roy can only smile back, since he is not good at glaring.<br />
That’s Rick the Asshole’s job.<br />
It appears, with the altered circumstances, that social distance (4<br />
to 12 feet) ought to do the trick.<br />
“—help me with. This. Could you, please?”<br />
He has d<strong>one</strong> better, but Glaring Guy’s glare is distracting.<br />
Roy removes his headph<strong>one</strong>s and presents them to Glaring<br />
Guy, who reacts to them as if they are dripping HIV virus.<br />
“What’s your fuckin’ problem, asshole?”<br />
Roy’s smile muscles are woefully out of shape. He really<br />
ought to use them more often. They collapse into an exhausted<br />
heap.<br />
“Could. Could you...listen? I don’t know who this is.”<br />
The Glaring Guy doesn’t move.<br />
Roy suddenly recalls another <strong>one</strong> of Glaring Guy’s black<br />
tee-shirts that asks, in big, white letters: DO I LOOK LIKE A<br />
FUCK<strong>IN</strong>G PEOPLE PERSON?<br />
“I look like a fuckin teacher to you?”<br />
The way Glaring Guy says “teacher” makes it seem like about<br />
the worst thing a person could be.<br />
“No, no. I just. You. You must know a lot about music and<br />
all, and I just thought—”<br />
Roy falters. In fact, trails off.<br />
Glaring Guy tweaks with his glare while remembering<br />
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something that vaguely haunts him from time-to-time, something<br />
depressing and foreboding like death or cancer, and that thing<br />
is that this is not his store nor his personal business, but that he<br />
is in fact an employee and receives in fact a compensation for<br />
being such in the weekly issuance of a handwritten check—a<br />
check that, handwritten or not and always on time, in his opinion<br />
undervalues his lifelong, monomanical obsession with LPs. With<br />
the realization of his status settling as if a shroud upon his head,<br />
as if ashes in his hair, reluctantly he stands.<br />
His long, skinny, black-clad legs deliver him to Roy, who<br />
offers his HIV-dripping headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
Glaring Guy ignores them.<br />
“Gimme the fuckin’ tape.”<br />
Roy springs into action and snaps the Sony tape player off his<br />
belt, quickly unpeeling the raggedy duct tape.<br />
Disgust, Revulsion and Loathing elbow each other for top<br />
billing on Glaring Guy’s face.<br />
In order for Roy to open his player, he has dropped his<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s onto the countertop cluttered with graphic sexual<br />
acts. Glaring Guy has concerns about those headph<strong>one</strong>s—<br />
devices long intimate with Roy’s head—and wonders if, in the<br />
back room somewhere, there’s some kind of disinfectant he could<br />
use after the stupid doofus leaves.<br />
Roy presents him with the tape.<br />
His face is pink from the exertion and his bald dome gleams.<br />
Glaring Guy takes the tape, pinching it between his right<br />
hand’s forefinger and thumb like it was dog-doo, and stares at it<br />
as if he’s never seen a cassette tape before in his life.<br />
Indeed, magnetic tape storage may be a technology Glaring<br />
Guy despises. Roy knows there are people like that.<br />
Glaring Guy carries his specimen of dog doo to where the<br />
amp rests under the counter. Sitting beside it is a Phase Linear<br />
7000 cassette deck tape player—38 pounds of brushed stainless<br />
steel.<br />
He presses on the front cover and it springs open to reveal<br />
knobs and buttons. He inserts the dog-doo into <strong>one</strong> of the<br />
machine’s docks and presses a button.<br />
Red and green LED lights wink on.<br />
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He clicks around a few knobs on a black box, then turns his<br />
attention to the 2,100 watt amp.<br />
He slowly rolls the <strong>volume</strong> up.<br />
The big EV speakers that hang from the ceiling on thick<br />
chains are so accustomed to being used as funnels for tunes that<br />
roar that they don’t know what to do with the upbeat, sweet<br />
sounds that now tease and flutter their c<strong>one</strong>s:<br />
He always sings<br />
raggedy music to the cattle<br />
As he swings<br />
back and forward in the saddle<br />
On a horse<br />
that is syncopated, gaited,<br />
And there’s such a funny meter to the roar of his repeater<br />
How they run<br />
when they hear the fellow’s gun<br />
Because the Western folk all know<br />
He’s a high-falutin’, rootin’ tootin’<br />
Son-of-a-gun from Arizona<br />
Ragtime Cowboy Joe!<br />
Still bent over, adjusting the <strong>volume</strong> control knob—long,<br />
thick, black, curly, peroxide-tipped hair raining down—Glaring<br />
Guy freezes.<br />
Out in Arizona<br />
where the bad men are<br />
The only thing to guide you is an Evening star<br />
the roughest,<br />
Toughest<br />
man by far<br />
Is Ragtime Cowboy—<br />
Glaring Guy unfreezes. He slaps at the Phase Linear 7000<br />
controls until the machine’s red and green LED lights wink out.<br />
“Fuck!”<br />
Glaring Guy appears to be trembling. Roy suspects he is<br />
trembling with rage, although this suspicion confuses him since<br />
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the song had sounded so much nicer on the big speakers than in<br />
his tiny 8 ohm headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
“Asshole!”<br />
Glaring Guy wrenches the tape out of the 38 pounds of<br />
brushed stainless steel and hurls it at Roy. No longer glaring, his<br />
his face is contorted with rage.<br />
“You—You godamned FREAK!”<br />
The hurled tape hits Roy in the chest. Roy’s hands spring to<br />
his defense, grabbing the tape before it falls and possibly breaks<br />
on the concrete floor.<br />
“Get the fuck out’ve here!”<br />
Roy backs away.<br />
Glaring Guy is speaking loud enough now for public distance (12<br />
feet and over).<br />
“Take that hairy-assed Lawrence Welk shit outta here<br />
and don’t you EVER come back—you hear me you you sick<br />
motherfuckinsonofabitch!”<br />
Roy clutches his tape to his chest and backs away from the<br />
counter quickly, headph<strong>one</strong>s dragging on the floor.<br />
“And get your fuckin’ headph<strong>one</strong>s off my clean floor!”<br />
Roy’s back encounters the front door’s panic bar.<br />
Glaring Guy, with whom Roy had once felt some sense of<br />
rapport, has taken his glare to new heights.<br />
Roy reels in his headph<strong>one</strong>s as he backs through the door.<br />
ting-a-ling ting-a-ling<br />
Since no braincrushing music is being played inside the<br />
Wailing Wall, and since he is not listening to really, really loud<br />
droogy shit on his headph<strong>one</strong>s, Roy hears the little brass bells for<br />
the very first time.<br />
ting-a-ling<br />
He had never even known they were there, having passed<br />
insouciant beneath them for years.<br />
ting-a-ling ting-a-ling-a-ling<br />
Even the guy with the catastrophic glare notices them, also<br />
perhaps for the very first time.<br />
The front door shuts, assisted by its hydraulic closer, and Roy<br />
backs out into the cold day.<br />
ting-a-ling-a-ling-a-ling<br />
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Smoke starts to pour out from under the counter where rests<br />
the very heavy, very black, very expensive AT3000.<br />
The darkened space beneath the counter is illuminated by<br />
flickering, tangerine flames.<br />
Roy reaffixes his headph<strong>one</strong>s while watching Glaring Guy<br />
leap about, thin arms flailing, his tangled mane whipping, no<br />
doubt shrieking hateful words.<br />
Thankfully, Roy can’t hear them.<br />
Flames curl long, hungry fingers from under the countertop.<br />
Roy turns and walks away.<br />
He has just been eighty-sixed from his favorite music store.<br />
His life is undergoing drastic and unexpected revision.<br />
He clips the Sony tape player back where it belongs—it feels<br />
odd when it’s not there—and presses PLAY.<br />
—Joe.<br />
He got his name from singin’ to<br />
the cows and sheep<br />
Every night they say he sings the herd to sleep<br />
in a bass voice rich and deep<br />
Croonin’ soft and looooow—<br />
He always sings<br />
raggedy music to the cattle<br />
As he swings<br />
back and forward in the saddle<br />
On a horse<br />
that is syncopated, gaited,<br />
And there’s such a funny meter to the roar of his repeater<br />
How they run<br />
when they hear the fellow’s gun<br />
Because the Western folk all know<br />
He’s a high-falutin’, rootin’ tootin’<br />
Son-of-a-gun from Arizona<br />
Ragtime Cowboy Joe!<br />
So engaged in the music does he become that Roy fails to<br />
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notice what every<strong>one</strong> else on the sidewalk stops to gawk at—a<br />
crimson fire engine grunting up the hill, driver leaning on its<br />
horn, dome lights spinning, chuffing particles of grit and clouds<br />
of diesel fumes.<br />
He joins a group of pedestrians waiting at the corner. As<br />
if sunflowers in fast forward, their bobbing heads follow the<br />
flashing lights.<br />
The electric sign across from them utilizes a complicated<br />
algorithm programmed into it long ago by Mr. Jack D. Mueller<br />
of Fargo, North Dakota, and determines it is safe for humans to<br />
cross.<br />
The sign changes from red to white.<br />
Roy’s earph<strong>one</strong>d baldness floats high above the crossing<br />
crowd.<br />
Mid-way through the intersection he stops to twiddle with his<br />
player. Those who shuffle along behind—their minds slipped<br />
into the city dweller’s theta state—glower at this big, apparently<br />
retarded man who blocks their passage and requires their sudden<br />
reengagement with the world. Fuming, they hurry around him<br />
like water around a snare.<br />
Roy, oblivious, cranks up his tunes.<br />
Wildcat Kelly<br />
Looking mighty pale<br />
Was standing by the sheriff’s side<br />
And when the sheriff said,<br />
“I’m sending you to jail,”<br />
Wildcat raised his head and cried—<br />
Oh give me land, lots of land under starry skies above<br />
Don’t fence me in<br />
Let me ride through the<br />
Wide<br />
Open country that I love<br />
Don’t fence me in<br />
Let me be by myself in the evening breeze<br />
Listen to the murmur of the cottonwood trees<br />
Send me off forever<br />
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But I ask you please<br />
Don’t fence me in—<br />
He is helpless to prevent the escape of a satisfied sigh, to keep<br />
from denting his face with a smile.<br />
As the world around him bustles—asleep at the wheel,<br />
pursuing its Yuppie Scum dreams—he, Roy Weston, long-time<br />
resident of Seattle, standing at the intersection of Seventh and<br />
Pine on a November afternoon, a day it isn’t raining, finds<br />
himself transported to another realm and in a flash realizes he<br />
is not <strong>one</strong> of them—the sheep, the cattle, the herd—those who<br />
shuffle obediently off to slaughter.<br />
No. Roy is a different sort of man.<br />
Roy is—well. Roy is a cowboy.<br />
Just turn me loose<br />
Let me straddle my old saddle underneath the western skies<br />
On my cayuse<br />
Let me wander over yonder ’til I see the mountains rise<br />
I<br />
Want to ride to the ridge where the<br />
West commences<br />
Gaze at the moon until I lose my senses<br />
I can’t look at hobbles and I can’t stand fences<br />
Don’t fence me in!<br />
click<br />
His feet have delivered him to a logical destination.<br />
He stands before a swank edifice.<br />
Craning back his head, his watery blues fill with giant, red<br />
letters:<br />
BARNES & NOBLE<br />
His smile muscles take a breather.<br />
Loungers by nature, they appreciate the rest.<br />
Suddenly, the street stands empty—it’s just Roy and the<br />
renovated building.<br />
Shadows lengthen.<br />
A chill wind kicks up.<br />
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A tumbleweed tumbles weedily.<br />
Off in the distance, a vulture squawks.<br />
Roy, the l<strong>one</strong> sheriff, stands tall against a holed-up gang of<br />
bloodthirsty, motherless murderers.<br />
If he goes inside the Yuppie Scum bookstore, he may never<br />
come out again.<br />
But he has no choice.<br />
The guy at the Wailing Wall has eighty-sixed him. Where<br />
else is he to turn? If any<strong>one</strong> will know who’s singing on his tape,<br />
it will definitely be the politically correct Straights who work<br />
here, at Barnes & Noble.<br />
He takes a deep breath.<br />
Roy has never been inside a Barnes & Nobel before, nor<br />
has he ever hoped to set foot inside that vast citadel of crass<br />
consumerism, that devourer of neighborhood bookstores, that<br />
supermarket of mediocrity.<br />
Although he did panhandle in front of <strong>one</strong> once. As with<br />
Starbucks, the undertaking had not met with success. He<br />
had been firmly requested to leave, to desist, to disappear, to<br />
vamoose—his existence had not been desired. That had been<br />
OK by Roy. Unlike with Starbucks, the customers at Barnes<br />
& Noble had been just as chinchy coming out—clutching their<br />
plastic bags of trendy reads—as they had been going in.<br />
Books were a different kind of addiction from coffee, Roy<br />
figured, and attracted a different, cheaper, kind of crowd.<br />
Now, here he stands. Faced with the possibility of actually<br />
going inside a Barnes & Nobel.<br />
Into the behemoth bookstore, then. Into the Valley of the<br />
Shadow of One World Government, then. Into the Land of<br />
UPC codes and ISBNs, then. Into the mart of microchips, then.<br />
Into the campus of camera monitoring, then. Into the realm of<br />
robots disguised as human beings, then.<br />
The gauntlet lies, tossed before him.<br />
Roy stares hard at his foe, wishing he could glare.<br />
Roy and his wishes.<br />
He removes his headph<strong>one</strong>s. They curl like content kittens<br />
around his neck.<br />
Another tumbleweed tumbles.<br />
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Another vulture vultches.<br />
He takes a deep, cleansing breath, squares his shoulders,<br />
and puts his right foot forward, resulting in the following set<br />
of consequences: (a) his right foot trips a clean cut, leather-clad<br />
gent who has a teleph<strong>one</strong> headset hanging from <strong>one</strong> ear and is<br />
engaged in a frank, sexually-explicit discussion with some<strong>one</strong><br />
many miles away; (b) while retreating from this mishap, Roy’s<br />
backside is introduced to the front tire of a bike ridden by <strong>one</strong><br />
of the many Bike Messengers who careen along Seattle’s busy<br />
sidewalks and, as a result, is (c) propelled headlong into the<br />
door—his original destination—albeit, with far too much force<br />
and just (d) at the precise moment when an extremely overweight<br />
woman in brilliant green tights beneath a rust-colored poncho is<br />
exiting, arms piled with books.<br />
These sorts of things do not happen when Roy is listening to<br />
his tunes.<br />
He collides with the garish woman. For a long moment,<br />
Roy— temporarily blinded by the acrid off-gassing of her<br />
perfume—gropes empty space, in search of a handhold. One<br />
of these groping hands unintentionally lands upon the woman’s<br />
expansive bosom, while the other comes to rest upon her<br />
extensive bottom.<br />
The garish woman shrieks.<br />
Her books—in accordance with Nature’s Laws—thud to the<br />
earth and scatter.<br />
From inside the building, Straights appear—both male<br />
and female versions—nametags blurred by the speed at which<br />
they travel, faces graven with the Corporate-inculcated fear of<br />
litigation.<br />
Several pairs of helping hands appear from several places at<br />
once. While some scrape books off the ground (the ten-second<br />
rule applies to new merchandise, as well as to food), others scrape<br />
Roy’s hands off the woman.<br />
Since it is she who has just spent tons of m<strong>one</strong>y in the store,<br />
and since it is she who has been so inappropriately groped, then<br />
it is she who is the central focus of their concern.<br />
The name-tagged employees size up Roy in a blink—they are<br />
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taught to do this at the secret Barnes & Nobel school somewhere<br />
deep beneath the Mohave desert—as a wretched, pitiable excuse<br />
of a Consumer, and is given short shrift.<br />
Meanwhile, Roy is rubbing his stinging eyes, eyes that are<br />
now red-rimmed and tearing. What is that she’s wearing, Mace?<br />
Roy has heard about women who are cop freaks, that they will<br />
go to any length to have sexual intercourse with them.<br />
But Mace?<br />
Roy is not really thinking these thoughts so much as these<br />
thoughts are intruding themselves into Roy’s mind. Indeed, he<br />
has much more important thoughts he ought to be thinking. For<br />
instance, he ought to be thinking about what is he going to say to<br />
the old, bearded, name-tagged guy who now stares at him, hands<br />
on hips, looking menacing.<br />
The old, bearded, name-tagged guy clears his throat.<br />
“So—what’s going on here?”<br />
He looks like he reads a lot.<br />
“Nothing. Nothing.”<br />
These words proceed from the mouth of Roy who, as if a little<br />
boy, knuckles his red-rimmed eyes.<br />
The old, bearded, name-tagged guy redoubles his menace.<br />
“Are you st<strong>one</strong>d, sir? Are you on—crack?”<br />
“Wh-what?”<br />
The garish fat lady has stopped shrieking and is currently,<br />
besides emitting outraged gasps, otherwise occupied, there being<br />
a lot of work involved in the proper arrangement of her apparel.<br />
“That man!” She manages to sputter between outraged gasps.<br />
“He—groped me!”<br />
A look of revulsion appears on the faces of the name-tagged<br />
employees who, concluded with the business of reassembling the<br />
garish lady’s recently-purchased property, now cordon off Roy<br />
from the building.<br />
The garish lady lowers her voice into a fuming growl.<br />
“I demand to see the manager!”<br />
The old, bearded, name-tagged guy pats the air between<br />
himself and the garish <strong>one</strong>. He assumes a consolatory t<strong>one</strong>.<br />
“I’m the First Floor Day Manager, ma’am. My name’s Bob.<br />
Let me assure you that we here at Barnes & Noble work very<br />
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hard to keep this sort of thing—” his eyes flick to Roy, then back<br />
to the garish lady “—from happening. Unfortunately, there are<br />
chinks in our armor. John? Workneh? Would you please escort<br />
this person elsewhere—and make sure he stays away.”<br />
“Yes, Bob,” chorus John and Workneh.<br />
As they set about to fulfill Bob’s request he—Bob, the First<br />
Floor Day Manager—drops a middle-aged hand onto John’s<br />
shoulder, and leans close to him.<br />
“Be careful. I’m pretty sure he’s on Angel Dust.”<br />
Bob knows a thing or two about drugs. Before he was First<br />
Floor Day Manager at Barnes & Noble, he wanted to be a cop.<br />
He tried so many times to make it into cop school that they<br />
finally asked him to stop. Please stop trying, Bob. Please don’t<br />
come back. Please leave us al<strong>one</strong>. They no longer considered<br />
him a viable candidate. Turned out he had set a record in Cop<br />
School history for the most times any<strong>one</strong> had failed the entrance<br />
exam.<br />
For many months afterward, Bob was depressed and turned<br />
to drink for solace.<br />
And because he liked it.<br />
But, in the end, his rejection by the Seattle Police Department<br />
turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Sometimes he thinks<br />
maybe Workneh is right when he prattles on about God having<br />
a plan. After all, if he—Bob—had got into cop school, he would<br />
never have found his niche at Barnes & Noble. Bob is happy at<br />
Barnes & Noble. He has more power and respect here than he<br />
would ever have had as a cop.<br />
“Yes, sir!” John says this with a decisive nod, then shoots a<br />
hard look at Roy.<br />
John—a rangy Caucasian and former Mormon from<br />
Wisconsin who has come to the Emerald City to study Law and<br />
pursue his newly-chosen sexual identity—and Workneh, whose<br />
Arabic name means You are good—a frail-looking, but very clean<br />
young black man from Addis Ababa, Ethiopia, who has come to<br />
Seattle to experience rain—each grab a handful of <strong>one</strong> of Roy’s<br />
arms and drag him away from the front doors.<br />
To Workneh’s delight, the sun has departed, clouds have<br />
returned, and a light mist is beginning to fall.<br />
(He writes his family often, sends them half his earnings, and<br />
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promises that <strong>one</strong> day they, too, shall experience this glorious<br />
land of rain.)<br />
“Look, dude—” John acts butch for Bob’s sake, who stands<br />
behind the glass door, watching. “—we don’t want your kind<br />
around here, OK? Go to the library, you wanna look at books.”<br />
“Yes, please,” enjoins Workneh, with a ferocious smile. “Trust<br />
in the Sons, my friend. That is how you will find them.”<br />
Roy blinks into Workneh’s small face.<br />
“Th’ what?”<br />
“The Son of God.” He burns his smile into Roy’s reddened<br />
eyes. “Trust in Him. That is how you will find your way.”<br />
They release Roy’s arms.<br />
John wipes his hands on his tan Dockers.<br />
Workneh extends <strong>one</strong> of his hands to Roy who, flustered and<br />
confused, accepts.<br />
Workneh shakes Roy’s hand vigorously.<br />
“It has been a pleasure meeting with you today, sir!”<br />
John rolls his eyes.<br />
“Come on, Workneh.”<br />
Workneh continues to pump Roy’s hand.<br />
“We must now return to our prominent positions as purveyors<br />
of books and CDs and other wonderful amusements.”<br />
He releases Roy’s hand. Reluctantly, with a wistful smile<br />
towards the purple clouds, he follows John inside.<br />
Inside, where Bob is in charge. Bob, who escorts the fat lady<br />
towards the coffee counter where he will treat her to a fabulous,<br />
free Grande Frappuccino, a mere 247 calories per serving.<br />
That ought to make her sing.<br />
Roy watches as John and Workneh and Bob and the fat lady<br />
and the name-tagged employees are gobbled up by the Corporate<br />
monster.<br />
As for them, the Angel Dust Incident has been resolved.<br />
As for Roy, he has been eighty-sixed twice in the same day.<br />
That’s a record. Even for Rick the Asshole.<br />
The crowd, who had assembled for a free show, groan their<br />
disappointment that no-<strong>one</strong> had been killed or, at the very least,<br />
arrested.<br />
What is Seattle coming to?<br />
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On the sidewalk, the long shadows are g<strong>one</strong>, but the chill<br />
wind remains.<br />
Except for a few foraging pigeons, their thought-filled noggins<br />
bobbling, Roy stands al<strong>one</strong>.<br />
A tumbleweed tumbles weedily.<br />
A vulture kvetches.<br />
It stands to reason there are other music stores he could<br />
try. But they are mostly all remote and upscale and, to tell the<br />
truth, after this most recent experience, Roy is disheartened and<br />
drained of enthusiasm.<br />
Enormous wings flap as the vulture ventures off elsewhere.<br />
There is, of course, <strong>one</strong> person who could solve the mystery<br />
like that.<br />
The guy in 28/RR.<br />
In fact, he could solve quite a few mysteries.<br />
Like the <strong>one</strong> about his cool Cowboys and Indians towels and,<br />
like the <strong>one</strong> about what the double Rs means on his door.<br />
Not to mention the <strong>one</strong> about if he liked the lasagna or not.<br />
A pigeon, lost in thought, waddles across Roy’s left shoe.<br />
The only reason he hadn’t g<strong>one</strong> there to start with was fear.<br />
But, if this day has taught him nothing else, it has taught him he<br />
has nothing left to fear.<br />
Except Rick the Asshole.<br />
After the way he’s been yelled at and thrown around, what<br />
could the guy in 28/RR do?<br />
Roy awakens his napping headph<strong>one</strong>s and returns their foam<br />
cushions to his cold ears.<br />
Then he turns and starts to walk whence he came, all the way<br />
to Georgetown, kicking at pigeons along his very own Trail of<br />
Tears.<br />
Pecos Bill was quite a cowboy down in Texas<br />
He’s the Western Superman to say the least<br />
He was the roughest, toughest critter<br />
Never known to be a quitter<br />
’Cause he never had no fear of man nor beast—<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
He’s the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
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Roy’s decision to go home may seem a good <strong>one</strong>. He’s<br />
aware however things may not go well. He’s afraid he may be<br />
tonguetied, say some things that may seem cockeyed, ’cause the<br />
course of his short life has not been swell.<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
Roy’s mind is made up where he’s gonna go!<br />
Once he roped a raging cycl<strong>one</strong> out of nowhere<br />
Then he straddled it and settled down with ease<br />
And while that cycl<strong>one</strong> bucked and flitted<br />
Pecos rolled a smoke and lit it<br />
And he tamed that ornery wind down to a breeze—<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
For the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
(yodeling)<br />
Roy has never in his life heard people yodel. In fact, he<br />
doesn’t even know that’s what it’s called. But he finds the sound<br />
endearing, and the rhythms all adhering, he’s completely caught<br />
off-guard and is enthralled.<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
Roy’s new music is divine and won’t let go!<br />
Now once a band of rustlers stole a herd of cattle<br />
But they didn’t know the herd they stole was Bill’s<br />
And when he caught them crooked villains<br />
Pecos knocked out all their fillin’s<br />
That’s the reason why there’s gold in them thar hills!<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
For the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
Now the people who pass Roy must think he’s crazy, for the<br />
smile upon his face is that intense. If they could hear the songs<br />
he’s hearin’, maybe then they’d lose their fearin’, and Roy’s<br />
happiness would start to make some sense.<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
Roy’s is happy and he’s proud to let it show!<br />
When a tribe of painted Indians did a wardance<br />
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Pecos started shootin’ up their little game<br />
He gave them redskins such a shakeup<br />
That they jumped out of their makeup<br />
That’s the way the Painted Desert got its name!<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
For the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
Roy sees his building and he makes a beeline. He’s got a plan<br />
he knows he has to carry through. Inside he hopes awaits the<br />
answer, it’ll be a great enhancer, and can put his mind to rest<br />
without ado.<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
Roy the window washer’s finally gonna know!<br />
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“CLICK”<br />
Roy Stands before 28/RR, right hand poised to knock. His Sony<br />
tape player has just clicked off.<br />
It has been a wonderful day.<br />
A day unlike any other.<br />
It’s not every day he gets eighty-sixed from two stores.<br />
He’s filled with courage and aflame with confidence.<br />
He is no longer Window Washer Roy, or Brother of Rick the<br />
Asshole Roy.<br />
He’s not exactly sure who or what kind of Roy he is, but <strong>one</strong><br />
thing’s certain—he’s a changed man, an altered version of the<br />
Before Roy.<br />
The fact that he’s about to knock on 28/RR’s door proves it.<br />
But what’s brought him to such an uncharacteristic place?<br />
What’s prompted such feelings of bravado?<br />
Was it just the music?<br />
Roy takes a deep breath and—<br />
His right hand’s uncovered knuckles come into contact<br />
with the door but, unlike as with a knock, make no sound.<br />
Instead, they rest, as after a long day’s journey, or a complicated<br />
conversation, or a young couple’s energetic tryst.<br />
—What was he thinking, busting in here like this, just because<br />
of some silly music he overheard? What is up with him being so<br />
heedless of consequences, of racing headlong into the fray?<br />
Any fray?<br />
Roy thinks—<br />
—This needs to be better thought out.<br />
—This needs to have a plan.<br />
His fire, having eaten through its fuel, flickers instead<br />
of flames. His confidence, so bloated moments ago, is as if<br />
punctured by a nail.<br />
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His tongue, squiggling inside his mouth, ties into a knot.<br />
He removes his knuckles from the door’s cool surface.<br />
A concrete cloud casts a mighty shadow.<br />
Then the worst thing in the world that could possibly happen<br />
happens—the door to the B THRO M opens.<br />
So ferociously focused on 28/RR had he been that he had not<br />
thought to see if the little room was occupied.<br />
Taken by surprise, his eyes bulge and his head jerks away from<br />
28/RR—that slab of wood that stalls his pilgrim’s progress—to<br />
stare slack-jawed at the man who has opened the little door at the<br />
end of the hall, who has exited from said room, having switched<br />
off its sad, solitary light, and who now drips water onto the<br />
crusty, red runner they both share.<br />
Of course, it is n<strong>one</strong> other than the occupant of 28/RR.<br />
Of course.<br />
His head is wrapped in the same cool towel, or <strong>one</strong> like it, as<br />
is his body below the armpits—those same, cool towels that had<br />
so piqued Roy’s curiosity, covered as they are with little Cowboys<br />
on horses chasing little Indians on horses.<br />
The occupant of 28/RR is every bit as surprised by the sight<br />
of Roy standing before his door as Roy is surprised by the sight of<br />
the occupant of 28/RR posed before the door of the B THRO M.<br />
To Roy, as to the occupant of 28/RR—both positi<strong>one</strong>d in<br />
the same hall, both gawking at the distant other, <strong>one</strong> damp from<br />
outdoor downpour, the other moist from indoor ablutions, the<br />
walls deadening sound from the so-called real world—it seems as<br />
if a lifetime passes, several in fact. Whole generations come and<br />
go. Old species long familiar become extinct. Stars rotate faster<br />
and faster, their pinlights creating blurry trails. The building<br />
tumbles down around them, a new interstate passes through,<br />
automobiles flash past, their colors smudged with speed. Trees<br />
drop nuts that thrive, shoot up into trees that drop nuts that<br />
thrive and shoot up into trees. Days pass faster and faster, the<br />
sun bouncing up and down like an incandescent pumpkin on a<br />
spring.<br />
It is a situation from which no <strong>one</strong> can emerge the victor.<br />
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Does Roy lower his hand and slink away, face the color of<br />
putty, back to his room whence he came, where he will pack his<br />
duffle to leave the building forever?<br />
Does the occupant of 28/RR duck back into the B THRO M to<br />
stand in its dark embrace, waiting for Roy’s Royness to evaporate?<br />
Perhaps Eternity is like this—a stretched rubber band forever<br />
about to snap.<br />
In any case, it is a situation from which no <strong>one</strong> can emerge the<br />
victor.<br />
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The strawberry roan nodded<br />
and snorted her agreement when the Old Cowboy nudged them down the hill<br />
towards the town. It had been a long time since they shared existence with<br />
other horses, other men.<br />
The weight of her rider felt good and right and solid and made her<br />
happy. The air in her nose was dry and warm. The tall, wind-waved<br />
gamma grass smelled ripe and tickled her knees as she wedged her way down<br />
the gentle slope. Dipping her head, she buried her long face in it, nipped at<br />
it, bit it off, chewed on it as she moved sedately along.<br />
Experience had taught that her rider was some<strong>one</strong> she could trust,<br />
some<strong>one</strong> with a sure hand and a kindly voice. She knew his voice in a<br />
crowd, could follow his scent in the dark. When riding night guard on a<br />
herd, she could be trusted to circle the bedded animals while he dozed on her<br />
back. At the first sign of trouble, she knew he would be awake to tell her<br />
what to do.<br />
They achieved level ground and she picked her way across ruts from when<br />
last it rained, maybe a winter ago, maybe two. This was a brown land, a<br />
muted land of limited palette. This was a land where water attracted men<br />
like gold. A land of grasses, of crumbling red rock, of drowsy diamondbacks<br />
and Prairie Dog towns.<br />
Other sounds began to reach her ears as they drew closer to the buildings.<br />
Sounds of wagon wheels creaking, dogs yapping, men in groups discussing<br />
things of human scope and interest. Her rider tapped her sides with the dull<br />
rowels of his spurs. She didn’t need to be spurred; she was excited. She<br />
could already see in her mind a big, long, deep trough of water. And fresh<br />
hay and oats, followed by a grooming and a long period of rest.<br />
The flesh on her croup quivered and she tossed her head side-to-side.<br />
Her rider’s hand stroked her neck. They rode together into town, man and<br />
horse incomplete without the other, strangers in a sad and dangerous land.<br />
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<strong>THE</strong> OCCUPANT OF 2 /RR,<br />
bless him, makes like God and changes everything.<br />
And here’s the reason for his divine intervention—he is getting<br />
cold.<br />
Remember—it’s November, it’s Seattle, it’s raining; therefore,<br />
it’s cold.<br />
And, anyway, standing in the hall wrapped in towels is getting<br />
old.<br />
As is the occupant of 28/RR.<br />
As is everything.<br />
His eyes narrow.<br />
His long, white, wet white hair is combed back, exposing his<br />
face for Roy to study.<br />
The occupant of 28/RR has a face that is craggy and lined<br />
with age. His exposed upper body—below the suntanned O<br />
that encircles the base of his neck, and excepting the same<br />
demarcations on his arms midway down their slack biceps where<br />
short sleeve shirts end—is as white as a the thighs of a redheaded<br />
whore.<br />
The hairs of his mustache bristle and vibrate like little<br />
caterpillar legs.<br />
He is not an overly hairy man, nor a particularity tall <strong>one</strong>,<br />
nor apparently anything like strong. Nevertheless, although his<br />
body may be doughy, and his muscles may lack t<strong>one</strong>, there is<br />
something about him that suggests slumbering toughness and<br />
steely resolve.<br />
His eyes narrow and the wrinkles resting at their corners rill<br />
like deep, water-dug ruts in shinb<strong>one</strong>-hard ground.<br />
The lengthening silence between them threatens to engulf and<br />
last forever.<br />
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Roy’s face muscles try hard to smile. Sore from their earlier<br />
workout, they manage to struggle with his command briefly<br />
before collapsing into a heap.<br />
Meanwhile, in the mind of occupant 28/RR, things shape<br />
up like this—: the sun snaps into the sky, and the hallway’s walls<br />
darken and disappear. The ruby red, crusty carpet moulders and<br />
turns to sand. A brisk wind kicks up a dust devil that dances<br />
along the deserted street lined with weathered, clapboard stores.<br />
St<strong>one</strong>like faces watch through rippling windows as their scene<br />
unfolds. The final scene. Last reel. The part of the story when<br />
Glenn Ford makes good on a boast in the Fastest Gun Alive, or<br />
when Jimmy Stewart faces down crazed Lee Marvin in The<br />
Man Who Shot Liberty Valance, or when Alan Ladd shoots the evil<br />
Wilson in Shane.<br />
A quite, blue sky. Puffs of white clouds. A horse whisks its<br />
tail. A blanket of quiet descends.<br />
Blue, blue sky. White, white clouds.<br />
His right hand twitches. His fingers curl and straighten.<br />
Slowly, his arm drops to his side while his other hand continues<br />
to support the towel.<br />
His right arm’s hand, at the end of its tether, stops. Spreading<br />
out its fingers, it slaps at its owner’s hip, feeling for his gun. He<br />
really needs his gun. What he gets instead is thick, terry towel<br />
clouded with little Cowboys and Indians.<br />
It is the Cowboy’s worse nightmare—caught with his boots off<br />
and his gun hanging on the wall.<br />
For the most part, the more he stares at the varmint standing<br />
in front of him, blocking the path to his door, the more he looks<br />
to be harmless. He doesn’t appear to be armed, either, except for<br />
some sort of black box on his belt.<br />
A cloud from nowhere occludes the sun.<br />
In fact, the dude looks kinda familiar.<br />
Stony faces recede as the hall’s real walls reappear.<br />
He seems to be trying to smile, the dude does.<br />
The crusty carpet in all its faded, ruby glory returns.<br />
The occupant of 28/RR unscrews his eyes.<br />
His exposed flesh is pimpled from the chilled air.<br />
He takes a deep breath, straightens his spine and squares<br />
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his shoulders. It seems like a couple hundred miles lie between<br />
them, instead of a couple dozen feet.<br />
The occupant of 28/RR speaks in a low, gravelly growl.<br />
“If you’re sellin’, I ain’t buyin’. If you’re a Bible-thumper,<br />
I’ll as like shoot you as not. I paid rent for th’ year, don’t owe<br />
nobody nothin’. Now how’s about you step away from my door<br />
while you still can, pardner?”<br />
Roy’s face fills with commotion.<br />
“I—uh. Uh. I—”<br />
He starts to shuffle backwards, in the general direction of his<br />
room.<br />
The beauty thing about not owning a bunch of crap—you can<br />
pack your bag and be in transit in roughly twenty seconds.<br />
And next time, if indeed there is a next time—and Life so far<br />
has taught Roy that there usually is, until of course your supply<br />
of next times runs out—next time, if indeed there is a next time,<br />
he promises not to talk with strangers, always to keep to himself,<br />
and never, ever hatch plans, no matter how cool they may seem.<br />
Beads of sweat glisten on his baldness.<br />
Outside, it’s still November. Inside, who knows?<br />
“I—uh. I was. I was just—uh.”<br />
After all, he still has Suzi Quattro. After all, he still has his<br />
health and all his old tunes.<br />
Maybe he doesn’t need to start listening to new shit, after all.<br />
It never occurs to Roy that he isn’t doing anything wrong, or<br />
that he’s the bigger and stronger of the pair, or that the old guy<br />
is barely dressed and can only use <strong>one</strong> arm without dropping<br />
his towel. Clearly, he fails to grasp his advantages. He has<br />
been conditi<strong>one</strong>d by years spent with an abusive brother to view<br />
himself as a helpless, hapless, harebrained twit.<br />
“I—uh. I was just. This—”<br />
A thought elbows its way onto Roy’s small, under-lit stage:<br />
maybe if I give the old guy his tape back, he’ll leave me al<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Roy directs his hands to meet at his waist.<br />
The wet, grizzled, towel-wrapped oldster sees them heading<br />
south and draws in a sharp breath—is he going for his gun?<br />
Does he have a hideaway in that little, black box?<br />
And him with boots off and gun hanging on the wall.<br />
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His eyes slide briefly, anxiously, longingly, towards his door.<br />
28/RR<br />
Can he make it? Can he get to the door, get it open, slip<br />
inside and slam it shut before baldy draws?<br />
Godamnit! Why did it have to end like this? After all these<br />
years of being crafty, watching his back, changing his name how<br />
many times, living in sleazy pits like this—why did it have to end<br />
like this?<br />
He should go down like a man, at least—guns a-blazin’—not<br />
like some pansy in a bath towel.<br />
WWJFD?<br />
(What Would John Ford Do?)<br />
Roy unclips the Sony tape player from his belt.<br />
Now that the old man can see plainly what it is, his body<br />
relaxes. He had begun to imagine bullets ripping through his<br />
abdomen, exiting through his back, and burying their soft noses<br />
into the B THRO M door.<br />
Roy fumbles clumsily with the little box, anxious fingers<br />
getting in each other’s way. He manages to open its taped lid,<br />
and the cassette in question—the questionable cassette—falls to<br />
the floor.<br />
The old man stares at the tape where the floor interrupts its<br />
fall.<br />
His tape.<br />
The <strong>one</strong> he had left for—now he gets it. Now he knows why<br />
the bald dude seems familiar. That time—when he was coming<br />
out of the bathroom. His face—its Gumby softness, its bulging<br />
eyes—it all comes flooding back.<br />
He’s not going to have to die tonight, after all.<br />
His testicles return to their normal elevation.<br />
In the meantime, Roy pops his knees, retrieves the tape, and<br />
holds it at arm’s length.<br />
“I—I like it. Your music. A lot. But—here. You can have it<br />
back, OK? And that’s it, like. It’s d<strong>one</strong>. Here.”<br />
The old man takes a step.<br />
“Did, huh?”<br />
He takes another.<br />
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Best not to annoy the bald dude. Might be a psycho or<br />
something.<br />
Step. Stepstep.<br />
He reaches out a gnarly hand.<br />
Roy nods energetically.<br />
“Yeah, I. It’s the best. Really.”<br />
While Roy is only too happy to release the tape, to allow the<br />
old guy’s sandpapery fingers to take it, he is, at the same time,<br />
flooded with regret. From nowhere a thought pops into his head,<br />
and he is surprised to hear himself ask:<br />
“If-If I buy a blank will you make me a copy?”<br />
The old man snatches the tape out of Roy’s hand.<br />
Absently, his hand searches for a pocket.<br />
He shakes his head, the old guy does.<br />
“No.”<br />
His hand comes to the conclusion that there is no pocket to<br />
be had. Dutifully, it slips the cassette between its owner’s white,<br />
doughy flesh, and the Cowboys and Indians towel.<br />
Then the old guy rips <strong>one</strong>.<br />
Roy believes when old guys rip <strong>one</strong> it’s because they’ve lost<br />
control of their anal sphincter. When you get old that’s what<br />
happens. You lose control of your anal sphincter. They can’t<br />
help it when stuff leaks out.<br />
That’s why they’re called old farts.<br />
Roy tries not to wrinkle his nose.<br />
Best not to annoy the old dude. Might be a psycho or<br />
something.<br />
Old Guy’s damp white hair begins to strand away from his<br />
scalp and string down around his face.<br />
Step. Almost there.<br />
Step. Stepstep.<br />
At long last, his gun hand rests on his door’s faceted, glass<br />
knob.<br />
He knows this if he knows nothing else—he could and should<br />
end it here and now. Crank on the faceted, glass knob and open<br />
up and slip inside and deadbolt the hell out of the door. And be<br />
more careful in the future.<br />
But this is not what Old Guy does.<br />
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What Old Guy does instead is he pats the tape in its resting<br />
place between his white, doughy flesh and his Cowboys and<br />
Indians towel and says:<br />
“This here’s some valuable shit.”<br />
Roy reckons this must be true, seeing as how he’s never heard<br />
anything like it before, and he’s heard lots and lots of tunes, or at<br />
least thinks he has, so all he can do is nod in agreement.<br />
Sensing as how Old Guy is, like, starting to be almost friendly,<br />
he decides to take the bull by the horns.<br />
“If I can’t have a copy, why’d you give it to me?”<br />
Old Guy’s face darkens.<br />
“Give? I didn’t give. I let you borrow. Because of—th’ food.”<br />
Roy brightens.<br />
“You liked the lasagna?”<br />
Cooks love to know what people think about their creations.<br />
“That what it was?”<br />
Roy’s smile falters.<br />
“Uh. Yeah.”<br />
Old Guy nods, cranks open his door.<br />
“It was OK. I like broccoli.”<br />
Roy’s smile vanishes completely.<br />
“Zucchini.”<br />
Old Guy’s naked, white shoulder rests against his door.<br />
“Whatever.”<br />
He seems to be lingering.<br />
WWJFD?<br />
If Old Guy was John Ford he would, besides being dead, go<br />
inside his room and slam the door and lock it and get roaring<br />
drunk for the next three or four weeks.<br />
But this bald dude doesn’t seem so bad, really. And he likes<br />
his music—strangely, not every<strong>one</strong> does. And that really was a<br />
damned fine whatever-it-was he cooked.<br />
Maybe a tad salty.<br />
In the silence that colonizes the space between them, Roy<br />
strains to say something. The birth pangs of this thought,<br />
whatever it is, appear to be incredibly painful. Beneath the dim,<br />
straw-yellow light, he’s looking pretty green.<br />
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He takes a breath, licks his lips and says,<br />
“I can cook you some, some—” he can’t believe he’s saying<br />
this “ —broccoli, you want.”<br />
Old Guy nods, appears thoughtful.<br />
“Yeah? I like green shit. Except mold.”<br />
Roy blanches at the use of the words mold and broccoli in the<br />
same conversation. Beads of sweat crowd his brow.<br />
Old Guy narrows his eyes again.<br />
“You OK, pardner?”<br />
Roy fills his lungs with the hall’s fetid air as he fights to shake<br />
off ghastly memories.<br />
“Yeah. Fine.”<br />
Old Guy nods.<br />
“OK.”<br />
He opens his door.<br />
Roy wants to stop him. He doesn’t want to lose the tape.<br />
But—how?<br />
He stammers out,<br />
“M-My name’s Roy.”<br />
Old Guy is halfway inside his room. Roy can see his mind<br />
is set on entering all the way. Maybe he didn’t hear. He speaks<br />
louder.<br />
“I said, my name’s Roy.”<br />
Old Guy turns and gives him a funny look.<br />
“What?”<br />
Roy’s beetling brow beads ever more.<br />
“My name. It’s Roy.”<br />
He mops a pant leg with his right palm and sticks it out to<br />
shake.<br />
Old Guy stares at Roy, ignoring his hand.<br />
Roy withers under his stare.<br />
Seems to Roy that Old Guy can stare like nobody’s business.<br />
He’s even better at it than Rick the Asshole.<br />
Old Guy seems to be considering stuff, mulling over shit.<br />
After what to Roy seems like an eternity, Old Guy squints and<br />
says,<br />
“Roy, huh?”<br />
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Roy smiles and nods back.<br />
“Roy what?”<br />
Roy replies,<br />
“Weston.”<br />
The old guy’s almost friendly face twists into a sneer.<br />
“Fuck you, asshole!”<br />
He ducks inside his room and slams the door shut behind him.<br />
Roy stares at his slammed shut door. On the other side,<br />
deadbolts are shooting home and chains rattling.<br />
Roy’s brain is all a-jumble—what just happened?<br />
All he said was his name.<br />
Stunned by this unexpected fork in the road, he is turning to<br />
slump away when, on the other side of the door, deadbolts reverse<br />
direction.<br />
He stares at the battered white door, his lips dry as if linehung<br />
on a summery day, while Old Guy undoes sixty or seventy<br />
locks.<br />
He speculates on a motive for Old Guy’s highly anticipated<br />
return, and all he can come up with is—he’s changed his mind!<br />
His summer-dried lips curl into an autumnal smile.<br />
The door snaps open, but remains chained—so it only opens<br />
about three inches—just wide enough to see Old Guy’s burl of a<br />
nose.<br />
“That really your name?”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
“What?”<br />
Roy clears his throat.<br />
“Yes. Yes, sir, it is.”<br />
Long pause.<br />
“That was <strong>one</strong>’ve his names.”<br />
Roy nods again, but decides it’s the wrong direction for his<br />
head to go, so he shakes it from side-to-side.<br />
“No. I dint.”<br />
“Yep,” Old Guy’s nose continues. “Back in the day when him<br />
and Bob started th’ Sons.”<br />
Roy wants desperately to get this right. He feels like a<br />
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fisherman trying to land a fish too heavy for his line. If he says<br />
the wrong thing, then Old Guy’s door will snap closed like a rich<br />
dude’s wallet, and all those eighty or ninety deadbolts will sing<br />
their prison song.<br />
He decides to play along.<br />
“Oh, yeah?”<br />
A nose bob.<br />
“Yep. You know.”<br />
Roy nods in time with the bobbing nose.<br />
“I. Do.”<br />
Long silence.<br />
Had it worked?<br />
Had Roy hoodwinked Old Guy into thinking he knows?<br />
Roy asks,<br />
“So. What’s yours?”<br />
The gnarled nose stops woolgathering and pivots to stare at<br />
Roy.<br />
“What d’you mean, what’s mine?”<br />
Roy’s eyebrows hike up his forehead.<br />
“I mean. Your name.”<br />
“Oh.”<br />
The nose thinks.<br />
sniff<br />
“That was back in ’31.”<br />
Roy scrambles to keep up.<br />
“What was?”<br />
sniff<br />
“Th’ Sons, of course.”<br />
Fresh confusion furrows Roy’s brow.<br />
Between the turmoil of his befuddlement, and the tendency of<br />
his nature, he stumbles. Against his better judgment, he blurts<br />
out—<br />
“What’re the Sons?”<br />
Old Guy’s nose—previously bobbing, sometimes<br />
woolgathering, always listening and thinking—jerks back inside<br />
its home.<br />
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The door slams shut.<br />
bang<br />
Roy’s stands there, his mouth sagged open in disbelief, staring<br />
at the slammed shut door and listening to the clunks of two or<br />
three hundred deadbolts locking him out.<br />
Perhaps forever.<br />
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ROY’S BRA<strong>IN</strong><br />
has a remarkable memory.<br />
Unlike most people, he has to work at forgetting. Otherwise,<br />
his memories—which, for the most part, he is not fond of—would<br />
crawl out of their dark, dank crannies and wreak havoc on his<br />
life.<br />
Once, when Roy was driving to a cleaning job on the Eastside<br />
in J.J.’s blue 1992 Aerostar, the radio played Green Eyed Lady, by<br />
Sugarloaf. Instantly, he flashed on a cold morning <strong>one</strong> April<br />
when the frost looked like God had dusted sugar over everything<br />
and he was maybe four years old and still asleep and some<strong>one</strong><br />
started stabbing a butcher knife into the cardboard box he was<br />
in.<br />
Whoever it was, was screaming profanities about Roy and<br />
his family and how they weren’t really human beings, and that<br />
the planet Earth needed to be cleansed of them—but that didn’t<br />
stop Roy from hearing what was playing on the radio in the guy’s<br />
car, its headlights blinding them as they scrambled from sleep to<br />
escape the freezing blade of his butcher knife.<br />
Green eyed lady, passion’s lady<br />
Dressed in love, she lives for life to be—<br />
What else makes Roy’s brain remarkable is just this—: most of<br />
his memories are linked to music.<br />
One of the reasons he likes Punk and Glam is because it holds<br />
no memories—most of the nightmare that was his childhood is<br />
associated with Rock ’n’ Roll.<br />
One of the reasons he hates Van Morrison—that is, besides<br />
his voice and how he looks and the stupid songs he sings—is<br />
this—: Rick was really into him during what turned out to be a<br />
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particularly unpleasant period when he also declared Tequila his<br />
favorite drink.<br />
Tequila, as most people know, comes from Mexico. What<br />
maybe people don’t know that it’s distilled from the Blue Agave<br />
cactus from the Tequila district near Jalisco. It’s because of<br />
where it’s made that it’s called Tequila. Rick didn’t know this<br />
and didn’t care. What he thought was that Tequila came from<br />
peyote and had psychedelic worms. He said the worm in a bottle<br />
of Mezcal was magical and that if you squeezed the shit out of it<br />
what comes out is better than LSD. So he always ate the worm<br />
and he always called Tequila To-Kill-Ya.<br />
And he always got shitfaced and he always tried to damage<br />
Roy.<br />
But before he would do that, he would cry.<br />
Rick liked Mezcal because he was convinced it contained<br />
mescaline.<br />
Mescaline (3,4,5-Trimethoxyphenethylamine) is among the world’s<br />
oldest known psychedelics. It is the major active comp<strong>one</strong>nt<br />
of the small dumpling cactus, Peyote (Lophophora williamsii).<br />
Mescaline is the touchst<strong>one</strong> for all psychoactive substances. It is<br />
the central psychedelic prototype against which everything else is<br />
measured.<br />
In other words, it’s the best dope on Earth.<br />
But, of course, Rick had it wrong—there is no mescaline in<br />
Mezcal. In fact, Mezcal isn’t even Tequila.<br />
But Rick being wrong didn’t make life any better.<br />
Rick would go through three stages when he drank Tequila (or<br />
Mezcal): (a) Euphoria; (b) Melancholy; (c) Bellicosity. Somewhere<br />
between Melancholy and Bellicosity was when he liked to listen<br />
to Van Morrison.<br />
Here’s just <strong>one</strong> example of the many brutal memories Roy has<br />
of Van Morrison’s songs during Rick’s Blue Agave Period.<br />
Higher Than The World<br />
It happened on a cold, drizzly December night, out back of<br />
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the Odd Duck Club, a short-lived music bar near the Oddfellows<br />
Hall on Capitol Hill.<br />
Rick had started drinking before noon that day and had g<strong>one</strong><br />
through his three stages al<strong>one</strong>. After he had somewhat sobered,<br />
the insistent itch to sit in a darkened, smoky bar renewed its claim<br />
on him and so out he went again, this time dragging Roy along.<br />
He had threatened that if Roy didn’t accompany him he<br />
would cut out his, Roy’s, liver while he slept, and eat it.<br />
Roy believed him.<br />
When it comes to his brother, Roy believes three things—his<br />
first belief is that he, Roy, being older, is somehow responsible for<br />
whatever malefic acts Rick, being younger, commits. His second<br />
belief is that, as sure as it will rain in Seattle, Rick will flip out<br />
<strong>one</strong> day and that when that day comes—and this is Roy’s third<br />
belief—Rick will not consider fealty to his brother, nor loyalty to<br />
his drinking buddies, as sufficient reasons to spare their lives.<br />
Roy has always believed Rick would go out in a gory blaze.<br />
On that cold, drizzly December eve, within minutes of<br />
landing at the Old Crow—a plangent, peeling, shit-brown bar—<br />
Rick bought a pack of Camels and a shot of 1800 and began<br />
his three stages all over again. Apparently, because this was<br />
the second time he had g<strong>one</strong> through them that day, the spaces<br />
between the stages were shorter, and the stages themselves more<br />
intense.<br />
In a heartbeat, Rick was maudlin. He started hitting Roy up<br />
for more shots, which was the real reason for bringing him along.<br />
For a short while Roy became his pal. After all, hadn’t his big<br />
bro suffered the same indignities of Life, heard the same insults<br />
flung from assholes, experienced the same abuse from parents?<br />
Wasn’t Roy a sweet, gentle giant? A teddybear? A goldenhearted<br />
goofball who was good at saving his dough?<br />
Dough that he was always happy to share?<br />
Roy always carries quarters in his pocket because you can<br />
do so much more with them than with any of the smaller<br />
denominations of American m<strong>one</strong>y. For <strong>one</strong> thing, you can<br />
make ph<strong>one</strong> calls. And for another, you can drop them into<br />
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parking meters to thwart beefy, thick-calved Meter Maids. He<br />
also uses them to toss to panhandlers because he used to be once,<br />
and probably will be again.<br />
Roy considers it prudent to have good Panhandling Karma.<br />
He also uses them for Juke Boxes.<br />
On that particular night he began supplying Rick with the<br />
two tools that would later be instrumental in Roy’s admission to<br />
Harborview ER—shots of 1800, and a stack of quarters.<br />
The Old Crow had tons of Van Morrison on its Juke Box, and<br />
that night Rick listened to them all, but the <strong>one</strong> he kept playing<br />
over and over was the <strong>one</strong> about being Higher Than The World.<br />
Well, I’m higher than the world<br />
And I’m livin’ in my dreams<br />
I’ll make it better than it seems<br />
Today—<br />
Higher than the World<br />
But my head is in a swirl<br />
I gotta give a life a whirl<br />
Today—<br />
Roy kept trying to get Rick out of the Old Crow before<br />
something bad happened. It seemed like in no time at all Rick<br />
had slipped into the second phase.<br />
Melancholia.<br />
The clock was ticking.<br />
Rick was in tears. Every<strong>one</strong> was his friend. His bud. No-<strong>one</strong><br />
could do any wrong. Everything that was bad was bad because<br />
of The Man. Life was tragic—no, it was comic—no, it was<br />
metafuckingphysical—no, it was ironic—no, shitfuck whatever.<br />
And he began to weep for the world, for its dead children, for its<br />
hungry, its homeless, its Thalidomide babies, the fuckin’ price of<br />
gasoline, and what’s up with gawdamned pigeons shitting on us all<br />
the fuckin’ time?<br />
It was during this stage—Van Morrison growling in the<br />
background—that Roy, the older <strong>one</strong>, the responsible <strong>one</strong>,<br />
managed to pry his brother away from the bar and drag his ass<br />
outside. Between Rick’s wailing and screaming obscenities at the<br />
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general public, they almost made it all the way home—in fact,<br />
they made as far as the alley out back of the Odd Duck Club where<br />
Rick slid into phase three.<br />
When the moon was full, Rick would often say he might turn<br />
into a werewolf and slash Roy to ribbons. He said this because,<br />
once, when he was on a really, really bad acid trip—the kind that<br />
evaporated your brain—Rick thought he was Lon Chaney. He<br />
had watched his hands in horror as they became covered with<br />
hair. He stared for hours in the bathroom mirror at his hairy face<br />
before it turned into Cherry Garcia ice cream and melted.<br />
That was what Roy always thought of when his brother entered<br />
phase three—that Rick would turn into a werewolf, not into<br />
Cherry Garcia ice cream—and that was exactly what happened<br />
that night out back of the Odd Duck Club, behind the Oddfellows<br />
Hall on Capitol Hill.<br />
He never saw it coming. His brother, who had just been puking<br />
into the gutter, and onto Roy’s shoes, straightened up and grabbed<br />
Roy by the lapels of his jacket and hurled him backwards into the<br />
alley. A very surprised Roy slammed into the big, green dumpster<br />
parked there, cracking his hairless head against the chain used to<br />
lock down its heavy lid. The skin on the back of his bald dome<br />
where he encountered the chain burst apart in an angry gash from<br />
which black blood gushed.<br />
Dazed, teetering on consciousness, Roy started to slide down<br />
to rest in a rumpled, blood-soaked pile, but was stopped when his<br />
brother grabbed two handfuls of him and jerked him back to his<br />
feet. The fact of Roy’s knees buckling apparently really pissed<br />
Rick off. To teach Roy a lesson, he socked him hard as he could<br />
in the gut. Roy, his body racked with pain, only vaguely engaged<br />
with the world, folded neatly in two and snapped forward with the<br />
force of Rick’s fist. As his face shot forward and down, in synch<br />
with his body, adrift in the timeless void that exists at the center<br />
of intense pain, Roy heard Van Morrison’s gritty growl singing<br />
about how his head was in a swirl, and that he was all wrapped up<br />
in dreams and that was when Rick’s right knee popped up from<br />
the darkness and encountered Roy’s face and drove the pain away,<br />
and caused a starless night to descend—<br />
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Just a little bit higher<br />
Little bit higher—<br />
Every time Rick beat the shit out of Roy, the next day he<br />
acted as if nothing happened. And the reason for this was Rick<br />
didn’t remember. He carried in his brain absolutely no memory<br />
of what he did, or said, while drinking alcohol. He would never<br />
recall hurting Roy. He had no recollection of breaking a pool<br />
cue over anybody’s head. And he always woke up saying how the<br />
fuck did I get here on those occasions when he had been arrested<br />
and found himself in a holding cell filled with big, ugly, black<br />
motherfuckers.<br />
Unlike Roy, Rick’s brain does not have a remarkable memory.<br />
It was only by the best possible luck in the world that Roy<br />
found peace through Punk.<br />
One night he wandered into a bar where the music was so<br />
loud he couldn’t hear what the bartender was saying, and the<br />
bartender was yelling his ass off. That was OK with Roy, who<br />
didn’t want to drink anyway. Because of his brother, Roy never<br />
drank. They were brothers, after all, which meant they shared<br />
genes. Roy was afraid if he got shitfaced like Rick always did<br />
then he, too, might turn into a werewolf and start hurting people<br />
and not remembering it. And, because Roy was so much bigger<br />
than Rick, it was conceivable he might wind up accidentally<br />
killing somebody while he was Lon Chaney, and then he would<br />
have to go to prison where he would be physically humiliated<br />
and maybe even wind up on death row where they strap you<br />
to a gurney and put a mask over your face and give you two<br />
injections—<strong>one</strong> filled with syrup that will not let you scream, the<br />
other filled with nightshade that turns your blood into molten<br />
fire.<br />
No. Roy did not want to drink.<br />
Roy just wanted to listen.<br />
What was cool about listening to Punk was not what it<br />
sounded like, but what it did.<br />
And this is what it did—: it made Roy forget.<br />
It numbed him, knocked loose the grit and grime and birdshit<br />
that accumulates in the cracks and crevices of human brains,<br />
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hosed it all away, washed it down his spine and out his ass, to<br />
leave him feeling refreshed and purified.<br />
He loved Punk instantly.<br />
He listened to it constantly.<br />
And he began to search for a new dwelling place, a place far<br />
away from his brother. And he learned to keep its location to<br />
himself. Roy knew if his brother ever found out where he lived<br />
he would come visiting and hit him and take his m<strong>one</strong>y.<br />
Rick drank his m<strong>one</strong>y and when he ran out he drank Roy’s.<br />
But—for the moment, at least—Roy’s m<strong>one</strong>y is safe.<br />
It’s safe because it’s in a building Rick doesn’t know exists, in<br />
the heart of Georgetown, where he never goes. It’s safe because<br />
it’s in the very mattress Roy is tossing on right now, wide awake,<br />
unable to sleep.<br />
And the reason Roy is unable to sleep is he has a song running<br />
through his head.<br />
The scientific term for this is amygdala.<br />
Over and over it runs. On and on. He tries to think of<br />
another tune, of something that might trick his brain into<br />
shutting up. But, unfortunately, in the world of Punk there’s<br />
no such thing as a memorable tune—which is <strong>one</strong> reason it’s so<br />
cool—and he knows if he resorts to Rock ’n’ Roll he’ll be assailed<br />
by monstrous memories that will keep him even more awake,<br />
then trail after him throughout the following day.<br />
Or days.<br />
Or weeks.<br />
So he lies in his little room, drizzle sheeting his windowpanes,<br />
tossing and turning, tormented by a song that keeps running<br />
through his head—:<br />
Pecos Bill was quite a cowboy down in Texas<br />
He’s the Western Superman to say the least<br />
He was the roughest, toughest critter<br />
Never known to be a quitter<br />
’Cause he had nothing to fear from man nor beast—<br />
Was that right?<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
He’s the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
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Over and over again it goes—yippee-i-ay-i-yaaaa<br />
And why did the old fart slam the door? And who—or<br />
what—was the Sons?<br />
yippee-i-oooo<br />
And would he ever get the tape back? And would he ever<br />
hear that angelic music again?<br />
He’s the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
That is, outside of his head?<br />
Once he roped a something something out of nowhere<br />
Then he dah-dahed it and set it down with ease<br />
And while that something something did it<br />
Pecos rolled a joint and lit it<br />
And he tamed that something wind down to his knees—<br />
Maybe he should bake another lasagna.<br />
Maybe with broccoli.<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-oooo<br />
But what good would that do since Old Guy slammed his door<br />
shut? He wasn’t ever going to talk to Roy again. No matter what<br />
Roy did, he wasn’t ever going to talk to him again.<br />
No. That’s wrong.<br />
Shit. No.<br />
For the toughest critter west of the Alamo!<br />
Now once a band of rustlers stole some cattle<br />
But they didn’t know the herd they stole was Bill’s<br />
And when he caught those nasty villains<br />
He knocked out all their fillin’s<br />
That’s the way they got the name—<br />
That’s the way that it became—<br />
That’s why there’s still gold in them thar hills!<br />
That isn’t right, either.<br />
He needs that tape back if he’s ever going to get the words<br />
right.<br />
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o-lay-dee-o-day-lay-de-o-day-lay-dee-o-day-hee!<br />
o-lay-dee-o-day-lay-dee-o-day-lay-dee-o-day-hee!<br />
Roy rubs his face as if to erase it, then angles back his head to<br />
stare outside.<br />
Now Roy he knew there had to be a showdown<br />
So he tightened up his gun belt and declared,<br />
“I need that tape in here by sundown, or I’m headed for a meltdown,<br />
And my fevered brain forever be impaired.”<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
Roy’s gonna have a showdown don’t you know!<br />
He’s never been to Californee or to Texas<br />
In fact, he’s never even managed to leave home<br />
But if he doesn’t win the contest, then enough of North-by-Northwest<br />
He may have to spend his life where cattle roam.<br />
o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-<br />
lay-dee-hee<br />
o-lay-dee-o-lay-day-hee<br />
o-lay-dee-o-lay-day-hee<br />
o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-<br />
lay-dee-hee<br />
o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-day-hee!<br />
Now Roy rises up and gets out of his bedroll<br />
And he stumps about inside his tiny room<br />
He’s waitin’ for the sunrise, if he can see it through the gray skies<br />
Then he’ll wake the old guy up and get his tunes.<br />
So yippee-i-ay-i-ya, yippee-i-o<br />
Roy’s gonna have a showdown don’t you know!<br />
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The Old Cowboy wrapped<br />
the reins onto the hitching post.<br />
“Be right back, girl. Then it’s your turn.”<br />
He stroked the length of her face before stepping up onto the boardwalk.<br />
In reply, she snorted and frisked.<br />
He removed his hat and slapped it against a leg, knocking off travel dust.<br />
He was a rough-hewn, handsome, clean-shaved man with a lined face that<br />
belied his age, and a steady gaze that hid his nature. In stark contrast to his<br />
swarthy skin, his forehead—where the brim of his hat settled—appeared<br />
bleached white.<br />
A lady strolled by, her eyes reading the ground, her scent like a cloud of<br />
crickets.<br />
The Old Cowboy tipped his hat and bowed. She pretended she didn’t<br />
see him.<br />
He resettled his hat onto silver streaked hair, and pushed past cafe doors<br />
into the saloon.<br />
It was mid-day. Most of the men were on the range or behind a plow.<br />
Only <strong>one</strong> or two decorated the bar, desultorily swatted flies and occasionally<br />
tasted drinks. At a large, round baize-topped table near the back sat several<br />
men, playing at a game of cards. Resting on their table, along with cards<br />
and piles of chips, were guns and empty bottles.<br />
He stepped up to the bar and rested a boot upon the brass rail that ran its<br />
length.<br />
Behind the bar hung a painting of a beautiful woman. No man in this<br />
wild country need be told her name. She was the most famous ingénue in<br />
the West, if not in the world.<br />
And undeniably the most handsome.<br />
The bartender, bald and round-faced, with a thick, waxed handlebar<br />
mustache, approached.<br />
The Old Cowboy creased his face into a faint smile.<br />
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“Whiskey.”<br />
Unsurprised, the bartender nodded back and set before him a freshlypolished<br />
glass. From beneath the bar he retrieved a bottle.<br />
With a cock of his head, the Old Cowboy indicated the card game.<br />
“Been goin’ on long?”<br />
The bartender shrugged.<br />
“Couple days.”<br />
He finished pouring and started to cork the bottle. The Cowboy held<br />
up a hand. This stopped the bartender, who watched as his new customer<br />
downed the drink in <strong>one</strong> swallow. He then set the glass back where he found<br />
it and smiled.<br />
The bartender poured again.<br />
The Old Cowboy slapped down a gold eagle and lifted his refilled glass<br />
to the painting.<br />
“To Miss Lillie Langtry.”<br />
The bartender, caught off guard, quickly filled a glass of his own and<br />
joined in the salute.<br />
The dudes that lined the bar, alerted by the mention of the Jersey Lily’s<br />
name, follow suit.<br />
“Miss Lillie,” they chorused.<br />
“I’d like to drink to Miz Lillie too, mister.”<br />
The Old Cowboy peered into the bar mirror at the tall, paunchy man<br />
who stood behind him. He turned and gave him a thoughtful look. He was<br />
hatless, almost bald, with a furiously red nose and sloping shoulders. He<br />
was also dirty, wore a torn shirt, slack braces, and a pair of trousers that<br />
looked not to have seen water since last it rained.<br />
“Get outta here, Useless,” the bartender growled. “Leave the gent<br />
al<strong>one</strong>.”<br />
“Give ’im a drink,” the Old Cowboy ordered. “For Miss Lillie.”<br />
The bartender wasn’t happy about it, but m<strong>one</strong>y was m<strong>one</strong>y and Miss<br />
Lillie was Miss Lillie, so he poured.<br />
Useless sprung forward like a hungry pup.<br />
“Thanks, mister.”<br />
With a grubby hand he took the brimming glass and held it aloft.<br />
“To Miz Lillie,” he mumbled. “An’ to you, sir.”<br />
He snapped back his neck and the drink disappeared.<br />
He returned the empty glass to the bar with a palpable sadness, nor could<br />
he help but eye the pile of change the gold eagle had become.<br />
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The other hands at the bar returned to their gossiping and fly-swatting.<br />
“Join me in another?”<br />
To Useless, the Old Cowboy’s voice was like a choir of angels.<br />
He licked his parched lips.<br />
“I might like that, yes sir, I might.”<br />
“Set ’em up.”<br />
With a deepening frown, the bartender complied.<br />
“You best be warned, sir.” The bartender advised the Old Cowboy,<br />
unable to hold his tongue. “Useless here can’t hold his likker an’ is like to<br />
cause a row once you’re g<strong>one</strong>.”<br />
The Old Cowboy nodded.<br />
“Consider me warned. Now—look at me real good.” The bartender,<br />
sensing trouble, stepped back a bit. “You ever see a man look like me only<br />
with a scar here, an’ mutton chops?”<br />
The bartender shook his head. He had stopped looking at his customers<br />
twenty years ago.<br />
“No. I have not, sir.” But now his curiosity was up. Casually, he<br />
daubed at the bar with a tobacco-y towel. “He wanted by some<strong>one</strong>?”<br />
The Old Cowboy nodded.<br />
“By me.” He pointed to the bottle with his chin. “Leave it.”<br />
The bartender obliged, took some more of the m<strong>one</strong>y, then waddled off to<br />
practice his profession elsewhere along the bar.<br />
Useless looked on hungrily as the Old Cowboy re-filled his glass.<br />
He picked it up with trembling fingers and eagerly slugged it down, then<br />
wiped his mouth on his the back of his dirty sleeve.<br />
He presented his benefactor with a sheepish grin.<br />
“They call me Useless ’round here, but my name’s really Eustace. I<br />
pitch hay an’ muck stalls over at th’ livery. I could take care o’ your horse,<br />
you like.”<br />
“I’d like.”<br />
Eustace nodded and waited, maybe expecting the Old Cowboy to tell him<br />
his name, maybe because nodding waiting were things he was good at. The<br />
Old Cowboy said nothing, but obliged him by again renewing his empty<br />
glass.<br />
“I see a man from time to time looks like you come in, a mean sort’ve<br />
tramp. You kin?”<br />
The Old Cowboy appeared not to have heard the question.<br />
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“When was last you seen him?”<br />
Drinking on an empty stomach, Eustace’s mind began to fuzz.<br />
“Comes in time to time. Think a hand out at Double Bar D, maybe.<br />
Thanks again mightily.”<br />
He took another drink.<br />
“Where’s that?”<br />
A different voice answered, deeper and gruffer and nearer his ear.<br />
“Ten miles east’ve town, if it’s any of your concern.”<br />
The Old Cowboy smiled at the buried threat.<br />
He watched the man’s reflection in the mirror.<br />
He was no different looking from any of the other men in the bar—a gray<br />
Texican hat, patched blue shirt, soiled red kerchief, a six-shooter worn low<br />
and careless on his hip.<br />
“Obliged. Buy you a drink?”<br />
“Not if you’re drinkin’ with Useless.”<br />
He glowered at Eustace.<br />
The Old Cowboy shrugged.<br />
“Asked you to drink with me.”<br />
The Old Cowboy’s interest in the man faded.<br />
But the man remained standing where he was.<br />
“Man drinks with a skunk must be <strong>one</strong>.”<br />
The Old Cowboy’s eyes refocused on the man in the mirror.<br />
How he wore his rig told all. Maybe he was a bullyrag fired up with<br />
drink—but he was no shootist.<br />
The Old Cowboy poured two more.<br />
The man leaned forward.<br />
“My pappy taught me the way to a long life was to saddle your own<br />
horse an’ mind your own business.”<br />
“Wise words,” agreed the Old Cowboy. He swallowed his drink. “So<br />
who saddles your horse for you?”<br />
The long-eared men at the bar chuckled.<br />
“Stand out, mister.”<br />
The Old Cowboy didn’t wear his gun slung low like a cowhand. His<br />
was level with his flat belly. A hand shooter wasn’t his preferred armament,<br />
he liked his rifle better. Any<strong>one</strong> can pull a gun and squeeze a trigger. To be<br />
fast just takes practice. But to be fast and kill a man...that takes something<br />
more.<br />
The Old Cowboy has had a lot of practice.<br />
And he has that something more.<br />
He finished his drink.<br />
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“I dint come in here for no trouble.”<br />
The man behind him stepped back and grinned, revealing a gold tooth.<br />
“Too late. ’Cause that’s what you—”<br />
No-<strong>one</strong> saw what happened next.<br />
One second the Old Cowboy was holding an empty glass in his hand.<br />
The next, he had spun around and his drawn gun was in the man’s startled<br />
face.<br />
After he had spun around and drawn his gun—the glass hit the bar.<br />
The men in the room gasped.<br />
You hear yarns about shooters like this—men fast as lightening—but<br />
you never see it. Never.<br />
“Touch your gun and sleep forever.”<br />
The man, mouth wide, revealing more gold teeth, raised his arms in<br />
helplessness.<br />
The Old Cowboy moti<strong>one</strong>d towards the man’s gun.<br />
“Use your left hand, slide it out, put it on the bar.”<br />
Relieved not to be dead, the man did as told.<br />
“Now—get out.”<br />
“Obliged,” the man muttered, ears red, as he hurried out of the saloon.<br />
The Old Cowboy uncocked his shooter, then spun its cylinder so the<br />
hammer rested again on an empty chamber.<br />
He holstered it and turned back to the bar.<br />
The saloon let out its collective breath. With whispered comments and<br />
veiled looks, the cardplayers resumed their game.<br />
The few hands who had been leaning against the bar found reasons to<br />
swat flies elsewhere.<br />
They had a tale to spin for some time to come.<br />
Eustace ran <strong>one</strong> of his dirty hands across the expanse of his hairless pate.<br />
“Lordy.”<br />
The Old Cowboy topped off their glasses.<br />
He corked and handed Eustace the bottle.<br />
“See you handle ’er gentle, hand, she don’t like strangers. Oh, an’ double<br />
up ’er oats. I’ll be at th’ hotel you’re d<strong>one</strong>.”<br />
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WHEN DAWN COMES<br />
to the quartzite sky, Roy is still awake.<br />
o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-o-lay-dee-hee!<br />
It seems momentous decisions come with the price tag of<br />
sleeplessness.<br />
Perhaps it is this very absence of rest—or the resolution of his<br />
will—that causes a determined Roy to open his door and stare<br />
hard at 28/RR.<br />
Not a sound can be heard in the building.<br />
He steps into the hall.<br />
The light above the B THRO M door is curled into a ball of<br />
sleep.<br />
Roy is jealous.<br />
Now would be the perfect time to wake up the slumbering<br />
bulb and relieve his bladder.<br />
Instead, he crosses the hall and stands directly before Old<br />
Guy’s door.<br />
This shouldn’t take a minute.<br />
Lack of sleep has made him brave.<br />
And foolhardy.<br />
But not stupid. That came years before.<br />
He raises his right fist and cocks it back, ready to let fly.<br />
Seconds trickle past like Seattle mist.<br />
Roy continues to stand, right fist cocked, ready to let fly.<br />
Even more seconds shed themselves of the Here and Now.<br />
His feet grow cold. His stare grows bold.<br />
His eyes wander down the door and land on his mismatched<br />
socks. His naked right big toe...<br />
He is startled from his reverie by a loud knocking.<br />
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Some<strong>one</strong> is banging away with his fist.<br />
Somewhere in the building, some<strong>one</strong> is doing exactly what he<br />
would like to do.<br />
He sucks in a shocked breath and steps back quickly when<br />
door 28/RR snaps open, still on its chain.<br />
He hadn’t even heard the deadbolts.<br />
His right hand’s knuckles hurt.<br />
“You again—what the fuck you want?”<br />
Roy stares into a slice of Old Guy’s face, framed by the door<br />
and its casing.<br />
If the rest of his face is anything like these three inches, he<br />
must look pretty pissed.<br />
“I.” Roy wipes his mouth on the back of his sleeve. “Got a<br />
question.”<br />
Old Guy’s eyes narrow.<br />
“I need to know. Please. I mean—”<br />
This could take a while.<br />
“I want to know who—”<br />
bang<br />
The old guy’s door slams.<br />
Roy’s eyes bulge. Now he’s g<strong>one</strong> and d<strong>one</strong> it! Now he’ll have<br />
to pack up his duffle and—<br />
A chain rattles.<br />
Roy takes a big swig of air and develops a quizzical<br />
expression. But before he can take delivery of a new thought,<br />
much less generate <strong>one</strong>, the door snaps open, this time all the<br />
way.<br />
Staring into Roy’s face is the business end of a gun.<br />
Attached to the other end is Old Guy.<br />
Roy was right about the rest of his face.<br />
He looks pretty pissed.<br />
Old Guy takes a few steps back inside his apartment and<br />
waves his gun for Roy to follow.<br />
This is not really what Roy wants to do.<br />
But the old fart has a gun, and he looks mean enough to use it.<br />
In Roy’s world things happen that don’t happen in the<br />
Straight world. In his world, people get stabbed and dropped<br />
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into Lake Washington. They get shot and tossed into dumpsters.<br />
Babies get born and left in bushes. Fires get started that burn<br />
up sleeping families. Guys with butcher knives attack homeless<br />
children in cardboard boxes. It is not inconceivable that Old<br />
Guy could blow off his face, drag him inside, chop up his body<br />
and—over a period of time—dispose of him bit-by-bit all over<br />
Seattle as little doggie treats.<br />
That’s only speculation, of course. Meanwhile, what Roy<br />
knows for a fact is this—: nobody in this building would lift a<br />
finger to help.<br />
They sure as hell wouldn’t call the cops.<br />
Not that the cops would come if they did; they’re only here for<br />
the Straights.<br />
Roy’s forehead glistens again. He really, really needs to pee.<br />
Really.<br />
He raises his arms in helpless surrender.<br />
“Please, mister, don’t—”<br />
He hears himself begging and hates what he hears, but life is<br />
precious—even his—don’t ask why.<br />
“I dint—I wouldn’t. I won’t. If you’ll. Please, just. Let me<br />
go, I swear—”<br />
“Get inside, an’ shut up,” Old Guy growls. “Keep your hands<br />
where I can see ’em.”<br />
It’s always been like this for Roy—he always does what he’s<br />
told. He doesn’t need a gun in his face to convince him.<br />
Roy steps inside the apartment and stands in the middle of the<br />
room.<br />
Scared as he is—and he is scared—he still manages to notice<br />
how much bigger Old Guy’s place is. He hears the door close.<br />
Off to his right is an archway that opens into an adjoining room.<br />
Old Guy has two rooms! Roy had no idea there were bigger<br />
apartments in the building.<br />
Behind him, Old Guy clicks some of the deadbolts home.<br />
Roy is his pris<strong>one</strong>r.<br />
Roy vows the next time he takes a shine to somebody’s<br />
tunes—if, indeed, there is a next time—which he doubts—he<br />
promises to keep the news to himself.<br />
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Old Guy’s room is illuminated by two small table lamps<br />
from which c<strong>one</strong>s of saffron light wash both ceiling and floor.<br />
Shadows gobble everything else, teases his eyes with what appear<br />
to be bookshelves and gilt-framed pictures on the walls.<br />
Roy backs up until his spine encounters the rounded top of a<br />
plush wingback chair.<br />
He barely notices this, what with his attention being focused<br />
almost exclusively on Old Guy’s gun.<br />
Old Guy wears a robe wrapped tight at his waist, held there<br />
by what appears to be a rope. It is a tan robe with black piping<br />
that looks to be covered with cactuses, cowboy boots, and wagon<br />
wheels.<br />
Nearby, hats blossom on a coat tree.<br />
Cowboy hats.<br />
Roy starts to babble.<br />
“I don’t really want a copy anymore. I really, really don’t. I<br />
didn’t think you’d kill me for askin’. I promise not to ask again. I<br />
even promise to move. I mean far away.”<br />
Old Guy’s scowl never wavers.<br />
He paddles the air with his gun.<br />
“Siddown.”<br />
He seems to be indicating the plush chair at Roy’s back.<br />
Roy scrambles to please Old Guy. Arms still at half-mast, he<br />
plops down onto the chair’s soft, plush cushion.<br />
Old Guy continues to stand, peering down at Roy trapped in<br />
the chair cushion’s plushiness.<br />
He cocks his gun.<br />
Roy really needs to pee.<br />
Old Guy growls.<br />
“Who are you? Who sent you? What’s yer real name? What<br />
d’you really want?”<br />
Roy is flustered. He tries to concentrate on the questions.<br />
“I’m not. No <strong>one</strong>. H<strong>one</strong>st. I just—see, I heard the music<br />
like, and—that’s all. Then I made the food and you left the tape<br />
and I thought it was mine but it didn’t say who was on it and I<br />
couldn’t find out so I came here to ask and that’s all—I swear.<br />
My name really is Roy. Roy Weston. It really, really is—no<br />
foolin’.”<br />
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Old Guy backs up a bit—his gun never wavering from Roy’s<br />
face—then sits down in a chair directly across from his captive.<br />
Roy notices for the first time that he wears colorful cowboy<br />
boots.<br />
“So yer sayin’ nobody sent you?”<br />
Roy nods vigorously. He has forgotten how to blink.<br />
“An’ your name jess happens to be <strong>one</strong>’ve his?”<br />
Roy, uncertain who Old Guy means asks,<br />
“His who?”<br />
Old Guy snorts.<br />
“Roy’s, who else?”<br />
Finally, at long last, Roy remembers how to blink.<br />
“Roy’s?”<br />
Old Guy sneers. Besides staring, this is something he’s very<br />
good at.<br />
“Don’t play dumb with me.”<br />
But Roy isn’t playing.<br />
He’s never been so dumb in his whole, dumb life.<br />
Or so scared.<br />
Or needed to take a leak more.<br />
“I don’t know what you mean—I’m Roy.”<br />
“Roy Weston?”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
“You got kin?”<br />
Roy swallows.<br />
“A brother. Rick.”<br />
“Rick Weston?”<br />
“Yessir.”<br />
Old Guy considers this.<br />
“You ever heard of Dick Weston?”<br />
“Nosir.”<br />
“Next you’ll tell me you never heard’ve Trigger.”<br />
Roy blinks again.<br />
“Trigger?”<br />
“The Wonder Horse,” prompts Old Guy.<br />
Roy shakes his head.<br />
“No, I haven’t. Sir.”<br />
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The gun seems to be getting heavy. Its owner lowers it a bit.<br />
His expression shifts a little away from Mean.<br />
There is awe in his voice when he asks,<br />
“You never heard of Trigger, th’ Wonder Horse?”<br />
“Nosir—zit a group?”<br />
Old Guy frowns.<br />
“A group’ve what?”<br />
Roy wants so badly to wipe his brow, take a piss, and live in<br />
Alaska.<br />
“Like on the tape.”<br />
“The tape?”<br />
The gun, previously drooping, refocuses onto Roy’s face.<br />
“You tellin’ me you ain’t never heard’ve th’ Sons?”<br />
Roy shakes his head.<br />
“No, sir.”<br />
Old Guy looks amazed.<br />
“You ain’t never heard of th’ Sons of th’ Pi<strong>one</strong>ers?”<br />
“I ain’t never heard of the sons of anything, sir.”<br />
The barrel of the gun, as if an accusatory finger, continues to<br />
point.<br />
Roy may be able to blink, but he is having trouble breathing.<br />
“Idon’tknowwhatwe’retalkingaboutanymore. Sir.”<br />
The accusatory finger waggles.<br />
“You promise no <strong>one</strong> sent you?”<br />
“I promise. No <strong>one</strong> sent me. Sir.”<br />
Old Guy munches on this tidbit.<br />
“The name Jack Working mean anything to you?”<br />
Roy hates to disappoint people, especially old guys with guns,<br />
especially when their guns are pointed at him.<br />
“No, sir. I swear. I never heard’ve ’im. Sir.”<br />
“How ’bout a guy named Gabe?”<br />
Guy named Gabe, horse named Trigger—Alaska is sure a<br />
pretty place this time of year.<br />
“Never heard, sorry sir.”<br />
His hands are starting to go to sleep.<br />
“Can I put my hands down, please?”<br />
To his immense relief, perhaps greater than anything he could<br />
ever achieve by merely peeing, Old Guy removes the gun barrel<br />
from his direction.<br />
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Finally, besides blinking, Roy can breathe.<br />
Maybe, just maybe, Old Guy isn’t going to kill him.<br />
At least, not right away.<br />
A second wave of relief washes over him when he hears the<br />
gun uncock.<br />
Roy Weston lives!<br />
But he’s still a pris<strong>one</strong>r. He lowers his hands and brings them<br />
to rest on plush chair-arms. He’s still pris<strong>one</strong>r of a guy wearing a<br />
robe and cowboy boots, and holding a gun.<br />
Roy’s eyes, finding themselves thawed from staring into the<br />
gun’s barrel, roam towards <strong>one</strong> of the room’s table lamps built in<br />
the shape of a c<strong>one</strong>stoga wagon, like they had in pi<strong>one</strong>er days.<br />
But Roy doesn’t realize this.<br />
Roy knows very little about American history, stuff like<br />
George Washington tossing his wooden teeth across the Potomac<br />
river and Paul Revere riding to warn about the French.<br />
What is it about the French?<br />
Stuff like that.<br />
He knows even less about Alaskan history.<br />
They probably would make him learn some, if he moved<br />
there.<br />
Old Guy leans back and rests the gun on his lap. He seems<br />
distracted, as if some weighty matter is troubling him.<br />
“What about Gene Autry?”<br />
Now that he’s going to live some more, Roy recalls his<br />
bladder.<br />
“No, sir.”<br />
Old Guy frowns.<br />
“Hopalong Cassidy?”<br />
Roy shakes his head.<br />
Old Guy’s deepens his frown.<br />
“Tom Mix?”<br />
No.<br />
“Broncho Billy?”<br />
No.<br />
“William S. Hart?”<br />
Sorry.<br />
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“Harry Carey?”<br />
No.<br />
“Hoot Gibson?”<br />
Never.<br />
“Henry King?”<br />
Sorry, again.<br />
“John Ford?”<br />
Nope.<br />
Old Guy shakes his head.<br />
“You never hearda John Ford?”<br />
“Nosir.”<br />
Old Guy looks stunned.<br />
“All right, all right—here’s <strong>one</strong> for you. Ready?”<br />
Roy moistens his lips.<br />
He almost says shoot.<br />
“Roy Rogers an’ Dale Evans.”<br />
Somewhere deep inside Roy, these names have resonance,<br />
they ring a bell. He can’t recall where he’s heard them, or<br />
exactly who they are, but he’s thrilled he can finally say—<br />
“Yes.”<br />
Old Guy smiles.<br />
He actually smiles!<br />
“That’s the Roy I meant when I said you had his name!”<br />
Finally, something that makes sense.<br />
“But my name’s not Rogers.”<br />
Old Guy waves this aside.<br />
“There for a while, before he became famous, he went by th’<br />
name Dick Weston. Then he became Roy Rogers. You got both<br />
’is names.”<br />
Roy nods as if enlightened.<br />
As if he cares.<br />
“How ’bout that.”<br />
Old Guy’s smile goes goofy.<br />
“But you never heard’ve Trigger?”<br />
Roy wants to be helpful.<br />
“Trigger th’ Wonder Horse?”<br />
After all, Old Guy still has a gun.<br />
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Like a piece of origami, Old Guy’s face folds into a question<br />
mark.<br />
This analogy, however, fails to occur to Roy who doesn’t know<br />
the word origami. Maybe Roy doesn’t know a lot of things—<br />
maybe most things, he’s never really thought about it—but at<br />
least he knows he doesn’t know and it doesn’t bother him that<br />
he doesn’t, except every once in a while, like now when he really<br />
wishes he knew about Trigger the Wonder Horse.<br />
Roy and his wishes.<br />
Reluctantly he shakes his head.<br />
“No. Sorry. Sir.”<br />
Old Guy’s origami question mark unfolds into a look of scorn.<br />
“I’m th’ <strong>one</strong>’s sorry, son.” He stares hard at Roy. “For you.”<br />
Roy can appreciate this.<br />
“Can I go now? Please? I really gotta pee.”<br />
Old Guy’s grip tightens on his gun.<br />
“I don’t care you gotta do number two. You sit put ’til I’m<br />
convinced.”<br />
Roy pleads,<br />
“Convinced of what, mister? I swear—I don’t know Trigger.”<br />
Old Guy snorts. His eyes narrow, something else he’s very<br />
good at besides sneering and staring. “Not about that. About<br />
whether or not some<strong>one</strong> sent you to kill me.”<br />
Roy’s eyes bulge as much from surprise as from his bursting<br />
bladder.<br />
“Kill you? Me? Mister, I wouldn’t—”<br />
“There, there, sonny. I’m thinkin’ maybe you’re right.” He<br />
inclines his gnarly head towards his bonus room. “You can go in<br />
there an’ pee.”<br />
Roy struggles to understand.<br />
“In-In your bedroom?”<br />
“Yeah.” His host nods. “In th’ pot.”<br />
Roy has a problem with this.<br />
It’s bad enough peeing in a room designated as a room for<br />
peeing, not to mention doing number two—which Roy never does<br />
in a public restroom—but to do it while standing in a bedroom<br />
with another guy right there where he could see and hear, and<br />
not only that but to do it into some kind of pot—<br />
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Roy has a problem with this.<br />
“I, uh. I—”<br />
Old Guy seems very casual about the whole thing, as if this is<br />
something he does all the time.<br />
Which, probably, it is.<br />
“I.”<br />
Roy knows from experience that if he holds his pee long<br />
enough the burning sensation will subside and become a dull<br />
ache he can live with for a while. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s not<br />
life threatening—he hopes—and at any rate better than trying<br />
to pee in a pot while standing in some guy’s bedroom and him<br />
listening.<br />
“Hello?”<br />
Old Guy speaks.<br />
“You still here?”<br />
Roy, brought back to the so-called real world, nods in the<br />
affirmative.<br />
“Could’ve fooled me. You gonna pee, or not?”<br />
Roy shakes his head in the negative.<br />
“It went away.”<br />
Old Guy scowls.<br />
“Better not’ve g<strong>one</strong> away in my cushion.”<br />
Roy whips his fringe of hair around.<br />
“No, sir. It dint.”<br />
Old Guy relaxes his grip on the gun and leans back to study<br />
his pris<strong>one</strong>r.<br />
A weedy silence grows between them.<br />
Silence makes Roy nervous. Besides, he needs a distraction to<br />
keep his mind off his burning bladder.<br />
He blurts out:<br />
“So—who are they?”<br />
Old guy frowns.<br />
“Who’re who?”<br />
Young Guy thinks.<br />
“Who you said.”<br />
Old Guy shrugs.<br />
“Mean th’ Sons?”<br />
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Young Guy nods.<br />
“Yeah, sure.”<br />
Old Guy smiles.<br />
“Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers.”<br />
Young Guy squeezes.<br />
“OK.”<br />
A smile spreads like a wet stain on Old Guy’s face.<br />
“The Sons… Roy, back when he was Leonard, started ’em<br />
out, along with Bob Nolan an’ Tim Spencer. That was in ’33.<br />
Called themselves th’ Pi<strong>one</strong>er Trio. When they added Hugh an’<br />
Karl Farr they became th’ Sons.”<br />
Roy, his pain under control, is intrigued.<br />
“What is that they do, that that. Yo-de yo-de stuff?”<br />
Old Guy’s smile hardens.<br />
“You mean yodelin’? It’s called yodelin’. You—you never<br />
heard yodelin’ before?”<br />
Roy is filled with regret that he must disappoint Old Guy<br />
again.<br />
“No, sir—but I like it. I like it a lot.”<br />
“Well, that’s good. They were th’ first Western group to use<br />
trio yodelin’. There was nobody like ’em. Never will be again.”<br />
Roy is taking it all in.<br />
“The Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers, huh?”<br />
Now he knows.<br />
The secret wasn’t so big, after all.<br />
Never mind he had to risk his life to find out.<br />
Whoops. Old Guy is saying something.<br />
“Sir?”<br />
“I said—” Old Guy says, sounding like a peeved teacher<br />
addressing a dull student “—what d’you know about your<br />
namesake?”<br />
“Namesake?”<br />
“Roy.” He slows down the pace. “Rogers. Roy Rogers.<br />
King’ve th’ Cowboys.”<br />
Roy shrugs.<br />
“Nothin.”<br />
Old Guy seems bewildered by the news.<br />
He crosses his legs, takes a deep breath, and begins.<br />
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“For more’n thirty years he was th’ biggest sensation in th’<br />
world. His movies were top grossers for twelve years straight.<br />
That’s a record no <strong>one</strong>’s ever broke. He was bigger’n Bing,<br />
bigger’n Sinatra. More pop’lar’n John Wayne. Clark Gable was<br />
his best bud. Any these names ring bells?”<br />
“Yes, sir. Bing Crosby, right? Frank Sinatra. John Wayne I<br />
know. Don’t know the other dude.”<br />
Old Guy snorts.<br />
“Don’t know Gable? How about Franklin Pangborn?”<br />
No.<br />
“Walter Brennan?”<br />
Uh-uh.<br />
“Rodchester?”<br />
Sorry.<br />
Old Guy chews his cud before striking upon a thought.<br />
“Roy’s th’ guy stuffed his horse.”<br />
A light goes on inside Roy’s brain.<br />
“Oooh.”<br />
“Trigger, th’ Wonder Horse.”<br />
Roy cracks a smile.<br />
“Trigger the Wonder Horse.”<br />
Cool.<br />
While they sit, wrapped again in weedy silence, Roy’s knees<br />
bounce.<br />
Old Guy’s eyes follow his bouncing knees, a puckish smile<br />
maturing upon his face.<br />
“How ’bout some milk?”<br />
Roy’s knees stop bouncing.<br />
Did Old Guy just offer him something to drink?<br />
“Uhm.”<br />
But how do you turn down a man with a gun?<br />
He stalls.<br />
“You gotta kitchen?”<br />
Old Guy corrects Roy.<br />
“Ette. Kitchen-ette.”<br />
Roy needs more fluid in him like Rick needs mean lessons.<br />
“Sure.” He hears himself say this as if from far away.<br />
Whatever you want, Old Guy. Just don’t kill me. “Sure.”<br />
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Old Guy keeps on smiling.<br />
He stands and cinches his robe.<br />
Roy was right.<br />
It is a rope.<br />
A rope with a noose tied in it.<br />
The gun slips into a pocket.<br />
“Be right back.”<br />
As if Roy’s going somewhere.<br />
He watches his captor step into the adjoining room, where he<br />
switches on a light.<br />
The room the light reveals is mostly occupied by a bed. It<br />
is a neatly-made bed with a colorful hand-stitched patchwork<br />
counterpane. Bookshelves stand between two doors along the<br />
far wall. Old Guy opens <strong>one</strong> of the doors and switches on a<br />
light. He kneels before a small refrigerator. While he rummages<br />
inside, Roy’s eyes stray back to the bedroom.<br />
The bed rests on an animal-skin rug. On the wall above the<br />
iron pipe headboard is a gun rack. In the gun rack are a bow, a<br />
quiver of arrows, and a rifle like the kind cowboys used to have.<br />
Hanging on another wall is what looks like a giant wooden bong<br />
with feathers attached. The bookshelf is full of all kinds of shit.<br />
A bunch of long, feathered spears lean against <strong>one</strong> corner.<br />
Old Guy is coming back.<br />
He’s carrying two of the biggest glasses of milk Roy’s ever<br />
seen.<br />
They keep getting bigger, the closer he comes.<br />
The pearl handle of his gun sticks out of his robe pocket.<br />
“Here ya go, pardner.”<br />
He hands a vat of milk to Roy.<br />
Then he goes back and switches off the bedroom lights.<br />
Apparently, he likes his place dark.<br />
He also likes his chair.<br />
“Stand up. Switch chairs with me.”<br />
Roy does as he’s told.<br />
Sometimes, when Roy holds in his pee, he gets gas.<br />
He has that now.<br />
Focused on keeping two very personal things inside, he<br />
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manages to sit in the chair previously occupied by Old Guy and<br />
does so without spilling a drop of milk, or releasing anything<br />
personal.<br />
Old Guy sits and emits a long, satisfied sigh.<br />
He missed his chair.<br />
“That’s more like it.”<br />
He peers at Roy—sweating, gaseous Roy—and asks,<br />
“Comfy?”<br />
Apparently, he has switched from captor to host.<br />
Roy—squeezing, retaining Roy—nods.<br />
“OK.”<br />
Old Guy smiles, raises his glass in salute, then takes a swig.<br />
Roy brings the rim of the vast tub of milk to his lips.<br />
He dips in the tip of his tongue.<br />
Good old American cow milk.<br />
His eyes wander across the vat’s vast, white surface to Old<br />
Guy who watches like a cobra, his mustache dripping milk.<br />
Roy takes a stab at a smile, then sips.<br />
Old Guy reaches beside his chair and brings forth a bottle of<br />
Kaluha.<br />
Roy’s eyes goggle.<br />
With a growing sense of unease, he watches Old Guy open the<br />
bottle and pour some of the pitch-black liquid into his own vast<br />
glass of white, turning its contents beige.<br />
He holds the fancy bottle out to Roy.<br />
Roy blows bubbles into his milk.<br />
He shakes his head No Thank You.<br />
Old Guy grins.<br />
“You an alky?”<br />
Roy removes the rim of the glass from the rim of his mouth<br />
long enough to shrug and say,<br />
“I dunno.”<br />
“Drink your milk, then. First put some’ve this shit init.”<br />
Old Guy, remember, still has a gun.<br />
“Trust me.”<br />
And, strangely, Roy does.<br />
Not only does he trust Old Guy, he even drinks some milk.<br />
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The stuff Old Guy’s offering isn’t like tequila, or anything<br />
serious. It’s just what people put into coffee. In fact, he thinks it’s<br />
probably safe enough to give to kids. His Mom and Da used to<br />
give his little bro brandy to shut him up. Brandy is probably like<br />
this stuff. Not hard liquor, like vodka or scotch.<br />
His eyes drift to the flash of white that is the handle of the old<br />
guy’s gun.<br />
It seems unlikely that Old Guy will shoot Roy now, but these<br />
days life is awash with terrible twists and unexpected turns,<br />
jealous rages, snapped nerves, unexpected audits, and so on.<br />
Anything is possible, these days.<br />
He obliges Old Guy and allows him to color his milk beige.<br />
Roy reasons that the seemingly bottomless glass of milk will<br />
serve to dilute the poison he’s poured in.<br />
So it’s unlikely he’ll turn into a werewolf.<br />
When Old Guy seems satisfied with the color of Roy’s milk,<br />
he re-caps the bottle and sets it on the floor beside his stick-shift<br />
chair.<br />
Once again, he lifts his glass in salute.<br />
“Down th’ hatch.”<br />
Roy’s smile is a lie. Brave as he can be, he swallows.<br />
Old Guy smacks his lips.<br />
“Yum. I gotta long-assed sweet tooth. You?”<br />
Roy is unable to reply. He’s too busy experiencing something<br />
new.<br />
Maybe he has a long-assed sweet tooth, too—because this is<br />
some really good shit.<br />
Really, really good.<br />
Shit.<br />
The insistence of his bladder flags; his jack hammer knees<br />
take a breather; his free-floating fear unclenches its fist.<br />
Roy is starting to feel pretty good.<br />
The tricky part will be to keep his private stuff inside.<br />
Table lamps that emit a soft effulgence effulge even further,<br />
ever softer; darkness hugs them, cushions them, provides them<br />
with rest, renders the room into a warm, timeless refuge, a safe<br />
and snug retreat.<br />
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Young Guy looks to Old Guy and realizes in a flash of sudden<br />
insight that he is neither his captor nor his host, but more akin<br />
a brother—a member of the same, flawed, hungry, prideful<br />
tribe; a part of the same pack of fucked-up, prowling miscreants<br />
comprised of artists and rapists, dictators and kings; a part of the<br />
same waves that suzzle the same beach that is the same island<br />
that is the same world that is—<br />
That is—<br />
Is—<br />
Roy’s head buzzes.<br />
He looks at his vast glass and is surprised to find it half-empty.<br />
Or half-full.<br />
As he stares into its caramel depths, he hears clink and is<br />
startled to see the uncapped bottle of the Kaluha’s tar-black neck<br />
tap against the basketball hoop of his glass.<br />
Young Guy holds his glass steady. Wouldn’t want to spill any.<br />
Old Guy pours. And pours.<br />
And pours.<br />
Milk is now the minority ingredient in Roy’s glass.<br />
Milk is now merely a memory.<br />
Old Guy is barely finished before Roy drinks it down.<br />
“Yum.”<br />
He giggles at the sound of his own voice.<br />
Old Guy agrees.<br />
“Yum.”<br />
Why is Old Guy out of focus?<br />
He seems gleeful, does Old Guy. His head nods, and he has a<br />
shit-eating grin a mile wide.<br />
He speaks.<br />
“You are a good boy, Roy.”<br />
Roy agrees with this.<br />
“I’m Roy.”<br />
Old Guy’s voice says,<br />
“Roy.”<br />
Roy wonders if there’s an echo.<br />
He thinks, instead of an echo there should be yodeling.<br />
He giggles.<br />
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“Yodel yodel yeah hee ay.”<br />
Did he just say that?<br />
Sure did. And why not?<br />
Free country, ain’t it?<br />
Whoops. Old Guy is talking.<br />
Better than letting <strong>one</strong> rip.<br />
Seems like he’s been talking awhile, now.<br />
Roy smiles.<br />
Yodel yodel yeah hee ay<br />
“—movies?”<br />
Roy smiles some more. Roy is as good at smiling as his<br />
brother, Rick the Asshole, is at glaring.<br />
Yodel yodel yeah hee ay<br />
Old Guy looks like he’s expecting Roy to say something.<br />
So he does.<br />
“Huh?”<br />
Old Guy shakes his head.<br />
“Do you like cowboy movies?”<br />
Roy considers this for a long, long, long, long, long, long<br />
time—combers suzzle along the beach that is the island that<br />
is his mind where the wind is warm, the sun is bright and on<br />
that bright, shining beach sit the Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers around a<br />
campfire, yodeling.<br />
He shrugs.<br />
“I dunno.”<br />
“Seen many?”<br />
Old Guy again.<br />
When is he going to be Quiet Guy?<br />
“No, sir.”<br />
That ought to shut him up.<br />
But it doesn’t.<br />
Yodel yodel yeah hee ay<br />
“Stop calling me sir all th’ godamned time. Name’s Pete.<br />
Pistol Pete.”<br />
Roy giggles.<br />
Did Old Guy just say his name’s Pistol Pete?<br />
Old Guy seems like a better name.<br />
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It suits him.<br />
Pistol Pete. Isn’t that a cartoon character?<br />
“I’m Roy.”<br />
—Roy Rogers, an’ this here’s my stuffed brother, Rick the<br />
Wonder Motherfucker.<br />
Yodel yodel yeah hee ay<br />
Old guy clears his throat.<br />
Sounds to Roy like it hasn’t been cleared in years.<br />
“See all them bookshelves?”<br />
Noooo, thinks Roy. I do not. I do not see all them<br />
bookshelves.<br />
“I got me over a thousand movies there.” The old Pistol Pete<br />
putters on.<br />
“Really?”<br />
And on.<br />
Yodelyodel<br />
Maybe the echoes are all in his head.<br />
“That’s right,” puddles on porus Old Peter, as if he has<br />
something important to say. “Mostly Westerns. I even have<br />
silents. I have a copy of Ford’s Iron Horse—”<br />
Has he? Really? Woah.<br />
Woadel woadel hay hee ay<br />
Seems Old Guy isn’t ready to be Quiet Guy yet. He goes on<br />
and on, saying something about Westerns are myths and Ford’s a<br />
car, then blahblahblah about Indians and rustlers and settlers—<br />
meanwhile, Roy’s glass is empty, and he wants more yummy,<br />
smack-lipping—<br />
“—but seventies audiences lost interest in that. So, violence<br />
became—”<br />
—he goes on, does Pleasing Pete, Blessed Pete, Sweet Pete,<br />
Gotta Pee Really Bad Pistol Pete, what a funny name, like a<br />
cartoon character—thud<br />
Roy’s glass rolls on the floor.<br />
“Hey. Roy? You still with me?”<br />
Roy nods, then quickly stops himself until the room catches<br />
up.<br />
“You OK, pardner?”<br />
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Roy leans forward, elbows on knees. Knees that are<br />
thankfully still.<br />
“You don’t look so good.”<br />
Roy is not surprised to hear this.<br />
Old Guy stands.<br />
“Here, lemme hep you up.”<br />
Roy feels himself move.<br />
They seem to be headed somewhere.<br />
“You need a nap, son. We can continue this discussion later.”<br />
A door opens. Cool air laves Roy’s baldness.<br />
Next thing, he is standing in the hall.<br />
Behind him, all around him, everywhere in the world in fact,<br />
deadbolts shoot home.<br />
Chains rattle.<br />
The hall shifts in-and-out of focus.<br />
The hall he is standing in.<br />
The hall of the building.<br />
The building in which he lives.<br />
At the end of the shifting hall sways the B THRO M, its narcoleptic<br />
light still snoozing.<br />
Can he make it?<br />
He is standing in the hall.<br />
The hall of the building.<br />
The building in which he lives.<br />
The B THRO M sways.<br />
Yodel yodel yeah hee ay<br />
Can’t get that out of—<br />
The door sways.<br />
Can he make it?<br />
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1 ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
ROY MAKES it.<br />
Afterwards, he makes it into his room.<br />
Then, he makes it into his bed.<br />
And, finally, he makes it into his sleep.<br />
Yippee-i-ay-ti-ay<br />
He snores the snore of the Just, rests the rest of the Pure-of-<br />
Heart, dreams the dreams of the Buckaroo.<br />
Outside the window of his narrow cell, the sky turns blue,<br />
populates with fleecy clouds, white lumps that scud past faster<br />
and faster, alternately shouldering aside the sun—darkening<br />
his room then filling it with light—faster and faster as if film<br />
spooling through a projector that drains out color to black-andwhite<br />
like in the good old days, in the Before Roy Days, back<br />
when campfire shadows told tall tales and men rode white horses<br />
with ten gallon hats on their heads.<br />
Imagine white horses wearing ten gallon hats.<br />
Roy’s feet swing off the bed and fall to the floor.<br />
bang<br />
He prefers sleeping with his boots on.<br />
Intricately-tooled boots. Hand-painted.<br />
He prefers sleeping with his boots on because you never know<br />
when you might get jumped.<br />
He glances out the window at the black-and-white day, then<br />
bends down and ties on the pair of silver spurs he had removed<br />
before bedding down.<br />
He stands.<br />
ching<br />
He is a big man, is Roy. The Navajo call him Wide Shoulders.<br />
The Apache call him Giant Shadow. The Comanche call him<br />
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Long Fellow. All but the Navajo fear him. He can shoot a bird’s<br />
eye out on the wing. He can ride three days without sleep, water<br />
or food. He can track an ant over barren rock. He’s the worst<br />
enemy, and the best friend, a man ever had.<br />
He’s Roy Weston.<br />
King of the Kowboyz.<br />
Roy steps to where hang his fringed cowhide coat and white<br />
Stetson.<br />
ching ching ching<br />
Clouds scud past faster and faster.<br />
He takes his wide-brimmed Texican off the nail that had been<br />
honored to support it throughout the night, and settles it onto<br />
thick, curly hair.<br />
Next comes his heavy leather cowhide coat, fringed and<br />
covered with fancy bead work.<br />
Pinned onto the coat is the badge of a Texas Ranger.<br />
On another honored nearby nail hang his gun and holster—<br />
tooled black leather, silver conchos and a pearl handle.<br />
As he hefts them, a smile creases his handsome face.<br />
Who would he shoot today? Or was that whom?<br />
Maybe he would be the <strong>one</strong> on the receiving end.<br />
The whom who gets shot.<br />
He wraps the heavy belt around his slender waist, buckles up<br />
and ties off the holster.<br />
His hand caresses the Colt.<br />
He slides it out and admires it.<br />
He squints along the hog wallow trough sight, his thumb on<br />
the big hammer.<br />
They say if you pick up a seashell and hold it to your ear you<br />
can hear the ocean’s roar. Roy doesn’t know about this, has<br />
never been to an ocean, has never heard <strong>one</strong> roar. What he does<br />
know is that when he spins the cylinder on his Colt he can hear<br />
ivories tickled in a Dodge City saloon. He can smell wet cattle<br />
herding along the Bozeman Trail. He can taste hot bacon and<br />
black coffee fresh off a campfire in the Montana mountains. He<br />
can feel history stretching back to the beginning of time.<br />
He holsters his gun.<br />
He knots his kerchief.<br />
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He squares his shoulders.<br />
He opens his door.<br />
In the hallway outside his room a brawny cutting horse, black<br />
and white, already saddled, tears at a bale of hay.<br />
The saddle is dazzling, made from hand-tooled black leather<br />
with Indiana silver tapaderos and hip drops, silver breast collar,<br />
martingale and corona pad, and a silver-encrusted cantle and<br />
horn.<br />
The silver-inlaid butt of his Winchester 94 sticks out of an<br />
intricately-tooled scabbard.<br />
The horse sees Roy and shakes her head as if to say Howdy,<br />
boss.<br />
Roy pats her muscular neck.<br />
He picks up the dangling reins and leads her along the hall,<br />
down the stairs and into the muddy street.<br />
As they amble along the sidewalk, Roy tips his hat at female<br />
passersby, and his horse nods courteously to all. At the corner<br />
they stand and wait for the bus.<br />
When it arrives, Roy leads his horse aboard. He starts to<br />
drop coins into the meter but the old, skinny bus driver waves<br />
him away.<br />
“I know who you are. You don’t have to pay—like them.” He<br />
stabs a thumb toward the rear of the bus. The riders are mostly<br />
glowering, unshaven, dirty and mean-looking. “It’s an honor to<br />
have you ride my bus, Ranger Roy.” The old, skinny bus driver<br />
leans closer and whispers, “—and even more of <strong>one</strong> to have you<br />
ride my you-know-what.”<br />
Roy’s eyes widen. He drops the reins and in a flash grabs a<br />
fistful of the old, skinny bus driver’s company blouse and hauls<br />
him aloft until his head smacks the bus’ ceiling.<br />
“The only reason you ain’t dead right now is I ain’t et<br />
breakfast yet, an’ I ain’t never kilt nobody—man, woman, nor<br />
even people like you—on an empty stomach.”<br />
He lowers the quailing driver back into his seat.<br />
“You even look at me in that there mirror, an’ I’m liable to<br />
plug you.”<br />
Roy drops a handful of coins into the meter.<br />
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The old, skinny bus driver sags into his seat, relieved to be<br />
alive.<br />
“Howdy, ma’am.” Roy says this to a matronly woman who<br />
swoons and bats her eyes.<br />
Roy is used to female adoration.<br />
He stands in the aisle swaying with the motion of the bus, <strong>one</strong><br />
hand grasping a chrome pole for support, while his horse nods<br />
fondly at the buckaroos.<br />
When they reach their destination, Roy leans his fringed arm<br />
across a couple of black-clad, pink-haired girls engaged in deepthroat<br />
kissing, and pulls the signal cord.<br />
He and his horse disembark.<br />
They amble along some more—tipping and nodding—and in<br />
no time step onto Mel’s front porch.<br />
Like that they stand in the livingroom.<br />
Roy leads his mount over to <strong>one</strong> of the oil paintings. He<br />
studies it closely.<br />
Cowboys are ranged around a blazing campfire. The two<br />
men in the foreground cook dinner while the <strong>one</strong>s behind are<br />
most like pulling on a bottle, telling yarns.<br />
Roy frowns his disapproval of cowboys who drink.<br />
“Well, well, well! If it isn’t the Galloping Gourmet!”<br />
Mel is drinking a martini out of a soup tureen.<br />
An olive the size of a tennis ball floats inside.<br />
“And look. He brought his darling pet.”<br />
The horse shakes her head.<br />
“It’s so adorable.”<br />
Mel fingers the silver encrusted saddle.<br />
“And quelle butch.”<br />
Rick appears. His shirt is off, revealing his tattoos. He<br />
brandishes a knife and waves it about wildly.<br />
“Anybody in here I can kill?”<br />
Mel, waving Rick aside as if batting a mosquito, stares<br />
pointedly at Roy.<br />
“Your head cold, dearie?”<br />
Roy, realizing his hat is still on, quickly removes it.<br />
“Pardon me, ma’am.”<br />
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Mel flutters and flutes.<br />
“He not only has solid silver coj<strong>one</strong>s, but he’s polite to boot!<br />
And very pretty boots, too, I might add. You could learn from<br />
him, Little Ricky.”<br />
“Fuck you, bitch.”<br />
Mel giggles.<br />
“Five dollars and a health card.”<br />
Roy fiddles with his hat brim.<br />
“Excuse me?”<br />
Mel turns his attention from Rick the pesky mosquito to his<br />
tall, handsome guest.<br />
He displays a warm smile.<br />
“Yes, dear?”<br />
Roy appears uncomfortable.<br />
“Sorry, ma’am, but.” He takes a deep breath. “Well, truth is,<br />
I come for…him.”<br />
He nods in the direction of Rick the Asshole.<br />
Mel appears shocked.<br />
“You did? Whatever for? Not that it’s any of my business,<br />
marshal. Take him, please. I could use some me time.”<br />
Roy’s eyes crinkle with good humor as he corrects Mel.<br />
“Texas Ranger, ma’am.”<br />
Rick crouches and snarls.<br />
“Him? Take me? That’ll be the day! C’mon, bro. Let’s you<br />
and me settle our shit. C’mon, asshole! I’m gonna cut out your<br />
fuckin’ liver and—”<br />
Both Roy and his horse detest foul language.<br />
It is the signature of a lazy mind.<br />
Before he can drop his hat and reach for his gun, Roy’s horse<br />
has spun her backside to Rick and kicked.<br />
The force is enough to send the little fellow flying. He<br />
smacks into a wall and slides to the floor where he sits very still,<br />
temporarily at peace with his inner demons.<br />
A painting falls—<strong>one</strong> Roy has neglected to inspect—loosened<br />
from its nail by Rick’s impact, and is luckily saved from breaking<br />
when it lands on Rick’s head.<br />
“Well!”<br />
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Mel sashays to where Rick is crumpled and rescues the<br />
painting.<br />
He holds it so Roy can see.<br />
“Don’t you just love Frederick Remington?”<br />
Roy steps over for a look.<br />
“Yes, ma’am. Shore is a purdy pitcher.”<br />
Mel glances down at Rick.<br />
“And so is that. You are my hero, Ranger Roy.”<br />
Roy’s horse whinnies and nods.<br />
“Yes, ma’am. I am, for most white people.”<br />
Mel finishes his drink, and takes a big bite of his olive.<br />
“Ank yew, Wanger Woy.”<br />
“You’re welcome, ma’am.”<br />
Roy stoops and lifts his brother’s limp body. With a grunt, he<br />
drops him face down across the silver-encrusted saddle.<br />
He picks up Rick’s head by his greasy hair and bends down to<br />
speak.<br />
“In case I forgot to tell ya, li’l bro—yore under arrest.” He<br />
releases his handful of hair and allows Rick’s unconscious head<br />
to fall, his nose smashing against a silver medallion of Cochise.<br />
Roy wipes his greasy hand on Rick’s pants. To no-<strong>one</strong> in<br />
particular, he says, “His days of rustlin’ and menacin’ these parts<br />
here ’bouts’re over. I ’spect ’fore long he’ll be dancin’ at the<br />
end’ve a rope.”<br />
He drops his white hat back onto his curly hair.<br />
He nods to Mel.<br />
“Ma’am.”<br />
Then he leads his horse and pris<strong>one</strong>r back to the bus stop.<br />
Mel fans herself to keep from fainting.<br />
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The Old Cowboy dropped his scarred<br />
warbags onto the brass bed and sighed.<br />
He eyed the bed suspiciously.<br />
“Sure hope you ain’t ticky.”<br />
There was a rocking chair in the room. Beside it, a small washstand<br />
with a ceramic basin and water jug. Above this hung a mirror, its silver<br />
backing flaked away enough to see the wallpaper through its glass. Beneath<br />
the bed was a ceramic slop jar. Along its rim cherubs played harps.<br />
He unbuckled and coiled his gunbelt, then sat heavily in the creaky<br />
rocking chair.<br />
The gunbelt rested on his lap like a dozing rattlesnake.<br />
The word would get around.<br />
He slid off a boot and dropped it to the floor.<br />
A knife was strapped to his ankle. He removed this and set it on the<br />
washstand.<br />
Word always gets around when you’re fast.<br />
He removed his other boot and it joined its mate.<br />
As with hunting, sometimes the best way to find what you’re looking for<br />
is to sit and let it come to you.<br />
He removed his hat, started to toss it onto the bed, thought better of it,<br />
and dropped it to the floor beside him instead.<br />
Best not to tempt fate.<br />
He rocked, eyes closed, listening to the rhythmic creaking of the chair’s<br />
arthritic joints.<br />
After a while his eyes opened and lighted on his bags. He set his gunbelt<br />
on the floor beside his hat and stood. From inside <strong>one</strong> of the bags he pulled a<br />
book and took it with him back to the chair.<br />
He resumed rocking.<br />
The book was cracked and foxed and worn from years of fingering. On<br />
its black cover faded gold leaf announced Holy Bible.<br />
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He opened to the first page and peered into the blue curlicues of an old<br />
woman’s handwriting. He ran a finger along the genealogy his mother<br />
had troubled herself to preserve. It always ended the same, with him and<br />
his brother and sister. His sister had long ago been torn from life by the<br />
Hostilities, that same war that took his mother and father and destroyed his<br />
boyhood and turned his brother into a killer.<br />
He riffled to the back of the book, where a small envelope lodged. His<br />
face assumed a gloomy expression as he opened it and poured out a lock of<br />
coppery hair. He held the strands to the light and studied their refracted<br />
color at length before returning them to their repository and replacing it inside<br />
the Bible.<br />
He leaned back and reflected.<br />
Sherman’s army, in its march to the sea, had traveled through the sunbrowned<br />
countryside of Georgia, devastating the land for miles in its passing.<br />
The Old Cowboy’s father, an impulsive Irishman, had volunteered to<br />
enlist with the Confederate army, an act that was to be his undoing, leaving<br />
behind a desperate and destitute widow with three children to feed.<br />
Upon the occasion of his enlistment, their father had left them with work<br />
stock that consisted of two yoke of oxen and three cows.<br />
Nearby where they lived was a wild canebreak in which the cattle fed,<br />
several hundred acres in extent, and about a half mile from their farm so that<br />
it was necessary to bell the cows to locate them easily. His mother had been<br />
alerted to the advance of Sherman’s troops and, since a soldier can hear a bell<br />
as well as any<strong>one</strong>, she had her children remove them from the animals, save<br />
for <strong>one</strong> ox that was belled each evening.<br />
It was appointed to him to set off into that canebreak each day before<br />
dawn to find the bellwether and remove its bell, lest advancing troops hear it<br />
and deprive them of their livestock.<br />
He would spend the remainder of the day keeping watch over them as<br />
their shepherd.<br />
In the beginning, when mounted foraging parties passed their <strong>one</strong> room<br />
cabin, they were left unmolested, the poverty of their farm being all too<br />
apparent.<br />
Meanwhile, by day and by night, cotton gins and plantation houses were<br />
given to the flames.<br />
His vigil had been trying for <strong>one</strong> so young, barely ten years old, but the<br />
importance of his job was thoroughly impressed upon his mind by the fear<br />
in his mother’s eyes. Food was secretly brought to him and, under cover of<br />
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darkness, his mother and brother would come and milk the cows. Only then<br />
would they all return home together.<br />
For his enjoyment, but mostly edification, his mother had pressed upon<br />
him her Bible.<br />
One afternoon, about the middle of the third week, he grew hungry<br />
and crept to the edge of the canebreak in the hope of spying his brother or<br />
sister bringing him his lunch. Instead, what he discovered were soldiers<br />
standing before their log cabin. He stood like a st<strong>one</strong> statue, his concealment<br />
being perfect. Mounted men surrounded the cabin, and he could make out<br />
his mother speaking to <strong>one</strong> of the blue-suited troopers, his sister standing<br />
partially obscured behind her.<br />
His older brother was nowhere to be seen.<br />
He could tell by his mother’s stance, and her desperate gesticulating, that<br />
she was agitated and afraid. He could not hear a word of their exchange<br />
until the trooper turned and stepped off their porch, signaling to his men to<br />
dismount. Even then, he could not distinguish the words that were spoken.<br />
Events after that occurred quickly. A trooper advanced upon the<br />
frightened women and in an instant withdrew his sidearm and shot them<br />
both dead. Meanwhile, another trooper was setting alight a pitch stick.<br />
Once this was sufficiently blazing, he threw it onto their roof where it<br />
speedily consumed the thatch. In hardly any time, their secure little home—<br />
all the world he had ever known—was g<strong>one</strong>.<br />
G<strong>one</strong> too were his mother, his sister, and his brother.<br />
Terrified, he wanted to do something, but he was a child and they were<br />
men, and there were many of them, and he had no weapon about him but his<br />
wits. Then the lesson taught him by his mother, of being “faithful over a<br />
few things” flashed through his mind. He crept away from the horrific scene<br />
and returned to his duties with the cattle.<br />
They had taken everything else; he was damned if they would have their<br />
cattle.<br />
After the troopers left, and their cabin was rendered into ashes, he<br />
crept out of the canebreak to bury his mother and sister. About that time<br />
a company of folk happened along, neighbors headed for Texas with a<br />
single wagon tied to two mules. The men helped dig the graves, then stood<br />
mute and respectful as he cried and prayed. They then offered more than<br />
what later he would realize was a fair price for the herd, m<strong>one</strong>y which he<br />
gratefully accepted, as well their offer to accompany them on their journey<br />
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westward to the land of Texas. With no family, and feeling beholden for<br />
their kindnesses, he accepted the offer and left behind forever the world of his<br />
boyhood.<br />
Years would drift by and he would think often of his brother, and of what<br />
became of him, and why he had not been present to defend his mother and<br />
sister.<br />
In time, wanted posters and mistaken identities would convince him his<br />
brother still lived, and thus would he begin to search for the sole relative in<br />
the world with whom he shared memories and blood.<br />
He supposed his mother would have liked it better if, besides simply<br />
carrying around her Good Book, he committed to live by its teachings. But<br />
over years of wandering and drifting, he had unintentionally become like<br />
what he imagined his brother to be—an untamed rogue with too fast a gun,<br />
and unrepenting when he used it.<br />
The main difference between him and his brother lay in the fact that he<br />
did not savor the act of killing, as it seemed his brother did. Nor did he go<br />
looking for trouble. His skills with six-shooter and rifle had been acquired<br />
by necessity, as acts of survival. The Great War taught him that a man<br />
could change loyalties as easily as removing a dirty shirt. Also, that staring<br />
a man down with cold, flat eyes wasn’t an acquirement of nature so much as<br />
it was an attitude, the consequence of discipline.<br />
Just like riding a horse or drawing an inside straight.<br />
He flipped to a dog-eared page in Exodus he discovered <strong>one</strong> day riding<br />
herd many years before, and ran his finger down to the passage he had<br />
committed to memory:<br />
Our cattle shall also go with us;<br />
There shall not an hoof be left behind;<br />
For thereof must we take to serve the<br />
Lord our God; and we know not with<br />
What we must serve the Lord, until we<br />
come thither.<br />
He reck<strong>one</strong>d there had been a species of Cowboy even back in those old,<br />
Biblical days.<br />
He smiled at this, then closed his eyes and was soon fast asleep.<br />
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ROY WORRIES<br />
the loose change in his pocket before ordering a second cup of<br />
coffee.<br />
This act constitutes the first time Roy has ever had two<br />
double-tall Americanos on the same day.<br />
But, then, this also constitutes the first time he has ever had a<br />
hangover.<br />
As any bartender can tell you, there are a wide variety<br />
of hangovers available to the common man, and each and<br />
every sort of imbibable intoxicant known produces its own<br />
physiological reaction, or hangover. Although cures abound—<br />
from sipping sauerkraut juice to a nip of the hair of the dog to<br />
chasing chickens in freezing rain—n<strong>one</strong> is guaranteed to work.<br />
Once the proverbial cat has been permitted out of its bag—as<br />
is now the case with Roy—there are, in the main, only two<br />
courses of action available: <strong>one</strong> is to return to the original nondrinking<br />
state as soon as possible, the other to press ahead full<br />
throttle, now the damage is d<strong>one</strong>, with fortitude and unbridled<br />
curiosity as mainstays and guiding lights.<br />
Given that, until now, he has always chosen the path less<br />
traveled, it’s too soon to say down which of these roads Roy will<br />
travel. In fact, this looming decision is not at all what concerns<br />
him as he sips his second steaming cup. Nor is he concerned<br />
about where to acquire his next alcoholic fix, or what enticing<br />
new label he ought to try—instead, all he can think of (besides<br />
how to reduce the depth and breadth of his pulsating head) is<br />
where can he purchase an album by the Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers?<br />
His current degraded state seems a fair trade-off for this<br />
succulent bit of information.<br />
As has been stated, Seattle abounds in music stores, so the fact<br />
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he has been eighty-sixed from two is hardly cause for alarm. He<br />
knows there are at least sixteen more on Capitol Hill al<strong>one</strong>. And<br />
so, pockets stuffed with twenties, it is to this neighborhood—if<br />
so felicitous a term may be applied to such a place—that his feet<br />
now direct him.<br />
He alights from the bus onto Roy—his favorite eponymous<br />
street—to paddle against the human flotsam and jetsam of<br />
Broadway.<br />
L.A. has Rodeo Drive; New York has Times Square; London<br />
has Piccadilly—all are but hopeful aspirants to Broadway<br />
Ave, on Seattle’s Capitol Hill. Here you will find everything<br />
conceivable to make human karma bearable, h<strong>one</strong> <strong>one</strong>’s aura,<br />
clothe <strong>one</strong>’s inked flesh, and just plain feel good about being <strong>one</strong>’s<br />
tolerant self.<br />
All along the Ave, rugged, bearded, pierced musicians strum<br />
acoustic guitars and sing songs about scarcity and leaking hearts<br />
and the filaments of untethered dreams.<br />
Roy pays n<strong>one</strong> of them a flicker of attention—his is a brain<br />
otherwise occupied. His is a brain into whose chewy nougat<br />
center, with each jarring step he takes, a pile driver pounds.<br />
His is a brain temporarily ill-disposed to concentrated effort,<br />
coherent ideation, or efficient, rational thinking.<br />
Not to mention bright colors, loud noises and sudden<br />
movements.<br />
Besides being hung over and drinking two double-tall<br />
Americanos, Roy is doing another thing that is almost without<br />
precedent—he is not wearing his headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
As a result, his ears are cold.<br />
On the bus ride he had tried to listen to the Sons—Old Guy<br />
had returned his tape, his tape—but their angelic music only<br />
served to underscore the morbidity of his condition.<br />
He wonders if this is how Rick feels every day.<br />
If so, then his meanness makes perfect sense.<br />
Even Roy, sweet Roy, as he stumps along artfully selfconscious<br />
Broadway Ave, in the midst of hip-hop and unabashed<br />
consumer blare, along a sidewalk crowded by lesbians with<br />
attitudes—bobbing and weaving through ill-mannered people in<br />
all manner of habiliment, from kilts to Gothic black, from saris<br />
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to leotards, from hair spiked to hair dreadlocked to candy pink to<br />
half-shaved away—even Roy, sweet Roy, has occasional thoughts<br />
of violence.<br />
It is easy for him to ignore people; after all, he’s been having it<br />
d<strong>one</strong> to him his whole life. And, although he is generally kindly<br />
disposed to those who live in want, need and squalor—and<br />
especially in cardboard boxes—there is something suspect about<br />
the panhandlers who line Broadway Ave, something that makes<br />
it seem like a sideline, or avocation.<br />
Begging, in his humble opinion, is not trendy and ought not to<br />
be a hobby.<br />
Roy keeps his hands in his pockets—his change therein<br />
reserved for double-tall Americanos and Juke Boxes and the<br />
occasional parking meter—his brain charged with the singleminded<br />
task of getting his feet into the nearest music store.<br />
He pushes through the doors of CD Land Music, exchanging<br />
the hubbub of beggary for the ecology of merchandising.<br />
A young, male employee greets him with a cheery smile.<br />
“Help you find something today?”<br />
The door has barely closed and already they are upon him.<br />
Roy is startled by this intrusion.<br />
Through bagged, bleary eyes he stares.<br />
Time, as always, ticks away. Meanwhile, Roy’s brain switches<br />
tracks, having discharged its original commission (i.e., getting<br />
him into a music store) successfully. With hardly a moment to<br />
bask in self-congratulation, he stares at this new, unexpected<br />
hurdle.<br />
Through bagged, bleary eyes he stares.<br />
The young male employee he stares at so baggily and blearily<br />
has yet to cease smiling.<br />
He—it is unquestionably a he—has chosen to stretch his<br />
earlobes to accept silver dollar-sized plugs. His rolled-up sleeves<br />
expose forearms alive with imagery, ablaze with rich greens and<br />
vibrant reds. Metal rings seem to cinch his eyebrows together,<br />
and his hair is braided into a fuzzy rope.<br />
He continues to smile cheerily at Roy despite the fact Roy has<br />
so far failed to return the favor.<br />
People can be like this.<br />
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Smiling Guy deals with them every day.<br />
If it were up to him, non-smilers like Roy would be ejected<br />
and eighty-sixed.<br />
To him, Roy appears to be potentially dangerous, a lout<br />
capable of pilferage and plunder, of dawdling and defiance.<br />
Yet, cheerily he smiles.<br />
“Looking for something special today?”<br />
As a matter of fact, Roy is looking for something very special<br />
today. Something very special indeed.<br />
But should he share this news with this pigmented, perforated<br />
stranger?<br />
“S-Sure.” He offers this admission uncertainly. “Ever hear of<br />
the—”<br />
Smiling Guy continues to smile.<br />
Every day he does this—sizes people up. He loves guessing<br />
what they listen to.<br />
Take this bald dude.<br />
He guesses his new customer is a headbanger. He appears<br />
to have had his brains removed by some process or other, and<br />
headbanging is a fairly commonplace technique these days.<br />
True, he may seem a bit long in the tooth for a mosh pit, but<br />
from the look of his eyes and his need for deodorant, he feels he<br />
can’t be too far wrong.<br />
Imagine his surprise when Roy completes his sentence.<br />
“—Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers?”<br />
Smiling Guy, typically contemptuous, perennially smug,<br />
is taken off-guard. His smile fades a fraction and his studied<br />
demeanor cracks just enough to expose a glimmer of lost little<br />
boy.<br />
But adulthood takes its toll on innocence. Quickly enough, he<br />
restoreth his smile, and leads his new customer down the path of<br />
Consumerism.<br />
“Sure.”<br />
“Cool,” opines Roy.<br />
Smiling Guy—his composure completely restored, his<br />
smugness tiptoeing back—tells Roy,<br />
“This way.”<br />
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And leads him to a far-off, seldom visited region of the store.<br />
The sign above this far-off region reads:<br />
COUNTRY WESTERN<br />
Roy’s brain sends his face a signal of confusion.<br />
“Here you go, man.”<br />
Smiling Guy flips through the CDs filed under S.<br />
Roy hates Country Western.<br />
It’s not even music, as far as he’s concerned.<br />
Why would they put the Sons here?<br />
“These are all we have.”<br />
The way Smiling Guy says this sounds to Roy like these not<br />
only are all they have, but all they will ever have, and that having<br />
them in the first place was just this huge mistake.<br />
“Peace.”<br />
Smiling Guy takes his solid-gold smile elsewhere.<br />
Roy’s soft belly presses against the CD cabinet.<br />
His hands fidget with anticipation.<br />
And then it hits him.<br />
A thought he had not thought to think before now.<br />
And the thought that bruises his exultant mood is this—: he<br />
doesn’t own a CD player.<br />
He couldn’t listen to these CDs if he wanted to.<br />
And he wants to. Very much.<br />
Very much, indeed.<br />
Roy’s brain, naturally lackluster, now hung over, fuzzes and<br />
fills with white noise. The blood in his face drains away, leaving<br />
him ashen and gray.<br />
It takes a while, standing al<strong>one</strong> in this far-off region of the<br />
store—feeling as if there is a bull’s eye painted on the back<br />
of his head—but, eventually, Roy’s brain figures out it has<br />
three options: it can (a) make its body walk out empty-handed,<br />
(b) stimulate its body’s vocal cords to inquire of the smiling<br />
pincushion if he has the Sons in tape format, or (c) cause its body<br />
to buy a CD player and join the crowd.<br />
There may even be a fourth or fifth option, but if so Roy’s<br />
brain has no idea what these are.<br />
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Roy clutches his stack of CDs.<br />
There are at least fifteen other music stores on Capitol Hill,<br />
but he knows he will encounter the same thing, no matter where<br />
he goes.<br />
It has become a CD world.<br />
A grim Roy produces a glum shrug.<br />
He is saddened at the thought of having to let go of a<br />
technology that has, for so many years, stood him in good stead.<br />
After all, tapes are easy to slip into your pocket. Of course, on<br />
the other hand, tapes stretch and distort and snap in two and<br />
melt in the sun. Whereas CDs, although they too can melt, do<br />
not stretch, distort or snap in two. Manufacturers of CDs claim<br />
their product lasts forever, that they do not scratch or skip, like<br />
vinyl. In fact—unlike LPs or tapes—CDs never have to be<br />
flipped over.<br />
And they hold tons more music.<br />
The pluses add up. CDs makes sense.<br />
So, what falls on the minus side?<br />
When Roy thinks of portable CD players he thinks of trim,<br />
blonde girls in tight Lycra clutching tiny weights, hair held back<br />
by fluffy bands, their perfectly white running shoes tapping the<br />
tidy jogging path that encompasses Greenlake.<br />
But what, in all fairness, is the difference between blonde girls<br />
wearing CD players and him wearing a Sony tape player?<br />
The answer: technology.<br />
The technology of his tape player is emotionally charged.<br />
It represents the way things have always been d<strong>one</strong> in his life.<br />
Losing it would be like turning his back on his personal history.<br />
It would be a form if capitulation to capitalism—as if told by a<br />
giant corporation what to do. It would undermine his effort to<br />
remain singular and individual, perhaps even affect his standing<br />
outside the herd.<br />
Pariahville is a tough town.<br />
Add to that, he would never find things like bootlegged<br />
versions of illegally-taped concerts on CD.<br />
(Or would he?)<br />
It’s not like they’re going to make him surrender his Sony, just<br />
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ecause he buys a CD player. It’s not like they’re going to make<br />
him buy a matching cell ph<strong>one</strong> and download ring t<strong>one</strong>s by Van<br />
Morrison. He can have the best of both worlds. He can still be<br />
Roy Weston. Only a Roy Weston who can listen to what’s on a<br />
CD, as well as to what’s on a tape.<br />
Roy is reaching another Big Deal Decision in his life. And he<br />
is doing it with a hangover.<br />
He seems to be getting better at it.<br />
Making Big Deal Decisions, that is.<br />
He squares his shoulders and nods decisively.<br />
After all, he has tons of m<strong>one</strong>y and no <strong>one</strong> to spend it on but<br />
himself. He’s worked hard all his life. He deserves a treat.<br />
It’s time to find the pincushion guy.<br />
At the glass counter, where the cash register sits, Roy bends<br />
on popping knees and stares at the CD players arrayed on a<br />
shelf inside. They all look pretty much alike. He starts to feel<br />
panicky. Maybe he’d better get out of here—fast. Before it’s too<br />
late. Before—<br />
He looks around for someplace he can leave his stack of CDs.<br />
“You need some help down there?”<br />
Roy’s head snaps up and he finds himself looking into a pair<br />
of violet eyes.<br />
What happened to Smiling Guy?<br />
The violet eyes belong to a girl who doesn’t seem to have any<br />
piercings or tattoos.<br />
What she has instead are breasts.<br />
Two of them.<br />
And they seem capable of independent thought.<br />
They inhabit her loose, billowy white blouse like a pair of<br />
partying hamsters.<br />
Pinned to her loose, billowy white blouse is a black plastic<br />
nametag. It proclaims its mistress to be Debi.<br />
Roy manages to choke out this single word:<br />
“N-No.”<br />
As if to emphasize its root meaning, he shakes his head.<br />
Debi displays a dazzling smile.<br />
She had been lounging against the counter, peering down<br />
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upon Roy’s gleaming baldness before he noticed her. Now<br />
that he has feasted his eyes on her, and uttered his single, solid<br />
monosyllable, she stands.<br />
Her unfettered breasts caper and frolic.<br />
“You sure? We’re having a big, big sale.”<br />
Roy tries to recall if he has ever seen violet eyes before.<br />
“OK.”<br />
Much less breasts that caper and frolic.<br />
Damn. That was a mistake. He shouldn’t have said OK.<br />
Roy is annoyed. Roy is resigned. He knows an unwanted<br />
conversation has begun.<br />
“A whopping thirty percent off!” Debi’s breasts thrash about,<br />
excited by this news. “Buy <strong>one</strong>, get <strong>one</strong> free!”<br />
Briefly, Roy wonders if she means her breasts.<br />
He looks from Debi’s stack to his own. He holds six CDs—oh,<br />
she meant buy <strong>one</strong> CD, get <strong>one</strong> CD free—so he’ll only have to<br />
pay for three. And he gets a CD player at a whopping thirty<br />
percent off.<br />
Debi bats her violet eyes.<br />
Debi knows exactly what Roy’s thinking.<br />
Debi dimples.<br />
But Debi doesn’t say another word.<br />
She knows the next <strong>one</strong> who speaks, loses.<br />
She also knows all about her violet eyes, sees them every<br />
morning in the mirror as she studiously avoids applying makeup.<br />
She’s aware of her perfect complexion and to-die-for nose, has<br />
but to close her eyes to bring to mind the fetching lines of her<br />
profile. She’s <strong>one</strong> of the Lucky Ones. She perfectly fits the<br />
currently-desirable body type for girls. Her limbs are long and<br />
slender, and her ass is practically a boy’s (every morning she<br />
struggles into skintight pants to show it off).<br />
And, almost as an afterthought—a sort of libidinal<br />
lagniappe—the Good Lord has seen fit to throw in a brace of<br />
perky breasts.<br />
She is what every man desires, but n<strong>one</strong> may have.<br />
For, Debi is a lesbian.<br />
Roy stacks his CDs on the counter. The cellophane that<br />
wraps them is moist from his sweaty palms.<br />
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It’s too late to turn tail now. He’s going to have to go through<br />
with it.<br />
He just can’t look at her violet eyes.<br />
Or gamboling breasts.<br />
Instead, his eyes rummage through the cabinet.<br />
“How much are they?”<br />
Debi holds her smile steady. This might be tricky. Usually,<br />
people at least pretend they can afford what they’re looking at. On<br />
the other hand, she likes to recall the story her daddy told her as<br />
they walked along the beach near Carmel, holding hands. He<br />
had been a salesman all his life. As a young man just starting<br />
out, living in Oklahoma, there had been two car dealerships<br />
in town, right across the street from <strong>one</strong> another. One day, an<br />
old coot walked into <strong>one</strong> of the dealerships and sat down. The<br />
way her daddy told the story was funny, but she was no good at<br />
telling things and making them funny. Still, she always smiles<br />
when she recalls the way her daddy described the man. He said<br />
he was “greasy and grimy and wore rubber boots.” And that he<br />
sat there and told the salesman who didn’t want to talk to him<br />
that he was there to buy a fleet of cars. The salesman laughed<br />
at the old coot, convinced it was a practical joke, then sent him<br />
packing. The greasy, grimy old guy in rubber boots was pissed.<br />
He walked across the street to the other dealership and bought<br />
fourteen brand new Coup de Villes.<br />
And paid cash.<br />
Debi always remembers this story when guys like Roy come<br />
in.<br />
And sometimes when she thinks of the story she also thinks<br />
how ironic it is that the girls who turn her on are greasy, grimy<br />
and totally into rubber.<br />
Debi gazes into the top of Roy’s head as if seeking her<br />
reflection.<br />
“Depends on the features.”<br />
Features?<br />
Roy just wants it to play CDs.<br />
“I mean—d’you want it to read MP3 compression? D’you<br />
want G-Protection? Or a remote? D’you want it to play CD-<br />
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R as well as CD-RW? If you plan on jogging, I suggest G-<br />
Protection. It’ll keep it from skipping.”<br />
Roy wonders if he looks like a jogger to Debi.<br />
He shrugs.<br />
“I just want—”<br />
Debi’s tiny, white teeth nibble at her plush bottom lip.<br />
“I know, I know. It can be a little confusing.” She’s dialing<br />
into his vibe. “Why can’t it just be simple? I mean, who the fuck<br />
needs all the bells and whistles, right?” She unlocks and slides<br />
open the cabinet. “Here. This is the last <strong>one</strong> of these I have in<br />
the store. I think it’s exactly what you want.” She removes a<br />
blue CD player from the case and sets it on the glass top. “It’s<br />
a display model so I don’t have a box for it. I think I can talk<br />
Jack here—” tattooed, pierced, braided Smiling Guy sits within<br />
easy earshot reading a paperback book by some<strong>one</strong> named Og<br />
Mandino “—into letting me take off another ten—maybe, fifteen<br />
percent?”<br />
Smiling Jack nods.<br />
Debi’s in the groove.<br />
The store is stuck with a dozen of these shitty Chinese CD<br />
players nobody wants and they can’t return.<br />
Roy picks it up, turns it over once or twice.<br />
Debi watches him closely.<br />
“Here, let me show you.”<br />
In taking the CD player from Roy, their fingers brush.<br />
Roy quickly relinquishes the player, and just as quickly crosses<br />
his arms.<br />
He watches Debi pop in some batteries. She opens the blue<br />
shell and looks around behind the counter.<br />
“Now…what do we have?”<br />
Her eyes—as planned—fall upon Roy’s stack of CDs.<br />
She smiles and crinkles her nose<br />
“Let’s just use <strong>one</strong> of these.” She picks up the top <strong>one</strong> and<br />
pretends not to read the cover.<br />
God, the shit people listen to.<br />
Unlike Roy, and every<strong>one</strong> else, she easily slits open the CD’s<br />
wrapper, and releases the shiny disk.<br />
Into the player it goes.<br />
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Roy moistens his lips.<br />
The image of a double-tall Americano drifts through his<br />
mind.<br />
Debi snaps the player closed and presents him with<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
Roy slowly unfolds his arms and just as slowly takes the<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s from her.<br />
They are not like the headph<strong>one</strong>s he is used to.<br />
For <strong>one</strong> thing, they are not foam-covered.<br />
For another thing, they fit inside his ear.<br />
Roy does not wish to introduce anything into his ears.<br />
“You know—” Debi’s all over it “—I hate earbuds, too. Here.<br />
This is what I use.”<br />
She pulls open a drawer and extracts a pair of silver edition<br />
Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
“These fuckin’ kill. Try ’em.”<br />
She unplugs the earbuds and plugs in the killer Bose.<br />
“Go on.”<br />
She prompts him with a pearly smile.<br />
Roy studies the Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
Great. Another decision.<br />
And as he studies them his chest fills with dread. What is he<br />
getting himself into now?<br />
Slowly, uncertainly, he clamps them over his ears.<br />
He can’t hear a thing.<br />
Debi’s lips are moving.<br />
Roy notices this and shrugs.<br />
Debi presses PLAY.<br />
Roy grabs the counter to steady himself.<br />
It’s like—<br />
It’s like nothing—<br />
It’s like nothing he’s ever heard—<br />
How many times has he sneered at people who walked around<br />
wearing big, expensive headph<strong>one</strong>s?<br />
Now he understands.<br />
Now he gets it.<br />
He scans the CD liner notes to see what he’s listening to.<br />
The Sons are singing The Cattle Call.<br />
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Their voices are deep and rich and clear and and—<br />
Angelic.<br />
How has he managed to live so long without this?<br />
It is such a splendid, world-altering experience—he almost<br />
feels like crying.<br />
But, of course, he can’t.<br />
Debi is watching.<br />
Debi and her violet eyes.<br />
Debi and her antic chest-hamsters.<br />
She presses STOP.<br />
But Roy doesn’t want it to stop.<br />
Please don’t make the music stop.<br />
He doesn’t want to take off the Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s, either.<br />
He wants to keep on listening to the Sons.<br />
Debi is talking again.<br />
Reluctantly, Roy uncovers his ears.<br />
“—in two colors. I think they’re the best ’ph<strong>one</strong>s m<strong>one</strong>y can<br />
buy, and they’re not that expensive, since they’re on sale.”<br />
Roy is not about to spend m<strong>one</strong>y on a new pair of<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
But it is clearly his voice that asks,<br />
“How much?”<br />
Debi spins to Smiling Jack.<br />
“Jack, can I give this dude a deal if he buys a player and some<br />
CDs?”<br />
Jack looks up from his book and burns another smile into their<br />
retinas.<br />
“Sure, Deb—but only this time, OK?”<br />
Debi’s ponytail bounces.<br />
“Cool, Jack.”<br />
Roy is wondering if her name can be shortened any further<br />
when she returns with her sparkling smile and says,<br />
“Well?”<br />
Before Roy knows what he’s saying, he’s saying,<br />
“OK.”<br />
Debi beams. She always saves the best part of her smile for<br />
the Close.<br />
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“You won’t regret it.”<br />
Roy presents her with a weak smile.<br />
Debi’s wrong. He already regrets it.<br />
Encouraged by his weak smile—by any reaction at all,<br />
really—she spurs him towards the finish line.<br />
“You’ll love ’em.”<br />
Yes, he probably will.<br />
She never even had to tell him how much they cost.<br />
“And that color looks smashing on you.”<br />
Roy feels utterly lost standing before Debi’s unrestrained<br />
breasts and violet eyes.<br />
She sets about totaling everything.<br />
Roy thinks Debi’s right about the color. He likes it, too.<br />
He returns them to his ears, picks up the player and presses<br />
PLAY.<br />
Again, the auditorium of his head is filled with rich, vibrant<br />
tunes—baselines he’s never imagined possible. Trebles that strike<br />
just right. His headache takes a powder and eases into a chaise<br />
longue. A deeply satisfied Roy looks around the store. The place<br />
is empty except for him, Debi, and Smilin’ Jack.<br />
And, of course, the Sons of the Pi<strong>one</strong>ers.<br />
The Sons, who have breathed back life into Roy’s smile.<br />
As Debi totes and Jack reads, Roy smiles and the front door<br />
opens and a new dude enters.<br />
Roy notices the new dude and stops smiling. His eyes enlarge.<br />
Rick!<br />
How?<br />
Why?<br />
Fundamental, unanswered questions about our Universe.<br />
Their eyes lock. Roy’s jaw sags.<br />
Debi is talking again.<br />
Not only can’t he hear her, he can’t see her, either.<br />
He only has eyes for Rick.<br />
Rick stares hard at his big brother as he crosses the room<br />
towards him.<br />
Roy hastily presses PAUSE.<br />
Debi continues to talk.<br />
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Does Debi ever shut up?<br />
Roy uncovers his ears.<br />
“—ash or credit?”<br />
Rick now stands beside Roy.<br />
He sneers up at his bro.<br />
The big teddybear.<br />
Guy with the golden heart.<br />
“Yeah, bro, what I was wonderin’. Cash or credit?”<br />
Debi is waiting.<br />
Jack is waiting.<br />
Rick is waiting, too.<br />
Rick has lately taken to slicking back his hair into an oldtimey<br />
ducktail. He wears it this way now. His ball-bearing eyes<br />
drill into Roy.<br />
Roy doesn’t want Rick to know how much m<strong>one</strong>y he has.<br />
Debi’s smile, although adorable, is not as seas<strong>one</strong>d as Smiling<br />
Jack’s.<br />
It starts to wither.<br />
“Everything OK here?”<br />
Jack’s back.<br />
He’s brought with him his book and his smile.<br />
“Fine, Jack,” snaps Debi.<br />
God, she hates men.<br />
She so doesn’t need Jack’s shit.<br />
The crap she has to put up with.<br />
Like, take her High School sweetheart who shot himself after<br />
she told him she was bi or gay or whatever.<br />
Men are such stupid, selfish assholes.<br />
Debi wants Roy to do something. It’s not like she has all day.<br />
Even though, technically, she has.<br />
“Well, Roy? She ain’t got all day.”<br />
Rick leers at Debi’s frisking jugs.<br />
“Sure I do,” says Debi, rekindling her smile. “It’s cool.”<br />
“How much he owe yah?”<br />
This from gum-popping little Ricky.<br />
It’s been so long, Debi’s quite forgot.<br />
Her eyes coast over to the cash register, then cruise back<br />
again.<br />
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“With tax, it comes to $188.97.”<br />
“Woah,” responds Rick. “You must be loaded, Roy.”<br />
Roy’s headache returns.<br />
It’s more m<strong>one</strong>y than he wanted to spend, to say the least.<br />
Not that he doesn’t have it.<br />
He just doesn’t want Rick to know he does.<br />
His right, woolen, glove-covered hand makes a move towards<br />
his pocket.<br />
Three pairs of eyes follow.<br />
Roy’s fingertips make contact with his cash.<br />
He has brought exactly ten twenties with him, for no reason<br />
other than chance.<br />
Unless, of course, there is no such thing as chance.<br />
So, he can afford a new player, new CDs, and new<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
Major upgrades to his life.<br />
But can he afford Rick knowing he can afford them?<br />
The headph<strong>one</strong>s, having made it to the honored place around<br />
Roy’s neck, purr contentedly.<br />
They are happy with their new owner, and he is happy with<br />
them.<br />
Reluctantly, he extracts the greenbacks and drops them onto<br />
the counter.<br />
Crisis averted, Smiling Jack deepens his already considerable<br />
smile and exits the scene, returns with his book to his nearby<br />
chair.<br />
Score another <strong>one</strong> for Debi.<br />
“Cool.”<br />
She grabs the cash and exults—eleven more cheesy Chinese<br />
players to go. If she gets rid of them all, Jack has promised to<br />
wash and wax her car.<br />
Rick studies the dozing Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s around Roy’s neck.<br />
“Big shit now.”<br />
Debi opens the register, which causes her breasts to frolic.<br />
Rick leers as she counts out Roy’s change.<br />
“You want a bag for those?”<br />
She indicates Roy’s new CDs with the tip of her finely chiseled<br />
nose.<br />
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The <strong>one</strong>s Rick is going through.<br />
“Sure,” responds Roy, nervous about Rick pawing his tunes.<br />
“What the fuck’s this shit?”<br />
Debi, good as her word, furnishes Roy with a plastic bag<br />
emblaz<strong>one</strong>d with the store’s logo.<br />
Strangely, the logo is not a smile.<br />
“Fuckit, man—this is crap.”<br />
Roy scoops up his CDs and drops them into the bag.<br />
“Thanks.”<br />
“No—thank you!”<br />
Debi bounces up and down a few times in her brilliant white<br />
running shoes, causing her breasts to romp and cavort.<br />
Rick’s beady eyes follow her sporting breasts with vulpine<br />
interest. He appears to be on the verge of saying something<br />
doubtlessly vile and disgusting when Roy rolls his bag closed and<br />
skedaddles.<br />
Rick, immediately erasing Debi’s jug jamboree from his<br />
thoughts—she is, after all, just another bitch—scurries after his<br />
bro, pushing through the door behind him.<br />
“Hey! Yo! Bro—what the fuck you up to?”<br />
Roy’s long-legged stride lengthens.<br />
Rick races to catch up.<br />
“Don’t fuckin’ run away from me, asshole! I’ll cut you a new<br />
<strong>one</strong> right here in Freakland!”<br />
As if he’s hit an invisible wall, Roy stops. Redfaced, wheezing<br />
from the mad dash, he turns to face his brother.<br />
“It’s just. A birthday gift’s all. For my. Neighbor.”<br />
Roy hates lying, but figures lying to Rick is OK because, with<br />
him, it’s an act of survival.<br />
“Birthday gift?” Rick furrows his little brow. “Since when’d<br />
you start having fuckin’ friends?”<br />
They stand in the middle of the sidewalk. Grumbling<br />
pedestrians detour around them.<br />
“Recently.”<br />
Rick narrows his beady eyes.<br />
The fact that Roy may have a friend makes Rick<br />
apprehensive, Another influence might weaken his control.<br />
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“What’s this so-called friend’s name?”<br />
“Pete.” Roy announces his name with a tinge of pride.<br />
“Pete?” Rick snickers. “Prob’ly an old queen you suck for<br />
rent.”<br />
Roy looks away.<br />
Rick, like any good predator, can smell weakness. His ballbearing<br />
eyes glisten.<br />
“I always knew you were fuckin’ gay. You’re probably the<br />
bottom, aren’t you?” He nods towards the plastic bag. “Your<br />
boyfriend listen to that fuckin’ crap?”<br />
Roy frowns and shrugs.<br />
“It’s not crap.”<br />
He starts to walk away.<br />
He’s desperate to get away from Rick and back on the bus.<br />
Headache or no, he can’t wait to clamp on his new<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s and crank up the Sons.<br />
Rick paces him.<br />
“Think maybe I should come home with my bro and meet<br />
’im, make sure he’s OK.”<br />
Roy’s afraid he’s going to have to lie some more.<br />
“I’m not going home for a while.”<br />
Rick mocks him.<br />
“I’m not going home for a while. Shit. Just where is your home,<br />
gay boy? Where’s your new crib, huh? I could hook up with you<br />
later.”<br />
Roy shrugs.<br />
“You just want my m<strong>one</strong>y.”<br />
Did he just say that?<br />
Roy’s unexpected candor rattles Rick. He gives his brother a<br />
long, searching look.<br />
“You think?”<br />
This is a relatively weak entry for Rick.<br />
He tries again.<br />
“Fuckin’ A, asshole!”<br />
He grabs his brother’s arm and spins him around.<br />
People on the sidewalk divide like mitochondria.<br />
Rick’s got his Mean Look cranked to high.<br />
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“I’m tapped. I need some green. I can get us a window<br />
washing gig but, no, you won’t work, you’re so fuckin’ loaded.<br />
Well, you’re keeping me from makin’ m<strong>one</strong>y, bro, and that’s like<br />
stealin’ from me—you fuckin’ owe me.”<br />
Roy stares at his brother’s slicked-back hair.<br />
“No, I don’t.”<br />
This kind of thing pisses Rick off.<br />
“Yes, you. You fuckin’ do, asshole! Don’t you dare say shit like<br />
that to me! Now—either I go to your house and take it from you,<br />
or you bring it to me at Mel’s. Which is it?”<br />
Roy puffs out his fuzzy cheeks.<br />
He tried.<br />
“How much you need?”<br />
Rick backs off some. Smugness creeps onto on his face.<br />
“That’s more like it. I want—half.”<br />
“Half?”<br />
Roy is aghast. If he gives his brother half, he won’t make it<br />
through the winter.<br />
Now that he’s spent $188.97.<br />
A wave of regret washes over him.<br />
If only he had stayed home, not baked a lasagna, not been<br />
born.<br />
Rick jabs him in the chest with a finger.<br />
“Half.” He continues to jab. “And if I find out you’re holding<br />
out on me—”<br />
With his free hand he removes his switchblade and snicks it<br />
open.<br />
Right there in the middle of Broadway Ave!<br />
Roy sucks in his breath.<br />
Is he about to die?<br />
Is this the end of Roy’s Adventures in Wonderland?<br />
He knows his brother could ice him and walk away like he<br />
just bought frozen yoghurt and people would step over his body<br />
until some cop kicked him to wake his ass up then piss and moan<br />
about getting blood on his spit-polished shoe.<br />
But—half ?<br />
The look on Roy’s face is priceless. Certainly to Rick worth<br />
the price of the knife.<br />
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Rick closes the blade and chuckles.<br />
“The look on your fuckin’ face, Roy. Such a pansy. Bring the<br />
cash when you come to Mel’s Thanksgiving thingy—and bring<br />
your boyfriend, too.”<br />
Roy nods absently, his mind on his departing m<strong>one</strong>y.<br />
Rick squares his small shoulders.<br />
“If you don’t bring ’im, Roy, I swear I’ll beat your sorry ass to<br />
dog shit. You hear me?”<br />
Roy nods absently, his mind on his departing m<strong>one</strong>y.<br />
“Oh, yeah. Mel told me tell you bring something for dessert.”<br />
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22 ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
Her name was Mathilde Oliphante<br />
Dougherty, and he fell in love with her at first sight.<br />
She was the eldest daughter of the same clan who had stopped by the<br />
remnants of his family‘s cabin and helped bury his mother and sister. Old<br />
man Dougherty, Solomon—Sol—was a kind man with cavernous eyes<br />
overhung by enormous outcroppings of brows. If his daughters, and he<br />
had three, had taken their looks from him, they would have been known as<br />
prodigies of unattractiveness throughout the state of Georgia. Fortunately,<br />
however, the young ladies had received their mother’s good looks, as well as<br />
charms, while from their father had devolved a solid practicality and earthy<br />
sense of humor.<br />
After his tears had dried that day, as he walked alongside the family’s<br />
mule, she had sidled up to him and spoken.<br />
“Ma says tears are for washing th’ laundry of angels. Ain’t you got no<br />
other kin?”<br />
She was a head taller, being his elder by three years, and her thick russet<br />
hair was woven into braids. Her dress was of faded, blue calico and ended<br />
just above her bare feet, its tatty hem red from mud dust.<br />
Although he would grow to dominate her in height, would in fact spend<br />
his tenth year growing like a weed in summer, for now he had perforce to<br />
look up into her doe eyes, eyes that beheld him with a soothing calmness and<br />
served to still the cauldron of emotions that boiled inside. He found himself<br />
at ease with this stranger who was also a girl, and the anguish that held<br />
his heart soon enough loosened its grip. When she told him her name, she<br />
explained,<br />
“Every<strong>one</strong> calls me Mod. Ma says it’s short for Modesty, which was my<br />
Aunt’s name on my father’s side, but really it’s my initials because my name<br />
is so long.”<br />
He told her his name, and she approved.<br />
He got to know his other sisters as well, Rachel Majesty and Evangeline<br />
Justice, but as with a baby chick, Mod had imprinted first and deepest.<br />
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Thus their caravan, comprised of a buckboard drawn by his own former<br />
oxen—on which the Doughtery family’s few household possessions were<br />
loaded, as well as the mother, who rode along sharing her seat with the<br />
children as need arose—set forth for Texas, followed by cows, dogs and <strong>one</strong><br />
magnificent, ornery hog named Maurice.<br />
It was an entire summer’s trip, full of incident, privation and hardship.<br />
The stock fared well, but several times they were compelled to halt the<br />
progress of their journey to find work in order to supply their larder. For<br />
most of the route, fish and game could be found in wild abundance.<br />
It was with an almost Biblical feeling of deliverance that they beheld the<br />
Sabine River, and for the first time viewed the Promised Land.<br />
Their joy was short-lived when they learned they had not among them the<br />
fare required by the riverman.<br />
“What—no m<strong>one</strong>y? My dear sir, it certainly can’t make much<br />
difference to a man which side of the river he’s on—if he has no m<strong>one</strong>y!”<br />
Rebuffed, the ragged train creaked another ten miles higher up, to a<br />
place along the river which, the ferryman assured them, was fordable. The<br />
crossing itself took up the larger part of the day, the river being deeper in its<br />
middle than told by the ferryman. But with shouting and free application of<br />
the gad, they hurried through safely, barely wetting the wagon box. One of<br />
the wheel oxen, a black steer called Brattle-Brain, could be ridden and was<br />
straddled by the ten year old orphan boy, his bare, sunburned feet laved by<br />
the cool water.<br />
When at last the cows were driven across—as well as dogs, bags and<br />
baggage—they had stood firmly upon the soil of Texas.<br />
In early autumn they reached the Colorado River, where they stopped<br />
and picked cotton for a few months, filling long bags with the fluffy white<br />
stuff, and making quite a bit of m<strong>one</strong>y. Near Christmas they reached their<br />
destination on the San Antonio River, where they took up some land and<br />
built a house.<br />
Here it was that he celebrated his eleventh birthday, in the month of<br />
December, in the year of 1866. The Hostilities had ended in April of<br />
the preceding year—the same month and year in which President Lincoln<br />
had been shot and killed—and the “restoration” of the South had begun in<br />
earnest.<br />
But all of this was beyond the scope of a young boy who awoke each<br />
morning to an endless vista filled with the promise of great careers and<br />
boundless adventures.<br />
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Since this was principally cattle country, the boys of the family, as they<br />
grew old enough, found irresistible the fascination of horse and saddle, and<br />
began to ride and hire out as cow-hands, later canonized as “cowboys,” a<br />
word with the meaning of reckless at its root. Most cow-hands in those days<br />
were either Mexican vaquero or Negro buckaroos. Exposure to these two<br />
populations served him well, the <strong>one</strong> lending him a new language, the other<br />
reminding him of home.<br />
Old Sol, the paterfamilias who had taken in the lad as if his own, grew<br />
truculent on the matter of this, their youngest, riding off in the example of the<br />
elder boys. He insisted, and made strenuous efforts to that affect—a young<br />
man’s wails and pleadings aside—that his place was at the home, until he<br />
reached his sixteenth year. He thereafter secured a position in a village store<br />
some ten miles distant to serve as apprentice clerk. Sol could see no use for<br />
a man giving himself to saddle tramping all his days, with nothing to show<br />
at the end but weariness and a bad disposition. Besides these objections, he<br />
could, as with the entire family, see as clear as the Texas air wings of Cupid<br />
fluttering about the boy’s and his youngest daughter’s heads, and if such a<br />
union were to come to pass, then it would be more congenial for the lad to be<br />
well employed and favorably countenanced by society.<br />
Sol counseled the merchant to work the boy hard and if possible cure him<br />
of his fanciful notion to follow his brethren onto the range.<br />
The cure worked, but not in the manner Sol had in mind.<br />
The first two weeks in the merchant’s employ had seen him shelling corn<br />
in the back warehouse and shoveling horse dumplings along the storefronts on<br />
Main Street.<br />
After that, he was back home for breakfast, lunch and dinner, his<br />
mercantile career ended, and forthwith betook himself to the range as eager as<br />
a preacher’s son takes to vice.<br />
The vagabond temperament of the range easily acquired, he soon fell<br />
under the tutelage of <strong>one</strong> Priest Flood, an old-timer wise to horseflesh and<br />
cattle, and whose claim to have “closed the eyes of many a man, and opened<br />
the eyes of many a woman,” no-<strong>one</strong> who knew him doubted.<br />
Flood taught him how to sit slumped in the saddle and how to sleep in<br />
that position, and which end of the gun to hold. He became, as had Sol,<br />
another father for him—not a replacement, but an amendment—and from<br />
this happy union he would learn the arts of his new trade of tramping, as<br />
well as the lingo and the lariat.<br />
Flood would sing to the cattle cuss-filled songs that would have burned<br />
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off Sol’s ears, and singed those of his dear mother, had she survived the war.<br />
I’m a bullwhacker far from home.<br />
If you don’t like me just leave me al<strong>one</strong>;<br />
Eat my grub when hungry, drink when dry.<br />
Whack, punch, swar, then lie down and die!<br />
The dust of the short-legged cattle as they thudded across a barren land<br />
studded with Saguaro cactuses; the grease-belly chuck twice a day; the stardusted<br />
skies at night; the campfire yarning and long days of droving—these<br />
proved a heady potation for <strong>one</strong> so young, and a compulsion was soon begun<br />
that would find no surcease until he had d<strong>one</strong> as his adopted brothers, and<br />
driven a herd into the northern country.<br />
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“GO ON, ROY—DRAW!”<br />
Roy finds it hard to concentrate.<br />
Earlier in the evening, Pete had asked if he liked ice cream.<br />
Roy vaguely recalls that he had answered yes, he did indeed<br />
like ice cream.<br />
Vanilla?<br />
That yes, vanilla would be fine.<br />
What happened after that?<br />
Pete’s waiting.<br />
How many times has he d<strong>one</strong> this already?<br />
He’s not very good at it.<br />
“It takes practice, Roy. Lots and lots’ve practice.”<br />
Vanilla ice cream, the kind with little sprinkles of vanilla.<br />
Like black specks of ground-up pepper.<br />
God Bless Paul Newman.<br />
Pete had g<strong>one</strong> into his kitchenette and opened the door of his<br />
reefer and pulled out a gallon of the stuff.<br />
He had stood up and smiled.<br />
“Yum”<br />
“—draw!”<br />
Roy tries to concentrate, tries to accommodate.<br />
The gunbelt is way too tight.<br />
He wiggles the fingers of his shootin’ hand.<br />
Then he had dumped the whole gallon into a bowl.<br />
Pete looks peeved.<br />
That is, when Roy can keep him in focus.<br />
Then he had slipped the bowl into the microwave and<br />
punched a button.<br />
beep<br />
“One more time—draw!”<br />
After that, he had poured the warm, runny, sprinkly, Paul<br />
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Newmany vanilla ice cream into two tall cups and added<br />
something but never said what.<br />
Whatever it was, it was yummy.<br />
Yum.<br />
“Draw!”<br />
Roy draws.<br />
The gun barrel clears its holster and points at the poster of<br />
John Wayne as Ethan Edwards in The Searchers.<br />
The barrel weaves about in space, tracing patterns in the air.<br />
The damned thing is heavy.<br />
Roy hates guns.<br />
“That there’s a Colt Peacemaker,” instructs Pete. “It’s th’ sixshooter<br />
that tamed the West.”<br />
Peacemaker. What a funny name for a gun.<br />
Roy wishes they had more sprinkly vanilla ice cream to melt.<br />
Yum.<br />
“Gimme that.”<br />
Pete takes the gun out of Roy’s paw.<br />
“Take off th’ belt.”<br />
Roy is only too glad to oblige.<br />
He uncinches the bullet-heavy belt and hands it over to the<br />
old, long-haired guy in a bathrobe.<br />
Pete’s gray hair, pulled back and braided into a ponytail,<br />
leaves his battered, lumpy face exposed to prolonged review.<br />
Roy likes Pete’s face.<br />
But he isn’t gay.<br />
He just likes Pete’s face, is all.<br />
It’s grizzled and crinkled and worn and wise.<br />
Like he’s a philosopher or a fisherman or something.<br />
Roy watches Pete wrap the belt around his shrunken waist.<br />
Next to the hulking Roy, Pete appears a tiny man, about<br />
the size of Rick, but there’s an air to him—the way he carries<br />
himself—that makes him seem bigger than Rick will ever be.<br />
Pete positions the belt high on his middle, reeves the end<br />
through its buckle and draws it tight.<br />
He waves Roy aside and stands before Ethan.<br />
“Say when.”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
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He tries to focus on Pete’s gun hand.<br />
His shootin’ iron.<br />
Pete’s face relaxes. His breathing slows. His eyes narrow, and<br />
the furrows on his brow—like tire ruts in dried mud—smooth<br />
out a bit.<br />
Roy clears his throat.<br />
Ice cream phlegm.<br />
“Draw.”<br />
Almost before the word leaves his lips, the gun’s out of its<br />
holster.<br />
Its unwavering barrel is leveled dead at Ethan’s searching face.<br />
“Whoa.”<br />
Pete straightens and tosses back his shoulders. He slides the<br />
Colt into its holster.<br />
“Wish I coulda met Glenn Ford. They say he was th’ fastest<br />
draw in Hollywood.”<br />
Pete walks over to his big, comfortable wingback and<br />
plops into it, cranking his cowboy-boot-slippered feet onto the<br />
matching hassock.<br />
Roy assumes his place in the only other chair in the room.<br />
“He a cowboy?”<br />
Pete shrugs.<br />
“In some’ve his pitchers. He was in over a hundret.”<br />
“OK.”<br />
Before Roy met Pete, that would have seemed like a lot of<br />
pitchers to be in. But Pete has told him that John Wayne made<br />
over a hundret and forty; that Walter Brennan made over two<br />
hundret; and that the great Harry Carey made almost three<br />
hundret.<br />
And then there was Mel Blanc, who was in over seven hundret<br />
pitchers!<br />
Pete knows a lot about movies.<br />
And he knows a lot about guns, too.<br />
In fact, Roy would guess Pete knows a lot about everything.<br />
His place is packed with books and videotapes. It seems<br />
like all he ever does is read, or watch old black and white<br />
movies. Roy never had the m<strong>one</strong>y to go to movies, and never<br />
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put much stock in reading, that is other than cookbooks while<br />
warming himself in the downtown library. They don’t have<br />
much else to do there. Mostly, Roy never hung out with people<br />
who read. That Louisiana dude—the <strong>one</strong> who cleaned up the<br />
broccoli—was an exception. He said he was a writer. Roy never<br />
understood why any<strong>one</strong> would want to do something like that.<br />
But, then, he never understood why people liked to drink alcohol,<br />
either.<br />
Until recently.<br />
Pete slides his gun out of its holster again.<br />
“Know why they call this a Colt?”<br />
Roy thinks he knows.<br />
“Named after the guy made it?”<br />
Pete scowls.<br />
“Well, yeah. ’Sides that, I mean. Here—lissen.”<br />
He leans forward, indicating Roy should follow suit.<br />
The room is quiet, the building still, the world has settled<br />
down.<br />
It is after three o’clock of a morning.<br />
The Straights are inside sleeping, the Crooks are outside<br />
creeping.<br />
Pete thumbs back the hammer past its safety notch.<br />
A distinct “C” sound can be heard.<br />
On past the half cock, an audible “O” registers.<br />
His hand pushes against the ratchet on the back of the<br />
cylinder and there comes an “L”.<br />
Finally, the hammer and trigger come together in the firing<br />
mode and a definite “T” comes forth.<br />
His point made, Pete grins and sits back in his chair.<br />
He releases the hammer onto an empty chamber.<br />
Cool.<br />
Roy is impressed.<br />
But what he really wants is more melted ice cream with Pete’s<br />
secret additive.<br />
Pete senses this as much as is pinched by the need himself.<br />
“Thirsty?”<br />
Roy nods briskly.<br />
Pete mirrors Roy’s nod.<br />
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“Let’s try somethin’ different.”<br />
He stands and weaves towards the kitchenette.<br />
Roy’s loins tingle.<br />
He’s starting to feel giggly.<br />
Some people, when they drink—like Rick—get surly and<br />
unruly and pick fights and slide into dark places where they<br />
stay put until they pass out, while others—like Roy and Pete—<br />
become chummy, pleasant and congenial, and stay that way until<br />
they pass out.<br />
No matter which way you cut it, passing out seems to be part<br />
of the deal.<br />
Roy is very relieved and very gladdened to know that when he<br />
drinks he does not become a werewolf.<br />
It all began by accident, spending time with Pete—<br />
When he returned with his new CD player clipped to his belt, a white<br />
plastic bag of CDs in tow, ears warmed by the Bose ’ph<strong>one</strong>s—Roy was in<br />
Seventh Heaven.<br />
He bounded up the wide, carpeted stairs to his floor’s tatty landing and<br />
ran smack into Pete.<br />
Pete—obviously a very clean man—wrapped in his Cowboys and<br />
Indians robe, was again stepping out of the B THRO M, his hair again wet<br />
and combed out of his hatchet face.<br />
They had not seen each other since when Pete introduced him to Kahlua.<br />
Pete looked him up and down, making note of Roy’s new music<br />
apparatus, and spoke.<br />
Roy saw his lips move but could not hear a word, his head at that<br />
moment being filled with yodeling.<br />
He removed his new Bose ’ph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
“—some time, OK?”<br />
Roy blinked.<br />
“Whatcha listening to, anyway?”<br />
Roy smiled and offered his new Bose ’ph<strong>one</strong>s to Pete.<br />
The <strong>volume</strong> was cranked high enough Pete didn’t have to put them on to<br />
hear.<br />
“The Sons.” His words carried with them his seal of approval.<br />
Roy beamed.<br />
“I love ’em.”<br />
Pete studied Roy’s beaming features.<br />
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“So, howz ’bout it? You game?”<br />
Roy surmised this cryptic inquiry was connected to something Pete must<br />
have said when he wasn’t listening.<br />
Confusion clouded his face.<br />
Pete chuckled.<br />
“I said we oughta get together some time. I’ll introduce you to their<br />
movies.”<br />
Roy’s eyes widened.<br />
“They made movies?”<br />
“Yessir, they most surely did.”<br />
Roy’s widened eyes take in the snowy hair on Pete’s shoulders.<br />
“I’d like that. A lot.”<br />
He’s so old, even his shoulder hair’s white.<br />
In Roy’s world, people seldom live long enough to have white shoulder<br />
hair.<br />
“How ’bout tonight, then?”<br />
Roy didn’t have to think twice. It was better than being in his room by<br />
his l<strong>one</strong>some, even if he did have the Sons.<br />
“Sure.”<br />
“Great.”<br />
Pete resumed his journey to his apartment, but didn’t make it all the way.<br />
Instead, he turned and presented Roy a lopsided smile and a nonsensical<br />
question.<br />
“You like vanilla ice cream?”<br />
—And so it began. Later that night Roy rapped on 28/RR—<br />
now known as the home of Pistol Pete—and listened as dozens of<br />
deadbolts cranked aside and hundreds of chains unshackled, and<br />
watched as the white-painted door creaked open to reveal Pete,<br />
his hairy legs planted in a colorful pair of cowboy boots.<br />
“They’re not all black and white.”<br />
Roy just wondered, was all.<br />
“I have some color <strong>one</strong>s, too.”<br />
They’ve just finished watching Stagecoach.<br />
“One of the best damned movies ever made,” is how Pete had<br />
described it.<br />
“You like?”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
“They dint show the gunfight.”<br />
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Pete rewinds the movie.<br />
“First—there’s no they, there’s only he. And he is John Ford”<br />
Roy absorbs this information.<br />
“OK.”<br />
“Second—you don’t need to see Ringo kill th’ bad guys. It’s<br />
enough you heard it. That was Ford’s way. Oblique, like. That<br />
was part’ve his artistry. This ain’t some B Western, Roy. This is<br />
a great piece of film art.”<br />
Rhymes with wart.<br />
Filmwart.<br />
“OK.”<br />
“You’ll get it, Roy. Hell, I had to watch it ten times before<br />
I got it. Believe me, th’ day will come when you’ll see th’<br />
stagecoach as a metaphor for our civilization, a stagecoach lost in<br />
the Monument Valley of our own unconscious.”<br />
Roy probes the cavity of his mouth with his tongue. When<br />
Pete stops talking, he says,<br />
“OK.”<br />
The rewinding tape in the VCR whirs.<br />
The second brace of drinks Pete concocted did not have ice<br />
cream as their binder. Instead, they had been doses of Bailey’s<br />
Irish Cream.<br />
Yum.<br />
Roy supposes he is probably through, least ways for a while,<br />
with sweet drinks.<br />
His head is spinning.<br />
clunk<br />
Spunning.<br />
The VCR rewinds no more.<br />
Spun.<br />
Pete’s windows are painted black and curtained over, and<br />
there is no timepiece, so it’s impossible to know what time of day<br />
or night it is.<br />
But it’s late.<br />
It’s very late.<br />
It’s so late it may be a different century.<br />
Not that either of these cats care.<br />
They are, after all, gentlemen of leisure.<br />
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Pete stands and the floor creaks as he steps to the shelf that<br />
supports his VCR.<br />
He pops out Stagecoach, re-sleeves it and carefully replaces it<br />
amongst its peers.<br />
If Stagecoach can be said to have a peer.<br />
“Roy?”<br />
He calls this over his shoulder.<br />
“Hm?”<br />
“Wanna laugh yer ass off?”<br />
“Sure.”<br />
“Here.” Pete slides out another tape. “This’ll kill you.”<br />
He un-sleeves it and pops it into the machine.<br />
Roy, uncertain sounding as ever, replies,<br />
“OK.”<br />
Pete wobbles back to his thr<strong>one</strong>.<br />
“I have a treat—”<br />
He flops into his wingback chair.<br />
As he had the night—or was it two nights?—before, Pete<br />
reaches for something on the far side of his chair. This time,<br />
instead of a bottle of Kahlua, he brings forth a small wooden<br />
box.<br />
He slides its tightly-fitted top open and releases into the room<br />
an aroma.<br />
Pete’s elderly fingers emerge with a plastic baggie.<br />
Returning his attention to Roy, who watches intently, he asks,<br />
“You smoke weed?”<br />
Roy knits his brow.<br />
How he hates to let people down.<br />
Lying to Pete could not, as with Rick, be considered an act of<br />
survival. Roy thinks it would not be a very good way to begin a<br />
friendship.<br />
So, regretfully, he shakes his head No.<br />
Pete scratches a bristly jowl as he takes this information in.<br />
“Never?”<br />
Downcast, Roy shakes his head again.<br />
“You are indeed a rare bird, Roy Weston.”<br />
Roy rolls his shoulders.<br />
“Wanna try? This is some fantastic shit.”<br />
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It is what o’time in the whenever and Roy’s slouching towards<br />
his forties and he’s never d<strong>one</strong> nothing bad to nobody not even to<br />
himself.<br />
What’s he waiting for?<br />
An invitation?<br />
Didn’t he just get <strong>one</strong>?<br />
Is he waiting for some<strong>one</strong> to twist his arm?<br />
Pete might stick a cocked, loaded gun in his face, but he would<br />
never make him do something he didn’t want to do.<br />
Then is he waiting for his host to beg?<br />
Pete would never do that, either. Nor would he berate,<br />
belittle, or threaten to cut out his liver and eat it.<br />
He’s just asked a simple question, made a simple offer.<br />
Take it or leave it.<br />
No pressure, Roy.<br />
And it is because of this, the fact that he has been left to<br />
choose for himself, that he decides to accept.<br />
Roy is getting that tingling feeling again.<br />
He’s tingling because he’s about to embark upon an<br />
adventure.<br />
An adventure with a total stranger and nutcase named Pistol<br />
Pete.<br />
Be cool, Roy.<br />
“Why not?”<br />
Pete elevates his eyebrows.<br />
“Why not, indeed?”<br />
Roy watches him roll a joint.<br />
How many times has he seen people do this? He has always<br />
believed that when some<strong>one</strong> smoked pot their brain got tiny little<br />
holes in it and that, if they kept smoking, those holes would grow<br />
larger and larger until their thoughts, if they ever had any, would<br />
have to take great big detours around the holes in order to get<br />
anywhere, and that was why st<strong>one</strong>rs always talked so slow and<br />
moved so slow and forgot what they were saying in mid-sentence.<br />
He didn’t want that to happen to him.<br />
Still—how could a puff or two hurt?<br />
He figures the resulting pinholes would be so tiny that his<br />
thoughts would probably not even notice.<br />
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Pete rolls the baggie tight, slips it back inside the wooden box<br />
and slides the lid closed.<br />
Perching the joint upon his papery lips, he settles the box on<br />
the floor behind his chair. Out of sight.<br />
Roy wonders what other marvels must lurk on the far side of<br />
Pete’s chair.<br />
snap<br />
A flame pops out of a yellow Bic lighter.<br />
The shadows that chase around Pete’s face when he lights the<br />
joint give Roy the heebie-jeebies.<br />
Pete takes a long drag and passes his hand-wrapped<br />
handiwork, with its glowing ember eye, to Roy.<br />
Roy accepts the joint and brings it to his chubby lips.<br />
Feeling like he must look stupider than usual, he sucks some<br />
smoke into his lungs and fights to keep it there.<br />
He is startled when Pete’s hand, all stretchy and deformed,<br />
zooms out of nowhere towards his face.<br />
Pete only wants the joint back, but Roy thinks maybe he<br />
wants his nose.<br />
As Pete takes another toke, he picks up the VCR remote and<br />
points it at the TV.<br />
The screen lights up, turning the room blue, and sucks Roy’s<br />
eyes towards it like a spider dragged down a drain.<br />
Pete fast-forwards to the title of the picture they are about to<br />
watch.<br />
BLAZ<strong>IN</strong>G SADDLES<br />
Roy’s heard of it, but never seen it.<br />
A bullwhip snaps.<br />
The colors seem more colorful, the brightness more brighter,<br />
the music more music-y—<br />
Roy has this realization—he’s st<strong>one</strong>d.<br />
And he’s still alive.<br />
He can’t feel his hands his legs feel like rubber his mouth is<br />
dry as a b<strong>one</strong>. Like, full of talcum powder.<br />
For the first time and it’s a great time and it’s too late baby<br />
now it’s too late—<br />
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Pete nudges.<br />
Holds out the joint.<br />
Such a nice man.<br />
“Zowie, huh?”<br />
A c<strong>one</strong> of thoughtful, throatful smoke escapes his lips.<br />
Roy daintily accepts the smoldering offering.<br />
He is able to manage a seminal smile, a nominal nod.<br />
Eyes slitted against its acrid fumes, he sucks down more of the<br />
magical smoke. In the background, a man sings—<br />
He rode a blazing saddle<br />
He wore a shining star<br />
His job to offer battle<br />
To bad men near and far—<br />
Pete is already laughing. He laughs with the glee of a child.<br />
Roy can’t help himself—he stares at Pete who stares at the<br />
TV with the glee of a child. For such an old guy, you would have<br />
thought he didn’t have any child left inside, gleeful or otherwise.<br />
Roy doesn’t feel like he has a child hidden somewhere inside. If<br />
he does, it’s hugging its knees to its chest and rocking on its ass<br />
in a dark corner. But this old guy seems like he’s happy with life<br />
and all the shit that’s befallen him lo his many, many, many—<br />
how many?—years.<br />
Roy wonders how old his new really old friend really is if he<br />
really is his new really old friend or if he really is a new old really<br />
friend or if—<br />
He conquered fear and he conquered hate<br />
He turned our light into day<br />
He made his blazing saddle<br />
A torch to light our way—<br />
“Only Mel Brooks could get away with shit like this.”<br />
Roy pulls himself away from his study of the gleeful Pete—<br />
laughing, snorting, cavorting Pete—and stares back into the blue<br />
tube.<br />
He can’t feel his lips.<br />
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A man in cowboy clothes and black hat prances about on a<br />
railroad track.<br />
“Now come on, boys, where’s your spirit? I don’t hear no singin’. When<br />
you were slaves, you sang like birds. How ’bout a good ole nigger work<br />
song?”<br />
Roy flinches. He knows a lot of black men would beat the<br />
living crap out of him if he ever used the N-word.<br />
Pete continues to laugh his ass off.<br />
“Watch this, Roy—” Pete instructs him without turning his<br />
head because he’s so fucked up if he did turn his head it might<br />
break off and float away.<br />
Roy tries to concentrate.<br />
The black dudes start singing a song about champagne.<br />
I get no kick from champagne<br />
Pure alcohol doesn’t thrill me at all<br />
So tell me why should it be true<br />
That I get a bang out of you—<br />
As a consequence of his raucous laughter, Pete slips out of his<br />
wingback chair onto the floor. Wheezing, he grabs the chair’s<br />
arms and pulls himself up.<br />
Through his laughter he notices his new compadre sitting all<br />
shovel-faced serious with not a crack of smile anywhere to be<br />
seen.<br />
He wonders about this a st<strong>one</strong>d moment—not a scientifically<br />
categorized or recognized unit of time—long enough to distract<br />
him from the movie, cause him to miss the bit where Slim<br />
Pickins, as Taggert, delivers his “Kansas City faggots” line.<br />
He digs through the darkness for the remote, finds it and<br />
presses PAUSE.<br />
“What’s wrong, Roy? This is some funny shit.”<br />
Roy’s hiked shoulders rub the bottoms of his ears.<br />
“I don’t think so.”<br />
“You don’t—”<br />
Pete breaks off, uncertain how to respond.<br />
For him, Blazing Saddles is the best thing Mel Brooks ever<br />
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did. With the exception, of course, of Young Frankenstein. Well,<br />
no, he also likes The Producers a lot. As well as the more esoteric<br />
Twelve Chairs. Space Balls was pretty funny in places. Pete has a<br />
soft spot for John Candy. Because he liked Hitchcock, he also<br />
liked High Anxiety, but it was patchy at best. Now, the first two<br />
seasons of Get Smart waere so damned funny—<br />
Where was he?<br />
He’s lost his place.<br />
Lost in Space. There was a good show.<br />
He tries to refocus on Roy.<br />
Roy, who sits like a bump on a log.<br />
An ugly bump, at that.<br />
So—?<br />
(His eyes return to the paused image of Cleavon Little as Bart<br />
about to brain Slim Pickins as Taggart with a shovel)<br />
—oh, yeah.<br />
Roy doesn’t think this is funny.<br />
He doesn’t think Blazing Saddles is a hoot.<br />
A riot.<br />
He swivels his head back to Roy who, like a moth, stares into<br />
the blue tube as if contemplating paradise.<br />
Pete thumbs off the TV.<br />
Roy shakes himself awake and looks at Pete.<br />
“You don’t? Really?”<br />
If <strong>one</strong> could be said to snort with incredulity, then Pete snorts<br />
with incredulity.<br />
“Why not?”<br />
The reason escapes Roy. He has no words with which to<br />
reply.<br />
His language center, never a busy place, has closed for the<br />
day.<br />
And the night for that matter.<br />
After a yawning abyss of quiet, he says,<br />
“That man used the N-word.”<br />
Pete stares.<br />
“And?”<br />
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“He’s not ’spozed to.”<br />
Since it’s free to do so, Pete stares some more.<br />
“And?”<br />
“That wasn’t a work song.”<br />
“No.” The freely-staring Pete tends to agree. “Wasn’t. Was<br />
a Cole Porter song. Was a joke.” He blinks. “Know what satire<br />
is?”<br />
Roy knots his forehead.<br />
“Sort’ve. Maybe.”<br />
Again, Pete blinks.<br />
Roy’s eyes are like tiny deserts whistling with raging<br />
sandstorms.<br />
“Know what a cliché is? Or a trope? Or a metaphor?”<br />
Roy is sinking fast, headpiece filled with straw. He never went<br />
to school, or sat glued to books, and this old guy—who he hoped<br />
would be his friend—probably despises him for his dumbness.<br />
Meanwhile, Pete—a man of vast worldliness, brimming with<br />
insight into the cybernetic confluences we call human beings—<br />
smiles.<br />
“You need an edumacation’s what you need, buckaroo.”<br />
If <strong>one</strong> can be said to nod glumly, then that is how Roy nods<br />
now.<br />
“An’ I’m jess th’ dude what can git’er d<strong>one</strong>.”<br />
Roy looks up as quickly as he dare (fearful his head might<br />
snap off). His convulsing heart leaves skid tracks on his karma.<br />
“Really?”<br />
Pete shrugs.<br />
Why not? It’s not as if, not like—<br />
Not like he’s got something better to do.<br />
Roy seems a willing student. He took to the Sons fast enough,<br />
didn’t he?<br />
Besides, Pete likes Roy. Likes his name.<br />
It’ll mean hard work and long hours. It will. But it’ll be fun<br />
to watch a bunch’ve movies with some<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Some<strong>one</strong> who’s never seen, or apparently d<strong>one</strong>, anything.<br />
Some<strong>one</strong> who’s never even smoked weed.<br />
He studies Roy a long moment before he says,<br />
“Really.”<br />
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At thirteen, he stood tall and broad,<br />
with a look that belied his age.<br />
For two years he toiled in the fields for Sol. He felt he owed him that.<br />
Still, it was as much fealty as love that kept him at the yoke—fealty for the<br />
family that had adopted him, and a love for Mod that had flowered and<br />
grown in measure and scope.<br />
Troublous times came to west Texas, after the Great Hostilities ceased.<br />
During the war, Texas had sided with the secessionists, providing troops<br />
of the Confederacy with beef until the Union Army blockaded commerce at<br />
the Mississippi River. After this action, the cattle population in Texas grew<br />
to such a considerable number that it was estimated there were three standing<br />
head for every man, woman and child in the state.<br />
It was in the same year as the Doughtery family’s arrival in Texas—<br />
1866—that a bold plan to drive some of these cattle northward was<br />
inaugurated by Col. Charles Goodnight.<br />
A former Texas Ranger, plainsman and Indian fighter, Goodnight<br />
thought to drive his herd straight through Comanche territory, across the<br />
Pecos and into New Mexico, thence northward to the gold fields of Denver.<br />
By the greatest act of providence, as he was collecting his vast herd, he<br />
encountered Oliver Loving, who had ranched the plains for many years, and<br />
whose knowledge of the Texas breed of longhorn cattle was unsurpassed.<br />
“I have heard of your plan,” Loving told him, “an’ if you will let me, I<br />
will go with you.”<br />
“I will not only let you,” replied Goodnight, “but it is th’ most desirable<br />
thing in my life. I not only need th’ assistance of your force, but I need your<br />
advice.”<br />
The pair left Texas on June 6, 1866, trailing 2,000 head of a mixed<br />
herd, with an outfit of 18 armed cowhands, and the first chuck wagon ever<br />
devised.<br />
Legends grew up around the travails encountered along the Goodnight-<br />
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Loving Trail—as it later became known—of dangerous stampedes, failed<br />
Indian attacks, and cattle given over to quicksand. And now, some three<br />
years after, another Goodnight-Loving drive was being gotten up, this time to<br />
trail an even larger herd to Fort Sumner.<br />
Cowmen for that drive were in great demand.<br />
Meanwhile, unsettled times prevailed between the newly-arrived farmers<br />
and the long-established open range rancheros in Texas. A species of war<br />
had developed between these two opposing camps, characterized by occasional<br />
lynchings, and many unexplained fires that consumed both crops and<br />
property.<br />
While these concerns occupied the mind of Sol Dougherty, the mind of<br />
his young protégé was filled with aught but thoughts of the Goodnight-Loving<br />
Trail. He had no desire to spend the few years God might grant him driving<br />
a plow behind a dray.<br />
Fox Quarternight, former foreman of the Lazy D, and boon companion<br />
to Priest Flood, had been hired by Oliver Loving and assigned the task of<br />
populating their ranks with drovers of good mien and reputable character.<br />
It was to this gentleman that Priest brought his young friend.<br />
The boy who had watched his mother and sister die at the hands of<br />
Union soldiers would now be represented, in his thirteenth year, as a fully<br />
trained and reliable cowman. On the strength of Priest Flood’s assurances<br />
that he was ready for this enormous and risky undertaking, the young man<br />
was hired and told to report within a month’s time to the trailhead in Young<br />
County.<br />
“Show up early an’ with gritted teeth,” Quarternight told him. “For, no<br />
matter what you may think you know about th’ world, your real education is<br />
about to begin.”<br />
He was to be paid in silver coin the enormous sum of $120.<br />
His travels to the trailhead would take at least two weeks, which meant<br />
he would have at hand that much time to reflect upon his turn of fortunes.<br />
The matter settled, he imagined it would be a mere tick to proceed with<br />
his plan, but he had misjudged Mod to think she would consider such a<br />
dangerous decision in a good light. She bade him change his mind, pleading<br />
that he should not present himself to such a lengthy and parlous ordeal.<br />
“There are Indians that will leave your b<strong>one</strong>s to bleach in the sun,” she<br />
advised him, having heard of such terrors, it seemed, all her life. In truth,<br />
she knew next to nothing about Indians, or of what they were capable. All<br />
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she knew was she needed her loved <strong>one</strong> to remain at her side. “Father needs<br />
you, as do we all. Just last week the Johansons were burned out, and are<br />
all but leaving the territory. Father lives in the fear the same fate may await<br />
us.”<br />
Thirteen years beneath a man’s belt was not enough to provide gravity<br />
to his decisions, for he was as yet too driven by whims and fancies, and he<br />
had fancied himself riding herd for far too long a spell to negotiate away<br />
such a vision on unsupported evidence, on mere speculation. He felt that if<br />
he remained, despite his chaste and true love for Mod, he might forever feel<br />
regretful of this other loss, his chance to prove himself in the saddle.<br />
“It will be an absence of only a few months, dear. I shall return before<br />
next winter, an’ bring back with me enough gold for us to buy land. Old<br />
man Drake has assured me of th’ acres we need. We’ll build a cabin first,<br />
then we’ll build a herd…”<br />
Mod was wise enough to know she was defeated. Her boy, if ever to<br />
be truly hers, must first become a man. Besides, his argument held sense.<br />
They would need m<strong>one</strong>y to start a life, and he would not find any farming<br />
for her father.<br />
On the day of his departure, she presented him with a small envelope into<br />
which she placed a clipping of her hair.<br />
“This is for remembrance of me.”<br />
“Thank you, darling Mod. But I have the stars at night to remind me of<br />
your beauty, and the sun in the day to remind me of your warmth.”<br />
After a lengthy embrace, he eased away and lightly swung into his<br />
saddle.<br />
Peering down at her from this height, he smiled the carefree smile of<br />
roguish youth, and told her not to worry.<br />
“I’ll be home before the first snow.”<br />
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2 ROY ROGERS <strong>IN</strong> <strong>THE</strong> 21ST CENTURY
“RAOUL WALSH<br />
is where we’ll start.”<br />
Roy is rapt with expectation. His loins are tingling.<br />
He wants to please his mentor.<br />
His former captor.<br />
Pistol Pete.<br />
Raoulwalsh. Raoulwalsh. Raoulwalsh.<br />
He tries to memorize the name.<br />
Pistoilpete. Pistolpete. Pistol—Raoul. Walsh. Raoulwalsh.<br />
Raoulwalsh.<br />
Pete, for his part, appears as comfortable in the role of<br />
mentor as he had in the role of captor. An actor of exceeding<br />
range. Tonight, as if for a special occasion, he has exchanged<br />
his Cowboys and Indians robe for a brand new pair of Levis<br />
blue jeans. The cuffs, rolled up at least six inches, expose handpainted<br />
cowboy boots complimented and completed by a set of<br />
silver spurs. A red bat-wing shirt with mother-of-pearl snaps,<br />
its open collar accented with a bolo tie, completes his Western<br />
wardrobe.<br />
His ankles are crossed on the hassock, silver spurs<br />
overhanging the edge. In <strong>one</strong> hand he holds the remote.<br />
Smoke trails from a joint in his other hand.<br />
“Ever hear of Marion Michael Morrison?”<br />
Roy shakes his head.<br />
No. He’s pretty sure he’s never heard of Malblon Mitchel<br />
Martian.<br />
“Sure, you have.” Pete passes him the joint. “He was born<br />
to a pharmacist paw, and had a dog named Duke. When he<br />
flunked th’ entrance exam for Annapolis, Tom Mix got ’im<br />
a summer gig as a prop man at Fox. That was where Raoul<br />
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Walsh saw ’im an’ tapped ’im to star in his masterpiece, Th’ Big<br />
Trail. Ford would lie later, say he d<strong>one</strong> it, but it was Walsh who<br />
discovered Marion Michael Morrison an’ changed his name to<br />
John Wayne. He taught ’im how to walk, talk, shoot an’ ride.”<br />
Roy is to the point now, after only a week, of looking forward<br />
to the lightness in his head that pot produces.<br />
His mind still drifts into worry about if he’s doing the right<br />
thing—growing holes in his brain—but he assures himself that,<br />
after his education is complete, he will have no tribble quoiting.<br />
Trouble quoting.<br />
Quiting.<br />
What did Pete just say?<br />
“Walsh told ’im to let his hair grow long. Wayne hated horses.<br />
Walsh gave ’im a buckskin suit. Said he chose ’im ’cause’ve th’<br />
way he moved, he wanted to accentuate it. Wayne was maybe<br />
twenty-two—you followin’ any’ve this?”<br />
Roy has been studying his left hand for some time now. He<br />
holds it between his eyes and the blue TV screen, inspecting it for<br />
light leaks.<br />
He is wondering how X-rays work when Pete surprises him<br />
with his question about Mildred Mumson Something.<br />
He had no idea there would be pop quizzes.<br />
“OK. John Wayne.”<br />
Pete nods—satisfied Roy will get the big picture, if not all<br />
the delightful little details—and pries the joint from between the<br />
fingers of his student’s uninspected hand.<br />
snap<br />
A light pops up from Pete’s Bic lighter.<br />
He inhales.<br />
Where was he?<br />
Raoul Walsh.<br />
He looks at Roy who, for lack of anything better to do, intently<br />
studies the light-absorbing characteristics of his left hand.<br />
Johnwayne. Johnwayne. Johnwayne.<br />
Pete turns his attention back to the screen.<br />
“Walsh shot Th’ Big Trail in 70mm as well as 35mm, but it<br />
was released in 1929—th’ year th’ Stock Market crashed—an’ no<br />
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theatre was about to invest in 70mm projectors, so for decades,<br />
whenever anybody saw th’ pitcher—which was almost never—it<br />
was always th’ 35mm print. What you’re about to see—” he<br />
swivels his head around to look pointedly at Roy, who moves<br />
his hand slowly back and forth before his face “—is th’ restored<br />
70mm print.”<br />
Roy’s hand moves back and forth, in and out, to and fro.<br />
The fact of Pete’s reveling in the history of cinema’s asides not<br />
being shared by the general population has always been a bitter<br />
pill for him to swallow. He imagines that understanding the<br />
details of how a picture got made, who wrote it, what occurrences<br />
took place during its filming, etc., enhanced its enjoyment.<br />
What an anachronism he’s become.<br />
The realization he has already lived his time—his heyday lies<br />
far behind him now—helps ease along the hours spent sitting<br />
semi-comatose in the semi-dark, laved by waves of photons from<br />
a flickering cathode ray tube chocked with long dead men and<br />
women.<br />
Pete presses PLAY.<br />
The blue screen disappears, to be replaced by <strong>one</strong> of black<br />
and white.<br />
Roy abandons the study of his hand and stares into the screen.<br />
They watch, occasionally exchanging the diminishing joint, as<br />
a lithe John Wayne dances about the screen in a fringed, leather<br />
suit. He’s good with a gun, great with a knife, even better with a<br />
bow and arrow. In time, he takes out the bullwhipping bad guy,<br />
outfoxes the slick riverboat gambler, and wins the beautiful gal.<br />
In the last shot—an ethereal, spiritual image—the lovers<br />
stand among ancient sequoia. They step in close, come together<br />
in silence, respectful of the beauty everywhere surrounding them.<br />
They speak quickly, hearts emptying words long held inside, but<br />
their voices don’t carry, can’t be heard. When they kiss, it is a<br />
deep, abiding kiss, a kiss that has been waiting over a year to be<br />
born. Hand-in-hand, they stroll through the trees towards, then<br />
past and beyond the camera. Now, with only the trees in frame,<br />
the wide 70mm camera tilts up, moves higher and higher along<br />
tree trunks of incalculable age, to stare into the vault of heaven.<br />
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In Pete’s head, he can clearly see the eye-patched Walsh—a<br />
real-life swashbuckler, former cowboy, war hero, friend of Pancho<br />
Villa’s—leaning against a C<strong>one</strong>stoga’s wagon wheel, calmly<br />
rolling a cigarette from a Bull Durham bag, wondering what th’<br />
hell would happen next since he was making it all up as he went<br />
along.<br />
Meanwhile, in Roy’s head, Roy dances about in a fringed,<br />
leather suit. He’s good with a gun, great with a knife, even better<br />
with a bow and arrow. In time, he takes out the bullwhipping<br />
bad guy, outfoxes the slick riverboat gambler, and wins the<br />
beautiful gal. Coonskin cap perched on his head, he and the<br />
beautiful gal stand among ancient sequoia. He towers over her<br />
as if a tree himself. As the camera tilts upwards, a celestial choir<br />
starts to sing, and—<br />
“Roy?”<br />
Roy, startled back into the world of drought and disease, of<br />
dread and Dolby surround sound, jumps.<br />
“It is now officially time for popcorn an’ brandy.” Pete stands<br />
and stretches. “Then we’ll watch th’ pitcher that made Wayne a<br />
stor.”<br />
Roy rattles his size-eleven brain inside his size-thirteen skull.<br />
“But you said Stagecoach did.”<br />
Pete produces a genial, gratified smile.<br />
His protégé has been listening after all.<br />
“Sort’ve. Since no <strong>one</strong> actually saw Th’ Big Trail, the first time<br />
people sat up and noticed ’im was in Stagecoach, an’ that pissed<br />
Ford off no end. He punished Wayne by sendin’ him back to the<br />
scrapheap of B Westerns for a few more years.”<br />
Roy organizes these facts in the giant wall of cubbyholes he<br />
keeps directly above his eyes, right behind his brow.<br />
“OK.”<br />
Pete sets sail for the kitchenette.<br />
His voice trails behind.<br />
“It was Howard Hawks who really made ’im a stor with what<br />
we’re gonna watch next—Red River.”<br />
Roy frowns up at the giant poster of John Wayne as Ethan<br />
Edwards in The Searchers.<br />
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“When we gonna watch that?”<br />
“Watch what?”<br />
Pete turns from his popcorning labors.<br />
“That.”<br />
“Oh—that.”<br />
Pete returns to his labors.<br />
“You ain’t ready.”<br />
“I ain’t?”<br />
Pete shakes his head.<br />
“You ain’t.”<br />
He pours some chilled kernels into a pot of hot oil and settles<br />
the lid on top.<br />
“Dunson’s th’ first character Wayne played where ’is mean<br />
side showed. Hawks hadda age him for th’ part.”<br />
Exploding kernels, desperate to escape the heat, clunk against<br />
the lid.<br />
Popcorn aroma invades the room.<br />
“Th’ young buck was played by Montgomery Cliff, a fruit<br />
who couldn’t fight worth beans, he was so gay.”<br />
Pete grabs a rag, wraps the pot’s hot handles, and gives it a<br />
few shakes.<br />
“It’s Mutiny on th’ Bounty, with cattle.”<br />
Roy wonders what Mutiny on the Bounty, without cattle, is.<br />
Pete removes the pot from the burner and lifts off its lid. A<br />
celebratory cloud of steam arises, commemorated by a few corn<br />
cannonballs.<br />
“It was ’48, an’ Wayne came out in three pitchers that year—<br />
two by Ford, and this <strong>one</strong>. Th’ others were Fort Apache an’ Three<br />
Godfathers.”<br />
He salts, peppers, spices and sifts brewer’s yeast onto the<br />
popped corn.<br />
“Ford helped Hawks edit Red River, which was made in ’46.<br />
It was th’ first time Ford realized how good Wayne was, so he<br />
grabbed ’im for Fort Apache.”<br />
He pours his mixture into a metal bowl, snags two stemmed<br />
glasses from a shelf of such things, exits the kitchenette, switches<br />
off lights, and returns to his wingèd thr<strong>one</strong>.<br />
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“They were released th’ same year, but Hawks’ picture was<br />
made first. It was his first Western.”<br />
The bowl gets placed on the hassock and a glass gets handed<br />
to Roy.<br />
Once again, from the dark side of his chair, Pete brings forth<br />
a bottle. Once this is uncorked and poured, he replaces it and<br />
picks up the bowl of popcorn. Then he settles back, removes his<br />
silver spurs, stretches out his legs, crossing them on the hassock,<br />
and drops the bowl onto his lap.<br />
Roy drags his chair nearer so he can reach the popcorn.<br />
Pete raises his glass.<br />
“Cheers.”<br />
Roy presents a sheepish grin. He’s never been cheered before.<br />
They tap glasses.<br />
“Cheers.”<br />
He grabs a handful of popcorn.<br />
The brandy tastes awful—that is, at first—but soon enough it<br />
makes his belly feel warm and snuggly.<br />
“At this point, only eight of Wayne’s twenty-eight movies were<br />
Westerns, an’ only Tall in th’ Saddle was worth watchin’. Wayne<br />
had never d<strong>one</strong> anything like what Hawks wanted. This—this<br />
was th’ pitcher made ’im a star.”<br />
On that note, Pete presses PLAY.<br />
This is some really great popcorn, thinks Roy, and tries to follow<br />
the action on the screen.<br />
The brandy has waffled his brain.<br />
The room is cozy from cooking and from two male bodies<br />
releasing tiny coils of heat and from tummy-warming alcohol.<br />
Perfect for long winter naps. Best popcorn in the world. He licks his<br />
fingers with great study and deliberation. Wouldn’t want to miss<br />
any. He stares into the bowl. Only a few oily, unpopped kernels<br />
remain. He’d like some more, but Pete is absorbed in the picture.<br />
He returns his attention to the tube. He could use another toke,<br />
too. And his brandy glass has been empty far too long.<br />
So?<br />
What do you think, Roy?<br />
Do you boldly rise and walk around Pete’s chair to where he<br />
keeps his stash? And do what—roll yourself a doobie? You don’t<br />
know how. Take a pull off his brandy bottle?<br />
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That would be rude. But it’s what you want to do.<br />
So?<br />
What do you think, Roy?<br />
“I’ll do the thinking,” snarls Tom Dunson/John Wayne.<br />
I’ll do the thinking, lips Roy. His eyes narrow. I’ll do the<br />
thinking.<br />
He grabs holt of his saddle’s pommel and grunts his fat ass<br />
onto the sorrel.<br />
Next time I see you, kid—I’m gonna kill you.<br />
He digs spurs into the sorrel’s slats and pocks across the<br />
desert, trailed by a wake of dust.<br />
Roy’s full head of hair has g<strong>one</strong> mostly white by the time he<br />
reaches Abilene.<br />
The cattle are waiting there for him, driven by his nemesis/<br />
son, Matthew, who had mutinied and left him behind to die.<br />
Cherry was right—you’re soft. You should’ve let him kill me, because<br />
I’m gonna kill you. I’ll catch up with you, don’t know when, but I’ll catch<br />
up. Every time you turn around expect to see me, ’cause <strong>one</strong> time you’ll turn<br />
around and I’ll be there… I’m gonna kill yah, Matt.<br />
The longhorn mill about on Main Street. The populace is<br />
celebratory; they haven’t seen this many beeves in years.<br />
Harry Carey/Mr. Greenwood gave Rick top dollar for his<br />
herd.<br />
Roy’s herd.<br />
Roy’s still gonna kill ’im.<br />
He gallops into town with a dozen rowdies. In sight of<br />
Abilene, and the steaming train, he turns to his men and drawls,<br />
I told you all where you stand in this. See that you remember it.<br />
They pull up short at the sight of the cattle that fill the town.<br />
Roy swings his girth off his horse and pushes through the<br />
cattle as if they were pre-schoolers.<br />
An inexorable force, he swaggers through the lowing animals,<br />
his face bent into a hell-born fury, his long legs devouring acres<br />
with each stride.<br />
Rick steps off the boardwalk onto the dusty street.<br />
His face twists into a snarl of hatred.<br />
Roy, clearing the cattle, spies his little brother. He lurches to a<br />
stop and crouches into a shooter’s pose.<br />
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Draw, Rick.<br />
Rick snaps his cigarette into space and laughs.<br />
“You ain’t got th’ nerve, Roy—you’re a pansy.”<br />
I said draw.<br />
Pete presses STOP.<br />
The screen reverts to blue.<br />
The roar of .44s fills the air.<br />
Men of all stripe dive for cover.<br />
Cattle mill and fuss, disturbed by the loud reports.<br />
Rick’s wild bullet catches the gray John B. on Roy’s head and<br />
sends it sailing after the cigarette.<br />
Pete presses REW<strong>IN</strong>D.<br />
Roy shoots Rick’s gun out of his hand.<br />
It chases after the hat that flew after the cigarette.<br />
Pete smiles.<br />
Roy is asleep, head cocked forward, chin to his chest.<br />
Pete had been so caught up in the picture he hadn’t heard<br />
Roy’s snores.<br />
Rick falls to his knees and whimpers.<br />
“Where’d you learn to shoot like that, Roy?” He holds out his<br />
bloody wrist. “Guess my little bro ain’t no pansy, after all—”<br />
Pete studies Roy and wonders what he’s dreaming.<br />
What would Roy Weston dream about?<br />
Too bad he missed the end of the pitcher.<br />
Dunson and the kid kissed and made up.<br />
He pours himself another shot, leans back in his comfy chair<br />
and hoists his glass to the snoring Roy.<br />
“Dream manfully and nobly, Roy, and thy dreams shall be as<br />
prophets.”<br />
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Sorrow followed like an old scolding,<br />
as he rode to the trailhead. It was all he could do at times not to turn back.<br />
Mod’s pleading features hung suspended before him, as if a talisman. Her<br />
warm breath as she whispered her devotion was yet in his ears. The soapy<br />
scent of her clean, young skin still filled his nose. Even through rough, gloved<br />
hands, he could feel their fingers entwined.<br />
Doubts crowded his thoughts as he rode. But no matter how he looked at<br />
things, it always came down to m<strong>one</strong>y. The young lover inside him yearned<br />
to rein in and head home. But it was the calmer, reasoning side of him that<br />
won the day. He would travel on and finish what he started. That thing<br />
that had seemed from a distance such a romantic longing—to live the life of<br />
a cowboy—was now merely a means to an end. His heart had been pierced<br />
by Cupid’s arrow. He would return to Mod and play out his days raising<br />
children and cattle. He would die in his new Texas home an old man<br />
familiar with the small joys of husbanding and fathering, not as a gunman<br />
with a tin star on his chest, or a l<strong>one</strong>some cowpoke, or wandering paladin,<br />
drifting like a leaf on the wind.<br />
It was this determination—to return in triumph with purse enough to<br />
marry Mod—that led him on across the brown, barren plains, accompanied<br />
by a ponderous heart and the sound of his own, croaking voice.<br />
The wind did blow and the rain did fall<br />
And the hail did fall and blind me<br />
As I rode along my thoughts went back<br />
To the gal I left behind me<br />
If I ever get off the trail and the Indians they don’t find me<br />
I’ll make my way straight back again to the gal I left behind<br />
me—<br />
It was late afternoon when he swung down off his gelding before the<br />
Agate Hotel in rowdy downtown Fort Worth. He strove not to appear<br />
unnerved. He had arrived to an orgy of drunken, over-zealous men. Bullet<br />
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holes peppered the clapboard shingles of the hotel before which he tied his<br />
mount, and there appeared not to be many whole panes of glass in the<br />
community. Shots punctuated the air continually, and would continue to do<br />
so throughout both day and night.<br />
This was his first cattle town, and he had been flat-footed by such a<br />
demonstration of hooliganism.<br />
It was at the Agate where he had been instructed to find berth, in<br />
anticipation of One-Armed Wilson, ramrod for Misters Goodnight and<br />
Loving.<br />
At this time of his history he did not wear a gun; such a thing would have<br />
been an unaffordable extravagance. He did, however, carry with him as a<br />
parting gift from Sol—on the clear understanding it would be returned in the<br />
same condition as it had been borrowed—a .44 Henry Rifle.<br />
Sol had not been extravagant when he claimed, “It’s a rifle you could<br />
load on Sunday and shoot all week long.” He had impressed upon him not<br />
only the rifle’s responsibility but, as kickshaw of its history, the story of its<br />
presence at the Battle of Altoona, in which a company of sixteen men armed<br />
with such levered devices had held at bay—and turned to riot—an assembly<br />
mounting into the hundreds.<br />
“Learn to shoot with this, and leave the short gun aside,” Sol counseled.<br />
“A rifle is the staff by which you shall be known a man who claims his<br />
business his own, and <strong>one</strong> not impressed by ballyhoo.”<br />
He took his bags and bedroll off the saddle, and shouldered the Henry in<br />
its boot.<br />
The Agate proved to be the finest hostelry in town, with red-and-gold<br />
flocking upon its walls—claimed by the management as brought all the<br />
way from Paris, France—and the floors covered with Byzantine-patterned<br />
Aubusson rugs. From a gold-leafed plaster medallion on the ceiling in the<br />
capacious foyer depended a colossal crystal chandelier from which, according<br />
to the manager’s chin-wagging, many strong men had swung in the name of<br />
drunken revelry.<br />
“I have come seeking a gent name of Wilson, who is in th’ employ of<br />
Misters Goodnight and—”<br />
“—Over there,” informed the pomaded manager instantly.<br />
The man he had occasion to indicate sat upon a chintz settee, reading<br />
a newspaper. The paper had been neatly folded into quarters, in order to<br />
facilitate his reading, as the man in question appeared, in accordance with<br />
his nickname, to have but a single arm.<br />
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Wilson, a bilious-appearing man, lowered his quartered paper and<br />
peered up into the sinless features of the youth who stood before him.<br />
Wilson’s hair, parted in the middle, had been well oiled into submission.<br />
Thick mustachios obscured his mouth and jaw, and high cheekb<strong>one</strong>s provided<br />
embrasures for severe indigo eyes.<br />
As the boy spoke, he set the paper aside and warped his face into a smile.<br />
“Sir, I have been told you are Mister Wilson.”<br />
Wilson acknowledged this with a faint nod. He looked the boy over, then<br />
landed on his eyes and screwed them tight with his own.<br />
“You got pluck, boy?”<br />
He was not sure how best to answer.<br />
“How far’d you come to get here?”<br />
He informed this man Wilson of his journey’s origin.<br />
“Homesteader?”<br />
The boy shook his head.<br />
“What’s your age?”<br />
He lied.<br />
He noticed, when Wilson’s smile widened, that he had a gold tooth.<br />
“I take that to mean considerable younger. Very well, then. Drovers<br />
most are about your age anyway, although not so tall. So you may say what<br />
you will about your years. No matter to me. But mind this—a day slips<br />
by an’ you don’t tote your load, you’ll be a free man back where you started.<br />
You hear me?”<br />
“Yes, sir.”<br />
Wilson’s eyes drifted towards the Henry.<br />
“Any good with that?”<br />
Along the trail he had often practiced, always with the mindfulness of<br />
his few cartridges, which fact served well to make his aim the truer. He had<br />
been blessed with keen sight, a steady hand, a sensible nature, and a natural<br />
aversion to gasconade or profligacy of any type.<br />
“I can hit what I sight.”<br />
Wilson seemed pleased with his reply.<br />
“You can livery your horse across th’ street. Get yourself a bath an’ some<br />
chuck, compliments of th’ company. It’s like to be th’ last water you’ll be in<br />
besides rain an’ rivers th’ next few months.”<br />
He arose as he spoke, to stand a head shorter than his new cowpunch.<br />
“You’ll ride drag at th’ start.”<br />
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When this failed to elicit a response, Wilson broadened his smile to<br />
expose, not a solitary, but a brace of gold teeth.<br />
“You don’t know what that means, do you, son?”<br />
In truth he did not, and owned up to this shortcoming, feeling foolish,<br />
as though he were a sharecropper after all, duded up in chaps and spurs, yet<br />
without a notion of their true meaning, or use.<br />
“This may well be a decision you’ll regret but once, son, an’ that<br />
continuously.”<br />
He began to leave, but turned and added,<br />
“We trail at dawn. And—I wouldn’t hold it as personal if we never<br />
saw each other again.”<br />
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“<strong>THE</strong> SONS FIRST<br />
appeared in a 1935 short, which I don’t have, an’ which may not<br />
even exist anymore, called Slightly Static—you writin’ this down?”<br />
Roy looks aggrieved.<br />
Was he supposed to?<br />
“No. I—”<br />
Pete laughs at his consternation.<br />
“You’re a good boy, Roy.” He chuckles as he lights the joint<br />
dangling from his lip, scrunching an eye against the smoke.<br />
Pete passes the smoldering twist to Roy.<br />
Tonight Pete wears black jeans, black lizard boots, a black,<br />
bat-yoked shirt with mother-of-peal snaps, and a black leather<br />
vest decorated with big, silver conchos.<br />
Tonight Pete wears black.<br />
He also wears his Colt.<br />
“Their songs’re a part’ve th’ Western canon. Ford used<br />
’em a lot—they were in over a hundret pitchers, not countin’<br />
background songs an’ radio shows an’ th’ like.”<br />
The drug wallops Roy, and he’s flooded with a sense of<br />
calmness and well-being. He feels secure and cared for here<br />
in the apartment of Pete, something he has not felt before,<br />
something he is not used to. Something he likes.<br />
“—hard to decide, so I selected William Wyler’s Th’<br />
Westerner—”<br />
Williamwyler. Williamwyler. Williamwyler.<br />
Pete dr<strong>one</strong>s on. Roy half-listens.<br />
Details elude Roy. So far, though, he’s enjoyed watching the<br />
movies.<br />
And getting st<strong>one</strong>d.<br />
And drunk.<br />
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And the popcorn.<br />
Best popcorn in the world.<br />
“—William Wyler won three Oscars, second only to Ford’s<br />
two—”<br />
But the thing he loves most is Pete’s knowledge. He loves that<br />
he doesn’t learn stuff for m<strong>one</strong>y or fame. He also loves listening<br />
to his raspy old man’s voice, makes him feel like a teacher’s pet<br />
that he would spend so much time telling him what he knows.<br />
“—his pitchers feature multiple horizontal planes, with<br />
characters arranged in diagonals at varyin’ distances from—”<br />
Even if some of it is boring.<br />
“—wasn’t Toland an’ Welles who first used deep-focus<br />
shots in Citizen Kane, but Wyler in Th’ Good Fairy—scripted by<br />
n<strong>one</strong> other than Preston Sturges—Norbert Brodine was th’<br />
cinematographer—”<br />
The joint reappears in Roy’s face. He concentrates on<br />
plucking it from Pete’s creased fingers.<br />
“—made over forty Westerns, said he used to lie awake nights<br />
tryin’ to think up new ways’ve getting’ on an’ off a horse. See,<br />
Willy Wyler was th’ greatest—after Ford, of course—director<br />
who ever—”<br />
Wistful Roy eyes the remote.<br />
But Pete’s just warming up.<br />
“—an’ there really was a Judge Roy Bean, an’ there really was<br />
a town called <strong>Vine</strong>garoo—means scorpion, in Texican—but his<br />
story became a legend an’ like th’ reporter at th’ end of Liberty<br />
Valence says—when th’ legend becomes fact, print the legend. You might<br />
want to write that down, Roy.”<br />
Roy, bogarting the joint, nods.<br />
Roy no more understands what bogarting means than he<br />
knows who Bogart was.<br />
Noticing the joint’s growing absence, Pete reaches inside his<br />
vest pocket and produces its twin.<br />
Finally, he picks up the remote.<br />
Finally.<br />
Lecture over, Roy settles back. He smiles his greeting to the<br />
second joint. This means the <strong>one</strong> he currently, barely, holds is<br />
his.<br />
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His own, personal joint.<br />
Imagine that.<br />
Pete presses PLAY.<br />
Roy watches closely, in part to make up for falling asleep<br />
during Red River, in part because he can’t take his eyes off Gary<br />
Cooper. What a pretty man! But still a man’s man. A man who<br />
shoots and fights and rides and fucks. And who also thinks. He<br />
watches Coop think his way out of being hanged by Judge Roy<br />
Bean, played by Walter Brennan, as he leans against the bar of<br />
the Jersey Lily, Bean’s/Brennan’s saloon.<br />
BEAN: What’re you doin’ in <strong>Vine</strong>garoon? Homesteader?<br />
COLE: Oh, just passin’ through.<br />
BEAN: Where yah hale from?<br />
COLE: No place in particular.<br />
BEAN: Where ya headin’ fer?<br />
COLE: No place special.<br />
BEAN: Oh, saddle tramp, huh?<br />
Roy’s eyes glaze as much from the dope as from the dialog.<br />
No place in particular. No place special.<br />
Jess passin’ through. Drifting. Wandering.<br />
Saddle tramp, huh?<br />
No place special. No place in particular.<br />
Jess passin’ through.<br />
A chill runs along his spine, puddles in his loins, buzzes his<br />
charkas, diddles his gonads, thrills his thoughts.<br />
What was the difference between Cole’s drifting and his own?<br />
Roy has lived on the streets plenty, but he’s never left Seattle.<br />
He’s been a bum and a beggar. A street person. He doesn’t<br />
imagine a man like Cole would ever have been any of those<br />
things. Of course, Cole lived in a time when all you had to do<br />
to disappear was ride off in the general direction of the sunset.<br />
You could change your name and vanish forever. But you can’t<br />
do that these days, not anymore, not with giant corporations and<br />
UPC codes and TV cameras and cell ph<strong>one</strong>s that take pictures<br />
and Global Positioning Satellites and laptops and palmcorders<br />
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and who knows what else to track your every move, know every<br />
book you read, what groceries you buy, what motels you stay at,<br />
restaurants you eat in, schools you go to, grades you make, work<br />
record, birth record, medical record—<br />
How can you disappear in a world like this?<br />
Roy’s always figured no <strong>one</strong> could disappear as much as he<br />
has, but that was before he met Pete.<br />
What, exactly, does he know about Pete, anyway? Besides<br />
being a font of film lore, he might be a murderer in hiding, which<br />
would account for his gun. Or maybe he’s a witness to something<br />
terrible and the Feds put him here for safe keeping until the trial.<br />
Or maybe he was a hit man for the C.I.A. Or maybe—<br />
Roy’s thoughts drift as he lurches alongside the movie,<br />
sometimes galloping, sometimes cantering, mostly barely keeping<br />
up—always hearing the voices, seeing the pictures, watching<br />
the story unfold—and yet at the same time not. As his mind<br />
darts in-and-out of focus, he becomes aware of this creepy bit of<br />
knowledge—starting in his tingling loins, ascending his curving<br />
spine, clutching his bald scalp in a painful grip—that he has no<br />
real place to be, no real time to be in, no guides or rules to tell<br />
him what he ought to do with the few years he has left. Should<br />
he wander like Cole, or live like Pete and be a dress-up cowboy,<br />
stay st<strong>one</strong>d and watch old movies? Roy has no ties, other than<br />
Rick—who is, in truth, more of a noose than a tie—and no<br />
friends to speak of…except for Pete.<br />
Bean enters the big, empty theatre. Gas lights flicker. He<br />
has bathed and pomaded his hair and wears his gray Civil War<br />
uniform, dangling sword scabbard banging his knees. With<br />
m<strong>one</strong>y fleeced off strangers pretending he was a Judge, he’s<br />
bought every single ticket in the house and told his men to guard<br />
the doors.<br />
Tonight it’s just Roy Bean, the hanging judge, and Lillie<br />
Langtry, the Jersey Lily.<br />
He can’t decide where to sit so he picks up a seat and places it<br />
in the center aisle.<br />
But it’s no good. Cole’s already inside, gun drawn, eyes<br />
narrowed—<br />
Why do shootists always narrow their eyes?<br />
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Judge Roy Bean will never leave the theatre alive.<br />
Watch out, Judge—here comes Cole!<br />
Bang Bangbang Bang<br />
Cole gets him, of course. Now Roy Bean can be a legend.<br />
And legends never die. He was an ordinary man, sitting in his<br />
Civil War uniform waiting for Miss Lillie.<br />
Bang Bangbang<br />
Cole cradles the dying old man. Old as Pistol Pete. He<br />
carries him like a baby into Miss Lillie’s room. Joy comes to the<br />
Judge’s face then the screen goes black as he slides into death and<br />
becomes a legend.<br />
Like Lincoln, like John Wayne, like Trigger, like like—<br />
<strong>THE</strong> END<br />
—Roy Rogers.<br />
Pete presses REW<strong>IN</strong>D.<br />
“Wasn’t that great? Huston made a version with Paul<br />
Newman—it’s interestin’, what’d you expect, but Huston wasn’t<br />
half the director Wyler was—you OK, Roy?”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
“Thinkin’s all.”<br />
“Well.” Pete chuckles. “Practice makes perfect.”<br />
He reaches down to where he keeps his stash.<br />
“Snort?”<br />
Roy continues his nod into a new paragraph.<br />
His thoughts spring like a deer at the sound of cracking twigs.<br />
Their glasses from the night before set sticky on the floor.<br />
Pete unsticks his. Roy does likewise.<br />
Pete pours.<br />
The cork squeaks back.<br />
He places the bottle on the floor between them.<br />
“Pete?”<br />
Pete drinks.<br />
“Hm?”<br />
Roy offers him a steady look.<br />
“Who are you?”<br />
Pete savors his mouthful of spirits.<br />
“Who am I? I dunno. Who are you?”<br />
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“Don’t know anything about you.”<br />
Pete shrugs.<br />
“What do I know about you? You love th’ Sons. You’re here.<br />
I’m here. Ain’t that enough?”<br />
Roy’s expression indicates maybe he reckons it ain’t.<br />
“Where you from?”<br />
Pete dons a crafty smile.<br />
“No place in particular.”<br />
Roy grins.<br />
“And you, Roy? Where you headed?”<br />
“No place special.”<br />
Pete snuggles into his chair.<br />
“There ya go.”<br />
But Roy isn’t d<strong>one</strong>.<br />
“You a murderer?”<br />
Pete drains his glass.<br />
“Me?” He peers into his empty glass. “Am I a killer of my<br />
fellow man?” He strokes his stubbly chin. “Wouldn’t you like to<br />
know?”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
“Why I asked.”<br />
Pete plants his boots on the floor.<br />
“It’s time you watched Fort Apache.”<br />
He moves to the VCR and pops out The Westerner, slips it into<br />
its sleeve, replaces it on a shelf and pulls down another.<br />
“It’s the first of a trilogy of Calvary pictures Ford made—<br />
maybe the best—but Wayne always liked his role as Nathan<br />
Brittles in She Wore a yellow Ribbon—”<br />
He inserts the tape and returns to his wingback.<br />
“An’ in the third <strong>one</strong>, Rio Grande, you’ll get to see th’ Sons.”<br />
The journey has winded him.<br />
He pours.<br />
“Down the hatch.”<br />
Roy hasn’t touched his. He says,<br />
“I guess you been all over the world, and d<strong>one</strong> all kinda<br />
things—even maybe killed somebody needed killin’—so I was<br />
just wonderin’ what you’ve d<strong>one</strong> and where you’ve been, is all.”<br />
Pete stares at his dilated pupil.<br />
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“You got the look of a man whose innards are bein’ gnawed at<br />
by a badger.”<br />
Roy considers this.<br />
“No, I don’t think so.”<br />
Pete asks,<br />
“Ever seen Bronco Billy, with Clint Eastwood?”<br />
“No.”<br />
Pete sips.<br />
“Life’s all twisty and turny, Roy. You can waste it, you can<br />
drink it, you can smoke it all away—but it’s yours ’til you die. To<br />
ask a man who he is, is to open a can of worms. Once they’re<br />
loose on th’ carpet, there’s no getting’ ’em back inside. You want<br />
that?”<br />
Roy hadn’t thought of it that way.<br />
“It’s just. I got this feelin’. Something’s changin’, Pete, an’ I<br />
don’t know—”<br />
Pete grins, thinks he comprehends.<br />
“You don’t know how to talk about it. So you think maybe if<br />
old Pistol Pete opens up he might jess say somethin’ that’d help.”<br />
He presses PLAY.<br />
The blue screen snaps off and the FBI Warning appears.<br />
It is red and scary.<br />
Roy is disappointed.<br />
Pete glares at the FBI Warning.<br />
“Fuckin’ Feds.”<br />
Roy sits back and digs in for another movie.<br />
To his surprise, Pete says—<br />
“I’ll think about it.”<br />
And so he does.<br />
He thinks about it while Henry Fonda struts around the<br />
desert, and John Wayne lopes around the desert, and Shirley<br />
Temple pouts around the desert, and Victor McLaglen drinks<br />
around the desert, and Ben Johnson gallops around the desert—<br />
he thinks about it until he decides against it—at least for now—<br />
comes instead to this conclusion: maybe they’re on the wrong<br />
track.<br />
Pete surmises Roy’s not ready for Ford.<br />
He seems unimpressed by Wayne.<br />
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He does seem to like horses, though.<br />
By the time Wayne—Kirby York—is d<strong>one</strong> four-flushing<br />
reporters about what a great man Henry Fonda was—Lt. Col.<br />
Owen Thursday—lying about his misdeeds and misjudgments<br />
for the sake of the Calvary’s honor, thereby tying a Gordian knot<br />
of confusion for historians to come, Pete has reached a decision.<br />
It would be a while before his protégé sees the other two<br />
Calvary pictures.<br />
Or be ready for The Searchers.<br />
It’s time for something more potent. And more to the point.<br />
It’s time for Roy Rogers.<br />
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“SERGEANT WESTON!”<br />
“Suh!”<br />
“Scout up ahead for a safe passage to the river!”<br />
“Yessuh!”<br />
“And don’t take any chances with them Pawnee.”<br />
“Nosuh!”<br />
Roy, mounted on his spirited coal-black steed, Presto, sprints<br />
off at a fast gallop ahead of the advancing Seventh Calvary,<br />
Company C. Behind him, he leaves a wagon train packed<br />
with a golden-hearted whore; a drunken lawyer; two disputing<br />
suitors for the hand of the Battalion Commander’s redheaded,<br />
freckled-faced, blue-eyed daughter; a man with a bad head cold;<br />
a maudlin Army captain about to retire; an alcoholic, Irish<br />
doctor; an Indian Agent who has secretly been selling guns to<br />
the Indians; a woman who adores Roy, but who he must ignore<br />
for the sake of regimental morale; a massive Master Sergeant<br />
who lusts to kill Roy, but who will ultimately become his friend;<br />
a small boy Roy rescued from an Indian raid, who loves him like<br />
a father; a toothless, tetchy old cook; a beautiful, fine lady from<br />
Virginia who cannot abide the sight of the whore; a sweet young<br />
girl, whose husband has been scalped, and who is about to have<br />
a baby; a tall, angular, well-dressed gambler from Louisiana,<br />
who carries a grudge against Roy—who caught him cheating<br />
at cards—as well as a brace of nickel-plated derringers he<br />
longs to use against his perceived foe; a convict, handsome and<br />
dashing even in chains, who claims he is innocent of the charge<br />
of murder, that the man he killed had killed his family; the<br />
Sheriff who is conveying him to trial, but whose heart is not in<br />
his job because he suspects his pris<strong>one</strong>r to be innocent; the Judge<br />
who will try the case, who is himself on the payroll of a corrupt<br />
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politician in need of the young convict’s hanging, if he is to be<br />
re-elected; a fat, blustering banker, filled with the pride of his<br />
own certitude, whose portmanteau is stuffed with the currency<br />
he has embezzled from his own bank; and <strong>one</strong> of the sons of<br />
Cochise—Humping Maiden—on his way to the stockade at Fort<br />
Bixby on the Arugula River—a stoic, smoldering, blue-eyed<br />
man for whom the fine lady from Virginia can’t help but feel<br />
loathing—and lust.<br />
Their chances for making it to the Fort are slim-to-n<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Without their scout—Roy Weston—and his amazing coalblack<br />
steed, Presto, they won’t stand a chance.<br />
The Ghost Dance is bringing all the tribes together—Pawnee,<br />
Sycamore, Seminole, Coco Puffs, Shosh<strong>one</strong>, Moose, Elk and<br />
Shoehorn—and only <strong>one</strong> man knows all their tongues, knows<br />
all their customs, most of their recipes, as well as their favorite<br />
flowers—and that man is Roy Weston, Indian Scout!<br />
Off in the distance, war drums have begun their rhythmic<br />
booming.<br />
Like the rumble of cannon at the Battle of Bull Run.<br />
Like the sepulchral lowing of cattle late of an evening—<br />
bangbangbang<br />
—late of an evening, when the—<br />
bangbangbang<br />
—when the men are ranged around the campfire—<br />
bangbangbang<br />
—the campfire, and the yarnin’ starts—<br />
Some<strong>one</strong> is calling Roy’s name.<br />
The voice is far away, but is growing closer.<br />
—and the yarnin’ starts, and the bottle and the bowl make<br />
their rounds—<br />
bangbangbang<br />
It is a familiar voice, too.<br />
BANGBANGBANG<br />
Roy’s eyes snap open.<br />
Even with the Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s covering his ears, he can hear<br />
some<strong>one</strong> banging on his door.<br />
He starts awake and props himself up in his creaky bed.<br />
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squeak<br />
He is still dressed, having made his way directly from Pete’s,<br />
his head filled with the vapors of spirits and the smoke of C.<br />
sativa.<br />
He wonders if he ever finds a safe passage to the river.<br />
“ROY!”<br />
Roy’s heart shrinks at the sound of Rick’s voice.<br />
“Roy! I know you’re in there! Open the fuckin’ door!”<br />
Panic grips him. His mind races. He doesn’t know what to<br />
do.<br />
If he stays quiet, maybe Rick will go away.<br />
Outside, a greasy light smears the sky.<br />
If there was a fire escape, he could open the window and—<br />
“ROY! You peckerheaded freak! Open this fuckin’ door—<br />
NOW!”<br />
Roy, his decision made for him, springs to his feet. He tears<br />
the Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s away from his ears.<br />
He needs to pee.<br />
Really, really bad.<br />
He thinks to hide his new CD player lest Rick take that, as<br />
well.<br />
As well as all his m<strong>one</strong>y.<br />
But hide it where—under the mattress?<br />
Heart in his throat, eyes popped with fright, against his<br />
will and better judgment he unlocks the thick white door that<br />
sometimes protects him from the world, and cracks it open.<br />
Just from the way he stands, he can tell Rick’s pissed off.<br />
His leather jacket, stitched together from mismatched pieces,<br />
is covered with hand-painted slogans, skulls and crossb<strong>one</strong>s and<br />
his bitch-list of women he’s fucked.<br />
“Hey, bitch. What took so fuckin’ long? Pullin’ your pud?”<br />
His gray watchcap with the peeling Mariners logo is beaded<br />
with rain.<br />
He elbows his way past Roy into the room.<br />
His ferret face probes the room’s sparse contents.<br />
“Whatta fuckin’ pit. Exactly the way I pictured it—Roy’s<br />
hole.” He sniffs. “Even smells like your ass.”<br />
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His eyes land on the mattress.<br />
Roy has not moved since Rick entered the room.<br />
He stands slack-jawed, watching his brother, really needing<br />
to pee, feeling helpless, incapable of defending himself or his<br />
property, both real and intellectual. As he looks on, expecting<br />
the inevitable, he bates his breath, counts the seconds, really<br />
really needs to pee, and wishes his brother would get an<br />
aneurysm or whatever and die.<br />
Noticing where Rick’s India ink eyes have traveled and<br />
landed, he feels compelled to do or say something.<br />
This is what he comes up with:<br />
“Hiya, Rick. It’s you.”<br />
Rick snorts.<br />
“Nooo, it’s not me, Roy. It’s a fucking impersonator.”<br />
squeak<br />
Rick sits on the stained mattress, bounces to test its<br />
springiness.<br />
squeaky squeak<br />
“Figure you forgot to invite me, so I invited myself. You’re<br />
cool with that, right bro?”<br />
Roy nods woodenly. He knew Rick would find him—knew as<br />
a certainty he would—he always does.<br />
As certain as rain in Seattle.<br />
It had only been a matter of time.<br />
Time’s up, Roy.<br />
“—after all, we’re such a close-knit family, right?”<br />
Roy doesn’t like where this is going.<br />
“Sure, Rick.”<br />
Rick’s nodding head reminds Roy of those little dogs with<br />
spring-loaded necks people put in the back window of their cars.<br />
“You hurt my feelings, Roy.”<br />
Roy frowns.<br />
“I. I’m sorry, Rick. How’d I do that?”<br />
Rick nails him with a scalp-tingling glare.<br />
“You forgot our deal.”<br />
Roy washboards his forehead.<br />
“Deal?”<br />
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“Yeah.” Rick’s eyes narrow. “You remember our deal,<br />
don’tcha? The <strong>one</strong> where you give me half your dough?”<br />
Roy feigns enlightenment.<br />
“Oh, yeah, right. Our deal.”<br />
“Yeah, right. Our deal.” Rick bounces some more on the<br />
mattress. “And since you forgot our deal, you get dinged.”<br />
“Dinged?”<br />
Roy’s knees turn to water. He knows what’s coming next.<br />
Rick compresses his lips into a thin slit then pops them apart<br />
with a popping apart sound.<br />
“It’s like a bank charges late fees, Roy—dinged. And my late<br />
fee is—<strong>one</strong> hundred per cent.”<br />
Roy tries hard to think.<br />
He wishes he wasn’t so distracted by his bladder.<br />
“You said I should bring it Thanksgiving.”<br />
This recalled fact nudges Rick back into the Anger Z<strong>one</strong>.<br />
“Don’t fuck with me, asshole! I need that m<strong>one</strong>y now—TO<br />
day.”<br />
He slides his feet to the floor and with a swift practiced<br />
motion the switchblade puts in its appearance.<br />
He flicks it open.<br />
“Where’s the m<strong>one</strong>y, Roy?”<br />
Roy can’t help himself. Involuntarily, his eyes dart from<br />
Rick’s snarling face to his mildewed, m<strong>one</strong>y-stuffed mattress. It<br />
only lasts an instant, but it’s long enough for Rick. He smirks.<br />
“You’re so fuckin’ predictable, Roy.”<br />
He holds Roy at bay unnecessarily with the point of his bare<br />
bodkin while, with his other hand, he lifts the mattress.<br />
“I wouldn’t do that if I were you.”<br />
Who said that?<br />
Roy didn’t.<br />
The brothers—whose eyes have been riveted on each other<br />
to the exclusion of the rest of the world—spin as <strong>one</strong> at the<br />
introduction of this new voice.<br />
<strong>THE</strong> GOOD<br />
Roy’s bald dome is beaded with sweat. His face is covered<br />
by several days’ stubble. His eyes are red-rimmed from residual<br />
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dope and restive sleeplessness. His watery blues are dilated with<br />
fear. He stares in disbelief. He struggles to master his bladder.<br />
<strong>THE</strong> BAD<br />
Rick’s snarl returns. His upper lip curls. An intense hatred<br />
clouds his rodent’s face. He shifts his weight to face his new<br />
opp<strong>one</strong>nt. The tip of his knife stabs the air. He is like any small,<br />
feral animal that finds itself unexpectedly cornered.<br />
<strong>THE</strong> UGLY<br />
Pete is framed by the doorway. He wears his Cowboys and<br />
Indians robe. His bullet-filled gunbelt is strapped on, hairy legs<br />
stuck into hand-painted boots, feet slightly apart, knees slightly<br />
bent, right hand on the butt of his Colt Peacemaker.<br />
So gladdened is Roy by this surprising turn of events, he<br />
almost forgets about his bladder.<br />
“Pete!”<br />
His voice is a quavering blend of hero-worship and hallelujah.<br />
“This is my brother—” his eyes bounce between the two men<br />
“—Rick.”<br />
Rick straightens from his killer’s crouch and the swagger that<br />
had momentarily aband<strong>one</strong>d him returns.<br />
“So. This your girlfriend?”<br />
He spits.<br />
A splatter of his venom glistens on the floor.<br />
“Fuckin’ sick losers.”<br />
He snorts, produces a derisive laugh, and returns his attention<br />
to the mattress.<br />
A tide of panic once again rises in Roy, who turns in<br />
helplessness to Pete.<br />
Pete stands like a statue in the hallway. His lips, when he<br />
speaks, barely move.<br />
“I said—I wouldn’t do that if I were you.”<br />
Rick doesn’t bother to turn.<br />
“Yeah, well you’re not me, asshole.”<br />
He lifts the mattress higher.<br />
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“And, fuckin’ A—I’m not you.”<br />
His gleaming eyes make out something nested deep in the<br />
cleavage of the acute angle formed by the mattress and box<br />
springs.<br />
Pete slides his Colt from its holster.<br />
Roy’s eyes bulge. Involuntarily, his hands seek out the sleek<br />
new Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s and clamps them over his ears.<br />
Pete narrows his eyes.<br />
Roy wonders why shootists always narrow their eyes.<br />
Pete speaks.<br />
“If you don’t stop right now I will kill you, you sneaky son of a<br />
bitch.”<br />
Something in the way he says this causes Rick to stop.<br />
Causes gooseflesh to ripple up and down his spine. Causes<br />
him to clench his ass.<br />
Causes him to turn, to learn what’s going on.<br />
Causes him to utter the word “Fuck”—his favorite word to<br />
utter—and drop the mattress.<br />
The limp, stained mattress thuds down and expels into the<br />
room a gaseous cloud of stink.<br />
Rick faces his challenger.<br />
Here’s a new <strong>one</strong>.<br />
Not that he hasn’t looked down the barrel of a gun before, just<br />
not <strong>one</strong> held by an old fart wearing a bathrobe and hand-painted<br />
cowboy boots.<br />
He swells his bantam chest and blusters.<br />
“Put the piece down—now, old man.”<br />
In an effort to appear menacing, he jabs at the space between<br />
them with his little knife.<br />
Pete doesn’t bat an eye.<br />
In fact, he doesn’t blink.<br />
“Put it down.”<br />
Rick shakes his head.<br />
“Fuck you.”<br />
Pete’s right thumbnail whitens as he applies pressure to the<br />
Colt’s hammer.<br />
“C”<br />
Rick’s ears pin back.<br />
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“O”<br />
His grip on the knife tightens.<br />
“L”<br />
He burrows his eyebrows into a frown.<br />
“T”<br />
Rick is now looking down the barrel of a loaded, fully-cocked<br />
Colt held by an old fart wearing a bathrobe and hand-painted<br />
cowboy boots.<br />
Definitely a new experience.<br />
“You’re bluffin’.”<br />
Pete produces an almost imperceptible head shake.<br />
“This here’s a Colt .45. It fires a 230 grain soft head bullet<br />
with a muzzle velocity of 830 feet per second. That means 4,000<br />
pounds’ve pressure per square inch on impact—with you. From<br />
this close it’ll make a hole the size’ve a walnut goin’ in, an’ th’<br />
size’ve a grapefruit goin’ out.”<br />
Rick remains very still and quiet while he takes in this news.<br />
Then he snorts.<br />
“You’re fuckin’ crazy.”<br />
His beady eyes dart between his brother and Pete.<br />
“Both’ve yah.”<br />
He seems to be considering his next move.<br />
“Cocksuckin’ assholes.”<br />
The tip of his tongue races back and forth across his razory<br />
lips.<br />
Pete’s eyes remain squeezed into slits.<br />
“Fuck.”<br />
The Colt floats between them, a resolute and solemn reminder<br />
of life’s brevity.<br />
“Shit.”<br />
Rick eases out of his crouch and folds his knife.<br />
It disappears into his patchwork leather jacket.<br />
“OK, old dude. Back off. Everything’s cool.”<br />
A smile twitches on Rick’s face and he steps over to Roy and<br />
squeezes his shoulder.<br />
“Hey—he’s my bro. Wouldn’t hurt a hair on his head.”<br />
He pats Roy’s bald dome.<br />
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“That is, if he had any—haha.”<br />
No <strong>one</strong> laughs.<br />
“C’mon, guys—lighten up.”<br />
For the first time since the standoff began, Pete moves. He<br />
takes two steps back and waves the five-and-a-half inch barrel as<br />
if directing traffic.<br />
“Get out’ve here.”<br />
Rick pats the air between them with open palms.<br />
“Fine—OK. So fuckin’ serious. Just foolin’ around, man.<br />
You know—brother shit.”<br />
As he passes out of the room he pauses long enough to flash a<br />
look at Roy. The message is clear—there will be consequences.<br />
The pit of Roy’s stomach hardens. His bladder reasserts itself.<br />
Rick offers Pete a grin.<br />
“You’re <strong>one</strong> tough old dude, man—I wanna party with you.<br />
Hey—Roy?”<br />
Roy is in the process of removing his sleek new Bose<br />
headph<strong>one</strong>s. He stops what he’s doing and stares.<br />
What now?<br />
“Thanksgiving, man—like you promised.”<br />
He turns back to Pete and the Colt.<br />
“I made him promise to bring you with ’im. You know,<br />
turkey and cranberry shit. Mel’ll be real disappointed, you don’t<br />
show. So—guess I’ll see you there.”<br />
Met with stony silence, Rick nods and backs along the hall.<br />
“You can put the pea shooter down now, pops. I’m goin’—<br />
see?”<br />
He waves.<br />
“Asta, man.” He gives his brother a significant look. “See you<br />
later.”<br />
He turns and saunters the rest of the way to the stairs.<br />
Pete and Roy watch his head disappear from sight.<br />
Pete uncocks the Colt.<br />
“You best go pee, Roy.”<br />
Roy settles the Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s around his neck.<br />
“I should?”<br />
Pete’s eyes drop down to Roy’s crotch where a black stain is<br />
spreading.<br />
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“Shit.”<br />
Roy trots down the hall to the B THRO M.<br />
“When you’re d<strong>one</strong>—” Pete calls after him “—you can take<br />
me out to breakfast.”<br />
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From beneath the shadow<br />
cast by his broad-brimmed beaver hat, Wilson offered a grin.<br />
“Mornin’, hand.”<br />
“Mornin’, Mister Wilson.”<br />
Behind Wilson—in fact, all around him—in truth almost as far as the<br />
eye could take in—longhorn cattle moved. Their backs appeared as troughs<br />
and crests of a restless ocean. The waves of heat that radiated from the<br />
animals, even at this early hour, was almost overwhelming.<br />
The night before he had bethought himself something akin a fool for<br />
pursuing this strange passion—murderous savages, stampedes, scorching<br />
deserts and nerve-shattering sleeplessness awaited him. He mulled over his<br />
short life’s deeds and desires as he ate his dinner of prime steak, potatoes in<br />
gravy, lima beans awash with butter, and a plate-sized slice of fresh-baked<br />
apple pie.<br />
Soon after his arrival to Abeline, he purchased a pencil, several sheets of<br />
stationary and envelopes. As he ate, he wrote a letter to Mod.<br />
One of the Ladies of the House approached, a mischievous eye towards<br />
his glass of cow’s milk, and inquired if he wouldn’t rather have something<br />
more potent to drink.<br />
“No, ma’am,” he informed her reluctantly. “I don’t imbibe.”<br />
She appeared amused by this.<br />
“I saw you talkin’ with Wilson. Figured any man rode with him was a<br />
drinkin’ man.”<br />
He colored and shook his head, thankful for the apple pie to absorb his<br />
attention.<br />
“What’s that you’re writin’?”<br />
“A letter.”<br />
“To your girl?”<br />
“Yes, ma’am.”<br />
“You trailin’ with Wilson and Charlie Goodnight to Denver?”<br />
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“Yes, ma’am, reckon so.”<br />
She laughed.<br />
“How do you plan on sending her letters, or receiving any back?”<br />
He hadn’t considered this.<br />
After a moment of thought, he replied,<br />
“I shall send this with a return of General Delivery, Denver, then the<br />
others will serve as my journal for her upon my return.”<br />
She shook her head.<br />
“If you return, you mean. I was you, I’d have a drink with my last<br />
meal.”<br />
In the bath—the first indoor <strong>one</strong> he had ever visited—he again thought<br />
of returning to Mod, and dashing his insane scheme.<br />
But the sun, as it broke the horizon, found him in his saddle, speaking to<br />
Wilson.<br />
“Thank you kindly for th’ room. I’m fed an’ well rested and ready for<br />
work.”<br />
Wilson chuckled.<br />
“And so you shall have it in spades—Lucius!”<br />
A short lick of a man spurred his sorrel to join them.<br />
“Boss?”<br />
“Take this boy in hand. He’ll be ridin’ drag with th’ other young’un.”<br />
Lucius, his given name—Lucky, his appointed <strong>one</strong>—eyed his new<br />
charge with serious mien.<br />
“That’s fine, boss. Come with me, buck.”<br />
Wilson raised his hand and stopped him, then turned to the Young<br />
Cowboy and smiled.<br />
“Goodnight runs the best damned outfit in this country, son, and you’re<br />
fortunate to have employ with him. You’ll meet him after a bit. Until then,<br />
when you talk to me, you talk to him. We got us a few simple rules here.<br />
The main <strong>one</strong> is, you shoot a man and you’ll be tried by the outfit on the spot<br />
and if found guilty, hang. You understand?”<br />
“Yes, sir.”<br />
“You can’t drink whisky an’ work for us.”<br />
“No, sir.”<br />
“You can’t play cards an’ gamble an’ work for us.”<br />
“No, sir.”<br />
“You can’t curse an’ swear in our camps or in our presence an’ work for<br />
us.”<br />
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“No, sir.”<br />
“Very well. You listen hard to what Lucius tells you. He fought th’<br />
damn Yanks with me an’ Bobby Lee at Chuckamonga an’ in th’ Wilderness.<br />
They don’t come with more flint, or better horse sense.”<br />
“Yes, sir.”<br />
Wilson returned back to the problems that result whenever thousands of<br />
bovine brains congregate.<br />
Lucky drew him up at the end of the herd.<br />
“You an’ Chet’ll follow along for now, draggin’ behind th’ herd.” He<br />
pointed to the Young Cowboy’s neck. “Neckerchiefs out here ain’t for<br />
decoratin’. Two thousand head of beef kick up a bit’ve dust—Chet!”<br />
A boy about his own age cantered over on a big chestnut gelding.<br />
When he drew up beside them, Lucky spat.<br />
Tobacco juice splattered his wool pants.<br />
“You boys got <strong>one</strong> job between yah, an’ it’s an important <strong>one</strong>. You look<br />
out for th’ drags—th’ weaker cattle. Th’ speed of th’ whole herd’s decided by<br />
th’ weak <strong>one</strong>s, so you gotta keep up th’ corners an’ make sure th’ strong <strong>one</strong>s<br />
are forward of ’em, an’ out’n th’ way, an’ make sure th’ rear ain’t no wider’n<br />
th’ swing. An’ keep them strays in line. That’s all you gotta do for th’ next<br />
twenty-five hundret miles.”<br />
Chet, a moon-faced, freckled fourteen-year old, blanched.<br />
“We gotta ride drag th’ whole way?”<br />
Lucky laughed.<br />
“Ev’ry son’ve a bitchin’ job out here’s jess as important as ev’ry other.<br />
We all take turns—ceptin’ for th’ two pointers—ridin’ drag an’ swing. It<br />
ain’t so bad back here, boys. Hell, Injuns come up, they’re like to kill us<br />
afore they kill you. Might even give you time to high tail.”<br />
He watched for their reaction, and appreciated it when it came.<br />
Sweeping his Texan hat off, he toweled his white forehead with his hand.<br />
“Days won’t be more’n eighteen, mebby twenty hours long. Man can<br />
get lots of saddle sleep, he knows how. You need a fresh mount, we’ll cut<br />
<strong>one</strong> from th’ remuda. We got <strong>one</strong> of th’ best ole wimmen for a cook I ever<br />
knowed. He can make a biscuit that can take a bullet an’ still taste like a<br />
bride’s first kiss.”<br />
Chet’s eyes shifted away.<br />
The Young Cowboy asked,<br />
“What’s an old woman?”<br />
Lucky laughed.<br />
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“That’s what we call a coozie, son—a trail cook.” He returned his hat<br />
to its proper place. “Biscuit shooter’s somethin’ else we call ’em. Name’s<br />
Nathan Clive Boudreaux. He’s a good ole Johnny Reb from around<br />
Chickasaw. I hear th’ South in you, son—where you hail from?”<br />
“Georgia.”<br />
Lucky nods approval.<br />
“Chet here’s a Yank, but we ain’t a-gonna be holdin’ that agin him, are<br />
we?”<br />
Lucky produced a prodigious wink.<br />
“You boys nose each other out. I got work to git at. Jess remember’<br />
this—you’re ridin’ for a Brand now. Whether you’re ridin’ flank or point or<br />
wing or drag—ain’t no matter. What matter’s is bein’ loyal to th’ Brand.<br />
See y’all ’round th’ chuck.”<br />
He spat another sluice of brown liquid and cantered away.<br />
Chet drew his bay closer.<br />
“You ever d<strong>one</strong> this work before?”<br />
“A little. Man named Flood taught me a bit, while back. Been drivin’<br />
a plow these last two years, though.”<br />
Chet seemed relieved.<br />
“I hired on green. I lied to Mister Wilson, told him I knew quite a bit.”<br />
His new acquaintance nodded.<br />
“Well, I’m sure that we’ll figure this thing out between us.”<br />
He put out his hand. Chet leaned over and they shook.<br />
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“ROY ROGERS<br />
was th’ real deal. He wasn’t just some hammy actor who hated<br />
horses, like John Wayne.”<br />
Roy stirs his coffee.<br />
“Thought you liked John Wayne.”<br />
They sit at a table opposite each other in a window booth at<br />
the Kountry Korner Kafe, a venerable Georgetown eatery.<br />
Outside, an atomized mist wets the world.<br />
The table is battered and scarred, and there are places where<br />
the metal banding around its Formica top has loosened and<br />
yawns away. The dented Juke Box selector hunkered between<br />
them hasn’t worked since the ’70s. The walls—covered with<br />
tan, peeling paper bordered with boldly-rendered wagontrains<br />
driven by great, long mule teams—have been decorated with<br />
various kitschy fragments from a spurious West: vintage frame<br />
saws, branding irons and hoof picks, hand-painted circle saw<br />
blades, and two-man pull saws. A badly chipped counter runs<br />
the length of the room, missing a few of its stools.<br />
Behind the badly chipped counter, a waitress—plump and<br />
pimply—hums. Her brown hair is netted and her nametag<br />
proclaims she is Lucy.<br />
Behind where Lucy hums is the kitchen window, orderwheel<br />
a-flutter with green tickets. Framed by this window, a<br />
tall, bearded, sleepy-looking young man wearing a paper hat, a<br />
cigarette perched in the alpine of <strong>one</strong> ear, occasionally moves his<br />
arms, hopefully cooking breakfast.<br />
“I do, for th’ most part. Especially his work before World War<br />
II, an’ the stuff he did with Ford. But that’s not th’ point.”<br />
“OK.”<br />
Roy sips his java black.<br />
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He wishes it was a double-tall Americano.<br />
Roy and his wishes.<br />
“Roy loved horses, like General Grant.”<br />
“OK.”<br />
Roy hates the little plastic creamers restaurants set out in<br />
bowls these days.<br />
“Ulysses S. Grant was considered th’ greatest horseman in th’<br />
whole Union Army.”<br />
By now Roy knows Pete knows a lot of stuff Roy doesn’t know.<br />
“Anyhow, Roy was like that.” Pete is getting excited. Maybe<br />
it’s because he’s only on his third cup of coffee. “He could sit a<br />
horse like he was part of it.”<br />
Before leaving their building, Pete had dressed up a bit. He<br />
braided his hair, traded out his hand-painted boots for black<br />
lizard-skin <strong>one</strong>s, donned a pair of rolled-up blue jeans, royal blue<br />
bibfront shirt, cream colored neckerchief, fringed suede jacket,<br />
big white Stetson Tom Mix hat and a belt with a silver buckle the<br />
size of a slice of Wonder Bread.<br />
And on the buckle—in bold, gold letters—are the letters J and<br />
W.<br />
“He was a real cowboy, grew up on a real farm in a real place<br />
called <strong>Ohio</strong>. Then bad times came, and he and his pa went to<br />
work in a shoe factory.”<br />
Lucy glides back into their lives.<br />
She swirls a Pyrex globe of coffee.<br />
“I sure am hongry,” reports a wistful Roy.<br />
Lucy dimples. A wisp of brown hair escapes its netting to<br />
tickle her forehead. She shoves this aside with the back of her<br />
free hand.<br />
“Any minute now, Sugar.”<br />
Pete holds out his empty coffee cup and reads her black,<br />
rectangular nametag.<br />
“What d’you know about Roy Rogers, Lucy?”<br />
Lucy frowns. Lucy pours. Lucy smiles. Lucy pours.<br />
“You mean the King of the Cowboys? The guy who sang<br />
Happy Trails with his wife, Dale? You boys know he usta come<br />
in here?”<br />
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Her eyes, like the sky, start to mist.<br />
“Before my time, of course. Ma was workin’ here, then. Not<br />
my Ma—we just call ’er that. Usta be, famous folk would stop<br />
by for a buckwheat stack, back in the day. Jack Benny and Elvis<br />
was in a buncha times. Man, could that boy pack it away. And,<br />
let’s see—Bing Crosby. Garry Moore. Steve Allen. Loads of<br />
musicians. Merle Haggard. Robert Goulet. Remember him?”<br />
Pete nods.<br />
Roy stares out the window.<br />
“We got their autographs in a book out back.”<br />
Pete asks,<br />
“You said Roy stopped in?”<br />
Lucy sniffs.<br />
“That man. He come in here before he was famous, back<br />
when he didn’t have a pot to piss in—excuse my French. Ma<br />
saw he was nosin’ the menu a good long while—sure sign he’s<br />
addin’ up pennies—noticed his guitar case an’ asked could he<br />
play. Well, sir, he popped out that ole geetar and started yodelin’<br />
and stopped the place cold, he was so good. Ma give ’im a stack<br />
on credit. Years later he come back in—this is when the whole<br />
world knew who Roy Rogers was—and paid Ma for that stack.<br />
Just stopped in ’cause he said he owed her.”<br />
She wipes her nose on the back of her free hand.<br />
“Ah, God. What we need in this world’s more people like Roy<br />
Rogers.”<br />
ding<br />
“That’s probably yours.”<br />
She pats Roy’s hand with her snotty <strong>one</strong> and returns to the<br />
kitchen, zig-zagging from table to table, pouring coffee.<br />
Pete beams.<br />
“That’s what I’m talking about, Roy. See, he lived by a Code.<br />
You ever heard’ve th’ Code of th’ West?”<br />
Roy’s attention is focused on three things: Lucy, the kitchen,<br />
and food.<br />
“OK.”<br />
“It wasn’t written down, but everybody knew it. Here’s some.”<br />
For each adage he recites, Pete raises a finger. “Never miss a good<br />
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chance to shut up. Don’t squat with your spurs on. Always drink upstream<br />
from th’ herd. Don’t corner something meaner’n you. Life is easier when<br />
you plow around th’ stump.”<br />
Lucy, arrived with their food, adds,<br />
“An’ never name a cow you plan on eatin’.”<br />
She settles the plates before them.<br />
“Anybody ever tell you you look like Willie Nelson?”<br />
She smiles at Pete while Roy tries to flag her attention.<br />
“No.”<br />
“Excuse me, ma’am—you have Tabasco?”<br />
Lucy nods.<br />
“Sure do, hon.”<br />
Pete feels uncomfortable beneath her stare.<br />
“That’s a handsome rig you’re wearin’. From ’round here?”<br />
“That’s right,” admits Pete, as he pricks a jittering yolk with<br />
his fork.<br />
“Y’all should come in more often.”<br />
Lucy’s smile appears to lack as many teeth as the counter<br />
lacks stools.<br />
She takes a step towards the table behind her and returns with<br />
a bottle of McIlhenny’s Pepper Sauce.<br />
She hands this to Roy.<br />
“This your boy, Willie?”<br />
A smile creeps across Pete’s face.<br />
Roy has the cap off, bottle poised—awaiting Pete’s reply.<br />
Pete shrugs.<br />
“Nephew.”<br />
Lucy’s smile deepens.<br />
“From Texas.”<br />
Lucy is impressed. She scrunches her chin.<br />
“Name’s Roy.”<br />
She widens her eyes.<br />
“That right?”<br />
ding<br />
“Roy Weston.”<br />
Lucy’s eyebrows soar. A t<strong>one</strong> of reverence invades her voice.<br />
“That was <strong>one</strong>’ve his names.”<br />
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Pete mixes runny eggs with hash browns.<br />
He lifts an eyebrow at Roy.<br />
“Tolt ya.”<br />
Lucy bends down and stares into Roy’s face.<br />
“Damn. You got his eyes—he’s got Roy’s eyes. Damn. I<br />
wisht Ma was still here. Hoo-whee. Roy Weston. From Texas.<br />
I thought there was something familiar ’bout you when you come<br />
in.”<br />
ding<br />
“Shoot. Y’all need anything, just hollar.” She starts to leave,<br />
pauses to look at the two chewing men, and sighs. “Just think.<br />
Willie Nelson and Roy Rogers on the same day. Hoo-whee.”<br />
Roy sprinkles dots of aged hot sauce over his food.<br />
“You should taste it first,” suggests Pete.<br />
Roy shrugs, caps the bottle and sets it aside.<br />
“Nobody’s ever told me I looked like nobody before. Nobody’s<br />
ever said nothing about my name before, either.”<br />
“Your lucky day. Say—can you make biscuits an’ gravy?”<br />
Roy shrugs.<br />
“Had a recipe, I could.”<br />
“Back on th’ trail, cowboys called th’ camp cook a biscuit<br />
shooter.”<br />
“OK.”<br />
Pete sips from his fourth cup of coffee.<br />
“They got a museum down in California.”<br />
“Biscuit shooters?”<br />
Pete frowns.<br />
“No. Roy and Dale.”<br />
Roy leans in closer and lowers his voice.<br />
“He really stuff his horse?”<br />
Pete nods absently.<br />
“Antelope Valley. It’s a ways from here. Always thought I<br />
might like to visit.”<br />
“That’s weird.”<br />
Pete sets down his cup.<br />
“Goin’ to California?”<br />
Roy shakes his head.<br />
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“Stuffin’ his horse.”<br />
“Oh.”<br />
Pete eats.<br />
“These are great biscuits.”<br />
“So he had ’im gutted and stuffed like a fish?”<br />
Pete shrugs.<br />
“People do weird shit with pets. Roy loved Trigger, taught<br />
him everything. An’ horses aren’t that bright. But, Trigger…<br />
See, if it was jess Roy an’ Trigger an’ Dale on a ranch, that’d be<br />
<strong>one</strong> thing. Then he prob’ly wouldn’t have stuffed ’im. But it was<br />
more’n that. It was Roy an’ Trigger—an’ ten million little boys<br />
an’ girls. They loved Trigger, too. I know I did. And all of ’em<br />
wanted to ride ’im, at least meet ’im. Roy dint want to deprive<br />
any of us. That’s why he stuffed ’im.”<br />
Roy screws up his face.<br />
“And you can sit on him like that? A dead horse?”<br />
Pete shakes his head, his features flushed from the rush of<br />
C 8 H 10 N 4 O 2 .<br />
“No, Roy. You can’t. He’s not—it’s a museum. So. How far<br />
you think it is to Antelope Valley?”<br />
Roy sits back.<br />
“Never heard’ve the place.”<br />
Pete reflects on his own question.<br />
“Figure least a thousand miles.”<br />
Roy mops up the last of his food.<br />
“That’s a ways.”<br />
Pete eyes his compadre.<br />
“You don’t drive, do you?”<br />
Roy shakes his head.<br />
Pete looks out the window.<br />
“Dint think so.”<br />
“You gonna tell me more about Roy?”<br />
Pete pats his coat pocket.<br />
“Sure thing. Where was I?”<br />
“Shoe factory.”<br />
Pete retrieves his tobacco pouch and EZ Wider papers.<br />
His tobacco pouch is filled with a special blend of Light<br />
Virginia burley, a touch of Turkish and a pinch of Maui Zowie.<br />
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Watching Pete unzip the pouch, Roy leans forward and<br />
whispers,<br />
“Don’t think you can smoke in here, Pete.”<br />
Pete seems not to hear.<br />
“So—th’ shoe factory. Lenny hated it.” He stops fiddling<br />
with his smoking paraphernalia and raises eyes to Roy. “That<br />
was ’is real name—Leonard. Leonard Slye.” He busies his<br />
fingers again. “His pa took sick <strong>one</strong> day an’ stayed in bed with<br />
a headache. Lenny went to work an’ decided then and there<br />
he was d<strong>one</strong> with it. He went home an’ told his pa they should<br />
visit kin out in California.” His twiddling digits produce a wellproporti<strong>one</strong>d<br />
cigarette. “His pa’s headache cleared up right<br />
away, an’ off they went in a rattletrap car, campin’ along th’<br />
way. That was th’ Spring of ’31. By ’33, he an’ Bob Nolan had<br />
founded the greatest Western singin’ group of all time.” He<br />
parks the rice paper tube on his lips, digs out a kitchen match<br />
and ignites its bulbous, strike-anywhere, red-and-white head on<br />
his thumbnail.<br />
He inhales.<br />
The peculiar blend of weeds perfume their space.<br />
“Ever travel much, Roy?”<br />
Roy dimples, shakes his head.<br />
“Nah.”<br />
“Any reason? I mean, other than total commitment to<br />
window washing?”<br />
Roy shrugs, scoots his plate away.<br />
“Jess never did’s all.”<br />
“OK.” Pete flicks ash into his plate. “So, you think you ever<br />
will?”<br />
Roy shrugs again, scoots his plate some more.<br />
“Dunno. Maybe.”<br />
“Maybe. Maybe not. Probably wise not to. Outside th’ city<br />
limits there are many horrors.” Pete chuckles. “From A Confederacy of<br />
Dunces. Ever read it?”<br />
Roy shakes his head and wishes Pete would change the<br />
subject.<br />
“Great book. All takes place in New Orleans.” Pete appears<br />
thoughtful as he smokes. “Useda live there. All through th’<br />
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’60s an’ ’70s. Guy wrote th’ book offed himself in ’69 ’cause he<br />
couldn’t get it published. After he died, his maw got it published<br />
an’ it won th’ fuckin’ Pulitzer Prize. Life can be a bitch, Roy.”<br />
Lucy sidles up. Her nose crinkles. Her hand not swirling<br />
coffee fans the air.<br />
“You’re such a bad boy, Willie! You ain’t supposed to be<br />
smokin’ in here.”<br />
She drops their check, sets down the coffee, and starts<br />
stacking plates.<br />
She has unbutt<strong>one</strong>d the top buttons of her blouse so that when<br />
she bends to clear their table her bottomless cleavage is revealed.<br />
Every man knows the magnetizing effect of bottomless<br />
cleavage.<br />
The boys ogle.<br />
She smiles up at Roy.<br />
“Yours is on the house, sugah. Maybe you’ll come back <strong>one</strong><br />
day when you’re rich and famous. And you—” she smiles hard at<br />
Pete, then leans her lips into his hairy ear “—my number’s on the<br />
back.”<br />
Their dirty dishes piled into the crook of <strong>one</strong> arm, Lucy<br />
plucks Pete’s cigarette from his fingers. She takes a long, deep<br />
drag.<br />
“Hoo-whee! Now that’s a cigarette.”<br />
She exhales a plume of borrowed smoke.<br />
Her recidivist wisp licks her forehead again.<br />
“Damn.”<br />
She retrieves the coffee pot.<br />
“Hoo-whee.”<br />
She bats at the recalcitrant wisp.<br />
“Damn.”<br />
ding<br />
“Catch yah later, Willie—I hope.”<br />
She winks at Pete and flounces away.<br />
Pete slides the check towards Roy.<br />
Roy, whose face has hardened into a knot.<br />
“Th’ badger still gnawin’ your innards, Roy?”<br />
“Huh?”<br />
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“What’s eatin’ you?”<br />
Roy shifts on his haunches.<br />
“Would you really have shot Rick dead?”<br />
Pete gives Roy a long appraisal before answering.<br />
“Nah. Just wing ’im, most like. Maybe nick an ear. Crease<br />
’is scalp, stuff like that.”<br />
Roy grins.<br />
“Teach th’ prick a lesson.” Pete squints at Roy. “He really<br />
your brother?”<br />
Leaning back in the booth to reach his horse choker, Roy<br />
nods.<br />
Pete shakes his head.<br />
“Piece a work.”<br />
Roy peels off a bill.<br />
Pete continues,<br />
“I’ve known lots of dudes like him, Roy. All’ve ’em are busy<br />
bein’ dead right now.”<br />
He looks steadily at Roy.<br />
“You ever really want ’im dead, lemme know.”<br />
Roy stops peeling.<br />
“I know folks what’ll get ’er d<strong>one</strong>.” He leans back. “Maybe<br />
even do it myself.”<br />
Roy drops a twenty onto the table and irons it out with the<br />
edge of his hand.<br />
“OK.”<br />
Pete studies Roy.<br />
“He scares you, don’t he?”<br />
Roy dips his head.<br />
“Sometimes—but he wouldn’t do nothin’. He’s all talk.”<br />
Pete’s stare is unwavering.<br />
“Rick wouldn’t do nuthin’—we’re bros.”<br />
Pete nods.<br />
“So were Cain an’ Able.”<br />
Roy’s mask drops a hair and reveals a bunch of sadness.<br />
“So what’s this business ’bout Thanksgivin’?”<br />
Roy’s eyes search the tabletop.<br />
“Nuthin’. Just Mel, Rick’s housemate.” He offers his<br />
compadre a sheepish grin. “He makes a big dinner every<br />
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Thanksgiving, and he wants me to invite you, but he’s really<br />
gay—you know, really—and you probably wouldn’t wannna<br />
come anyway, so I dint bother you with it or anything.”<br />
His eyes search the table.<br />
Pete scratches his stubbly chin.<br />
“Normally I take my turkey down at th’ Shelter.”<br />
Roy looks up from the beaten tabletop.<br />
“Really?”<br />
Pete nods.<br />
“Really. I love turkey and cranberry an’ giblets an’ all that<br />
shit. After my birthday, it’s my favorite holiday.”<br />
Roy’s face beams.<br />
“Really?”<br />
Pete slides along the bench, drags his jacket with him.<br />
“Really.”<br />
Roy leaps to his feet. He unballs his yellow raincoat.<br />
“So...when’s your birthday?”<br />
Pete draws on his fringed jacket.<br />
After he smoothes his hair, he arranges the Stetson on his<br />
head.<br />
“Really, really gay, huh?”<br />
With his right hand’s extended index finger, he tilts back the<br />
brim of his sombrero.<br />
“Think I can handle that.”<br />
Seconds later, an ageing Ratso Rizzo and a portly Joe Buck<br />
push their way through the door and back onto Georgetown’s<br />
mean streets.<br />
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From Ft. Belknap, on their journey’s<br />
first leg, they made a mere five miles.<br />
Charley Goodnight—Tejano, as the Apache called him—turned out to be<br />
a wise soul all of thirty years old, whose knowledge of the land and the beasts<br />
he drove, and of the men who rode with him, was remarkable and deep.<br />
He taught his men—those who were green or tender—that the stampede<br />
was especially to be guarded against during the first ten days on the trail.<br />
It could amount to several weeks before the animals were satisfactorily trail<br />
broke. Hence, all men were instructed to sleep—when sleep was possible—<br />
on the ground in their sougans with their horses staked nearby. It was not<br />
unusual for a cowboy, during this breaking-in period, or whenever the threat<br />
of stampede seemed imminent, to keep his boots on for weeks at a time, and<br />
to sleep no more than two hours out of twenty-four.<br />
“A stampedin’ herd is hard to fathom,” Goodnight explained around the<br />
fire to his hands, on their first night out. “Once it starts to run, it becomes<br />
almost chronic. An’ even though th’ herd might run itself to exhaustion,<br />
their nervous tension doesn’t subside there. Night after night, they have<br />
been known to take fright at somethin’. I seen three thousand steers dozin’<br />
in peace—only a few restless old fellows on their feet—with th’ night riders<br />
circling ’round ’em at an easy gait. Then—somethin’ happens. Lord<br />
knows what. An’ them animals are up on their feet with unbelievable<br />
suddenness—as quick as the flash of a wakeful eye, unexpected as the flush<br />
of a covey of hidden quail—an’ with an ungodly roar of hoofbeats, an’ the<br />
distinct quaking of the earth, they will be up together in a second—an’ be<br />
g<strong>one</strong>. Whereas, an instant ago they slept in peace, scattered an’ headed<br />
to every point of the compass, now they’re on their feet, headed in th’ same<br />
direction, in th’ pitch of night, a wall of beef that will flatten a man until he<br />
is indistinguishable from th’ earth itself.”<br />
Throughout Charley Goodnight’s speech—<strong>one</strong> that he had oft repeated—<br />
his partner, Oliver Loving, an older man, seemed to draw into himself, and<br />
remained mute, happy to reside on the sidelines.<br />
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The men dined on hearty fare, and turned in soon after. In the course of<br />
the night, however, a cloud came upon them, <strong>one</strong> that blotted out the stars,<br />
and heavy rains fell, sending the cowboys to the chuck wagon where an<br />
awning had been erected.<br />
On the following night, barely beyond Camp Cooper, Indians attacked<br />
and stampeded the herd.<br />
In the darkness there was no way to tell how many attackers there were.<br />
What was of utmost importance—besides saving their own skins—was<br />
turning the stampede back.<br />
The Young Cowboy and Chet, his new bedroll-mate, had been fortunate<br />
in their choice of ground on which to sleep. One edge of the buffalo pelt they<br />
rested upon had been caught and held upright by the high grass, and it was<br />
this that saved their lives.<br />
A dozen or more Indians rode out of the darkness and began firing rifles<br />
and shooting arrows into the herd. One of the arrows would have killed<br />
Chet, but that it struck the upturned portion of the buffalo skin and turned<br />
the arrow under, its tip buried into the ground.<br />
Chet, overwhelmed by the noise and roar of beasts in stampede, stood<br />
and began to run.<br />
“No! Stand your ground!”<br />
But he failed to heed his bedmate and, in an instant, an arrow lodged in<br />
his neck.<br />
The Young Cowboy started in disbelief for a second, then he clawed the<br />
ground, searching for his Henry. With this in hand, he rose to his knees and<br />
began to fire.<br />
Off to his right he could see Oliver Loving. He had tied his horse to<br />
the chuck wagon. In an effort to divert the thundering cattle from his men,<br />
struggling to find guns and horses, he stood in full view of the herd and<br />
waved a blanket, shouting at the top of his pitch. The man was obviously<br />
fearless, a fact that would prove itself over and over, and his tactic worked—<br />
the cattle, seeing him, split apart and his men were saved.<br />
The Young Cowboy, with occasional quick glances at Loving, continued<br />
to keep up a steady, accurate fire. Several Indians fell to his well-placed<br />
bullets, and soon they rode away at full gallop.<br />
In an instant, Loving, his belt knife out, cut his horse’s reins free of the<br />
wagon, and was up and on, faster than the eye could see.<br />
“The cattle!”<br />
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The Young Cowboy, with a look to his new friend, whose body lay<br />
crumpled nearby, sprung to his horse, whose blood was already up, flesh<br />
tremoring with excitement, eyes flashing, and followed Loving, sliding the<br />
Henry into its boot, spurring his mount into a fast gallop.<br />
The storm from the previous night revisited them, reinvigorated and filled<br />
with a belly of wind and rain. Lightning cracked all around as they rode<br />
in utter darkness, trusting their horses, across treacherous prairie dog towns,<br />
up hills and down, across ravines and knolls and gullies. For the Young<br />
Cowboy, it was an elemental experience, <strong>one</strong> that would remain with him<br />
forever.<br />
Bose Ikard, an ex slave and fine night rider, managed to head off the herd<br />
and mill them back upon themselves. Only during lightning flashes could<br />
the men see clearly. The beasts were running so fast their bellies appeared<br />
to sink into the earth. By <strong>one</strong> o’clock in the morning the storm became so<br />
intense, and the wind came at such velocity, that the riders were forced to give<br />
up.<br />
At daylight, the herd was finally stopped. Greatly fatigued, the cattle<br />
soon fell to sleep, and the cowboys, worn to a frazzle, circled them while<br />
sleeping on their horses.<br />
All but <strong>one</strong> that is, who high-tailed it back to the chuck wagon where lay<br />
the body of his friend.<br />
He was amazed and relieved to learn his friend was still alive. The<br />
coozie, Nathan Boudreaux, came running up and knelt beside him.<br />
The spike of the arrow stuck in the b<strong>one</strong> just behind the boy’s ear. It was<br />
long and had g<strong>one</strong> in all the way. It was hoop-iron and not steel, and had<br />
to be removed before it corroded. Luckily, the point of the arrow had deflected<br />
off the b<strong>one</strong>, and pointed down, away from the brainpan.<br />
“Best to git that out’n him plenty quick,” Boudreaux advised. “Even if<br />
he is a Yank.”<br />
The only instrument they had to do this with was a pair of shoe pinchers.<br />
Loving galloped up then and peered down from his horse.<br />
“Is he alive?”<br />
Chet groaned.<br />
Loving swung to the ground.<br />
“Then best we keep him that way.”<br />
Being a bigger, stronger man than the other two, he held onto the boy’s<br />
shoulders.<br />
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“You hold down his legs,” he instructed Boudreaux. Then he looked up<br />
into the Young Cowboy’s frightened face.<br />
“Son, you did real good tonight. I seen you, calm and coolheaded, shoot<br />
down several them Indians. Now it’s time for more courage. We’ll hold ’im<br />
down while you pull out th’ arrow.”<br />
Reluctantly, the Young Cowboy knelt and achieved a tight purchase with<br />
the pliers.<br />
Oliver Loving leaned down and peered into Chet’s frightened eyes.<br />
“You have any idea what today is, son?”<br />
Tears swelled in Chet’s eyes.<br />
“Why,” continued Loving, in an attempt to offer rough-hewed comfort,<br />
“today is Thanksgiving. Somethin’ to do with Indians bein’ our cousins.<br />
Ain’t that a hoot’n a half.”<br />
Boudreaux chuckled as he took hold of Chet’s legs.<br />
“Now, son, I’m not gonna lie to you—this is gonna hurt. But it’s your<br />
only chance. You scream all you want, won’t nobody hold it agin yah. We<br />
git this out’n you, I’ll personal ride you to my ranch an’ my wife, Mary, will<br />
nurse you back to good. But first we gotta git it out. You ready?”<br />
Chet, trembling with fear, face white and covered with sweat, managed a<br />
nod. He squeezed his eyes together tightly and waited.<br />
Loving looked back at the Young Cowboy and winked.<br />
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A BUG-EYED<br />
black boy opens the picket gate for the two gents. Without<br />
dismounting from their horses, they enter Mel’s palatial grounds,<br />
with its topiary garden and chittering waterfalls. Their horses<br />
clomp up onto the wrap-around porch as the little pickaninny<br />
runs to the screen door and calls—<br />
“Massuh! Massuh! De’gentlemens hair!”<br />
Almost immediately the door swings open and Mel greets<br />
them with a huge smile. An immense magnolia blossom lolls<br />
above his left ear. He wears an iridescent, purple-striped taffeta<br />
bustle dress with fringe trim at the neck. The bustle back is<br />
decorated with tiny little baby blue bows, and the waist belt is<br />
cinched tightly to display his hourglass figure.<br />
His hair has been augmented with a cascade of finger curls.<br />
At his throat is a diamond cameo brooch.<br />
“Why—Roy, darlin’! You scamp! And here we thought you’d<br />
be at Manassas or some nasty place like that! How clever of you<br />
to come!”<br />
Roy, resplendent in a Confederate uniform, shoulders adorned<br />
with the gold braid of Lt. General, dismounts and doffs his<br />
plumed hat. He takes Mel’s fingers and kisses their tips lightly,<br />
properly maintaining eye contact.<br />
“Not at all. It’s an honor. May I introduce Mister Peter<br />
Bowie, from Texas.”<br />
Mel’s plucked eyebrows soar. He draws back slightly.<br />
Roy chuckles at his consternation.<br />
“Never fear, my dear. He’s on our side.”<br />
Pete, wearing a brace of pearl-handled Remingtons, fleece<br />
chapaderos, a white Tom Mix hat and Hereford cowhide vest,<br />
swings a long leg over his horse. Black lizard-skin boots with<br />
silver spurs thud onto the wooden porch.<br />
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ching ching<br />
He chings his way to the lovely Melpomene.<br />
Sweeping up a clutch of Mel’s bejeweled fingers, he removes<br />
his hat and bows.<br />
“Ah ahm yore servant, ma’am.”<br />
An intricately embroidered Point de Gaze fan appears in Mel’s<br />
other hand. Its wing beats the air as if an elegant, crippled<br />
butterfly.<br />
“Why, Mister Bowie.”<br />
Pete rises from his beau geste.<br />
“Please, ma’am. I insist y’all call me Pistol Pete.”<br />
“Well.” Mel bats long, mascaraed lashes. “If you insist.”<br />
He offers an arm to General Roy, but his eyes—coquettishly<br />
veiled behind the beating fan—are riveted on Pistol Pete.<br />
“Gen’rul…”<br />
Roy takes Mel’s arm and they enter into the main Ballroom.<br />
“Roy?”<br />
Pete nudges him.<br />
“Wake up, Roy. We’re here.”<br />
Roy opens a pair of watery blue, bleary eyes.<br />
He’s got the best sleep of his life since he started smoking<br />
Pete’s pot.<br />
With a long, metallic squeal, and an eruption of compressed<br />
air, the bus jerks to a stop.<br />
Roy had fallen asleep listening to the Sons singing Ghost Riders<br />
in the Sky. His new, blue, Chinese player no longer spins CDs at<br />
500 revolutions per minute. Pete stands when the driver calls<br />
out—<br />
“Roy!”<br />
It is the same wizened, gay driver from before.<br />
Roy is sure the driver didn’t recognize him when they<br />
boarded; he had been too busy staring at Pete.<br />
Pete had spent the morning dressing, while Roy had spent it<br />
washing.<br />
Roy had enjoyed a really long, hot soak. A really long, hot<br />
soak, and a shampoo. Pete had offered to let him use some of<br />
his expensive hair shit. He also shaved. He also plucked some<br />
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hairs from his ears. Not all mind you, because (a) the light in the<br />
B THR OM was so bad, and (b) he just really didn’t care. After all,<br />
if he plucked out all his ear hairs, where would it end? Would he<br />
pluck his back, next? The space between his eyebrows?<br />
His crotch?<br />
He just thinned it a little.<br />
Donned in a clean pair of jeans and a rumpled white tee-shirt,<br />
over which he pulled <strong>one</strong> of his three Pendelton wool shirts, he<br />
waited while Pete took his sweet-ass time.<br />
Of course, while he waited he listened to his new CDs. So<br />
accustomed to this new machine has Roy become—and in such<br />
short order, too—that the thought of returning to his old Sony<br />
tape player now seems inconceivable.<br />
He’s so d<strong>one</strong> with stretchy tapes and broken cassette cases.<br />
Besides, coupled with his new Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s, the CD<br />
sound is awesome.<br />
Roy had faced the music, and his verdict was in—CD<br />
technology rocks.<br />
Thus had he been lost in his tunes, his remaing hair drying<br />
naturally, sitting on his musty bed, eyes closed, rain pelting his<br />
windowpanes, sitting thus when the knock came that signaled<br />
Pete was d<strong>one</strong>.<br />
Despite his new Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s, Roy heard the knock,<br />
having been anticipating it forever, and quickly sprang to his feet.<br />
He pressed STOP as he crossed the tiny room, and opened the<br />
door.<br />
Respectfully, he removed his new Bose headph<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
Pete was resplendent in rhinest<strong>one</strong>s.<br />
“Ready?”<br />
All Roy could do was nod.<br />
From his white hat, circled with a solid silver band, to his<br />
white boots, painted with American flags—Pete was every<br />
inch the electric cowboy. His jacket, also white, was intricately<br />
embroidered with green cactuses and pink roses outlined in<br />
rhinest<strong>one</strong>s while, on his back, a bald eagle soared, surrounded<br />
by gold and red stars bespangled with jewels. Red and silver<br />
fringes were sewn to the outsides of his sleeves, and hung as well<br />
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from the bat-wing piping that crossed his chest and back. His<br />
shirt was purple, with embroidered half-moon pockets and two<br />
large, yellow, vined hibiscus flowers. To finish it off, a bolo tie—<br />
a silver concho—adorned his neck.<br />
His silver-tasseled pants were held up with a rhinest<strong>one</strong>embedded<br />
belt, its silver buckle decorated with a golden eagle.<br />
“An original Nudie,” Pete announced, without further<br />
elucidation. “Better to be looked over than overlooked.”<br />
That was why the old gay bus driver stared.<br />
And why all the other passengers on the bus craned their<br />
necks to stare, too, most likely wondered where Pete and his<br />
sidekick might be headed, dressed like that.<br />
Maybe a Rodeo’s in town.<br />
But this is where they were really headed—: to Mel’s, for<br />
Thanksgiving dinner.<br />
“The lettuce is all wilty!”<br />
Pete and Roy stand on Mel’s front porch. The front door<br />
gapes open, the screened door lounges closed.<br />
From inside, a high-pitched voice shrieks—<br />
“I said, the lettuce is all wilty!”<br />
Roy offers Pete a goofy smile.<br />
“It looks like gadamned wet, green toilet paper!”<br />
Pete raps some knuckles on the lounging screen door.<br />
Roy freaks a tiny bit when he hears his brother’s voice.<br />
“—th’ fuck eats that shit, anyhow?”<br />
“Fuckin’ bunnies is who, white retard,” replies the shrill voice.<br />
Pete’s knuckles bark louder.<br />
“Was that the door?” Shriller voice, less shrill this time.<br />
“Some<strong>one</strong>’s at the door! Answer the fuckin’ door, Rick!”<br />
“Fuck you, bitch.”<br />
“Five dollars and a health card—which I know you ain’t got<br />
neither of.”<br />
From the hallway leading into the kitchen appears Mel.<br />
Roy is disappointed he is not wearing a hooped skirt.<br />
He does, however, wear a lacy apron.<br />
“It’s Roy!” He calls this back over his shoulder. “And he’s not<br />
a-LOWoo<strong>one</strong>!”<br />
Mel arrives at the lazy screen door wearing all kinds of smiles.<br />
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He studies Pete from head to toe.<br />
“Candygram for Mongo?”<br />
An impassive Pete touches his hat brim.<br />
Roy introduces them.<br />
“Mel, Pete. Pete, Mel.”<br />
Mel springs open the lounging door and offers Pete a soft,<br />
ringless hand.<br />
“Howdy, Sheriff.”<br />
Wearing pink boating shorts with matching polo blouse,<br />
a slender black man floats into the room. His bare midriff’s<br />
pierced navel is adorned with a glittering st<strong>one</strong>. When he sees<br />
Pete, his hand flies to his mouth.<br />
“Ohmygod! A Republican!”<br />
Behind them, a leaf-lengthened dining table has been covered<br />
with a white linen tablecloth and set with Lalique plates, Limoge<br />
stemware, and Tiffany cutlery.<br />
As its centerpiece, a thick cut-glass vase bursts redly with<br />
roses.<br />
Mel is definitely putting on the dog.<br />
He can’t take his eyes off Pete who removes his hat and<br />
smoothes back his white hair.<br />
Mel reaches out a hand.<br />
“Allow me to take your Stetson.”<br />
“Much obliged.”<br />
Mel receives Pete’s hat as if a relic of Tutankhamun.<br />
The young pink-and-black man stretches out a cashmere<br />
hand.<br />
“I’m Jason, the black fairy. I spread Happy Dust far and<br />
wide. You must be the boyfriend we’ve heard so nothing about.”<br />
Pete frowns.<br />
“Th’ what?”<br />
Mel cradles Pete’s hat and snorts.<br />
“Don’t mind her. Mimosas for breakfast with no breakfast.”<br />
Jason’s mascaraed eyes smoulder.<br />
He turns back to Pete and examines his gleaming togs.<br />
“H<strong>one</strong>y, I got an outlet if you got an extension cord.”<br />
An unperturbed Pete penetrates further into the room.<br />
“Nice place yah got.”<br />
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Mel is preoccupied with where to put Pete’s hat. He brushes<br />
Pete’s compliment aside.<br />
“Combination early Twentieth century and too-late-to-fix.”<br />
His eyes land on the Ardley Hall china cabinet. As he<br />
transfers Pete’s relic of American cinematic history to the peak of<br />
the battered, but not beaten, Ardley, Rick enters the room.<br />
“Fuckin’ A.”<br />
Every<strong>one</strong> but Mel turns.<br />
“Eek. It got out.” Jason steps closer to Pete. “Save me,<br />
daddy.”<br />
Rick’s hair, wet from a recent dowsing, is combed back from<br />
his ratty face.<br />
Pete ignores Jason and stares hard at the recently-rinsed Rick.<br />
A shadow beneath Rick’s nose testifies to the birth-pangs of a<br />
mustache.<br />
He wears a white poet’s shirt open to his breastb<strong>one</strong>. Black<br />
leather pants make him sound like a human huarache when he<br />
walks.<br />
Pete turns to Roy.<br />
“You’re absolutely positive he’s your brother?”<br />
Jason laughs throatily and wraps a gaggle of fingers around<br />
<strong>one</strong> of Pete’s old-man biceps.<br />
“You’re funny.” He leans closer. “I’m a Libra.”<br />
“You’re a bitch,” opines Rick, who then laughs as if he just<br />
said something witty.<br />
He glares hatefully at Pete. “And you—”<br />
Mel—his hands relieved of Pete’s hat—waggles a warning<br />
finger. His gayness is instantly g<strong>one</strong>.<br />
“You behave tonight. I mean it.”<br />
Behind him, above him, as if the light surmounting a<br />
lighthouse, Pete’s white hat gleams.<br />
“This is my dinner. I paid for it, I cooked it, and I’m gonna<br />
enjoy it—with or without you, mister two-months-behind-in-hisrent.”<br />
Rick fumes. His face chases after the color of the red, red<br />
roses. He sputters when he speaks.<br />
“Me an’ Roy, we got bidness—”<br />
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Mel holds erect the selfsame, still-threatening finger.<br />
“Zip it.”<br />
Rick’s ears ride back on his head. His nostrils flare and his<br />
teeth grind.<br />
But he doesn’t say another word.<br />
“You ain’t got nothin’ but trouble headed your way you fuck<br />
this up for me tonight, understand roomie?”<br />
Mel turns from the seething Rick and presents his guest with a<br />
placid smile.<br />
“Bet you’re a Capricorn. Are you? A Capricorn cowboy?”<br />
Jason snuggles against Pete and giggles.<br />
Pete tenses his old-man bicep and smiles his old-man smile.<br />
“Leo, ma’am.”<br />
“Leo? That’s what Mae West was. She was in that picture<br />
with Cary Grant. What was it? He was a Capricorn.”<br />
“She D<strong>one</strong> Him Wrong. 1933. And I’m a Leo.”<br />
Mel beams.<br />
“A Leo who likes old movies?”<br />
Pete hikes a spangled shoulder.<br />
“Maybe. A little.”<br />
Roy snorts.<br />
Jason’s fingers unravel from Pete’s dilapidated arm.<br />
“I see dead people.”<br />
Pete and Mel size each other up.<br />
“I like Westerns,” Pete announces.<br />
Mel appears delighted with the news.<br />
“Me, too, girlfriend.” Mischief gleams in his eyes. “Did you<br />
know Randolph Scott was gay?”<br />
Pete seems genuinely surprised. “I thought he was acy-ducy.”<br />
Jason laughs, forgetting to cover his crooked teeth.<br />
“I’d say he did his best work in th’ late forties, early fifties—<br />
pitchers like Th’ Tall T.”<br />
A suggestion of gravity creeps over Mel.<br />
Mel: “Fighting Man of the Plains.”<br />
Pete: “Seven Men from Now.”<br />
Jason (stage whisper): “I wanna see that <strong>one</strong>.”<br />
Mel: “Comanche Station.”<br />
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Pete: “Buchanan Rides Al<strong>one</strong>.”<br />
Mel: “Thunder Over the Plains.”<br />
Jason and Rick drift towards the kitchen.<br />
Pete: “The Stranger Wore a Gun.”<br />
Mel: “Ride the High Country.”<br />
Pete: “Sam Peckinpah directed. Joel McCrea and—”<br />
Mel: “—Mariette Hartley. What was Scott’s horse’s name?”<br />
Pete shakes his head.<br />
“You know that?”<br />
“I do, indeed. Do you, mister Leo DiCapricorn Cowboy?”<br />
Mel grins.<br />
Pete may have met his match, but not his master...or whatever.<br />
“He rode Stardust, a golden palomino.”<br />
Roy: “Did he stuff it?”<br />
Pete, choosing to ignore Roy, instead studies Mel as if for the<br />
first time.<br />
“I’m impressed.”<br />
“Why? Because I’m a swish?”<br />
“No. ’Cause I never meet nobody—man woman or swish—<br />
knew that much shit about Randolph Scott.”<br />
Mel waves this away as if it’s as unimportant as it actually is.<br />
“Know ’em all, sweetie—raised watching shoot ’em ups. I’m<br />
from Kiss-ass Tex-ass.”<br />
A hint of awe leaks into Pete’s voice.<br />
“You’re from Texas?”<br />
Roy is surprised by the news, too.<br />
“I dint know that.”<br />
“You don’t know much, Roy—” Mel pinches Roy’s cheek<br />
“—but you’re sweet.”<br />
Pete frowns.<br />
“You don’t sound Texan.”<br />
“Thank you—I don’t act Texan, either. Although I like to<br />
screw <strong>one</strong> every now and then. I left home—Waco—when I was<br />
fourteen. Not a fun place for a gay caballero.”<br />
Pete nods as if he understands.<br />
“You like the Sons?”<br />
“The Sons? Hell, I was raised on the Sons. Whenever<br />
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daddy wasn’t drunk and beating on us he used to listen to the<br />
Grand Old Opry. Roy Acuff, Patsy Cline, Ernest Tubb, Hank<br />
Williams—”<br />
Jason rushes into the room.<br />
“The dildo-thingy popped out.”<br />
Mel bats his eyes.<br />
“Then baste and turn off oven.”<br />
Jason perches his left fist on his hip of the same side.<br />
“I ain’t gonna use a fuckin’ baster, uh-uh. Them things weird<br />
me out.”<br />
Mel sighs.<br />
“You boys find your places at the table. Dinner’s almost<br />
ready—we’ll be right out.”<br />
Grabbing Jason by the shoulders, he spins him around and<br />
shoves him along the hall.<br />
Pistol Pete sneaks a peek at Eponymous Roy.<br />
“Well, well.”<br />
He slips off his spangled jacket.<br />
“Yeah.” Roy shucks his yellow raincoat.<br />
Cardboard tents indicate who sits where. Mel has the table’s<br />
head, with Roy on his right and Pete on his left. Rick sits next to<br />
Roy, Jason next to Pete.<br />
“This oughta be amusin’,” opines Pete. He hangs his jacket on<br />
the back of his chair.<br />
Roy scoots in across from him.<br />
“Thanks for comin’, Pete.”<br />
Pete squints at the renunculus wreath on the rim of his plate.<br />
“No problem. I can see why you might not’ve wanted me to.”<br />
Roy shrugs.<br />
“Mel’s OK. Sometimes he can be a little weird’s all.”<br />
Pete shrugs back.<br />
“Hey—he’s from Texas. Gotta expect that.”<br />
Roy nods.<br />
“OK.”<br />
Distracted by <strong>one</strong> of the paintings hanging nearby, Pete<br />
scrapes back his chair and steps around the table for a closer<br />
look.<br />
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In the foreground, a cowboy gallops at full tilt, hat flattened<br />
by the wind, while behind him fingers of lightening reach down<br />
from a black sky and strike into a herd of stampeding cattle.<br />
“It’s not real, of course.”<br />
Mel appears, this time apronless, carrying <strong>one</strong> of the largest<br />
turkeys Pete’s ever seen.<br />
Resting on an enormous silver platter, it is surrounded by<br />
stuffed, baked apples and sprigs of Italian parsley.<br />
“’Course not.” Pete moves towards the table. “Can I hep?”<br />
Roy starts to stand.<br />
“Thanks, no—I’ve got it.” Mel sets the roasted behemoth on<br />
the table’s open range. “There.”<br />
He steps back and admires the view.<br />
Pete gazes upon the perfectly-browned bird.<br />
“It’s real purdy.”<br />
Mel asks,<br />
“The Remington, or the turkey?”<br />
Pete grins.<br />
“Both.”<br />
Mel rubs his hands together.<br />
“Sit, sir. Let the revels begin.”<br />
Jason carries in a large pot of mashed potatoes and a boat of<br />
gravy. Rick follows behind, barely managing a big plate piled<br />
with steaming garnet yams in <strong>one</strong> hand, and a tureen swimming<br />
with lima beans in the other.<br />
It takes the trio three trips for all the food to appear.<br />
Pete’s eyes search each delivered item for signs of something<br />
cranberry.<br />
Finally, Jason sets down the last two dishes—a Waldorf salad,<br />
and a bowl of Chianti-colored berries floating in a crimson pool.<br />
“The cranberry sauce is great-gran’s recipe. She was the first<br />
white woman born in Waco. Her specialty was chasing down a<br />
chicken, wringing its neck, plucking it and frying it to perfection<br />
in under twenty minutes.”<br />
A smile plays with Pete’s mouth.<br />
“A saint.”<br />
Mel studies the table briefly, frowns, then shoots a malefic<br />
look at Rick.<br />
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“Where’s the wine? You drink it all?”<br />
Rick reacts as if stung.<br />
“Fuck, no. Don’t drink that shit.”<br />
Mel glowers.<br />
“See if you can’t keep your fucking potty mouth clean for two<br />
hours—OK? Now go get some godamned wine!”<br />
Rick spins and stalks out of the room, a black cloud trailing<br />
after.<br />
“I want this to be a nice meal, Rick!” Mel speaks to Rick’s<br />
retreating back. “Not a circle jerk.”<br />
Mel takes his place at the table’s head. Every<strong>one</strong> sits. Pete,<br />
pulling in his chair, comments:<br />
“Hard to believe they’re brothers.”<br />
Mel reaches over and pats Roy’s hand.<br />
“My big strong, Holly Golightly.”<br />
Roy’s hand slides into his lap just as his brother stumps back<br />
into the room.<br />
“Here’s your fucking wine.”<br />
He bangs two uncorked bottles of Beaujolais onto the snowy<br />
linen cloth then, dropping heavily into his chair, he stares<br />
balefully into his plate, oblivious of the renunculus.<br />
Mel glugs wine into his stemmed glass, then passes the bottle<br />
around. When all but Rick has a measure before them, he raises<br />
his glass in a toast.<br />
“In the words of Frederic Remington—‘The West is dead.<br />
Long live the West!’”<br />
When bottoms of stemware touch back down onto the<br />
tabletop, Mel asks this of Pete:<br />
“Would you mind saying grace?”<br />
Under his breath, Rick utters his favorite word.<br />
Pete closes his eyes and lowers his chin.<br />
Jason squints his eyes closed and bows his head—the things<br />
learned in childhood—then kicks Rick when he does neither.<br />
Had he not had a childhood?<br />
“Lord—I reckon I’m not much jess by myself. I fail to do a<br />
lot’ve things I oughta do. But, Lord, when trails’re steep an’ pass<br />
is high, help me ride it straight th’ whole way through. An’ in<br />
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the fallin’ dusk when I get th’ final call—I don’t care how many<br />
flowers they send—above all else, th’ happiest trail will be for<br />
You to say to me—‘Let’s ride, my friend’. Amen.”<br />
A smile settles on Mel’s face.<br />
“I’m just so...tickled to have you with us tonight, Pete.” He<br />
turns to Roy. “Thank you, Roy.”<br />
Roy stares into his plate and shrugs.<br />
Roy, who has not the slightest idea what a renunculus is.<br />
“What—” interjects Jason “—ever. Can we eat, now?”<br />
Mel, ignoring the question, raises his glass to Pete.<br />
“May your horse never stumble, your spurs never rust, your<br />
guts never rumble, and your cinch never rust.”<br />
Their glasses touch with a clink.<br />
clink<br />
“Now—” Mel informs a goggle-eyed Jason “—we can eat.”<br />
He looks at fuming Rick.<br />
“Ricky, you think you’re so good with a knife—let’s see what<br />
you can do with a turkey.”<br />
Trapped by his inability to pay rent, seething at Mel and<br />
Roy—especially that old asshole—oh yeah, and Jason for being<br />
such a flaming faggot—he savagely attacks the inert bird.<br />
Within minutes, a once proud, masterfully-roasted turkey is<br />
rendered into a mound of lacerated flesh.<br />
Hands relay bowls and plates of tasty victuals; spoons reduce<br />
levels of beans, gravy, and soup; forks fly; mouths fill with food,<br />
instead of words; wine bottles empty; candles melt; roses wilt.<br />
The human digestive system has limits. The body can absorb<br />
only so much nutrition, then it must stop. Then enzymes must<br />
undertake heroic tasks, and peristalsis strut its stuff. Then acids<br />
must roll up sleeves and set tattooed arms to work.<br />
And, throughout this regimen, men and women alike must<br />
become slaves to lethargy—unzip trousers, loosen girdles,<br />
uncinch belts, belch, fart, yawn and droop.<br />
“What’s for dessert?”<br />
That was Rick’s annoying voice.<br />
The rest of the table lolls and mulls and sprawls and dawdles.<br />
“I told him—” he points to Roy, whose face instantly fills with<br />
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dread “—I told you to bring dessert. Dildo.” Rick shakes his<br />
head in despair. “See what I put up with? I knew you’d fuck it<br />
up, baldy.”<br />
Mel, distrubed from his tryptophan trance, slides his eyes to<br />
Roy. He delivers a smile meant to convey All is Forgiven.<br />
“I want dessert,” bleats Rick. “What’s fuckin’ Thanksgiving<br />
without fucking dessert?”<br />
When Pete raises a hand in objection, Rick twists his face into<br />
a snarl.<br />
That same hand of Pete’s that demonstrated its objection<br />
rummages about inside the fringed, spangled jacket. When said<br />
hand emerges, it holds a plastic-wrapped object. This plasticwrapped<br />
object, tossed, lands on the table before Rick.<br />
Rick’s snarl ebbs and flows into a gape of amazement.<br />
Before him rests a sizeable bag of pot.<br />
In a flash, he snatches it up and unpeels it.<br />
A pungent bouquet suffuses the room.<br />
Rick, salivating, utters his very most favorite word, while<br />
Jason, giggling girlishly, says,<br />
“Fuckin’ A.”<br />
Mel molds his features into a benignant smile.<br />
“You may come to Christmas dinner also, Pete.”<br />
Jason agrees.<br />
“Fuckin’ A.”<br />
Pete flips a box of EZ Widers onto the tablecloth.<br />
It is barely landed—is, in fact, still moving—when Rick seizes<br />
upon it and starts plucking out ricepaper sheets.<br />
Guttering candles flicker in the passing drafts of time.<br />
Mel inhales deeply, shakes himself awake, then stands and<br />
utters a single, two-syllable word.<br />
“Cognac.”<br />
Afflicted by the stiffness of age, he rises and crosses the room<br />
to a corner cabinet where he stands swaying a bit as he digs a<br />
keyring from his pocket. A small key enters into the cabinet’s<br />
ornamental lock and the dark, raised-panel door swings open<br />
to reveal an array of bottles. Selecting a rotund <strong>one</strong> from his<br />
collection, he re-locks the cabinet door and unstably returns to<br />
the table.<br />
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“I have to keep everything of value locked away.” He explains<br />
this as he re-settles into his seat. Uncorking the bottle, he pours<br />
himself a belt. “I have a suspicious character for a housemate.”<br />
He passes the bottle to Pete.<br />
Rick is heedless of this jab, focused as he is on the production<br />
of five white torpedoes.<br />
Pete, poured, passes the bottle to Roy.<br />
Mel looks approvingly upon Roy as he fills his glass.<br />
“I see some<strong>one</strong>’s been broadening Roy’s palette.”<br />
Roy flushes.<br />
“Pete’s been havin’ me over his place, some.” He looks to Pete<br />
as if for approval. “We watch old black-and-whites. Westerns,<br />
mostly.”<br />
Mel is intrigued.<br />
“Mostly?”<br />
Pete picks up the thread.<br />
“I might’ve given th’ lad a dram or two. Can’t rightly recall.<br />
An’ I may’ve rolled ’im a doob once or twice. Wouldn’t surprise<br />
me any.”<br />
Mel chuckles into his glass.<br />
“No <strong>one</strong>’s telling, dear. I say it’s about time. Next thing, our<br />
Royboy will be having sexual congress.”<br />
Roy’s eyes shift nervously.<br />
Jason snorts.<br />
“Yeah, when feral cats line dance.”<br />
“Now, now,” chides Mel. “It’s always the quiet <strong>one</strong>s.”<br />
He presents his glass for Pete and Roy to clink.<br />
“Here’s to old black-and-white Westerns.”<br />
“Skoal.”<br />
“OK.”<br />
clink clink clink<br />
As if gifts from merciful gods—gods placated by clinks and<br />
tinkles—five joints travel around the table.<br />
“Ah,” announces Mel. “The Life.” He tips a candle towards<br />
the slender cylinder between his lips.<br />
Briefly, his face is bathed in saffron light.<br />
Pete sparks off his old Bic lighter.<br />
A lull ensues. Quiet reigns as the group’s higher brain centers,<br />
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lobbied by lower thoughts, swell chest cavities with inhaled smoke<br />
that diffuses across alveolar membranes, pass into pulmonary<br />
capillaries, and stampede st<strong>one</strong>d hemoglobin to brains.<br />
“Fuck.”<br />
This comes, of course, from Rick, master of the monosyllabic<br />
bon mot.<br />
“Shit,” vouchsafes Jason, first runner-up.<br />
Roy—replete from the groaning board, saturated with the<br />
several beverages imbibed, and now thorougly st<strong>one</strong>d—has<br />
nothing of substance to add.<br />
The reigning quiet is interrupted in places by the bark of a<br />
cough or an occasional, monosyllabic expletive.<br />
Mel is the first to make a foray into sentence structuring.<br />
“‘They bought me a box of tin soldiers, I threw all the<br />
generals away. I smashed up the sergeants and majors, now I<br />
play with my privates all day.’”<br />
Rick’s doobie glows.<br />
“Great dessert,” observes Jason, staring fixedly into the<br />
flickering of a candle’s flame. “No trans-fats.”<br />
Roy’s eyes droop.<br />
Pete leans forward and removes Roy’s plate just as Roy’s head,<br />
like an overheavy sunflower, thunks upon the linen-covered<br />
tabletop.<br />
“Almost innocent lamb,” appraises Mel.<br />
While Jason continues to stare into the candle’s flame, Rick<br />
recklessly kicks back his chair and staggers to his feet.<br />
“Fuck.”<br />
He sways as he walks towards the stairs, his favorite word<br />
trailing behind.<br />
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.”<br />
Mel and Pete watch as he ascends, half-crawling, half-drawing<br />
himself upstairs with the aid of a handrail.<br />
Pete shakes his head.<br />
“Kids today.”<br />
Mel hoists the brandy bottle.<br />
“Drinkie?”<br />
Congenial Pete seems well disposed to Proposing Mel’s<br />
proposal.<br />
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Mel, unopposed, pours.<br />
clink<br />
“So what’s up, Pete? Mentoring Roy into manhood?”<br />
Pete shrugs.<br />
“Sorta jess happened’s all.”<br />
Mel farts.<br />
“So did that.”<br />
Pete employs his stemware to indicate Snoring Roy.<br />
“He never hearda th’ Sons.”<br />
Mel shakes his head.<br />
“When he baked you a lasagna, Rick figured you were<br />
bunkmates.”<br />
“Sneaky little Bob Ford.”<br />
“The dirty little coward who shot mister Howard, and laid<br />
poor Jesse in his grave.”<br />
“Necktie party most like in that hombre’s future.”<br />
Mel nods, his attention drifting away.<br />
A st<strong>one</strong>d silence ensues.<br />
The old house ticks and pops.<br />
“So.” Mel, snapping awake, licks his lips. “Big Roy Rogers<br />
fan?” He tries to focus on the flame-flickered Pete.<br />
Pete replies shruggingly, if such a thing is possible.<br />
“Reckon so. Why dy’ask?”<br />
Mel’s thoughts have to make exhausting detours around the<br />
giant holes in his brain.<br />
“Your, uhm—prayer.”<br />
Pete crumples his forehead.<br />
“Yeah? Seemed fittin’. Myself, I don’t do much Bible readin’<br />
these days.”<br />
“Did you ever?”<br />
“Some, once, in th’ calaboose.”<br />
“Did some time?”<br />
Pete nods.<br />
“Nickel.”<br />
He tries not to ignite his nose while relighting his roach.<br />
Mel regards the lighter’s flame.<br />
“So.” His wandering eyes alight upon Roy’s fallen baldness.<br />
“Bet he’s never hearda Hoot Gibson.”<br />
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Pete snorts.<br />
“Or Tom Mix, Gene Autry. Or Leonard Slye.”<br />
Mel’s cognac swirls.<br />
“Who?”<br />
Pete browses the shadowy room.<br />
“Roy Rogers.”<br />
The last trace of Jason’s consciousness toggles off.<br />
He slumps forward, slowed in his decline by Pete’s hand.<br />
Pete slides aside Jason’s plate with his free hand.<br />
“Oh. That’s right. He changed ’is name.”<br />
“That’s th’ Merkin Way,” observes Pete as he eases Jason’s<br />
head down gently onto the tabletop.<br />
Mel cranks up an eyebrow.<br />
“That why JW’s on your belt buckle?”<br />
Jason greets the tabletop with a sigh.<br />
“What d’you remember most ’bout Roy Rogers?”<br />
Mel fills his sinuses with cognac fumes.<br />
“The ranch. The fat guy with the funny voice.”<br />
“Andy Devine.”<br />
“Yeah, yeah, that’s it.”<br />
“So your daddy was a Texan?”<br />
“Daddy was a Texan, I’m a son of a bitch.”<br />
“Dint git along, huh.”<br />
Mel belches.<br />
“He wanted me to be John Wayne. I wanted me to be Dale<br />
Evans.”<br />
“Tough hombre?”<br />
“Made Pecos Bill look like Dick Cavett.”<br />
Pete takes a moment to ponder this.<br />
“Ma?”<br />
“’Till he run her off.”<br />
Sipping Pete commiserates.<br />
“Life shore ain’t nothin’ like in th’ movin’ pitchers.”<br />
“No, no, it sure ain’t.” Mel moistens his lips. “Ever see The<br />
Last Picture Show?”<br />
Impenetrable Pete ignores Mel’s moist, recent question.<br />
Instead, he makes an announcement.<br />
“Man’s gotta have a Code.”<br />
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If <strong>one</strong> can be said to frown with consternation, that is how<br />
Mel frowns.<br />
“You ever been on a horse, Pete?”<br />
Pete parries Mel’s thrust.<br />
“Roy Rogers lived by a Code. Good <strong>one</strong>, too.”<br />
“Boy Scouts live by a Code. Cute <strong>one</strong>s, too.”<br />
“Your pa had a Code, things-ad been different.”<br />
“Pa hadn’t been a sadist, things-ad been different.”<br />
Snoringly, Roy mumbles.<br />
Pete says,<br />
“That boy there.” He points towards Roy’s crown. “Needs a<br />
Code.”<br />
Mel’s head is inclined to agree.<br />
“That boy there needs to get th’ fuck outta Dodge.”<br />
Pete longs for a wooden kitchen match upon which to chew.<br />
“Makes yah say that, Mel?”<br />
“Why, h<strong>one</strong>y—Roy’s never been anywhere, except Seattle and<br />
MONroe.”<br />
“MONroe?” echoes Pete.<br />
“Work Farm. Visit Little Ricky.”<br />
“Not MonROW?”<br />
“No, Pete. Not. ”<br />
Swirling Mel airmails old Pete a kiss.<br />
“The West, sweetie, is g<strong>one</strong>. Fuckin’ been long g<strong>one</strong>. Wild<br />
Bunch? Who the fuck cares? All g<strong>one</strong>, long g<strong>one</strong>.”<br />
Pete, extending his right index finger, taps the side of his<br />
nose.<br />
“Except what’s up here.”<br />
“Boogers?”<br />
“In my head.”<br />
“That where you keep your Code?”<br />
One of Mel’s digits suddenly stabs the air—<br />
“I know what else! Roy’s dog, Bullet. Always wanted a dog<br />
when I was a kid. Wanted a horse, too. And a bra.”<br />
“You remember Dale’s horse, Buttermilk?”<br />
Mel nods.<br />
“Wonder she stuffed it? Wonder she stuffed ’er bra?”<br />
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Pete slides his chair out from under the table in preparation<br />
for sliding himself out of selfsame chair.<br />
He becomes erect.<br />
“Best be headed out, Mel.”<br />
Mel leans forward and stares.<br />
“Pete. I do believe you’re erect.”<br />
Pete slips on his fringed jacket.<br />
“Thanks for th’ grub. An’ th’ talk.”<br />
“It has been a delight.” Mel flattens hands upon the tabletop<br />
and presses himself upward. “By all means go to California,<br />
Pete. Swimmin’ pools. Movie stars.”<br />
Pete’s fringes sway whitely.<br />
“Ain’t nothin’ there fer me.”<br />
“Roy’s museum,” Mel reminds.<br />
Had this fact slipped Pete’s mind?<br />
“Yup.”<br />
“Just a thought.”<br />
“Yup.”<br />
And then those antediluvian snores.<br />
Roy’s snores.<br />
For some reason, he’s begun wearing pink-and-green tie-dyed<br />
Bermuda shorts.<br />
For some other reason—maybe the same reason, who<br />
knows?—so has Pete.<br />
Each grips a glass suitcase filled with snapping and popping<br />
electric eels.<br />
They stand on Mel’s front porch, a Bozo the Clown bop bag<br />
rocking nearby.<br />
Mel squeaks opens the screen door and steps outside. Upon<br />
his head is perched a pith helmet. The remainder of his body is<br />
dressed for safari.<br />
“Boys! You returnin’ the helium pie?”<br />
Pete rests his case and removes several tomatoes from his<br />
jacket’s pockets. He hands these to Mel.<br />
“Keep the change, ma’am.”<br />
Smiling, Mel takes the tomatoes and puts them under his<br />
helmet.<br />
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A car squeals to a stop. The three of them—and Bozo—turn<br />
to look.<br />
Jason sits inside Herbie, the Love Bug. He sticks an enraged<br />
face—his own—out the window, and starts to scream.<br />
“You bitch! You bitch!”<br />
Bozo’s nose glows redly.<br />
A cloud of colorful cockatiels fly past.<br />
Jason grips a gun.<br />
“You’re sleeping with him! You lyin’ bitch!”<br />
Roy is chewing gum, and only hears every other word.<br />
“You’re…with…You…bitch!”<br />
bang bang bang<br />
Mel’s shirt sprouts bloody roses.<br />
His hands fly to protect what’s left of his un-shot self.<br />
bang<br />
A bullet penetrates his right hand, the <strong>one</strong> he had been using<br />
to protect—inadequately—his heart.<br />
“Ow!” cries Mel. “Yah got me!”<br />
He crumbles, tumbles down the steps and onto the shadowpuddled<br />
lawn. Blood stipples the porch. Streaks of red smear the<br />
treads.<br />
“Ow! Ow!”<br />
Jason’s voice:<br />
“Serves you right—fuckin’ Pisces!”<br />
“Ow! Ow! I’m murdered!”<br />
The screen door flies open and Rick flashes past. He slips<br />
in Mel’s blood and lands on his backside beside his fallen<br />
housemate.<br />
“Mel!”<br />
“Rick!”<br />
“I love you, man!”<br />
“Love you too, babe. Bye.”<br />
Mel closes his eyes.<br />
Rick is enraged.<br />
“Fuck! Who did this?”<br />
Mel’s arm lifts and points a bloody finger.<br />
Rick’s eyes follow the length of Mel’s raised arm and sights<br />
dramatically along its bloody finger.<br />
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“You!”<br />
Pete turns and stares at Roy.<br />
“You? You shot him?”<br />
Bozo nods.<br />
Rick stands.<br />
“Thou most murderous villain!”<br />
Roy is chewing gum.<br />
“...most…villain!”<br />
But he gets the drift, does Roy.<br />
“Dint.”<br />
“Did so! You killed him.”<br />
A gun appears in Roy’s hand.<br />
Pete gasps and steps back.<br />
“It was you.”<br />
Rick snaps open a switchblade Samurai sword.<br />
Roy shakes his head, backing along the porch until Bozo’s<br />
nose stops him.<br />
beep<br />
“I dint. I’m innocent. It was Jason—”<br />
Jason sticks his head back outside of Herbie.<br />
“Nah-uh! I saw the whole thing—baldy did it! Kill him,<br />
Ricky! Kill ’im, Roy! Whoo-hoo!”<br />
A somber Pete agrees.<br />
“You better kill ’im ’fore he kills you. Then me. Then all th’<br />
virgins in th’ world.”<br />
Roy transforms into Don Knotts and points a blunderbuss at<br />
Rick.<br />
“But th-th-the eels, Andy—”<br />
“Eels my ass!” Rick advances towards his brother. “You<br />
killed my lover!”<br />
“Tell ’im, baby,” encourages a moaning, murdered Mel.<br />
Roy’s pink-and-green tie-dyed Bermuda shorts are g<strong>one</strong>. In<br />
their place, he wears a classic cowboy rig covered in rhinest<strong>one</strong>s<br />
and sequins.<br />
Just like a real, godamned cowboy.<br />
A silver-banded black hat rests atop his head.<br />
He has grown a mustache.<br />
“Don’t take another step, Bart.”<br />
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Rick takes another step.<br />
“Or another.”<br />
Rick takes another.<br />
“I’m a-warnin’ yah.”<br />
They stand on the porch of the Brown Betty Saloon.<br />
A warm wind whistles, tumbles tumbleweeds along a rutted,<br />
dusty street.<br />
The scent of sagebrush fills the air.<br />
Rick slashes the space between them with his Samurai sword.<br />
blink<br />
It turns into a Winchester rifle.<br />
blink<br />
He wears chaps and nothing else.<br />
blink<br />
He sneers around a handlebar moustache.<br />
“I shot pa through th’ back, now I’m a-gonna shoot you<br />
through th’ front.”<br />
Roy tries to back further away.<br />
beep<br />
Bozo’s nose again.<br />
blink<br />
Mel, wearing a sombrero and sitting astride a burro, bloody<br />
puddles beneath his feet, rolls a joint.<br />
“Jest keel heem so whe can fook won last tyme, hokay?”<br />
Pete, the town drunk, stumbles through the saloon’s swinging<br />
doors.<br />
“Need a hand, marshal?”<br />
A tin star appears on Rick’s bare chest.<br />
“Ow!”<br />
“Not you,” says Pete. “Him.”<br />
The tin star vanishes from Rick’s chest, leaving two red<br />
pinholes.<br />
blink<br />
It reappears, affixed to Roy’s spangled vest.<br />
“Nah.” Roy spits out his gum. “I got ’im.”<br />
“Hey—Roy?”<br />
The murdered Mel again.<br />
“Roy?”<br />
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Roy squeezes his eyes together.<br />
Cold hands do shake the darling boy of clay.<br />
beep<br />
Bozo again?<br />
“Time to get up, Roy.”<br />
Roy’s eyes flutter a moment before opening onto the semidarkness<br />
of the candlelit room.<br />
Mel is standing over him.<br />
“Whu?”<br />
Roy’s lips feel like parchment, although Roy has no idea what<br />
parchment is.<br />
With a groan, he sits up and clears his throat.<br />
Fluids have coalesced at the corners of his eyes.<br />
He knuckles his cornered eyes.<br />
“Whu?”<br />
Behind him, something moves. Could it be a bushwhacker?<br />
Pete’s white fringes sway.<br />
Mel’s eyes look enameled, like cloisonné.<br />
“Up up, Holly.”<br />
“And go,” adds another voice, now wearing a hat.<br />
“Lightly,” concludes Mel.<br />
Can a voice wear a hat?<br />
Fringes whitely sway.<br />
beep! beep!<br />
“Cab’s here.”<br />
Not Bozo’s nose. A cab’s ear.<br />
Pete scoops up his plastic bag of pot and drops it into his<br />
plastic pot pocket.<br />
“Coat, Roy?”<br />
On knees bendy and bowed does Roy stand, arises to find<br />
himself surrounded by death—everywhere he looks is cold, dead<br />
food.<br />
Did he miss dessert?<br />
Did it miss him?<br />
His raincoat appears from enveloping shadows.<br />
Mel helps him into it.<br />
Roy thinks briefly to shield his nipples.<br />
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There is motion; he is ushered along; the sound of rug-muffled<br />
steps.<br />
They pass through the front door. Cool air laves Roy’s face<br />
like the last page of a good book.<br />
A Yellow Cab, lights on and motor running sits waiting, as<br />
does its driver, his head wrapped in what appears to Roy to be a<br />
red towel.<br />
The three of them—candy-assed Candide, old cowboy fart<br />
and gay geezer—clump off the porch and down the steps.<br />
The waiting Yellow Cab driver sees them and smiles<br />
ferociously. Quickly, he exits the cab and rushes forward.<br />
Roy searches the ground.<br />
Where’s all the blood?<br />
The two men are talking.<br />
“—what I said.”<br />
“—I will, hand.”<br />
“—You really should go.”<br />
“—would, weren’t so old.”<br />
Their words make no sense to Rubbery Roy.<br />
The driver’s hands reach out and assist Roy into the Yellow<br />
Cab.<br />
The driver then bows and says,<br />
“There is only One God.”<br />
A door slams. The cab rocks with Pete’s additional weight.<br />
Mel is on the sidewalk, smiling.<br />
A smiling sidewalk.<br />
And a voice that can wear a hat.<br />
Imagine that.<br />
And now there is only One God.<br />
Softly, the driver’s voice speaks into his ear.<br />
“Whosoever controls the mind, he is the true pilgrim.”<br />
Then the smiling Sikh slides behind the wheel.<br />
To be continued...<br />
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<strong>THE</strong> END<br />
OF<br />
VOLUME ONE<br />
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<strong>THE</strong> ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS<br />
Blue Shadows on the Trail Music and lyrics by Johnny<br />
Lange and Eliot Daniel, 1948.<br />
Streets of Laredo (Cowboy’s Lament) Variation of a<br />
nineteenth century Irish ballad, A Handful of Laurel.<br />
Ragtime Cowboy Joe Music and lyrics by Lewis Muir,<br />
Maurice Abrahams and Grant Clarke, 1912.<br />
Don’t Fence Me In Music and lyrics by Cole Porter, 1934.<br />
Pecos Bill Music and lyrics by Johnny Lange and Eliot<br />
Daniel, 1948.<br />
Green Eyed Lady Music and lyrics by Sugarloaf.<br />
Higher Than the World Music and lyrics by Van<br />
Morrison.<br />
Blazing Saddles Music and lyrics by Mel Brooks for the<br />
movie of the same name, 1974.<br />
Red River quotes Written by Borden Chase and Charles<br />
Schnee, directed by Howard Hawks (and Arthur Rosson),<br />
released in 1948.<br />
Back in the Saddle Again Music and lyrics by Gene Autry,<br />
1939.<br />
Tumbling Tumbleweeds Music and lyrics by Bob Nolan,<br />
1932.<br />
QuickDraw McGraw theme From the CBS-TV cartoon<br />
syndicated in 1959.<br />
Happy Trails by Dale Evans, 1951.<br />
Wizard of Oz theme by Harold Arlen, lyrics by E.Y.<br />
Harburg, 1939.<br />
Happy Roving Cowboy by Hank Williams, 1949<br />
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FROM VOLUME TWO<br />
Sentimental?<br />
Is Roy sentimental about leaving Seattle?<br />
Will he miss the street corners where, as a small boy, he was forced into<br />
servitude by his for-the-most-part drunk parents—on the rare occasions<br />
they were around—and made to stand in the cold and wet to beg? Will he<br />
miss walking past the big, green dumpster behind the Odd Duck, where his<br />
brother almost killed him? Will he miss the traffic islands, Yuppie shops,<br />
snotty women, deep-throating lesbians, music stores, Grunge, Microsoft,<br />
Starbucks, Tower Records, the Space Needle, Ivar’s, the Hammering Man,<br />
Safeco Field, the Fremont Troll, Experience Music Project, the downtown<br />
public library, the Alibi Room, Sound Garden, U District, Dick’s Drive<br />
In, Wedgwood, the Floating Bridge, Belltown, Larry’s Market, the PCC,<br />
the Monorail, the Bon Marché, the Arboretum, Chinatown, Chubby and<br />
Tubby’s, Boeing, Woodland Park Zoo, Ballard, Puget Sound, Pike Place<br />
Market, Queen Anne, Lake Union, Kerry Park, Smith Tower, Amazon.<br />
com, Harborview, Nordstrom, Rainier Brewery, or Tully’s—or even his<br />
latest haven, Georgetown?<br />
He won’t know until he finds out.<br />
And he’s bound to find out soon enough as they hike south along the I-5<br />
corridor, not trying to remember, not trying to forget, just trying to leave.<br />
Finally.<br />
Roy is trying to leave Seattle.<br />
Thumb out, chin high, <strong>one</strong> step at a time.<br />
So he is not being sentimental about leaving Seattle. At least, not yet.<br />
Right now all he can think about is this: for the first time in his dull, gray,<br />
monotonous life, he’s doing something adventurous, he’s going somewhere he’s<br />
never been—he’s taking a chance.<br />
Throwing caution to the wind.<br />
Tossing out the baby with the bath.<br />
And all because of his new friend, Pistol Pete.<br />
Or whatever his name is.<br />
And so you might rightly ask: how did this revolution come about? How<br />
did simple, window washing Roy Weston manage to alter his life-long<br />
perceptions, shake up his ordered world and shift paradigms so thoroughly,<br />
and in such a brief span of time?<br />
So, rightly, you might ask.<br />
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The dudleyclark Story<br />
highbrow slapstick<br />
dudleyclark was born ahead of his time and somewhat against his will<br />
in New Orleans, Louisiana, wintertime 1952. His parents failed to be<br />
impressed when he began reading at three. Likewise, they were not much<br />
interested when, at ten, he declared himself a writer. Later in life, he<br />
dropped out not only from high school but also Tulane University where<br />
he vainly attempted to study philosophy––a subject that, ultimately,<br />
rendered him even less employable than he naturally was.<br />
Thus began his years of wandervogel (literally, wandering bird), and his<br />
accumulation of sometimes humiliating, sometimes stimulating, always<br />
excruciating jobs. In his time, he has been––presented here as neither a<br />
complete cataloging, nor in chronological order––a movie projectionist<br />
in a porno theatre, bookstore manager, welder, carpenter, rock ‘n’ roll<br />
roadie, television cameraman, advertising rep., yacht broker, bartender,<br />
waiter, assassin, nightclub manager, deck hand, assistant ranger, private<br />
investigator, building contractor, newspaper reporter, preschool teacher...<br />
and so on.<br />
Amazingly––considering the time-frame of his youthful years––he<br />
managed to avoid the Scylla and Charybdis of alcoholism and drug<br />
abuse, and arrived at middle-life relatively healthy and robust and<br />
capable of completing not only whole thoughts and entire paragraphs,<br />
but books as well.<br />
His first book, monkeydo, proves this point admirably (as does the <strong>one</strong><br />
you hold in your hand). An historical phantasm set in fin de siecle Africa,<br />
it is a comic send-up of the Tarzan story set within the confines of a<br />
pen-and-ink jungle.<br />
“Filled with the calls and cries of unfamiliar birds, along with caricatures, formulaic<br />
plotting and all-too familiar cliches, monkeydo somehow manages to break new ground,<br />
albeit with a very small spade, and provides fresh air to a stale genre.”<br />
—The Charenton Post-Dispatch.<br />
He followed this up a few years later with Apocalyptic Crawfish!, a comic<br />
gem set in the green diadem of rural south Louisiana. AC! not only<br />
convolutes McCarthyism, mutant monsters, homosexual Air Force<br />
officers, and the ’50s dread of eggheads and all things foreign, it also<br />
provides a classic recipe for etouffé.<br />
dudleyclark, a man of some leisure, when not polishing another opus<br />
of post-modern comic primitivism (such as Roy Rogers in the Twenty-first<br />
Century, Vol. 4), can usually be found in a stupor hoeing in the veggie<br />
gardens of his heavily-fortified family estate, “elsewhere.”<br />
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